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Food schedule update 17.2 - 5.3 Changes: 1. 1 Added cucumber at dinner to see how it affects sleepiness. 2. 10g brazil nuts interchanged with 10g almonds Why is it important to have the food schedule planned until Thursday? So that I may use a light jog to go to store instead of wasting an opportunity for a 75% one. I would also like to carry it myself, despite the distance, and not look for a hitchhike next week. So I'll need to consider waking up quite early if I want to pull that off, so that I'd be at the store at 07:00, then have two meals at that day, because the purchase shall take at the very least an hour. Also when I am in DM, get the groceries I need there for a month, so that next purchase I can just go to Aldi and Kaufland. One shop less. Btw. If I decide in these two weeks to assemble my bike, it may not be needed to carry the things on foot. However, I'd still like to be there at 07:00, after recycling already P.S. If I see the cucumber doesn't help, the next step might be reducing half of dinner and spreading it throughout the other meals(then spreading dinner completely)(Also probably need to omit potatoes at some point). I shall give myself a week to try it out. 19.02-26.02. and update on the 26.02 whether the next step is needed. *Also, any additional changes are allowed until the end o Monday in case I forgot something

Food schedule update 17.2 - 5.3 Changes: 1. 1 Added cucumber at dinner to see how it affects sleepiness. 2. 10g brazil nuts interchanged with 10g almonds

Entry 17.2 (Written on 18.02 night) Weeks until average life expectancy: 2738 (80th birthday) Day 394: No Useless Videos Day 1228: Sticking to Food schedule Day 79: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 84: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well, no matter how small -Morning jog -5 German units. -Bought additional cucumbers to try adding to dinner and see if it helps stay awake until the designated time 1 Thing I could do better -Order a sim twice more... 3 Separate meals (or less but without combining any of the three) and 3 hrs 45 minutes in between at least. Day 45 Fell asleep earlier than scheduled - 25 Going to sleep in 1 bulk without falling asleep immaturely in an unplanned manner - 20 Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5 Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 402

139/180 GameQuitters/StopGaming I hope we are all still going strong, one day away from day 140! 1/90 Gym+DietStreak (PB: 4 days) 47/90 SleepStreak 58/90 PornFree 72/365 NoAlcohol

Entry 16.2 (Written on 17.02 night) Weeks until average life expectancy: 2738 (80th birthday) Contributed this week to life´s purpose as I see it: -German studies -3h 45m in ebtween meals -Daily workouts Could be done to move faster to lifes purpose -Weekly timeplan Day 393: No Useless Videos Day 1227: Sticking to Food schedule Day 78: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 83: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well, no matter how small -Afternoon workout -9 German units. -Washing bedsheets 1 Thing I could do better -Order a sim once more... 3 Separate meals (or less but without combining any of the three) and 3 hrs 45 minutes in between at least. Day 44 Fell asleep earlier than scheduled - 24 Going to sleep in 1 bulk without falling asleep immaturely in an unplanned manner - 20 Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5 Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 401

138/180 GameQuitters/StopGaming Quick check-in again, non-gamers! Until tomorrow! 1/90 Gym+DietStreak (PB: 4 days) 46/90 SleepStreak 57/90 PornFree 71/365 NoAlcohol

Entry 15.2 Weeks until average life expectancy: 2739 (80th birthday) Day 392: No Useless Videos Day 1226: Sticking to Food schedule Day 77: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 82: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well, no matter how small -Long morning jog -9 German units. -Staying up without premature sleep day 3 1 Thing I could do better -Order a sim? 3 Separate meals (or less but without combining any of the three) and 3 hrs 45 minutes in between at least. Day 43 Fell asleep earlier than scheduled - 23 Going to sleep in 1 bulk without falling asleep immaturely in an unplanned manner - 20 Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5 Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 400

Day 136/180 AND 137/180 GameQuitters/StopGaming My sincerest apologies for missing yesterday, but we're still in the game (of life!) 1/90 Gym+DietStreak (PB: 4 days) 45/90 SleepStreak 56/90 PornFree 70/365 NoAlcohol

