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  1. Phoenixking

    Maintenance of the PhoenixKing

    17/03/19 – 1 pm - Days without games & porn: 28 I helped my girl move her stuff Friday. She's finally moving out of a house with 3 roommates and into her own apartment. She's worried about money stuff, obviously, it's a big upgrade and that comes with extra costs. She's been used to spending money frivolously on clothes and fancy food. But I feel like it's a strong and healthy step towards self-development and growing up. She might get a roommate, though, to cut costs. But for now, she's eager to just do it solo and I encourage that. Her 3 previous housemates were ... complicated. They used to be friends that even helped her get over her ex. But it slowly turned sour. The house is owned by the two dudes. One of them is a nice but a bit of a coward and never stands up the the other guy. That latter dude has some form or autism and is a gaming junkie. He uses memes, math and logic to communicate. I understand why and how, of course, but that's an explanation and not a excuse to be a dick. The last roommate is gamerman's girlfriend. She's got a psychological disorder because of repressed trauma of some kind. When pressed, she dissociates and will just hum, bang her head or just go catatonic for a bit. He is utterly unfazed by this and doesn't see anything wrong with it. My girl was first forbidden to help her out, despite being a trained psychologist, but then after she ignored an episode of hers, they roasted her for ignoring a person in need. They went back and forth with her like that a lot. My girl is lovely, but sometimes a bit too nice. I have learned to bear my fangs and channel my anger when needed. That's something she lacks for now. She can be a bit too kind for her own good. So I'm happy she's moving away. I spent the night there. It was romantic and hilarious. We tackled the move as a team! I took apart the bed while she filled boxes with stuff. We shoved it all into my car and after 3 drives, we got everything sorted and had all we need to spend the night. She bought me pizza, we had sparkling wine and a show we liked. We ate and drank on her bed, the only piece of furniture we were able to move in those few short hours. But it was all we needed. We had an absolutely lovely night and morning. There was nothing in the apartment but us, pizza boxes and an empty bottle of sparkling wine. And it was perfect. Then I had to leave for the funeral. My aunt died last week. She's lost the battle against cancer. The chemo was taking effect, prolonging her life a bit. Her kids had to convince her to get chemo and radiation, she was thinking of letting the disease eat her. The treatment took effect, but she'd waited too long already. It'd gotten into her bones. The kids were still hell bent on saving her or prolonging their time. But my aunt, without telling the kids, took matters into her own hands and stopped the classical Western treatment. She spent her entire life savings on crazy therapies. Shamans and witch doctors, people pretending to be healers, liars, conmen and frauds. My aunt lost herself to the grifters, eager to take her money, spent in desperation. Her discovered all of this only two weeks ago. They feel like they had time with their mom stolen from them by the alternative healers and the person who kept her secret and stimulated this path: my other aunt. There were 3 sisters, my mom being one of them. Now there's only two left. My cousins both didn't have the luxury of time to deal with the frustration and anger they felt, their mom was too far gone already, the money already spent. She was dying. They had to press pause on all of that clusterfucky stuff to sit by her bed in the hospital, waiting for her last breath. The funeral was warm, fuzzy and lovely. Her kids gave amazing speeches. The eldest is 3 years younger than me and I'm a professional speaker. But I could never have given a eulogy with half as much class as that man. He joked that he was glad the crowd couldn't see his knees shaking. He told stories about how their mom used to spray their rooms from them with anti-monster spray. He was so charming. He had been told by his mom that she didn't want her funeral to be sad, stiff and full of monologues. She wanted people to smile and laugh. He pulled it off with swagger. Her sister, though, the other aunt who got her into the 'alternative swamp', as my cousin named it, had a different approach. She opened the funeral with a 5 page-speech. She even forced her