Mohammad Posted September 11, 2020 Author Posted September 11, 2020 Day 9 (Sep. 11): I am doing well today as well. I have no temptation for gaming which is awesome 🙂
Mohammad Posted September 13, 2020 Author Posted September 13, 2020 Day 10 (Sep. 12th): I had an okay day today. I am feeling a little tempted to play some games! I guess I am a little bored with life. There is not much I can do at this time. I spend most of my day with my family. I did some exercises, and read books for 1.5 hours. I need to remember and focus on my feelings after gaming. Gaming destroys my self confidence and has to be avoided at all cost! 1
Mohammad Posted September 13, 2020 Author Posted September 13, 2020 Day 11 (Sep. 13): I did not play last night even though I was very bored. I was not sure how to pass the time. I felt down and could not focus much on my work. Anyway, I procrastinated a little bit in the social media and read for half an hour before going to bed. That was such a big accomplishment in my view because I was depressed and bored but yet did not game. Today, I am feeling better and motivated. I will try to use any second of my time to move forward for my goals and dreams. 1
Mohammad Posted September 14, 2020 Author Posted September 14, 2020 Day 12 (Sep. 14th): I am feeling good today. I am a little stressed out but overall, I am doing good. Today, I want to spend more time on spirituality. I need a bit of mental relaxation and healing.
Mohammad Posted September 16, 2020 Author Posted September 16, 2020 (edited) Day 13,14 (Sep. 15,16th): I played again on Sep. 15th. In fact, I did not do anything productive that day which is a shame! However, I am back on track again so that was a short relapse. Hopefully, I can avoid another relapse. I am feeling motivated today which is good. Edited September 16, 2020 by Mohammad
Mohammad Posted September 19, 2020 Author Posted September 19, 2020 Day 15, 16 (Sep.17, 18th): I did not game in these two days. I did well, stayed focused and motivated.
Mohammad Posted September 22, 2020 Author Posted September 22, 2020 (edited) Day 17, 18 and 19 (Sep. 19 to 21): Thankfully, I was too busy to think about gaming! 🙂 Gaming did not even cross my mind, which is great! I have to stay busy 😄 Edited September 22, 2020 by Mohammad 2
royal panda Posted September 22, 2020 Posted September 22, 2020 That's great! Glad it's going good for you 1
Mohammad Posted September 23, 2020 Author Posted September 23, 2020 Okay, I fell for it again last night! I think it was okay though. After 20 days of hard work, gaming for 2-3 hours is acceptable if I am not doing it again at least for a week or two. Regardless, I have to reset this detox. This is nothing but painful to start over 😞 That 2-3 hours wasted on gaming was the time I should have spent on workout and reading.
Max Posted September 23, 2020 Posted September 23, 2020 43 minutes ago, Mohammad said: I think it was okay though. After 20 days of hard work, gaming for 2-3 hours is acceptable if I am not doing it again at least for a week or two. Hello. You are making excuses. Every time I started making excuses I ended up with failure. I don’t suggest you starting it. Maybe you should reconsider your goals or something. P.S. I am no one to actually tell you what to do, just think of it as an advise. 1
Mohammad Posted September 24, 2020 Author Posted September 24, 2020 20 hours ago, WhoCares said: Hello. You are making excuses. Every time I started making excuses I ended up with failure. I don’t suggest you starting it. Maybe you should reconsider your goals or something. P.S. I am no one to actually tell you what to do, just think of it as an advise. That is definitely correct and I have to stop the temptations before late. I know its gonna ruin my life before I know it. Thanks for the advice. 1
Mohammad Posted September 24, 2020 Author Posted September 24, 2020 Starting over with day 1 of detox: I did resist the temptation to game last night. I am going to focus on my goals and reasons why I have to abandon gaming and let that instant gratification goes away. 1
Mohammad Posted September 25, 2020 Author Posted September 25, 2020 I played again! I can't believe why it should be so hard to stop gaming for ever! I have been struggling with this more than a year now! wow unbelievable!
Mohammad Posted September 26, 2020 Author Posted September 26, 2020 Day 1: No gaming. Starting over to stop gaming for the better.
Mohammad Posted October 2, 2020 Author Posted October 2, 2020 I played again on the 5th day! and this is the second day of a new detox. I know I have to abandon it.
Mohammad Posted October 4, 2020 Author Posted October 4, 2020 I have to start again. I am feeling bad for myself. I went back to all my post from beginning and remember those days with no gaming. I had more than six months without gaming. I can do it again. I have to make myself more discipline.
Mohammad Posted October 4, 2020 Author Posted October 4, 2020 I will force myself to read for 30 mints and workout for 30 mints as well. I will post my daily progress here. I found gaming is linked to lose sight of my long term goals. Being physically fit and knowledgeable are what I am passionate about. For that, it is clear why I start gaming whenever I stop doing my workout and reading my books.
Mohammad Posted October 5, 2020 Author Posted October 5, 2020 Day 1: No gaming - Workout and reading books. Very good day. I am sick today. I have sore throat, hopefully, it is not Covid-19!
Mohammad Posted October 7, 2020 Author Posted October 7, 2020 Day 2: No gaming did workout and read books
Mohammad Posted October 8, 2020 Author Posted October 8, 2020 Day 3: No gaming. did my daily workout goal
Mohammad Posted October 16, 2020 Author Posted October 16, 2020 have to start over! I can't believe what I am doing with my life! I spent the last few days gaming all day while my son was at daycare. I can't tolerate myself anymore this way. I need to change. I think I need create some barriers with my games. I submitted a ticket for deletion of my steam account. They need 30 days to remove the account! I put an end to it this time for real. 1
Mohammad Posted October 19, 2020 Author Posted October 19, 2020 (edited) Thank you @BooksandTrees. You are correct. I think I need to be guided in the direction by experienced users like you. May I ask some personal questions to connect with you? questions like where you are from, how old are you and what is your education (do you hold a master degree?) and what are you doing at work? I was interested to know that you are a Structural Engineer. I am a geotechnical Engineer (still in school doing a PhD) and about to graduate. I kind of know why I am relapsing. I do not have the replacement for gaming. There are nights that I feel bored and I want to satisfy myself. when I doing well for a week or two, I think I deserve to satisfy myself with some fun. However, there is not much I can do at this time. The weather is getting cold here in Canada. It was easier in Summer; I used to go cycling every night. So in short, I need some serious boosts in pleasure that is available through gaming for me. The first few games I play after a two-week break is super fun. But, things turn out bad when I continue gaming and it gets out of control pretty soon. I ended up feeling miserable and useless after few days. The reason that I have to quit is also clear to me. I know gaming destroys me in all aspects of life, mentally and physically. I feel very responsible for my life and my son's future. As I explained, I know where this relapse is coming from, but I am not able to replace something to give me the same boosts of happiness, challenge and excitement. I appreciate if you can elaborate on this. Thank you. Edited October 19, 2020 by Mohammad 2
Mohammad Posted October 19, 2020 Author Posted October 19, 2020 This is the fourth days with no gaming. So far, I was doing great. Very productive and content. I wrote my feelings after the last relapse when I was feeling miserable. I am forcing myself to read that every day to remind myself what happens if I game again. I want to take this more seriously now because I think it is getting late - its been two years I am struggling with gaming. I cannot continue relapsing every 10 days and have to take things more seriously. 1
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