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I am quite predictable, if I don't post here for 3+ days, It's very likely I'm gaming again. I don't know why I keep repeating the same pattern of giving up, then fighting back, working hard, relaxing after the deadline and giving up again. Like an endless nightmare. I uninstalled XCOM again, deleted the week-old travian account and got my ass to the uni again after gaming for 2 more days. Hopefully, I can come back successfully and maybe even pass both courses. I would say that I'm fucked now, but after I managed to make it the last time, I have some hope for this situation.  I really want to change guys. I still have sooo much potential it's crazy. If I could just stop killing my brain off for a week every two weeks that would be great.

The basic Design is finished 😄 Next on the list will be to draw a dynamic pose of the character which shows it's personality.

Day something (probably 53) Spent the weekend at the mountainside with family and friends. I learnt that my cousin has abandoned his smartphone and gaming consoles because he thinks they are no good. At age 13. I am so happy about him. It was great fun just cleaning off all the dust that had accumulated. The place we stayed at used to be my grandfather's personal workplace.   This has been the longest I have come without playing video games, but I don't feel like that really makes a change. I spend most of my days in front of my computer, mindlessly entertained. Being in front of the screen puts me in a certain dazed state, and it does not feel nice.

Update 6th day! Wow. What a progress. It's  been days of all kinds of new different learnings. From listening to business approach podcasts to studying new courses that will help me define who I am.  I will have lunch after writing and today I will visit the doctor for a treatment on my feet (nothing serious, just a small skin problem). After that I will continue with walking outside for 1 hour (at least 6000 steps). Further tonight after dinner I will go do my new sports, volleyball! Very excited for that. I bought cloths yesterday and I am really looking forward to get this teamplay sports going which is also good for my body exercise wise.  Also I have started the 30 day challenge by Game Quitters but I will just keep it short:
For day 1 one of the things I had to do as a starter mission was to find out how many days you have left to live (expectedly) in order to put some pressure on the importance on spending time in your life. My life expectancy is 80.5 years. I ended up calculating the remaining days and as of writing this I have got 19837 days left to spend my time wisely on. Good to know! Looking forward for more missions, secretly hoping for challenges! I promised I would give an update on the chestnuts. My, they are DELICIOUS! Sweet and roasty flavour as I have roasted them in a pan. Chestnuts are not that high in carbs but the carbs are good carbs and it contains more Vitamin C than any other nut. It also contains B11 and folic acid which is excellent for growth of babies while pregnant. Enjoy your day! Make it last.

Today I will not play video games because they would take me out of the present moment.