kid, my 8-year-old cousin to recite a poem. The latter chickened out. No kid in their right mind would voluntarily do such a thing so we all assume that my crazy aunt pushed her into it. None of us are nowadays able to look at this aunt with the same pair of eyes. Part of me blames her and feels like she's a lost sheep. Part of me still loves her, she's no mean or ill-bearing woman. She just never learned to truly fend for herself. Sorry for the huge post. This is my diary after all. I just need to type these things out... It's been an emotional few weeks. The detoxing from porn is one of the hardest things I've ever done. I have lost my grandmother and my aunt in the span of 1 month. I've started freelancing more and stopped by full-time job and replaced it with a part-time one. My relationship with my girlfriend has blossomed and is showing no red flags. There's a fucktonne of changes. So many things to adapt to and process. I'm a bit of a mess sometimes. But I still haven't relapsed. It's getting easier. I look forward to getting to 90 days. The next few weeks will be less hard because I'll be in Japan until the 10th. I'll go and see cherry blossoms for the first time. I've been wanting to see Japan all my life. It's a dream come true. I will probably cry a lot while I'm there. A part of me thinks that I'll return as another man. Spiritually more awake. Changed forever. Sometimes I think it's folly and childish and very dramatic. Typically me. And there are other times when I can truly imagine myself there, all alone in the middle of some busy square or desolate temple, thinking about who I am and what I want to do with my life, who I want to become... There was this man at the funeral. His name is Alfred. I met him a few times when he was a lazy teenager. He'd travelled from Finland to get to the funeral. My deceased aunt was very active in a charity foundation. When I was a kid, there were a few kids from Romania spending summer at our village. My aunt took in one or two or three, so did my mom. He had left the slums a few years after that and had kept in touch with my aunt before she'd gotten cancer. Apparently he'd done quite well for himself. She read a lot of books about succes, finance, entrepreneurship, communication, self-improvement, ... He'd been a student, a butcher, a student again and now she's in healthcare and into globetrotting. He's lived in Germany, Spain, and now is in Finland. This random lazy kid from the slums, turned his whole life around and travelled the world. Switching jobs, self-educating, ... I made me very humble. If he can do that, why couldn't I? I've been noticing that I often can't or won't stop browsing Reddit or any other social media or even Netflix. I have a limiter on my PC and on my phone, though. Thank heavens. I'm sure that I'm using it as a crutch somehow. After I am done with the 90 days of detoxing from porn, and when I feel ready, I'll probably detox from this as well. I don't want to make my cup overflow, there's only so many things you can handle. And I have yet to read Atomic Habits and I really still shouldn't be this demanding of myself... But I want to achieve so much, climb so high, ... Sometimes I am angry at myself for no working harder and slacking off so much. But being such a good-for-nothing junkie. I look at the bad stuff and slip into being so demanding of myself. But I've done good things, I've taken the right steps. I guess I'm just still used to getting immediate results. Maybe after Japan. Maybe after the book. Maybe next year. I hope I find peace with this one day. I know things like these take time. But some days are harder than other. And today is totes a hard day. There's so many things to do and arrange. It's stressing me out, just imagining the list. It never ends. The infernal to-do list. TL;DR - My aunt died. My girl moved. No relapse. And the only thing that's more intense than Netflix seducing me to binge, is how demanding I am of myself. Recent highlight: The first night and morning in my girl's new place and us working as a team to move all of her stuff. Budget status: I'm going to FINALLY try and sort some stuff out for Japan. I already lost the opportunity to see some sumo's training because of procrastinating. I probably would not have enjoyed it because of how rigid and stiff it was, but still it's a shame. My one goal for tomorrow: Nail the busy day: Get new pictures for my passport. Then go nail the improv gig I got. Then go and do a photoshoot and get some new headshots out of the shoot.
  2. Phoenixking

