September 11, 20205 yr Author Day 9 (Sep. 11): I am doing well today as well. I have no temptation for gaming which is awesome 🙂
September 13, 20205 yr Author Day 10 (Sep. 12th):  I had an okay day today. I am feeling a little tempted to play some games! I guess I am a little bored with life. There is not much I can do at this time. I spend most of my day with my family. I did some exercises, and read books for 1.5 hours.  I need to remember and focus on my feelings after gaming. Gaming destroys my self confidence and has to be avoided at all cost!
September 13, 20205 yr Author Day 11 (Sep. 13):  I did not play last night even though I was very bored. I was not sure how to pass the time. I felt down and could not focus much on my work. Anyway, I procrastinated a little bit in the social media and read for half an hour before going to bed. That was such a big accomplishment in my view because I was depressed and bored but yet did not game.  Today, I am feeling better and motivated. I will try to use any second of my time to move forward for my goals and dreams.
September 14, 20205 yr Author Day 12 (Sep. 14th): I am feeling good today. I am a little stressed out but overall, I am doing good. Today, I want to spend more time on spirituality. I need a bit of mental relaxation and healing.Â
September 16, 20205 yr Author Day 13,14 (Sep. 15,16th): I played again on Sep. 15th. In fact, I did not do anything productive that day which is a shame! However, I am back on track again so that was a short relapse. Hopefully, IÂ can avoid another relapse. I am feeling motivated today which is good. Edited September 16, 20205 yr by Mohammad
September 19, 20205 yr Author Day 15, 16 (Sep.17, 18th): I did not game in these two days. I did well, stayed focused and motivated.Â
September 22, 20205 yr Author Day 17, 18 and 19 (Sep. 19 to 21): Thankfully, I was too busy to think about gaming! 🙂 Gaming did not even cross my mind, which is great! I have to stay busy 😄 Edited September 22, 20205 yr by Mohammad
September 23, 20205 yr Author Okay, I fell for it again last night! I think it was okay though. After 20 days of hard work, gaming for 2-3 hours is acceptable if I am not doing it again at least for a week or two. Regardless, I have to reset this detox. This is nothing but painful to start over 😞 That 2-3 hours wasted on gaming was the time I should have spent on workout and reading. Â
September 23, 20205 yr 43 minutes ago, Mohammad said: I think it was okay though. After 20 days of hard work, gaming for 2-3 hours is acceptable if I am not doing it again at least for a week or two. Hello. You are making excuses. Every time I started making excuses I ended up with failure. I don’t suggest you starting it. Maybe you should reconsider your goals or something. P.S. I am no one to actually tell you what to do, just think of it as an advise.Â
September 24, 20205 yr Author 20 hours ago, WhoCares said: Hello. You are making excuses. Every time I started making excuses I ended up with failure. I don’t suggest you starting it. Maybe you should reconsider your goals or something. P.S. I am no one to actually tell you what to do, just think of it as an advise. That is definitely correct and I have to stop the temptations before late. I know its gonna ruin my life before I know it. Thanks for the advice.Â
September 24, 20205 yr Author Starting over with day 1 of detox: I did resist the temptation to game last night. I am going to focus on my goals and reasons why I have to abandon gaming and let that instant gratification goes away.
September 25, 20205 yr Author I played again! I can't believe why it should be so hard to stop gaming for ever! I have been struggling with this more than a year now! wow unbelievable!
October 2, 20205 yr Author I played again on the 5th day! and this is the second day of a new detox. I know I have to abandon it.Â
October 4, 20205 yr Author I have to start again. I am feeling bad for myself. I went back to all my post from beginning and remember those days with no gaming. I had more than six months without gaming. I can do it again. I have to make myself more discipline.Â
October 4, 20205 yr Author I will force myself to read for 30 mints and workout for 30 mints as well. I will post my daily progress here. I found gaming is linked to lose sight of my long term goals. Being physically fit and knowledgeable are what I am passionate about. For that, it is clear why I start gaming whenever I stop doing my workout and reading my books.Â
October 5, 20205 yr Author Day 1: No gaming - Workout and reading books. Very good day. I am sick today. I have sore throat, hopefully, it is not Covid-19!
October 16, 20205 yr Author have to start over! Â I can't believe what I am doing with my life! I spent the last few days gaming all day while my son was at daycare. I can't tolerate myself anymore this way. I need to change. I think I need create some barriers with my games. I submitted a ticket for deletion of my steam account. They need 30 days to remove the account! I put an end to it this time for real. Â Â
October 19, 20205 yr Author  Thank you @BooksandTrees. You are correct. I think I need to be guided in the direction by experienced users like you. May I ask some personal questions to connect with you? questions like where you are from, how old are you and what is your education (do you hold a master degree?) and what are you doing at work? I was interested to know that you are a Structural Engineer. I am a geotechnical Engineer (still in school doing a PhD) and about to graduate. I kind of know why I am relapsing. I do not have the replacement for gaming. There are nights that I feel bored and I want to satisfy myself. when I doing well for a week or two, I think I deserve to satisfy myself with some fun. However, there is not much I can do at this time. The weather is getting cold here in Canada. It was easier in Summer; I used to go cycling every night. So in short, I need some serious boosts in pleasure that is available through gaming for me. The first few games I play after a two-week break is super fun. But, things turn out bad when I continue gaming and it gets out of control pretty soon. I ended up feeling miserable and useless after few days. The reason that I have to quit is also clear to me. I know gaming destroys me in all aspects of life, mentally and physically. I feel very responsible for my life and my son's future. As I explained, I know where this relapse is coming from, but I am not able to replace something to give me the same boosts of happiness, challenge and excitement. I appreciate if you can elaborate on this. Thank you.  Edited October 19, 20205 yr by Mohammad
October 19, 20205 yr Author This is the fourth days with no gaming. So far, I was doing great. Very productive and content. I wrote my feelings after the last relapse when I was feeling miserable. I am forcing myself to read that every day to remind myself what happens if I game again. I want to take this more seriously now because I think it is getting late - its been two years I am struggling with gaming. I cannot continue relapsing every 10 days and have to take things more seriously.
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