BooksandTrees 3445 Posted January 5 Author Share Posted January 5 I could have sworn I woke up at 7 but it's 5. I actually got 6 straight hours though which hasn't happened. Usually I sleep from 11 to 2 and try to sleep but can't. 1 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
BooksandTrees 3445 Posted January 5 Author Share Posted January 5 I actually enjoy waking up this early. Half my work day is over, I do yoga in the mornings, less tired at lunch, and I'm getting more energy after work. 1 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
BooksandTrees 3445 Posted January 6 Author Share Posted January 6 I went to bed at 930 being naturally tired and woke up at 4 without an alarm clock. It's the most sleep I've gotten in one sitting in weeks I feel. I relaxed til 5 and got my day started again. I'm feeling better overall about being an early bird out of nowhere. I also resolved a major family issue that was causing me a great deal of stress. I confronted both parents and defended myself and resolved the issue. I think it's important to always defend yourself and understand the situation from both sides of the spectrum. 3 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
BooksandTrees 3445 Posted January 9 Author Share Posted January 9 Today I'm 115 weeks free from gaming and 117 weeks free from social media. I've been waking up early every day this week and feel so much better. I'm finally getting 6-7 hours of consecutive sleep each night. I'm dominating at work and I'm doing my hobbies etc. I feel a lot better. I finished a difficult project this week at work and I took some time to just randomly play the drums because I like the noise. I wasn't trying to play a certain song or anything. It was fun. I've also been doing some yoga in the mornings and watching my tv shows at night. I've simplified life a bit and feel better. Also did some virtual chats with friends. I wanted to talk about what happened in Washington this week, but I want to uphold the rules Cam set forth on this website and not discuss politics. I just hope everyone is safe and doing what they can to maintain mental sanity during this time. Having that drama on top of the coronavirus stress is not very good for our health. Hopefully positivity will come soon. I have strong opinions about it, but once again will not discuss as per Cam. I also don't want anyone talking about it on my forum. Thank you. 2 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
Mohammad 259 Posted January 9 Share Posted January 9 1 hour ago, BooksandTrees said: Today I'm 115 weeks free from gaming and 117 weeks free from social media. I've been waking up early every day this week and feel so much better. I'm finally getting 6-7 hours of consecutive sleep each night. I'm dominating at work and I'm doing my hobbies etc. I feel a lot better. I finished a difficult project this week at work and I took some time to just randomly play the drums because I like the noise. I wasn't trying to play a certain song or anything. It was fun. I've also been doing some yoga in the mornings and watching my tv shows at night. I've simplified life a bit and feel better. Also did some virtual chats with friends. I wanted to talk about what happened in Washington this week, but I want to uphold the rules Cam set forth on this website and not discuss politics. I just hope everyone is safe and doing what they can to maintain mental sanity during this time. Having that drama on top of the coronavirus stress is not very good for our health. Hopefully positivity will come soon. I have strong opinions about it, but once again will not discuss as per Cam. I also don't want anyone talking about it on my forum. Thank you. Congratulation on 115 weeks! That is so amazing. how does it feel to be free of gaming for this long? I mean, isn't there any temptation? Is relapsing something of the past for you? I am not sure how many times you have relapse coming this far! I am asking this question because, as you know, I am having difficulty sticking to my detox for too long. After a few months, I feel good enough to get back to gaming and that's when the dissatisfaction starts to kick in and I start a new detox. Quote Link to post Share on other sites
BooksandTrees 3445 Posted January 9 Author Share Posted January 9 27 minutes ago, Mohammad said: Congratulation on 115 weeks! That is so amazing. how does it feel to be free of gaming for this long? I mean, isn't there any temptation? Is relapsing something of the past for you? I am not sure how many times you have relapse coming this far! I am asking this question because, as you know, I am having difficulty sticking to my detox for too long. After a few months, I feel good enough to get back to gaming and that's when the dissatisfaction starts to kick in and I start a new detox. I tried quitting ever since 2008 and couldn't do it. It took until 2018. That's a long time. I get urges sometimes but I just change the conversation, calm down and realize the day will end and tomorrow is a new day, and try to force myself into a different mindset. Enough pain is enough. 4 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
Mohammad 259 Posted January 9 Share Posted January 9 2 hours ago, BooksandTrees said: I tried quitting ever since 2008 and couldn't do it. It took until 2018. That's a long time. I get urges sometimes but I just change the conversation, calm down and realize the day will end and tomorrow is a new day, and try to force myself into a different mindset. Enough pain is enough. Wow! it took 10 years for you to get here. That's right. I have been trying only for two years. I've got to try again. 1 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
BooksandTrees 3445 Posted January 9 Author Share Posted January 9 3 minutes ago, Mohammad said: Wow! it took 10 years for you to get here. That's right. I have been trying only for two years. I've got to try again. Take your time and have some compassion for yourself. It takes everyone a different amount of time. 2 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