    Maintenance of the PhoenixKing

    14/03/19 – 23 pm - Days without games & porn: 25 Porn is bugging me less. Nowadayts my brain is already in Japan. I did fuck up, though. A fuckup worth 200 bucks 😕 ... My passport needs renewal. And because of paperwork, timing and flights, I need to pay extra for a quickened procedure. UGH. I hate paperwork... I have yet to sit down and arrange tickets and stuff for shows, temples, tours, ... I came home and ate and then left for practice. It's so late now. I hope to have finished the Japan stuff by the end of the weekend. But there's the funeral and my girlfriend's move. So I might have to sacrifice some stuff here and there to get it done. Got a message from somebody I met at the storytelling conference from 2 weeks ago. She wants me to lead some acting workshops! It's so cool that my presence there really paid off! Krav Maga practice was brutal. We got trained on how to defend attack from behind and my neck looks like a warzone from all of the grapples My new haircut feels amazing. It looks cool and I feel like a new man. I honestly believe in doing stuff like this to mark off old chapters and begin new ones. Recent highlight: Everyone keeps telling me my hair looks amazing. Budget status: I have yet to pay lots of stuff for Japan. It's making me nervous. I hope I didn't miscalculate anything. I tend to do that... I hope I don't rip my bank account in two over this, because there's really no more going back at this point. My one goal for tomorrow: Help my girl move and try and get 1 thing in order for Japan.
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    Maintenance of the PhoenixKing

    13/03/19 – 4 pm - Days without games & porn: 24 My writing gig finished and the feedback was positive. I hope they'll hire me again. It's looking promising but the fact that I'd be in Japan makes it difficult for the timeframe. They want to start casting actors and running trials asap. We'll just have to wait and see, I guess. I have been a bit more thorough with my planning and it seems to be taking effect. I also got a haircut. It's a bit dramatic. I went from full hipster manbun shoulder-length hair to a 1920's cut, like from Peaky Blinders. I did always have a penchant for the dramatic... My podcast will be doing a live gig next month in my favourite local bar. We're making merchandise as we speak. It's crazy how much we've progressed. We have actual fans.... I wonder if I'll be asked to be on pictures or if people would want my autograph or something 😛 Recent highlight: My girlfriend was very empathetic about me panicking about my hair. I have a bit of a developing bald spot. Normally I'd feel silly and dramatic. But she just rolls with it and reacts with kindness. It's stuff like that that really make you feel special. We even stayed up 'till 1am just talking and laughing. Our sleep pattern hates us, but we're in love. Budget status: I'm about to check all the boxes I need to for Japan. Passport, payments, ... This means that I'll buy tickets for stuff I want to go to and see and visit. My travel buddy isn't coming along to every single thing. So it's rather exciting to do this on my own. I'm terrified my bank account will recede into darkness. But there's sumo contests to see, temples to visit, guides to book, ... This is why we have a job! To make the money do stuff that we like! My one goal for tomorrow: Kick ass at the office. I finally found something I'm good at and that makes my colleagues give positive feedback on.
  4. Phoenixking

    Dear Diary...

    In an ideal world, what would that be? If you'd not be limited by anything like time, money, distance... What would the idea life be?
  5. Phoenixking

    Maintenance of the PhoenixKing

    11/03/19 – 2 pm - Days without games & porn: 22 So the D&D-session I did last night was good! I was finally able to give all of them a hero-moment. And I've been making good progress with my worldbuilding. It's really turning int something alive and breathing. The meeting about the podcast was long but fun. We might be doing a live show soon and we discussed the selling of merchandise. There's so many people on our Discord-server nowadays, we've had to enlarge the team and we have a few volunteers now to keep an eye out. We were all happy and proud and suprised and amazed that within 1 year the whole project has truly taken off. There's fans, there's reactions, there's artwork being sent to us, ... Utterly blessed! Elien and I are doing well too. She needs to chill out sometimes, though. She's always running around doing 1 million things (kind of like me, I know) and it's making her sick. Well, I'd say that she should be majorly sick and lie in bed and chill and just let her body recover and rest. But she's too busy so the adrenaline just pushes her onwards. It's making sure she's functioning but always a tad under the weather. Much like me and lots of other people I know, it's another case of The Millenials. Feeling so much pressure to put in effort to get all your ducks in a row, the the point where just doing your groceries feels like a huge deal. Heck, it's tiring me out just thinking about it. Japan is nearby and there's one more hurdle to jump. Elien needs to meet my travelmate. Mainly because we used to sleep together and I don't want anything polluting the air. So we're having dinner tonight with the three of us. In a way to show Elien that there's nothing to be worried about, but also to make sure they both see each other at least once and have gotten to know each other a little bit since I'll be gone with her for about two weeks without Elien. Honestly, I'm a bit nervous. I probably shouldn't be, but still. I'm going to try and finish my writing today. My keyboard is annoying the hell outta me because the "D"-key keeps breaking... I should've finished a while ago. I don't think I'll be getting another contract from them. But fingers crossed? Recent highlight: The D&D-session went great and I wrote a whole bunch of lore! Budget status: My paycheck this month will cover just food and rent. I'm not going to lie. I'm starting to feel like I should work more and try my best more at this freelancing... This is kind of scary. My one goal for tomorrow: Try and have a productive day at the office and then kick some ass at the Krav Maga practice
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    Maintenance of the PhoenixKing

