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Monday morning, day 20: I was eager to come online here to discuss a local news article I read yesterday about imminent civilisational collapse (lol), but as @Yan already mentioned, I also kept getting redirected to a clothing website instead of GQ. Maybe because this is an important place for everyone trying to keep away from tech/game addiction, I thought of the worst case scenarios concerning the forum. I spent some time reading (and scrolling - text-based posts) elsewhere instead.  ^ For example, a bit of the 'Surrounded by x/y' theory by Thomas Erikson. The article I read, I could have happily dismissed as controversy/stimulation-hungry 'Yellow' behaviour, saved only by the bravery/courage of questioning everything and everyone - not exactly a new idea. As I often say, my own values changed very little. But how to think? Well, if I could control the visual pleasure of seeing a strikingly blue car (The Simpsons -'not easily impressed' 😄) while out and about, maybe I would, but I'd rather give it the several seconds it deserves (like other things/thoughts) and act accordingly if it's actually a big deal for me and those whom I've spent time with.  Last night and the night before, I had detailed gaming dreams. One included being awarded 'the rarest loot', and the decision of whether to share it, before waking up (because it didn't matter). The disturbing part was imagining what it would be like to literally pick up the shape of the item in my hand (it looks like a boomerang in two-dimensional). That particular item only ever held monetary value in my eyes, but still.  I also had to self-motivate big time to get to the gym yesterday (Sunday), but it was worth it just to stretch and leg press for awhile. Clinical, and probably a near-best as well. I just couldn't make the trip out feel 100% positive, somehow. At least I beat most of the anxiety. There will be a similar and significant test to try and overcome later today. I aim to do what I can and report back. Edit: I went to test the environment early before I was due, and I mostly received bad signs and then primal discomfort. It often crosses my mind, wondering where forcefulness/aggression would get me for minor roadblocks, but I didn't even get that far today. So I turned back home, and found a neighbour out front, whom I talked with/listened to for awhile, and whom assured me that 'in this climate', I should focus on personal happiness. Today was a kind of health check-up I'd scheduled, but more for a certain physical mystery to be solved. I think the revelation finally was that I simply don't care enough. I keep saying that I've lived my best already, and accept that no matter what I do, someone's going to say that it isn't enough. Almost best to live like a burden to official systems, until natural strengths prevail/are deemed necessary - because instinctive reactions to it don't seem to work while I am a minority. What I won't do is tell other people that their heads are out-and-out wrong. I will continue to show compassion and forgiveness. Gratitude: ~ I got so 'bored' that I read over my amateur, fictional novel-to-be. However, I knew that getting into it yesterday would drain a few hours, and I went outside instead. Maybe this week. ~ Breakfast juice ~ I read to the end of Harry Potter 6, but recognised the sadness of its ending, and follow-through to the last book, and have paused. One person online called the last book(s) a 'cash grab'. Such raw cynicism isn't healthy, is it? There are many good things about each of the stories in the series too.  ~ Waking up feeling clear-headed this past weekend

Nope, I had that too since 24 hours ago - first time back successfully through PC browser. Plus the GameQuitter homepage usually comes up first despite entering the forum link directly. 😮 

Entry 27.7 Weeks until average life expectancy: 2768 (80th birthday) Day 193: No Useless Videos Day 1025: Sticking to Food schedule Day 628: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 6: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well, no matter how small  - Long morning jog - 74m of pure watch time of "aprobado a la primera" - 3 pomodoros  1 Thing I could do better - Make a profile on WG gesucht, so that people may also make offers to me and not that I only have to actively search Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5 Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 195

Entry 26.7 (Posted on 27.7 for technical reasons but written on 26.7) Weeks until average life expectancy: 2768 (80th birthday) Day 192: No Useless Videos Day 1024: Sticking to Food schedule Day 627: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 5: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well, no matter how small  - Afternoon workout - about 1.5 of pure watch time of "aprobado a la primera" - 3 pomodoros  1 Thing I could do better - Make a profile on WG gesucht, so that people may also make offers to me and not that I only have to actively search Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5 Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 194

@wheatbiscuit Am I the only one who gets redirected to a website with gowns when I click some links here?