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  1. 28 April 2021, Day 23 Felt like shit today. Detoxing from some supplements pretty hard. On my way home I thought, what's stopping me from gaming right now in this moment, when my body/mind are hurting; why not? Then I remembered a lesson I learned the last few times I relapsed and started to game. Gaming releases a ton of dopamine and simulates a chaser effect that makes you seek other high dopamine activities, aka PORN. I really feel like I have every excuse to game some days, if you've read some of my posts you might know. But the one thing I care more about quitting gaming
  2. 22 April 2021, Day 17 Feelin' a little more motivated the last 2 days. I just set up a calendar in my room to do 5 months, or about 150 days of 10 minutes of yoga and 10 minutes of meditation everyday. "Sometimes the greatest challenges are the ones we take up on a whim." I really believe this is going to help me in more ways than one. On all other fronts, still makin' progress.
  3. I'm not taking any psychotropics, I've pretty much completely stayed away from any sort of big pharma approach to health. They seem like a temporary band aid for a problem that goes a lot deeper. I even avoid antibiotics while I can, unless it's super serious. I started having this problem when I went vegetarian for around 6 months after being diagnosed with too much iron in my blood. I have a doc visit in 2 days, so hopefully I can get some answers or solutions. *fingers crossed*
  4. 17 April 2021, Day 12 Yoo, I feel like I haven't updated in a hot minute. So far, I'm doing pretty good. Haven't had any urges or anything. My biggest concern at the moment is staying productive. I have been watching a good amount of television, and I have all the tools and knowledge of how to be productive, but when it comes down to starting some -more difficult- tasks, I'm struggling. My doc said I should be having a breakthrough pretty soon, but I'm trying not to have my hopes up too much. This weeks been tough because I've been having problems with my appetite/hunger.
  5. Yeah, I am trying to make sure that doesn't happen. That would be devastating.
  6. 11 April 2021, Day 6 @TheNewMe2.0 That's actually great advice. Plus, I keep comparing myself to other people, like being in a class with a bunch of freshman as a 28 year old. It's fine if I do things at my own pace. I've been able to start going on short runs which I haven't been able to do in 3ish years. It feels so good, but I don't want to push myself too hard yet. I can see myself getting pretty addicted to working out and running again which is a good addiction to have. It just felt amazing. T minus 1 month and 1 week til summer school!
  7. 8 April 2021, Day 3 Yoo. Just got home from a Trivia night at a coffee house/bar with a friend of a cousin that I got connected with. It was pretty fun and the weather was perfect outside. I have work tomorrow, but I'm trying to piece together a skill/hobby that I can work on while I'm taking classes. It's looking l'm going to have to do 4 years to get a degree in Interior Design. The only credits that transferred were for my gen-eds, which kinda sucks. But oh well.
  8. 5 April 2021, Day 1 @TheNewMe2.0 Rooting for you man. I know your situation is tough as well, but there are upsides to crutches as well. It's a good conversation starter and women love helping out a guy in need! (I think?) Make sure to have a pic of you with crutches because it's a good visual for part of your story. Deleted all the games again and starting fresh on day 1. They became boring pretty fast. When I first went to college, I outgrew gaming. By now you guys know that I used it as a crutch when I lost my health. But, I feel like I'm getting back to that old me that ne
  9. 4 April 2021, Feelin' mad decent today boys. Had to work on Easter unfortunately, but I have lunch with a friend of my cousins from NY this week and school starts in a little over a month. I'm also have a good healthy energy going today. I just know I have great health on the horizon. It just feels like things are falling into place. As soon as I get to a good place health-wise, I really want to take on some difficult projects. I've just been through so much difficulty, I feel like I can handle so much more now. Like my bandwidth for life has increased.
  10. @TheNewMe2.0 Just wanted to thank you for your post about forgiveness. Reading that pushed me to make amends with my mother and our relationship has since been healed. 🙂 In other news: I will be starting a fresh streak in roughly a weeks time. I'm also hoping to get the OK from my doctor to start lifting again soon. I'd love to upload some progress pics along the way. Talk to you all soon.
  11. 30 March 2021 Welp. I've had some revelations, some insights and a bit of a change that I wasn't expecting to come so fast. First, and this ones a bit of a bummer.. but this past cycle (back onto the heavy detox medicine) hasn't been nearly as bad as I thought it would be. In fact, I would say it's been going great and I've been feeling about 85% strength/capacity instead of the 20-30% I was at on the last cycle. I'm not that disappointed that I failed. I had a really good streak, along with nofap. Honestly, one of the best streaks for doing both I've had in a while and I
  12. 26 March 2021 I saw a really interesting tweet this morning by Lex Fridman. "What matters most is how well you walk through the fire." In other words, when you're going through hell, how do you handle it. How do you carry yourself. I most definitely have lots I could improve on when I'm going through hellish circumstances. Could I have avoided a relapse? Yes. Is it far, far more difficult when undergoing medical treatments and recovering from deep health issues. Yes. But, does that mean it's impossible? No. At the end of the day, I hate to say this, but, I use lack of h
  13. I appreciate the post Po. Unfortunately yesterday I relapsed with MO, didn't look at porn. But then to chase that depression I gamed. Yes, it's a bit disheartening that I messed up. But the real thing that's eating at me is my health. I've been in a war for almost 10 years on the dot in a few months. I just want to be able to live a normal life and do normal things again. I had a neighbor that wanted to take me out for dinner because he's moving, and I didn't have the heart to tell him that I literally can't eat out because of all the restrictions I have on my diet. I can't drink a
  14. Day 58, March 20, 2021 Everything's still going OK. Urges are coming and going, but I'm still having some pretty unpleasant 'detox' symptoms as I take these supplements, which is making things tough. Don't know a lot to say at the moment, just trying to hang in there.
  15. Day 56, March 2021 @TheNewMe2.0 This helped so much man, thanks for the advice to keep forgiving! Been a lot of ups and downs this week. I'm not sure if it was a flatline, or my brain recovering in a way I don't understand, but I was definitely off all week. I feel fine right now, but I don't know what tomorrow will bring. I really was thinking about gaming. I envisioned what it would look like to go back, how I could potentially make a career out of it with my incredible (jokes, but I'm not bad) editing and storytelling skills. I looked at all the upsides... Then I tho