    Thanks, man. The girlfriend just cancelled on me for today. Miscommunication. I'll see her after my D&D-sesh tomorrow. But that kind of was a blow to me. I was really holding onto seeing her. On top of that I misinterpreted the funeral date. Resulting in me losing a paid gig and a photo shoot. On top of now having to cancel a 3-day improv event to make sure I can make the funeral on the correct date. And I'll lose money over it because I had already pre-paid the lodgings and I probably won't get it back. I could feel myself slipping into a dark place, panicked and quickly opened the forum, looking for some light. I think your comment and you pat on the back just saved my stupid ass from going over the edge... Thanks man... If I ever make it to 90 days, I feel like I'll have to be a changed man. This is all so hard sometimes, what the ever flying fuck? This shit really has its claws in us, huh. Sorry. Had*
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    Maintenance of the PhoenixKing

    9/03/19 – 11 am - Days without games & porn: 20 So a lot of stuff happened over the past few days. I've been a bit off lately. My aunt died. After the death of my grandma a while back, I am now in mourning once again. She'd had cancer for a while now and she had decided a couple of years back to not do anything about it. My grandpa (her dad) died of cancer too and despite best efforts, he died. I guess she didn't want to get treatment because it's no guarantee you'd live, it's lots of suffering and she's kind of insecure and shallow. She didn't want to risk a masectomy or transform into a walking corpse. So she kept it a secret. Her kids, my niece and nephew, were beside themselves with anger and frustrations and sadness when this was revealed. They pleaded and conviced her to get treatment. Chemo pills. Sadly, she died anyway. This came to a shock to them and our whole family because she was so young. Only 49. Her kids are younger than I am. The family is deeply saddened. But it gets worse. So there's my mom and this aunt, her sister, right? There's another sister, my other aunt. 3 sisters, still with me? The third sister is the youngest one. She'd had an aneurysm a while back and never really worked a day in her life because of it. She's capable, smart, and there's no actual reason why she shouldn't work, the aneurysm was ages ago. It all kind of reeks of laziness. To be fair, if I had the opportunity to do whatever I wanted and get paid anyway, I'd take it too. So she's already a bit of an odd bird. Mainly because she was always swaddled too. She was always the weaker sister, the one that needed extra special attention. It turns out, she may actually be crazy. I went to the hospital to the wing where they give the people who'll die soon the best care. Stuff like morphine drips and pain pumps are everywhere and it's a calm and serene wing. I met up with my niece and my mom. Believe it or not, my mom and I had an actual pleasant conversation! It was a milestone! She listened, was kind, shared her feelings... It made me feel like the relationship could actually be salvaged. I talked about her sister and I heard stories from my niece. This is what had been going on for the past years. My other aunt is a bit new agey. Angels, demons, books, spirits, pendulums, powders, herbs, chakras, ... She's convinced that phones give her headaches because of the radiation. I'm a man of science and proof. Sure, there's research backing up the negative effects of phones. There's also research about people imagining that electricity hurts them mentally. I think there's a character in 'Better Call Saul' that has this issue. Long story short, I shut her bullshit down often and quickly. But it turns out that my aunt, dying of cancer, did not. Those two really got into it. Apparently she'd been using all sorts of mystic shit. Powdered root of the Himalayas, tarot cards and mediums, special chakra enforcing necklaces, ... My nephew did a financial state of the whole thing and all of my cancer aunt's money is gone now. It's a disaster. The kids now blame the other aunt of stealing away time they could have spent with their dying mom. It's a horribly family drama right now, in the middle of arranging the funeral... We all agree that she might be suffering from psychosis. We're very worried. It's been a grim past few days. I've been clean from watching porn for 20 days. I was going to crack. I really was. I wanted to feel a bit of endorphins, some rush, anything. Food, drink, Netflix, nothing was really giving me what I wanted. My libido has been going crazy for the past few weeks. I've been really getting my nose shoved into how my brain has been being affected by porn. It's very discombobulating. I'm still figuring things out. A big thing is boobs. My girlfriend has rather small boobs and the better part of my exes had big ones. I know it's a very shallow thing to note, but I like'm big. The thing is that she's near perfect. A proper soulmate. Future wife potential. A measly things such a cup size is nothing in comparison to it. I know it, the world knows it: beauty fades. Personality, morals and values, ... That's where it's at. And yet I still find myself thinking about it. Feeling the itch in the back of my mind to search for porn. I honestly hate how my brain craves it, is starving. It makes me feel like the addiction is warping the way I view the woman I love as someone that's not enough because I've been bombarded with picture and videos of promiscuous women with huge boobs. I was going to relapse a few times this week. But thinking of my girl and not wanting to have this strange mindfungus have actual influence on our relationship got me through it. Me suffering from it is one thing, this is my battle. But I'll be damned if I let it hurt her or our relationship. I am very happy I held up. Work has been ... educational. I started using social media more to branch out and learn from other freelancers. I've also been noticing that I can sometimes still be a slave to Instagram. I met 2 IG-famous people and the only thing I could think of was figuring out a way to get into a picture with them, to get a shitload of likes and followers, without seeming creepy. My friend and my girl were luckily nearby and calmed me down. I always think of myself as a man of principles. This was a very daunting experience and made it clear to me that I should try and be more mindful of who I want to be as a person and that I should try and be more authentic. I recently did a photoshoot with a friend who's IG-famous (locally) and she told me of a girl she knew that bought followers and even got a boobjob. I NEVER want to be somebody like that. In terms of work, I need more discipline or more of a schedule or whatever. My freelancing is so unstructured. I am going to finish my current gig and have a good long hard think about a communication plan and a work schedule. I require more structure. I have Atomic Habits nowadays but I'm still reading my book about Japan and the history of Samurai. There's also 2 other books I'm reading 😛 I guess it's about the long game? Recent highlight: The girlfriend's support throughout all of the death and psychosis story. She's been overseas but keeps calling me and texting me with supportive things to say. I can't believe I'm so lucky to have met such a beautiful and warm soul. Budget status: Nothing shocking for now. I just hope that Japan isn't going to destroy my financial state 😛 My one goal for tomorrow: Focus at the content meeting of my podcast and in the evening kick ass at the D&D-session as a DM.
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    Maintenance of the PhoenixKing

    Yeah, but I notice that I'm slacking off a tad too much. I need to figure out some sort of system or get a bit more disciplined. I should try and get my desk/work room done too.
  9. Phoenixking

    Maintenance of the PhoenixKing

    6/03/19 – 1 pm - Days without games & porn: 17 This is the longest I've ever gone without porn, I think. I feel like, for the moment, it's no longer a huge burden. I still get urges and cravings, but I tend to handle the better than I did before. I also read more nowadays and feel more relaxed. Probably because of all the positive changes. I've been trying to be a bit more active on social media but I have a love-hate relationship with it. I don't want it to take over my life, but it's very useful for networking and getting freelance gigs. There's still a long way to go. I notice that I'm véry eager and that it's a bad thing. I need to learn how to calm down in a pinch, I think. My enthousiasm and good intentions tend to get the best of me and then I act like a fool or embarass myself. I went to Krav Maga last night and it felt soooo good. I'm happy I'll have a bit more time nowadays for stuff like that. I really feel like going part-time and trying to invest more time in myself and freelancing was the right way to go. I feel like I have more energy. Sure, on days that I'm at the office or in the weekends I have to burn twice as much fuel as any other person would because of all of the writing, household stuff, social life and freelancing on top of the office work. But now that there's a bit more time to do what I love and have quality me-time, I have more reserves. I'm happy. I'm learning a lot and I notice I still have A LOT to learn and a long way to go. But I feel like at the very least I started to take a step in the right direction. I guess I just have to keep putting one foot in front of the other, right? Recent highlight: Saw Captain Marvel last night at a midnight screening. OMFG. Please, everyone, go see this movie. 😮 Budget status: There's already about 370 saved up as spending money for Japan. It'd mainly be for food and entertainment and drinks. I have about 2400 on my savings account for imporant stuff in the coming months like rent and whatnot. And another 900 on my checkings account for Japan. I'm not really good at estimating if this is a healthy money situation or not >.> My one goal for tomorrow: Have a good therapy session with my mom and sister.
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    Maintenance of the PhoenixKing

