Day 6:
I woke up this morning at 7:50 am for work. I was dreaming playing dota 2 with my favorite character 😂. The dream was super fun so I tried to get back to it for another 10 minutes so I can enjoy a bit more of it. It didn’t happen so I woke up and start working after a quick breakfast.
so yea, today, I have strong temptations. I am very tired because of hard work and now feel so bored. I have nothing to enjoy other thab gaming! That’s obviously a big issue. My routine while not gaming is just self-development. So whenever I stop gaming, I just do daily workout, meditation and all these type of self-improvement.
I can start watching Netflix so I can relax and have fun. However, after watching Netflix for a while, I would feel wasted again and then probably relapse. I feel that now that I am wasting my time on Netflix, why not game so I enjoy it at least.
I won’t relapse tonight since I am serious to end this gaming issue but I know I am close to relapse. I need to do something about it.
as @Ikarmentioned, I may just go for a walk knowing that tomorrow is a new day. I don’t want to get depressed again.
It’s already weekend but I have nothing fun to refresh for the next week. I have to play with my son all day long for the next two days and at nights, doing workout and meditations! Also, there are some work-related things that I have putting off for a while and need to do sooner or later. So it’s basically work, work and work for me😞
My relationship with my wife is also bad so I don’t see much light in my life 😞