I would consider selling it or bringing it back to the store. Eliminate the need for discipline. It is frustrating to have a temptation in front of your nose and reachable... Agreed No-one knows. It is what makes it so exciting! If it were obvious you wouldn't be proud of yourself for accomplishing it. I do however really suggest you just give the PS5 back to the store or give it away to someone o sell in second-hand(Better one of the former though, because they're quicker)

Entry 14.2 Weeks until average life expectancy: 2739 (80th birthday) Day 391: No Useless Videos Day 1225: Sticking to Food schedule Day 76: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 81: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well, no matter how small -Afternoon workout -9 German units. -Staying up without premature sleep day 2 1 Thing I could do better -Stick to just washing the dishes within the timeframe, instead of getting carried away with the freeing up of "no-one's" shelf in the fridge. What's more important is the German studies, to which I could have possibly added two more units... 3 Separate meals (or less but without combining any of the three) and 3 hrs 45 minutes in between at least. Day 42 Fell asleep earlier than scheduled - 23 Going to sleep in 1 bulk without falling asleep immaturely in an unplanned manner - 19 Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5 Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 399

I'm using the template I used the last time. 3/1/26 - 14/2/26 "L" will stand for the (last) plan/notes for this term. "T" will stand for done this term. I added "Future goals/direction" to better reflect on the things I am trying to do and to add specificity. I will copy it and stick it somewhere where I can see it to remind myself whenever I feel aimless. I will also use different colors: blue for newly added goals/habits, green for completed/successful, orange for ongoing/some progress and red for ones I haven't worked on in that period. Books/Reading articles/Learning: L: Finished "The Richest Man in Babel" and "The Pleasure of Finding Things Out" by Feynman. T: I had a good string of finished books in autumn, unfortunately I managed to kill my momentum by reading a book that wasn't up my alley. Regardless, I've read dozens of articles from the White Coat Investor website and Morgan Housel's book - "Psychology of Money". All this had a practical effect of me making an investment plan (!). I've invested my money consistently for the past five years, but I've never really set any goals, except not to gamble and pay unreasonable fees. Suffice to say, I already have enough savings to last several years, perhaps a decade on my current spending levels. I also added some milestones to celebrate on the way; it least I'll have a reason to perhaps spend some more money on fun stuff! Possible direction/goals/habits: (Borrow) and read one book until the next monthly report. Read daily (a few times a week). Reading (and crosswords) are a good way for me to relax. Drop a book whenever I don't look forward to reading it. CHECK HERE EVERY MONTH. (While this is technically just a hobby, I like to keep it separate, because it's a big one.) Family: L: There were two pretty serious incidents regarding my grandma this past month. There was more nuance to it, but in both cases, she fell down in her flat and couldn't get up. Oddly enough, I was the one to detect both incidents just by calling her (she didn't pick up) and then alarming my parents, who live a few minutes by car from her. My grandma has a few neighbors who visit her and my mom visits her a few times a week as well, but I'm thinking it might not be enough. I had a burger with my brother and his girlfriend and I also met my parents yesterday. T: My mom and I had to go to the hospital with my grandma at the start of January. We installed some flat improvements to help her get around and also a new washing machine. She also gets daily visits from health keepers and various other assistants, so I am happy my mom doesn't have to carry most of the brunt anymore just by herself. My grandma is (unsurprisingly) opposed to going to an assisted living facility. I really have no idea to what extent she needs help, but granted she can't climb into the bath to shower herself, it's hard to argue she doesn't need any. It's frankly difficult to visit her, when the apartment smells like urine. I honestly don't know how long this can last and whether it makes sense to hope that it will get better in the future. Other than that, my mom had a birthday celebration and I also met my brother for sushi. NOT: I don't want to get alienated from my family. Possible direction/goals: Work on getting the new kitchen for my grandma. Continue work on maintaining the relationships with my family. Keep in contact at least once a month. Business/English: L: I did my biannual questionnaire with my students, but this time I changed my approach and gave the students the option not to do it. I also carved out the 1000-1300 time for myself. Had a end-of-the-year taxes meeting to inform myself and to optimize. My latest group course has been a tough nut to crack, but so far I can say I've been probing and using slightly different techniques each lesson. Now I've got the experience and feedback, I decided on the next steps. I'll also try to find more teachers/colleagues to share workload with (with or without commission). I have options for online, but I have nobody for F2F replacements. T: Very few days off in both January and February mean that I can get a lot of lessons done. I'll just have three work days off due