So this week I finally got the verdict on my ADHD assessment and it resulted in a diagnosis called combined moderate ADHD. It means that I have both the inattentive and hyperactive characteristics, and that it has a substantial impact on many aspects of my life. It didn't surprise me honestly, as I've come to realize through my therapy sessions that there were many signs over the years. It's honestly a relief to have a final answer to this question now. I look forward to getting to know myself better and to find the right tools to deal with addiction, depression, exhaustion and various other related issues.
No doubt this has played a major part in my affection for video games. As I have a combination of autism and ADHD both of these have gained something from me being absorbed by the digital world. Games have been the ultimate arena for logic, structure, reward and constant wonder and exploration. These are things I seek in my everyday life and that makes me stay motivated, and it's not hard to see how video games could provide a concentrated form of this experience.
Going forward I will apply for habilitation with an initial focus on addiction, as this has become such a big part of my behavioral patterns. I truly want to learn how to do things in moderation, if there even is a chance. If not, then I will focus on making strategies for a better life in a completely different sense. I have to realize that I might have to give up things, as with video games, since the cost of trying just outweighs the point of it all. I've never discussed this with a therapist in relation to ADHD so I hope it will lead to better guidance and a greater understanding of myself. I'm staying hopeful!
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WilderDaze ·
