Mohammad Posted March 13, 2020 Author Posted March 13, 2020 Day 137 to 195: No gaming! Have been doing great! Got a internship program: working and studying at the same time. I read two books on stocks and now that the stocks are crashing, I am gradually buying into it! Planning to graduate by September 2020 Despite all the pessimism around the world, I am very optimistic about the future. We'll get over this within a year for sure. Wishing the best for everyone. 2
Mohammad Posted May 16, 2020 Author Posted May 16, 2020 It is so painful to admit that I failed after 200 days of not gaming! It is been a month that I started to play games occasionally. It is still under control, but I know that this is a trap. I have good reasons not play games. My son is now two years and I have accomplished a lot in the past year. I do not want to go back to the misery of addiction. I will start a new 90-day detox and we'll see how far I'll go this time. Day 1: No gaming 1
BooksandTrees Posted May 16, 2020 Posted May 16, 2020 3 hours ago, Mohammad said: It is so painful to admit that I failed after 200 days of not gaming! It is been a month that I started to play games occasionally. It is still under control, but I know that this is a trap. I have good reasons not play games. My son is now two years and I have accomplished a lot in the past year. I do not want to go back to the misery of addiction. I will start a new 90-day detox and we'll see how far I'll go this time. Day 1: No gaming It's ok. This is such a difficult time. Just know tomorrow is a new day. Brain fog goes away. Day 50 feels the same as day 564. You got this.
Realworlder Posted May 16, 2020 Posted May 16, 2020 20 hours ago, Mohammad said: It is so painful to admit that I failed after 200 days of not gaming! It is been a month that I started to play games occasionally. It is still under control, but I know that this is a trap. I have good reasons not play games. My son is now two years and I have accomplished a lot in the past year. I do not want to go back to the misery of addiction. I will start a new 90-day detox and we'll see how far I'll go this time. Day 1: No gaming It's incredible that you went 200 days without gaming. If you were able to do it in the past, you can do it again and even for longer! All the best! 🙂
Mohammad Posted July 16, 2020 Author Posted July 16, 2020 Yes, that happened again. The balanced gaming strategy didn't work and I ended up wasting all my free time in the past month. It is so painful to admit it but I am happy to failing forward. I accomplished a lot in the previous detox program; 200 days without gaming when I was heavily focused on my personal growth, both mental and physical. From today, I am starting a new detox program in which I want to exceed my previous record. I am doing this because I love myself and my son and I know this what I have to do. Day 1 with no gaming. focusing all my energy on personal development for a greater future that I have faith in. 1
Mohammad Posted July 18, 2020 Author Posted July 18, 2020 Day 2,3: No gaming. I start my day with a real promise to myself that I do not play games today. This helps me keep away from distraction for the day and focus on my long term goals.
BooksandTrees Posted July 20, 2020 Posted July 20, 2020 I think you might find more success and support by interacting with other people's diaries on here. I don't mean to sound rude, or tell you how to recover. I just find reading and learning from others has helped me improve my healing and reinforce it. Welcome back and good luck. 1
Mohammad Posted July 31, 2020 Author Posted July 31, 2020 On 7/20/2020 at 11:08 AM, BooksandTrees said: I think you might find more success and support by interacting with other people's diaries on here. I don't mean to sound rude, or tell you how to recover. I just find reading and learning from others has helped me improve my healing and reinforce it. Welcome back and good luck. Thank you. I will try to spend more time on game quitters for a few weeks to experience it.
Mohammad Posted July 31, 2020 Author Posted July 31, 2020 Let's try it again: this is the second day with no games.
Mohammad Posted August 2, 2020 Author Posted August 2, 2020 Day 3,4: no game. I have been spending time with family and working/studying/exercising.