to my army reserve involvement. - That written, I've had more headache with it recently, just because of the way the bureaucracy works. I can say I've met some great, interesting and inspiring people there, but the admin is just a PITA. My point is not to "survive it", but to derive some positive meaning from this mission. Free shooting range practice and motivation to keep fit can help it. I know the worst case scenario is to just do one exercise per year or none at all, but I don't want to do it just for the money or out of necessity. I'll review this part of my career regularly, just to make sure I've got my thinking straight. When I compare the experience to my smooth running business with my students, I can say I'm truly grateful for both my business and my students. - Had a meeting with my web-designer, mostly out of curiosity than any specific plans for the future. Managed to have 15 lessons on average per week, which is great! NOT: I don't want to have a job that I don't enjoy. I don't want to have a job that is not well paid. Past projects: Copied to a Google Doc to keep this less cluttered. Current projects I'm working on: Website improvement project - since August 2024 - finished August 2025 with some small upgrades in autumn 2025 lecturer trainings - ENG business February-May 2025 55 minutes F2F lessons (+ online reminder too); pricing updates I and one of my FIRE friends organized a teacher/lecturer meeting. Find more teachers/colleagues to share workload with (with or without commission). Areas to work on continually: English table update - check every now and then for improvements. Keep classes at around 15 hours a week. Keep asking for reviews or recommendations from students. CELTA colleagues calls. Go through "lecturer academy" + CELTA materials + lecturer course. Exercise/Movement/Health: L: Went to the gym, for a run or a hike about four times a week, including on my holiday in Spain with my girlfriend. Feeling a little sick after coming back, but I assume I'll be fine by Monday. Went to the ear doctor, all is good. T: Thanks to my 10-13 break, I managed to exercise 23 out of planned 28 days so far. Feels good! I have a new pillow as well. I also visited the urologist, again without an issue. NOT: I don't want to become fat. Possible direction/goals: Keep in shape by exercising at least twice a week for 30-60 minutes. Have a session every weekday from January. Start flossing regularly. Incorporate balance and spine exercises. Keep on using the Oura ring to track vitals. Social + Personal Hobbies + Free Time (cool things I've done): L: Went to Spain for a holiday with my girlfriend and hiked there. Watched some shows and films together. I'm very happy with and proud of the gifts we exchanged. Baked Christmas sweets together. Called with a friend from another city, went for a burger with my brother and his girlfriend. Went to watch a basketball match with my girlfriend's father. Attended a few game nights with friends. Met my high-school classmates at our annual meeting. Read a lot and had good fun with it (Feynman mostly) too. T: No holidays this period, as the weather isn't really optimal for hiking or cycling. Met my FIRE friends, the quiz group, my best friend. I also met my brother for sushi and went to a hockey match with my family. Of course, met my students too. Possible direction/goals: Keep in touch with my friend groups (FIRE, quiz, best friends). Relationship with my girlfriend: L: So we've lived together for almost two years and I can say it's still a nice experience. I don't think we've had any really heated arguments that would span days or even weeks. Last year, I often got a bad headache during the holidays/trips and was a bore to be with. So staying hydrated and fed during trips is my top priority these days. Still, these days I have a feeling I'd like to do more things with my girlfriend. It sometimes feels as if we are next to each other rather than together. I gave her a voucher for English lessons to help with that (which she enjoyed having a few years ago). T: We spent time together my going to the planetarium, having lessons together, going to the café and for walks as well as the few trips. We also spent some time next to each other watching films or the Olympics. Possible direction/goals: Make time to talk every day. Keep on working on strengthening our relationship via common activities. Time off for myself (1000-1300) break: L: - T: This has been pretty successful so far. I noticed that some of my exercise sessions are quite short (depending on the length of the YT video), but as mentioned above, I managed to do 23/28 days. I also cram whatever appointments and housework I need to take care of into this window. Possible direction/goals: Keep having this break. --- For thought: Maybe I should just learn to plan better, though just the thought of having some hours of my day scheduled makes me cringe. Oddly enough, I don't get this feeling while planning lessons of my students, normally in bigger blocks. Maybe I should rethink that belief to make me happier. This might change with the late morning exercise lessons. 10-13 change works well. I've had this recurring thought every now and then that I am often somehow prevented from what I want to do in my free time; basically whenever I am not with students or sleeping. No, I just need to stop reading and learning all the time and start doing things. Imperfect action yields results. Information alone is useless. I like these reports, because they take me back in the calendar and let me see if there's something I've missed or something I need to check on again.

