Ikar

Day 118: I felt a bit smashed for the whole day. I managed to push through though and have a good day. I went outside and wrote. Tomorrow: Podcast GQ, walk 2-3, write to people, cook, book+write, laundry, GRS.

Day 117: Nothing overly special today. Mom called, some emails, cooking. Gonna take a late walk now, just because the day would not be complete without it.

Listening to your podcast reminded me of your journal! I call you out, Mr. Good! 😄

Day 116: Pretty much the same as yesterday, though I did not wish my father happy birthday. I managed to listen to @James Good podcast ep. 1 and took some notes in the evening. "What gets measures gets managed." is a great quote!

Day 115: After work, I went outside, thought of some cool ideas for stuff to do at home, wrote to people and wished my dad happy birthday., I will need to take some time, perhaps a day or few to sort out everything I want to do once I am back home.

Day 114: Back to work for me after the weekend. I was setting up some bank stuff, wrote to a few people, called with parents and watched Two Diners by Peterson again to crank me up. After that, I went outside to lie for a bit to think and cooked a chicken. I intently lied in my speech today after a long time. It was the sort of lie where you are too careless at first, forget to do something, lie about it and go fix it immediatelly after that in no time flat, to not be too much of a bastard. I am vigilant.

Day 113: I spent the morning in the bed, practising NEOs. I feel ambivalent, perhaps a bit confused, as I do not actually know what do I promise from a no-fap, whether partial, full or none at all. Later on, I was reading and on the internet. I cooked lunch, took a break and went for a walk to a church, where there is also a golf course. I was collecting golf balls for about an hour, but then I went back as there were too many and nobody to return them to on the weekend. I will go there once my employment on the pig farm ends.

A teacher! I am teaching English part-time. It is fun getting people involved and perhaps even giving a damn about what are you on about 😄

Day 111: OK, I guess a long silence was a long entry yesterday. After work, I have been researching some stuff and wrote an email, then I tried to meditate by counting breaths (which was difficult) and then I fell asleep early. Day 112: I had a day off today, so we hitch-hiked to Reykjavik with one companion. One of the drivers was a teacher and I remember two things from him: passion and patience. Though I know delaying is no bueno, I will have a day off tomorrow as well and I will have an easier time writing too, as I feel somewhat out of focus now.

Day 110: After work, I went outside, wrote to friends and saw a dead baby whale that got stranded on the coast nearby. I have been thinking of writing a longer entry, tomorrow I will do that.

Day 109: I got some good food today! I also bought a flight ticket, so in less than a month, I will be home.

Day 108: Ordinary day at work. I visited the Icelandic guy and hung out with him. We also exchanged some food!

I agree with making a change. In retrospect before I quit gaming, I can say I had a ton of issues that I am currently trying to become aware of and slowly untangle. I talk to and listen to people more. The fun fact about people is that we never really know ourselves in the present. Anyhow, go for it. As if your life was at stake which it is!

Day 107: Nothing overly relevant today. Worked, walked, talked. Gonna have a small drink in the evening, as it is my birthday today 🙂

Also, nofap starting tomorrow, till the end of Iceland. It will be at least a bit over a month. Time to get serious!