Amphibian220

I think stressors like these can make you stronger if you don’t put too much pressure on yourself. Overpressure can hurt your health. “Placing a system in a straitjacket of constancy can cause fragility to evolve” C S Holling. I think healthy stressors have to reinforce your different aspects. In this kind of scenario you fought fear of not passing, overpowered your habits, revised material, increased your memorization ability. Another necessary stressor for all of us is the physical. Something like a cold shower or a workout that mimics survival mode. But Unfortunately, society aims to eradicate that and puts immense efforts to that effect. It aims to replicate its own function within its subjects. People must be as passive as possible, their conversations and interests dictated by popular media, never questioning the foundations of society. Society can’t accept another Napoleon in our midst. Way too dangerous. But that way we will become too fragile. I'm psyched, way to go man!

Hope your mother gets better, Is swimming part of your fitness routine? I found from a range of articles that a well thought out swimming therapy can help with most back problems. I want to start swimming, but am worried about swimming in a public swimming pool due to the Covid endemic.

Could you draw a chart of how good your revision went over the last week? Maybe that will help to identify leverage points for you to use? Fear of not passing makes it harder for you to memorize. But then any exam is designed for a successful pass if the student puts a reasonable effort in. Also are your health reinforcing activities not being sacrificed for studying? Kind regards

How is the respawn program going?

What is it that breaks your plan about what you wanted to do? With me, i get that feeling of “its too boring to do the same thing every day” but then I remember that iterating an activity helps to make it more fun. This is what video game companies do to sell same games. My current job has zero client contact. Its all administrative tasks which can get boring, but I noticed people joke with each other to keep it interesting. Also the “how can I get the same tasks done with less stress” can do wonders for me.

Great stuff Matt. Consistency is key here. People tend to relapse because the results don’t come quick enough. I had to accept that positive results would come about from small 1 % improvements each day. Half a year later and I was impressed with sustained changes for the better. Wish you all the best.

So in your case gaming is a time filler and a form of stress relief. Have you found any activity that is as good a stress relief like that game? What are the criteria to serve your needs, get your mind off your daily schedule?

Ok. When the going is tough, actions however small are important in this situation. I think difficult times present us with an opportunity of instituting changes, seeing something that we have always overlooked because we were too preoccupied. Its a strange part of (complacent) nature that in the absence of difficulty, people assume that their trajectory is leading them to success. I want to act in a better way, today and now without any prompt of an external event.

I am not self employed, but can offer a book that relates to personal development and helps in this regard: Atomic habits. There is a story about the British cycling team that could never win anything in international championships until they changed the man in charge. The new manager did something like 1 per cent incremental improvements in various areas of training, selection criteria, morale, funding. Whenever it appeared that they achieved the maximum point, he’d find a method to improve the overall performance even more. They then dominated that sport for many years. In my job I can remember how ridiculously slow my work was in the beginning. A lot of unnecessary operations, misspent money and effort. I’d drop out if i didn’t actively look for ways to increase valuable output without stressing myself.

So how is it going? Have you started job searching?

@Booksandtrees Have you witnessed a change in the environment during your term there? Was the communication like that from the start or did it deteriorate over something? I have paid a visit to my former employer and turns out she has enrolled on a postgraduate course. She told me she was tired of her work because it gets super intensive and its hard to go on for years in that kind of environment without learning much in the way of new skills. On another note: I was driving in the rain right now and saw something really cool: A guy driving his bicycle on the motorway. He was wearing only a pair of fitness shorts and was soaking wet head to toes. He looked at me for a brief moment and that guy just didn’t care about the rain. He was the happiest man in the world. He didn’t look silly, he looked tough and mean. In fact he was enjoying the breeze while doing his favourite thing. To heck with dreams, I’m going to go shadow box in the rain!

Interesting to read your entries. I keep seeing that you are “hedging” your interests by making sure that one activity/attachment doesn’t define you. You are pursuing multiple objectives at any one time. I still fall prey into sacrificing some activities in order to pursue my main one (work). Your approach generates better results because you enter the negotiating table with more bargaining power than you otherwise would. Most young people perceive bank accounts as the sole saving facility, but you took the time to learn about other types and so on. Your planning must be on a good level since you are able to simultaneously develop multiple aspects and skills. I think I could certainly use a more advanced diary than a simple list of to-do activities each day. Recently I read the beginning of Barack Obama’s book and this is what I gathered: 1) people get drawn into little superficial things in politics that obstruct the real underlying issues. 2) when you don’t exercise your rights, your superiors assume that you are waving them.

Emotions are very tough to deal with. Sometimes i wonder if i should pre plan my dialogue regarding a subject to make sure I don’t go off course. was your weight loss intended?

I can suggest a number of books: 1) Atomic Habits by James Clear Most people interested in changing their way of life don’t have any bearings on the psychological nuances. This book gives those bearings to the reader (not necessarily a gamer) in a very clear and practical way and enables him to see the cost. Atomic habits is a great piece of work, it will put you on the spot immediately by making your subconscious impulses evident to you, and by explaining to you what works in dropping bad habits and what doesn’t. 2) Power of habit Similar work to Atomic Habits but more technical on psychological issues. The following two books will shatter beyond repair the wishful thinking of any emasculated western subject (not implying you are such): “No more mr nice guy” by Glover ”Death of Ivan Iliytch” classic by Leo Tolstoy. This second book was hard to read for me. It tells a story of a man who is constantly trying to fit The values that society imposes on him and goes to ridiculous lengths to achieve that. He then loses the plot entirely and seems just to be racing to make more money. Nothing else really matters at that stage. It sort of just voids his life entirely of any meaning and closer towards death he is suffering morally for having turned away from honesty and sincerity with himself. P.S. Fight it man, your striving is not in vain.

@Ikar I’m rereading James Clear yet again and took notice of his rule of thumb: if something presents you with immediate enjoyment here and now, almost always it is going to lead to a bad outcome in the long term. And vice versa, activities associated with difficulty here and now are going to lead to great results in the long term. I wonder if there are any examples that contradict this hypothesis but I haven’t found any. In fact this hypothesis changes my attitude whenever I come back to it. Revising for exams is feeling fun now! Edit: I think self-accountability and journaling are the greatest tools for becoming honest and developing a unique character. Nothing helped me more than that in the last ten or so years.