To be fair, it is not so much as what people did to me, but what people do to each other on a regular basis. As you said, we are all imperfect, including myself, but I guess my brain, due perhaps to my neurodivergence, tends to focus on the negative side of mankind. When I say that people are a disease, I include myself. In fact, I tend to have a worse outlook on my own personality compared to how I perceive others, and maybe I reflect my bad opinion of myself on those around me. Anyways, Thursday recovered my steam account and played 43 minutes of Skyrim. Yesterday had an excellent day of WFO - worked really well using the pomodoro method, something I cannot do when working in the office (I would like to imagine the faces of my bosses if I stood up from my chair every 25 minutes, like I did yesterday), and played an additional 45 minutes of Skyrim. Today I woke up really inspired - took a shower, shaved, combed my hair and applied some hair wax to it, got dressed in a slightly more formal way, instead of my usual sweatpants + sweatshirt weekend style. Went out with family, filled my car's gas tank and tires, fed my cats, hanged some clothing to dry after taking out clothes that were already dry, washed some more clothes, made both beds - mine and my mother's, and finished my sixth book of the year. And I will play Skyrim, not because I feel the compulsion to play, but because I really want to. I will apply the pomodoro method to my gaming session, and tell you how it goes.

Week 5 Projects: Simulating Platform: Slow progress this week as I had a lot of workload at work. Also still not fully healthy as recovering from flu. Miscellaneous accomplishments: N/A Summary of Week 5 This week was the worst in terms of cravings. I just miss gaming crazy badly. PS5 is still packed and left in shelf as nobody bought it yet, and I had few moments when I wante to just open it plug in and just say fuck it and play.... Did not break tho. The problem is I'm too ambitious. Still want to gain knowledge on several science topics that requires to read dozens of books , still want to finish Sim to proof myself that I can build working platform from scratch also still have gym goal.... and I know that when I return to gaming, none of these goal will be finished I just know, bc gaming will always take priority. ALWAYS. So for now I will use will power to fight cravings, but I don;t know for how long I will be able to do that.... Dumbscrolling free: 6 weeks

Entry 13.2 Weeks until average life expectancy: 2739 (80th birthday) Day 390: No Useless Videos Day 1224: Sticking to Food schedule Day 75: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 80: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well, no matter how small -Afternoon workout -14 German units. -Staying up without premature sleep 1 Thing I could do better -Possibly wash bedsheets, not that I needed to do it today, but maybe monday for example. 3 Separate meals (or less but without combining any of the three) and 3 hrs 45 minutes in between at least. Day 41 Fell asleep earlier than scheduled - 23 Going to sleep in 1 bulk without falling asleep immaturely in an unplanned manner - 18 Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5 Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 398

Day 135/180 GameQuitters/StopGaming Another quick check-in today, Onwards and upwards! 1/90 Gym+DietStreak (PB: 4 days) 44/90 SleepStreak 55/90 PornFree 69/365 NoAlcohol

I’ve felt that same jealousy before, but every time I stayed consistent instead of “just playing a little,” I realized the peace, focus, and self-respect I gained were worth far more than any short gaming session.

It's been years since someone asked that, so I have a clearer answer now. Discuss my thoughts and feelings. Document and share my milestones and progress. Discuss my relationship with gaming. So these are my recent milestones. Attended a cosplay convention in Malaysia. (December '25. Residing in Singapore.) Prepare my first cosplay outfit. (Just paid international shipping fees for the costume's glasses.) Attempt character design? (Costume and weapon design for a pre-existing character.) Weighing my retrenchment package and relationship with an employment agency, I'm using this short window of time to pursue what matters to me. I need to moderate myself for my goals; getting burnt out on my projects is something I can't afford.

