DaBest 809 Posted December 14, 2015 Share Posted December 14, 2015 (edited) Day 0.Let me keep this short and sweet. I am a grossly underemployed college graduate (my own fault) suffering from a lack of self-control and self-discipline to do what I need to do to get a job in my major field. I am incredibly averse to working hard on my own, especially now that I’m out of school and that there are no grades I can cram for and get the most amount of credit for the least amount of effort—I coasted really hard in my education and I really regret it. My self-discipline and self-control issues mostly manifest itself in screen addiction, which includes the Internet, TV, sports, political news and video games. Ironically, the video game issue is actually the least of these issues, as I gave up gaming about 5 years ago, and only really suffered a significant relapse this past summer, but one I thankfully got past. I started using screens as a coping mechanism to tune out of abusive home and school environments back when I was a kid, and I never gave it up once things started getting better on both fronts.For the most of this year, and especially the last 5 months, I have really worked hard to cut out this crap habit from my life, and I have failed over and over again, and I will keep doing so and trying new things until I finally accomplish my goals. I need to improve my attitude, and I feel that public accountability could be a useful tool to help accomplish that. So here are my goals:1) Develop my self-control, and especially develop my self-discipline.2) Ditch the screen habit forever.3) Get a job in my major field and become an all-around kick-ass individual, thanks to my discipline.4) Document my triumphs and failures here—and PLEASE call me out on my BS!For right now I just want to do a post a day, minimum of one sentence for the next seven days, similar to the small steps techniques for building habits that I’ve read about from Leo Babauta (but I always ignored it, biting off more than I can chew.)I know this journal won’t focus on gaming all too heavily (I still get urges, obviously), but I feel my problem is very similar, just manifested slightly different. I hope that anyone who reads this can find value in the rest of the journal.Wish me luck and thanks for reading!And for the record, I will beat this. Edited December 14, 2015 by DaBest 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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