DaBest 809 Posted January 14, 2020 Author Share Posted January 14, 2020 Day 262 No VG - 262 days, no sports news - 6 days, NF - 1 day, SOB - 43 days, NNO59 - 11 days, NIA1030 - 8 days, NLAF - 16 days, NSOC - 15 days, Meditation - 14 days, will do after this. [No Internet Saturdays, Post-It Weekends] @BooksandTrees, yeah, I don't really go much out of my way in terms of treating myself. If anything, I might choose mini-vacations this year as my treat. I barely used any vacation last year because I completely misplanned. I'm not a very material person, but I do appreciate experiences much more. I'm aiming to do this every few months to recharge and explore and add some desparately needed adventure to my life. With regards to adding more communities, but right now I'd like to just focus on making my main three feel like real communities. The stress from improv has gone down quite a bit, and it definitely feels more laid back. For me, I usually feel more restored by spending time with people I truly like, and the activity isn't the main thing. Still I'll give it some thought for the future though. I'll touch on my main plan of attack below. --- Work was interesting. Yeah. Therapy was also interesting. I talked about how I felt so overwhelmed with dumb stuff over the weekend. As we talked, things didn't really get too deep, since as I was talking, I was pretty much able to confirm my plan of action and why I was acting that way, or so I think. Essentially, I feel overblown by small stuff since I still act like a child in some ways and find it easier to ignore reality and hope someone or something else will take care of my issues. Therefore, the best course of action is to build a new identity around fixing my issues and facing them, which similar to work, I'll have to start prioritizing things in my day which make me feel anxious. Conquering these usually gives me the greatest sense of accomplishment and reduces my anxiety better than anything else I know. The initial effort needed in these endeavors are quite high, but the rewards are greatest. I also had a venting session about my father. I've felt feelings of anger just bubbling up recently, and my therapist has keyed in on that in a couple of sessions. I elaborated on some things. He had a really interesting comment on being a model for my father, and not the other way around, which was oddly inspiring and interesting to contemplate. I'm really too tired to go into a long life story and my relationship with my father, but it hasn't been good. Being able to discuss this today felt like a mini-catharsis. I might have to explore this more. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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