    4/03/19 – 11 am - Days without games & porn: 15 Oh, god, the staycation was amazing. So laid back, so relaxed. Apparently there was so much stress pent up that the moment I got home on Friday night, I developed another herpes outbreak the moment I tried letting go of all the stress. I've heard of people getting sick in their first week of vacationing because the pent up stress kept them going in some way. It was all very lovely and lazy. Lots of Netflix, reading, Community, books, The Mask, Gourmet Samurai, going out for cocktails (where I might name of one their drinks!), walking, sex, free pizza, ... All in all, it was perfect. All very typical of Elien and me. We tend to have weird, cool shit happen to us. Our pizza got delivered wrongly, so I called up the pizza place and they delivered a new one. Left the old so, so free pizza for us! We went for a walk, just at random. And we ended up in a 1930's style cocktail bar. Usually the lines are huuuuuge. But we must have had impeccable timing and we just walked in. We sat next to a fireplace and the view through the windows was amazing. But I wanted to see the mixologists at work so we moved to the bar as soon as we could. I guess the dude kinda took a liking to me because when I ordered "the drink of the week" he told me that maybe I should come up with a name for it. I gave him my name on IG and about 20 cool names that had to do with the types of alcohol used, the color and flavor, the possible myth or story surrounding the drink, the whole shebang. It'd be cool to wipe "name a cocktail" off my bucket list! Elien was a delight. Funny, bubbly, adorable and supporting. We had a great talk about our relationship, slept in often, she's been so amazing. We've gotten very, very close to each other and there seem to be no red flags in sight. I feel like the luckiest dude in the world. Today is my first day that I'm at home, freelancing. I've got a phone call with a director in 30 minutes. Feedback for a gig I did a while back. I'll also be doing my household chores, do some writing work I've been postponing and most likely work on my D&D-universe. I also slept in this morning. I know it's my first day and I feel like I'm being lazy by not working 8h fully dedicated to the career. But I felt that it would be wiser to ease myself into it. I'm a very hard and demanding person when it comes to trying to achieve things. Normally I'd make a huge list and a big fuss of waking up at 6 am and relentlessly working away at it. This time, I just want to be kind and nice to myself and do whatever the fuck I want. As long as it makes me happy, or makes me money, preferably both. I want to be ambitious. But I don't want to overwork my own ass too much. There's much to be done but there's time. I don't need to drive myself crazy over it. I feel like, at least for now, if I do 1 thing that's useful towards my career and making money, it's been a proper day. The more I do it, the more I'll get better at it and will find more structure. And I'll be working a lot of weekends anyway so there's nothing wrong with taking it a bit easier on Mondays and Wednesdays when I'm at home 🙂 Look at me, being all mature and self-loving. Who ever thought I had it in me? Recent highlight: The entire staycation was amazing. Elien is amazing. And I now have a D&D-worldmap to play with. Life seems so good. Budget status: Was able to save some money last month. But I'm sure I'll probably spend a lot of it in Japan 😛 I'm still a tad worried about the money. On short term, we're fine. But I'm going on a crazy trip in 3 weeks so I hope I don't spend too much over there. My one goal for tomorrow: Try and get the Social Media at the office properly done.
  11. Phoenixking