BooksandTrees Posted August 2, 2020 Posted August 2, 2020 What keeps bringing you back to gaming and what don't you like about gaming that keeps bringing you back to this website? I feel like you're in a cycle. 3
Mohammad Posted August 16, 2020 Author Posted August 16, 2020 On 8/2/2020 at 11:58 AM, BooksandTrees said: What keeps bringing you back to gaming and what don't you like about gaming that keeps bringing you back to this website? I feel like you're in a cycle. True. I am in a vicious cycle. Pandemic forced me to stay home and it triggered my gaming habit after 200 days of detoxing! It is fun to play but I cannot keep a balanced gaming routine. I know I have to abandon it altogether unless otherwise I will sacrifice my health, family, well being and future for the immediate pleasure. I think my biggest problem is that I do not have a barrier between myself and the games. I am home behind my desk and the temptation is too strong to deal with. 1
Mohammad Posted August 17, 2020 Author Posted August 17, 2020 Starting over, this is the third day of a new detox. Hope it goes well this time. 1
Mohammad Posted August 18, 2020 Author Posted August 18, 2020 Day 4: No gaming. I am doing okay these days; exercising, reading and studying. 1
Mohammad Posted August 19, 2020 Author Posted August 19, 2020 Day 5: I played for 30 mints last night but I think it is okay. I will try not to game again, and if it happens again, I will restart the detox.
BooksandTrees Posted August 19, 2020 Posted August 19, 2020 What caused you to game and why did you accept it? 1
Mohammad Posted August 19, 2020 Author Posted August 19, 2020 1 hour ago, BooksandTrees said: What caused you to game and why did you accept it? I think because I was bored and also I was physically exhausted. I came back from an hour of cycling. I wanted to start reading for half an hour before going to bed but ended up playing in that time frame! The temptation can happen really quickly as there are not enough barriers between me and games.
MuMuMelon Posted August 19, 2020 Posted August 19, 2020 Not trying to tell you how to live your life but might I suggest that you delete all your games? Change your passwords, etc. It just doesn't sound like you are creating many barriers and then it becomes easy to just play. If you really want to quit get rid of them. If they aren't there it becomes a lot easier to not play them. 2
Mohammad Posted August 20, 2020 Author Posted August 20, 2020 4 hours ago, MuMuMelon said: Not trying to tell you how to live your life but might I suggest that you delete all your games? Change your passwords, etc. It just doesn't sound like you are creating many barriers and then it becomes easy to just play. If you really want to quit get rid of them. If they aren't there it becomes a lot easier to not play them. I have all the games deleted, for sure. However, it takes half an hour to download and install them so the barrier isn't wide enough. I even sold my gaming laptop a year ago and I am now using a computer without a dedicated graphics card. I removed all my in-game progress a year ago but then I started from scratch. So, basically none of them was a real barrier that I cannot break when I am tempted.
BooksandTrees Posted August 20, 2020 Posted August 20, 2020 1 hour ago, Mohammad said: I have all the games deleted, for sure. However, it takes half an hour to download and install them so the barrier isn't wide enough. I even sold my gaming laptop a year ago and I am now using a computer without a dedicated graphics card. I removed all my in-game progress a year ago but then I started from scratch. So, basically none of them was a real barrier that I cannot break when I am tempted. What do you think about reading what you just wrote? I'm just wondering why you are trying to quit games in the first place. Maybe you need to reaffirm your reasons to hold yourself accountable during these times. Not trying to be rude.
MuMuMelon Posted August 20, 2020 Posted August 20, 2020 2 hours ago, Mohammad said: I have all the games deleted, for sure. However, it takes half an hour to download and install them so the barrier isn't wide enough. I even sold my gaming laptop a year ago and I am now using a computer without a dedicated graphics card. I removed all my in-game progress a year ago but then I started from scratch. So, basically none of them was a real barrier that I cannot break when I am tempted. I totally get it. There were definitely times in my life where my game cravings were so strong that I would play on whatever was available. Budget PC, Phone, classic console, etc. When you really want to game these days it's incredibly easy to find a way. I hope you can find a way to push past these cravings. You've been here for a while so I know that you are aware of trying new hobbies, making new patterns, etc. Is something triggering you? Are you under more stress than usual? (I mean these are certainly stressful times.) This is not judgement in any way. I hope you find the strength inside yourself to do this because it sounds like you really want to quit.
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