@Ado Tori Will you share your goal with this Journal? Are you aiming to stop Gaming?

Just throwing some sphagetti on the wall here, apparently some of it sticks :) If I may help even one bit, then I feel blessed. Back to the fight my man! :)

I think you can include the days of last year too. Those are quite a few days that you have in your favor. And I do not see why on the 1.1 it has to reset. It is part of your history in this ongoing battle :) Wow, 4 more days! My MAN! Those are especially hard days since you relapsed a few days ago. Every day counts and if you didn't give yourself a pat on the back, here's one from me! Amen. Hurts me to hear such exclamations. Even people who seem to have done you harm, did or do so because that is the best way they have to deal with life. They too are sons of god who are trying their best to deal with this world. We are all brothers here. Would you say your brother or sister are a disease, or your parents? Even if they did something not a 100% favorable to you? Or even 0% favorable for that matter? Did you never do some such thing yourself? I'm sure you try not to, but sometimes those things happen... Anyway we are a whole, humans. Completing eachother. Try not to be mad at your brothers, even if they make mistakes... None of us are perfect. Neither you nor I. Amen x2 Now you're talking!!! Of that I'd love to hear more! Amen amen amen! + Indeed focus on health should be the top of you're values in my opinion. Except for, possibly, some outstanding one time short term cases. In my journal, I give myself 3 Things I did well, and 1 Thing I could do better every day. Notice the formulation: One thing I could do better. Not one thing I did bad. It connects to what I've said before, we all men do mistakes. Accept yourself as is. You are doing your best. Hitting someone will just get you super likely to get hit back. We humans have mirror neurons. The same is true with yourself. If you hit yourself, you'll hit back ;) Try being a scientist with the way you do things, not a drill sergeant. Thing of one simple thing at a time you could improve and execute. One! Rome wasn't built in a day. And it was built brick by brick. You don't lay a building in a day, or 60 seconds. But you can lay a brick in 60 seconds! and maybe even a few!

Entry 12.2 (Written on 13.2) Weeks until average life expectancy: 2739 (80th birthday) Day 389: No Useless Videos Day 1223: Sticking to Food schedule Day 74: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 79: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well, no matter how small -Morning jog/run 65-75% -11 German units. -Some 38 hours fast 1 Thing I could do better -Make a record of what point I'm starting for for possible later vocabulary return, and start making screenshots of every concluded lesson, with the aim to return later for vocabulary review. Why? Because I really want to finish the 14 Lingolia Subjects I have left before the upcoming exam. 3 Separate meals (or less but without combining any of the three) and 3 hrs 45 minutes in between at least. Day 40 Fell asleep earlier than scheduled - 23 Going to sleep in 1 bulk without falling asleep immaturely in an unplanned manner - 17 Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5 Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 397

Day 134/180 GameQuitters/StopGaming Quick check-in today! 1/90 Gym+DietStreak (PB: 4 days) 43/90 SleepStreak 54/90 PornFree 68/365 NoAlcohol

Hello. Today I felt... distracted at work. I could not focus on a single task, and wasted most of the day. I started getting anxious due to my lack of productivity, and took a tranquilizer to calm my nerves. It partially worked, but left me somewhat numb and in a sort of a torpor. I haven't drunk coffee for some days, to make sure my anxiety was minimal, but today I lacked the energy it provides. It was not a case of poor sleep, I slept roughly 10 hours, but I still feel without energy.

Hello. At my previous workplace, most days I was tired and wanted to decompress. I now have time for my projects, so I aim to post weekly until I restart employment.

Day 133/180 GameQuitters/StopGaming Yan, you are a true master of the art of GameQuitting, sir! A Guru, if you will! Thank you for your wise words :) Very true, but yes easier said than done. Until tomorrow! 1/90 Gym+DietStreak (PB: 4 days) 42/90 SleepStreak 53/90 PornFree 67/365 NoAlcohol