    Journey to my white coat

    Ah, shit man, that sucks. But don't let this setback win from your motivation! You've been doing so well! Why did you think you relapsed?
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    Maintenance of the PhoenixKing

    28/02/19 – 11 pm - Days without games & porn: 11 The place has been cleaned and odd jobs are being taken care of right now. Everything that can't wait for 3 days, has been done right this evening. I didn't go to Krav Maga but after this evening, I can't imagine that I would have had any time to. I want to be able to take my mind off things this weekend, hence my work this evening. Starting from 4 pm tomorrow, I'll be on staycation! And we start anew this Monday as my first day as a part-timer. I'll be here, at home, doing what needs doing. I'm not sure yet how I'll fill my day, but I'm excited and I'm sure I'll totes find something to set my career forwards a step! Today was okay-ish. I spent the best part of the day training my replacement (who thought it was weird that I ironed my clothes and did my own laundry.. Like wtf? Who do you expect would do my household chores? My butler?) and missing my girl. We agreed to call each other but she kind of fell of the planet sinds this afternoon. I hope she's okay... She sometimes falls asleep, so I hope it's that. I'm getting a little bit worried so I might call her. I look forward to tomorrow. Staycation is going to be great! Recent highlight: My girl texting me throughout the day, being her hilarious self. Budget status: Did the math and it's now my second month of minding my budget. It's starting to look like my part-time job will cover my rent, my power bill and a half of my food bills. So my freelancing will need to make up for my 3-monthly insurance bill, gas, food, savings and all recreation. I'm not sure if that's a tall order or not... My one goal for tomorrow: Let go of eeeeeeeeverything at 4 pm and enjoy the staycation! ^^
  13. Phoenixking

    Journey to my white coat

    Dude, you're so detemined, it's starting to look like the guy from Taken was based on you!
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    Maintenance of the PhoenixKing

    28/02/19 – 11 am - Days without games & porn: 11 The gig was definitely something worth feeling redeemed about. I tend to forget how good I’ve mastered Scottish and Irish accents and characters. There was somebody from Glasgow in the crowd who kept complimenting me for how accurate it was. I hung out a bit afterwards with some fun people from Portugal and Slovenia afterwards. A cool night. I feel asleep after reading for the second time. I’m starting to enjoy my book more. I hope I can pick up the habit of reading before sleeping and let go of Netflix soon. I feel like it’d be a healthy move. I’ve been missing my girl a lot. We’ve both been swamped lately. Luckily, we’ll be calling each other tonigh and we’ve got a staycation-weekend ahead of us. Monday is my first day as a part-time freelancer and I’m hell bent to make the most of it. I wonder what I’ll get done that day. I’m skipping Krav Maga tonight again. I feel like it’s been ages since I’ve trained. My knees hurt because my muscles aren’t strong enough anymore. They inflame easily and therefor I need regular exercise. My body aches when I don’t do enough sporty stuff. But I’ll start picking it up again from next week on. Can’t do it tonight because I have no more clean clothes, I need to cook and clean up the place for the staycation. There’s also mails that need sending to producers that I met at the conference on Tuesday and the paperwork for the money of last night’s gig. If I can, I’d like to try and write. Recent highlight: Nailing the accents at the improv gig. I love playing in English. I’m almost funnier in English than I am in my native language. Budget status: This is the second entry I’m doing from work, so I don’t have acces to my budgeting file here. I did have a phone call with my power supplier, we’re going to check on the 22nd of March what we can do about lessening my power bills. I pay over 200 bucks and I feel like the average my friends pay is half. So I called to change it but they could only offer me a cut of 10%. I pressed on to figure out why it’s such a high bill and it turns out they calculated the average use of the past years. But I’ve only lived there for a few months and I don’t even have a tv. So I have to be a more frugal power user. Anyway, we’ll see next month and I want to see that bill reduced and get the money back that I overpaid! My one goal for tomorrow: Call the girlfriend. Do useful stuff after I get home.
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    Dear Diary...

    This went from millenial to #woke in 2 seconds.
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