Icandothis Posted December 18, 2020 Author Posted December 18, 2020 Hello, It has been so long since I have been here. Life has been very confusing. Integrating myself back into my “normal” daily activities has been a challenge. I am emerging into a world that has been extremely impacted by the pandemic; and where I live in PNW, everything is very locked down. Just one breath at a time. We have moved to a new home, a block away. It’s bigger... which my girls really love. But it is still next to a forested area. I again, broke down into tears leaving my old apartment... but then a beautiful rainbow appeared. Picture below. 🥰 Still going to acupuncture. My hands and feet are numb from chemo... this could take a year to resolve. Starting back into my yoga practice! Also practicing daily body scans. Also, I have removed sugar from my diet. All sugars, honey, maple syrup, agave. I really really struggled with this... but now... over a month out I am feeling really really healthy. I have replace all the sugars with spices, turmeric/black pepper/cinnamon and a ton of herbs, basil/thyme/rosemary. So delicious. I miss my very very long hair. I had to cut off 14 inches... and have realized just how attached I was. My resolution for this year is community. Feeling very isolated, and have started to fall into some not so good patterns. At the same time, I feel more than enough. Full of love, life and light. Feeling so so so many things right now. I have missed this forum and hope to be posting more regularly. Edit: I can't find my rainbow picture. Will post soon. Sending joy friends! 6
Amphibian220 Posted December 18, 2020 Posted December 18, 2020 Heart warming to see your message. Stay on the track to recovery and do look for ways to work on important things. I am reading a physical book right now which affords more comfort in managing my time and not being distracted by ads. 2
Bugg Posted December 18, 2020 Posted December 18, 2020 I've just read through your journals and I just wanted to say you are such an inspiration. Stay strong and sending much love and peace your way ❤️ 3
Arthur Posted December 18, 2020 Posted December 18, 2020 I'm so glad to see you posting here. I also had a hiatus from the forum. It's wonderful to hear the good news regarding your health. 🙂 13 hours ago, Icandothis said: I miss my very very long hair. I had to cut off 14 inches... and have realized just how attached I was. It will grow! I'm also growing my hair slowly, hadn't had a haircut in... 4 months? 🙂 It's still pretty short tho, haha 2
Icandothis Posted December 19, 2020 Author Posted December 19, 2020 2 hours ago, gargamel said: I'm so glad to see you posting here. I also had a hiatus from the forum. It's wonderful to hear the good news regarding your health. 🙂 It will grow! I'm also growing my hair slowly, hadn't had a haircut in... 4 months? 🙂 It's still pretty short tho, haha Ahh that’s right.. we’re going to grow our hair together! Glad to see you here. I haven’t caught up on your journal but I hope you are meeting your goals! Have a beautiful day! 3
Icandothis Posted December 19, 2020 Author Posted December 19, 2020 The opposite of addiction is not sobriety; it’s human connection. I love this quote because it is a beautiful reminder about how we are too live in community, to love each other, to need one another. I went to acupuncture today... and my practitioner is so wonderful. He always reminds me what a beautiful soul I am, how I have overcome so much, how it’s ok to be sad. And I have cried so many tears. So so many tears. He says I always look so happy and positive. I gently tell him how hard I grieve. Its really important to share not only the love, but the vast amounts of heartbreak I have been through. Another quote, “ When after heavy rain the storm clouds disperse; is it not they’ve wept themselves clear to the end.” Sending all my love today friends. 4
Jason70 Posted December 19, 2020 Posted December 19, 2020 That first quote is beautiful, i love it so much. Although physically we may be seperated because of COVID, we are still connected in other ways. 2 hours ago, Icandothis said: I went to acupuncture today... and my practitioner is so wonderful. He always reminds me what a beautiful soul I am, how I have overcome so much, how it’s ok to be sad I am glad your practitioner is like this, what an amazing human he seems like! I hope you are doing well and i wish you my best Jason 3
Icandothis Posted December 22, 2020 Author Posted December 22, 2020 Here is a picture of the rainbow over my home that I mentioned. It’s reminders like this.... we are never alone. Starting a 24 hour fast today. I don’t really know anything about fasting... except to not eat. Planning on doing 1 24 hour fast a week. Instead of eating... I will be praying/meditating. Hoping to get clarity and peace regarding next steps. Have a beautiful day friends! 3
Ikar Posted December 22, 2020 Posted December 22, 2020 4 hours ago, Icandothis said: Starting a 24 hour fast today. I don’t really know anything about fasting... except to not eat. Planning on doing 1 24 hour fast a week. Instead of eating... I will be praying/meditating. Hoping to get clarity and peace regarding next steps. I fasted once for a day back in January. I got up late from my bed and realized I hadn't eaten for over 12 hours already, so I rolled with it. The "worst" thing about it was that I found I had no way to relax and that I felt I needed to do something all the time! So I slept for the last hour or two of the fast. The food was tastier afterwards 😄 Good luck! 1
BooksandTrees Posted December 22, 2020 Posted December 22, 2020 Hi! Welcome back. I'm so happy to see you and I was worried you were not well again. Thanks for the kind words. I'm glad you moved and I hope this works out. Looking forward to more of your updates. I agree with human connection being a major proponent in quitting games. Having society is very important. 1
Icandothis Posted January 2, 2021 Author Posted January 2, 2021 Alive Joyful Thankful Happy New Year everyone. 3
karabas Posted February 6, 2021 Posted February 6, 2021 Heya! I hope all is well. Just wanted to drop by and say hi and hope you're doing and feeling great. God bless! 1
Icandothis Posted February 14, 2021 Author Posted February 14, 2021 On 2/5/2021 at 7:49 PM, karabas said: Heya! I hope all is well. Just wanted to drop by and say hi and hope you're doing and feeling great. God bless! Thank you friend so much for coming by. I am feeling very well. How are you friend? Sending love to you.
