October 30, 20196 yr Holy shit man, I'm so sorry... What made you play games again, though? Was it because of the stress or mounting pressure? Do you do anything else to relieve some of that tension? What other options are there? Can you spend another year slowly building up your credentials?
October 30, 20196 yr 19 hours ago, Deku said: Fuck guys it’s over. I’m so sorry. Got removed from my internship a few days ago and the shock still hasn’t really worn off yet. The reason was because of all the mistakes I’ve made, and all the days I missed (due to playing games). With that I lose so much. Two letters of rec and a ton of time at the very least. I don’t really know what to do now. I still want to keep fighting to get into medical school, but...I just don’t know if I can do it anymore. I’m just so disappointed in myself for blowing this golden opportunity. I spent the last year setting all this up for myself beautifully and in the blink of an eye it’s back to ground zero again. I’ll think of something but...man. This really sucks. I am very sorry about what happened. That is a crushing blow. Two thoughts came into my mind after I read this and a little bit about what was happening at your internship.(I apologize but I did not have time to read your entire journal.) Anyways, getting back to my thoughts. You may be held back a year and will be able to redo that internship during summer-time. Or, you may have to figure out what skill-sets you have that can be applied to a different career choice. From those two thoughts arise more thoughts. Here I go. Bear with me. Could it be that you played video games more when you were making more mistakes at the internship? It's like when I have a bad day at work, I clean the house from top to bottom, because I know it's something I can do, and I'm actually good at it. I'm a neat-freak. And I feel a great satisfaction from completing that task. "Heck, if I can't fix what crap I did at my job, then I can sure as heck fix what I can at home!". Or binge eating junk food when life situations become stressful. Take it easy and be kind to yourself. I hope you're doing ok, btw. I'm hoping for the best. God bless. Edited October 31, 20196 yr by CornishGameHen
October 30, 20196 yr Hi again. Please ignore my above post. The last thing you probably want is to reflect on everything else. Just take care, and be kind to yourself. Edited October 31, 20196 yr by CornishGameHen
October 30, 20196 yr Really sorry to hear that, Deku. That's pretty brutal. I feel your pain. Give your self some time to detach before you jump headlong into whatever your next venture will be, whether it's still med school or something else. If you end up trying something else, I'm sure that there must be something out there that can satisfy your core motivations for becoming a doctor. I went through something similar, and honestly it was the best thing to happen to me. I hope that whatever happens, you will be able to look back on this and say you were able to gain something from it.
October 31, 20196 yr Hey Deku so sorry to hear about what happened. I can only imagine how hard this must be for you! Unfortunately this will not be your last loss or defeat But I'm certain you can lay it on a heap next to the many victories you will have Remember everyone around you is here to support you and we're all routing for you
November 2, 20196 yr Oh shit man, I'm sorry to hear about this! Look, I know it's a big loss and disappointment right now, but it could also be a strong motivator to get back into it. Was this internship the only product of the past year+ that you've been killing it since you stopped gaming? I highly doubt it. You gained so much. You learned just how much you can do. It's a set back. A bad one. But you can get come out stronger than before. My last relapse a year ago finished after I got nearly fired by a client I really enjoy working with. It set me straight and enabled me to find the motivation to quit games. Haven't gamed since. Maybe this your moment.
November 2, 20196 yr Hey Deku, I'm sorry about what happened that blows big time. We are all thinking about you and sending good vibes. I know you can bounce back from this! But take some time to rest, relax, and energize for your next goal! We believe in you!
September 18, 20205 yr Hey.... I hope your doing ok. It’s been so long since you have been here, but your one of the first people I connected with on this forum. I hope your path became clear and thing shifted in the positive for you.
September 30, 20205 yr Hey man, you might never see this if you don't return, but fuck it. I'm thinking of you! I really hope you're somewhere doing well, fighting the good fight and trying to be happy.
October 25, 20205 yr deku-san u will come back. in the anime, u no all might but u save eri-chan and kota-san. now u save urself
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