Ikar 1570 Posted January 9 Share Posted January 9 54 minutes ago, Mohammad said: Wow! it took 10 years for you to get here. That's right. I have been trying only for two years. I've got to try again. I agree with @BooksandTrees. I don't have a record of how many times and when I tried to "curb" gaming by an hour or two to get some exercise or studying done, but it eventually came to the point where I had enough pain and quit cold turkey. I had to take responsibility for my life and I wanted to explore in more depth the things in life I got a glimpse of while still gaming. The progress of quitting is more continual than most people think. Maybe you cut your gaming time in half the last year. That's fair progress! Compare yourself to who you were before, not someone else. 2 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
BooksandTrees 3445 Posted January 11 Author Share Posted January 11 I ate a lot of ice cream today and feel terrible. I don't know why I did it. I can't even work. So stupid. 1 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
BooksandTrees 3445 Posted January 12 Author Share Posted January 12 I'm feeling a little better. I need to be better tomorrow and make up for lost productivity. It's a big week and I need to deliver. 2 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
Amphibian220 319 Posted January 13 Share Posted January 13 (edited) @BooksandTreesI was thinking about breaking eating discipline when I had this idea. What about US army rationing SOP? That measurement is designed to keep soldiers fit, without excess fat or sugar in their diet and sufficient amounts of carbohydrates, protein etc. what about closely monitoring food intake in accordance with that? I have broken my food discipline recently. I’ll try to see if I can set these limits up to prevent overeating. The upside is that you know you have eaten the right amount and there is no way to get confused with this. Edited January 13 by Amphibian220 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
BooksandTrees 3445 Posted January 13 Author Share Posted January 13 44 minutes ago, Amphibian220 said: @BooksandTreesI was thinking about breaking eating discipline when I had this idea. What about US army rationing SOP? That measurement is designed to keep soldiers fit, without excess fat or sugar in their diet and sufficient amounts of carbohydrates, protein etc. what about closely monitoring food intake in accordance with that? I have broken my food discipline recently. I’ll try to see if I can set these limits up to prevent overeating. The upside is that you know you have eaten the right amount and there is no way to get confused with this. I just started tracking calories again like I did last year and threw away my junk food. Also more water. 1 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
Bird By Bird 155 Posted January 15 Share Posted January 15 On 1/13/2021 at 2:37 PM, Amphibian220 said: US army rationing That sounds like a fun and interesting experiment to try @Amphibian220. While more expensive than normal food - I think the additives they put in MREs to survive hostile conditions and keep soldiers in fighting shape may show improvement in your life. During your research, you might hear about stories like the Vomelet but don't be fooled because its actually super tasty and given an ironic name as a joke. Quote Link to post Share on other sites
BooksandTrees 3445 Posted Sunday at 06:17 PM Author Share Posted Sunday at 06:17 PM Today I'm 116 weeks free from gaming and 118 weeks free from social media. Well, technically yesterday, but I was busy yesterday lol. I've been working a lot on a difficult project at work that stressed me out but I've been making sure to charge overtime and dealing with it. I get annoyed with a few things going on but I'm just going to roll with it. Life is too short to beat myself up over worrying about little things out of my control. I was thrown into a dumb situation and I'm just gonna move on. I don't like poor communication. I don't like how things go from positive and negative so fast. I keep getting mixed signals from whether I've done good or bad and I strongly dislike feeling like I'm in an indecisive position. We'll see what happens. Otherwise I'm looking to just relax today and enjoy free time for once. 1 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
BooksandTrees 3445 Posted Tuesday at 10:27 AM Author Share Posted Tuesday at 10:27 AM My stomach is bothering me a lot tonight. I ate like shit all weekend with pizza, ice cream, and not healthy Chinese food. I know there is healthy Chinese food, but the kind I ate was not healthy. Not doing a race thing here, please calm down. I ate vegetables, healthy grains, low fat food, and lean meats today and my body is just dying. It's strange because I used to eat this all last year when I lost 30 lbs. I've been eating a lot of junk food the past few weeks due to stress. I ate a whole buffalo chicken pizza Saturday and Sunday and then a whole pint of ice cream after. I didn't go to the bathroom for a whole day after that. I think it's just a reaction from the poor diet the past few days. Work has been very stressful and I have to start studying again soon. I also don't really look forward to doing anything after work. I left work early today because I started early and I just sat there for a while. THere was nothing I wanted to do. I didn't want to do anything creative. I ended up texting friends and family and felt better after. I think I just needed to cool off. But right now I am just annoyed because my mid section keeps having hot flashes of cold and then burning hot. It's like acid reflux is back or something. IDK. I've also felt little motivation to post on this website the past few weeks. I'm sorry for not posting more or in people's journals. I just feel a little run down of late. I'll try to rest more and treat myself healthier and see what happens. Therapy tonight fortunately. 2 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
Amphibian220 319 Posted Tuesday at 04:46 PM Share Posted Tuesday at 04:46 PM What is your main sporting activity? Do you work out on a daily basis? Quote Link to post Share on other sites
DaBest 726 Posted Wednesday at 02:53 AM Share Posted Wednesday at 02:53 AM It's all good bro. This is the crappy, dark time of year anyway. One step at a time. Quote Link to post Share on other sites
BooksandTrees 3445 Posted Thursday at 06:08 AM Author Share Posted Thursday at 06:08 AM The world is a better place today. Quote Link to post Share on other sites
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