Icandothis Posted February 14, 2021 Author Posted February 14, 2021 Happy love day to all. Hope everyone is doing really well here. So thankful for this community. Hopefully getting a new job soon... this would be amazing! Last scan was cancer free! Another one this month... hopefully all clear. I’ve become an advocate for young onset colon cancer. Every day I see people in their 20s and 30s come to our community with Stage 3/4 CRC. Hoping to grow awareness and advocacy. #Nevertooyoung Other then that... still living in PNW. Still living in the present... with the joy of each breath. Sending love and joy and health friends. ❤️❤️❤️ 5
TheNewMe2.0 Posted February 14, 2021 Posted February 14, 2021 Happy love day. For some reason I don't see it usually when you post in the daily journals thread. I'll have to just check up on your page each month or something. I was concerned about you. I'm glad you're still here and posting with us. Happy love day. Hope you get a good job soon. Keep trying they're out there somewhere. Congrats on being cancer free. What's PNW? Sending you love back. 1
Icandothis Posted February 14, 2021 Author Posted February 14, 2021 8 hours ago, TheNewMe2.0 said: Happy love day. For some reason I don't see it usually when you post in the daily journals thread. I'll have to just check up on your page each month or something. I was concerned about you. I'm glad you're still here and posting with us. Happy love day. Hope you get a good job soon. Keep trying they're out there somewhere. Congrats on being cancer free. What's PNW? Sending you love back. Hi! That’s weird about not seeing the thread. Still doing well, and I have a support group of 10 other young women who all have the same dx as me. So helpful. 💙 PNW is just Pacific Northwest. Sending joy. 1
Icandothis Posted February 14, 2021 Author Posted February 14, 2021 Life with always have trouble, ups/downs. Doing my best to stay present and grateful. On my walk yesterday looked up to see a woodpecker. 2
TheNewMe2.0 Posted February 15, 2021 Posted February 15, 2021 I'm glad to hear that you have a good support group and are mentoring people too. Sounds like the kind of things that feed your soul and make you feel better. I'm really happy that you made it through and you're doing okay. 1
Icandothis Posted February 28, 2021 Author Posted February 28, 2021 On 2/15/2021 at 7:11 AM, TheNewMe2.0 said: I'm glad to hear that you have a good support group and are mentoring people too. Sounds like the kind of things that feed your soul and make you feel better. I'm really happy that you made it through and you're doing okay. Thank you friend. Your kindness and compassion are a reflection of the beautiful soul you are. ❤️ 1
Icandothis Posted February 28, 2021 Author Posted February 28, 2021 I don’t know where else to write this.. My ex who broke my heart is back. I just cannot believe I am having to deal with him. This was the man, who I was in a relationship with for a year. Then he changed and became distant. I questioned him... but he always said nothing was wrong. It was another year later... that I found out he had been dating someone else. It destroyed me and that is when I began gaming. I know I get to choose who I allow in my life... but it’s so hard; I really felt something so special for him. Continuing to focus on myself and my dreams. I am in a really good place right now... I don’t want to lose how far I have come. Thank you for listening. Sending love. ❤️ 1
TheNewMe2.0 Posted March 2, 2021 Posted March 2, 2021 Thank you. I'm sorry things didn't workout with your ex. That sounds pretty devastating. Doesn't sound like it'd be a good idea to let him back in. Keep on with your dreams, good luck. Sending you love right back. 1
Icandothis Posted July 9, 2021 Author Posted July 9, 2021 Just so grateful. Friends… sending calm, safety and peace. May your day be as beautiful as each and everyone of you are. “The light enters through the broken spaces” 1
Icandothis Posted July 18, 2021 Author Posted July 18, 2021 ***Hi all! I am not able to post pictures anymore? Has this function been removed? **** Thank you so much!
BooksandTrees Posted July 19, 2021 Posted July 19, 2021 On 7/17/2021 at 10:40 PM, Icandothis said: ***Hi all! I am not able to post pictures anymore? Has this function been removed? **** Thank you so much! Tag @stablish
Average_Guy Posted July 23, 2021 Posted July 23, 2021 On 12/18/2020 at 2:28 AM, Icandothis said: Hello, It has been so long since I have been here. Life has been very confusing. Integrating myself back into my “normal” daily activities has been a challenge. I am emerging into a world that has been extremely impacted by the pandemic; and where I live in PNW, everything is very locked down. Just one breath at a time. We have moved to a new home, a block away. It’s bigger... which my girls really love. But it is still next to a forested area. I again, broke down into tears leaving my old apartment... but then a beautiful rainbow appeared. Picture below. 🥰 Still going to acupuncture. My hands and feet are numb from chemo... this could take a year to resolve. Starting back into my yoga practice! Also practicing daily body scans. Also, I have removed sugar from my diet. All sugars, honey, maple syrup, agave. I really really struggled with this... but now... over a month out I am feeling really really healthy. I have replace all the sugars with spices, turmeric/black pepper/cinnamon and a ton of herbs, basil/thyme/rosemary. So delicious. I miss my very very long hair. I had to cut off 14 inches... and have realized just how attached I was. My resolution for this year is community. Feeling very isolated, and have started to fall into some not so good patterns. At the same time, I feel more than enough. Full of love, life and light. Feeling so so so many things right now. I have missed this forum and hope to be posting more regularly. Edit: I can't find my rainbow picture. Will post soon. Sending joy friends! Hey, I'm also trying to find a good community for me this year as well. All while going off sugar, which also includes some carbohydrates for me. I'm super sensitive at the moment. Wishing you the best on your journey. 1
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