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Writing articles on content mill websites is a rough business. I have some -- very few -- ideas how to make it work, but mehhh.

I have so many other ideas, lol. But can't even begin working on them before I establish at least a basic income.

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I really read the whole article about peaceful trolling. I also read some of the other posts and looked at those pictures in this topic. I even read another article in your "Uncanny Thoughts" blog, though I had to check the meaning of "uncanny" first. It is a blog you write to entertain yourself.

When I look at the facebook accounts of my friends and relatives, I see a lot of self-presentation. Before internet, the press would hunt down any information and pictures of celebrities they could get. Now in the days of the internet, everyone can be a celebrity via facebook or a blog. You can get insights to their thoughts and private pictures. However, due to almost everyone doing it, you need to stand out from the crowd. So the self-presentation gets extreme. Either you are really good at something and impress people, or you are really gross and disgust people. But people like to look down on someone and they like the abnormal. So this is the more easy way to get attention.

But why crave for attention in the first place? Attention from people far away, doing the same thing you do: sitting in front of their computer.

I met a lot of people in online games when I was younger. I was quite naive and believed everything I was told at first. Then I realised that people like to tell stories all the time and the distance the internet provides makes it hard to prove if everything is true. But why do people invent stories or try to pimp their lifes otherwise? In our time it is important to be an individual. As you pointed out in your blog, it is not crucial anymore to be part of a tribe. Before the rise of individuality it was important to keep a low profile, now you need to stand out from the crowd. Does this apply even more when you are from a country that is not in the focus of world politics and media? The internet gives you the feeling to be a part of the worlds community, though in fact you are not. If you watch yourself from outside your body, you just see yourself sitting in front of your screen. The magic happens inside your head. And some day this magic will fade away. What then? What if your screen goes black? Just try it for some minutes. Turn off your computer and just sit in front of that black screen. Are you still part of the internet community? Does anyone still care for you?

Which options remain? You can be prominent in real life. Invest all your energy into something you want to show the world and get recognized for it. You can get really sportive and win the olympic games. Or you write a poem, some other kind of literature or a masterpiece of music that tops the charts for weeks. Do you remember the name of anyone that has one the Olympics? This glory vanishes like everything else. And even if you would remember a name, like Shakespear, you never knew this person personally. It is just a name. Who needs his name to be famous if no one can connect that name to who you have been once.

You are not much older than me, about one and a half year. I assume, thinking is an uncanny process, that can bring you nowhere but in realms that are full of emotions you want to avoid as much as possible. It is too bad that you and I quit the only reliable method of escaping this process that does not get you killed sooner or later.

How would it be to lead a life that is void of any event worth telling about? Will we ever know, since no one will tell us about it? Is thinking addictive and destructive like gaming and alcohol? Should we start "Think Quitters"?

I think not.

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There are two components:

- Content

- Marketing

Most people are incapable of creating original, engaging content, so what they try to do is boost the marketing side. Hence you see kids screaming at video games on YT because AVGN started doing this more than a decade ago now. But they don't have his personality, so it's all useless, or they can, at best, pander to other terrible, boring, and normal kids whose imaginations and entire personalities are similarly void. And then you get people like PewPew, or what's his name.

Exceptional individuals always existed, but now actually becoming one is easier because we have all those resources like practically unlimited food, drinking water, and internet. In ancient times, for example, the vast majority of Greeks were uneducated peasants with an average lifespan of 30 years and absolutely no way of furthering themselves.

Even if you're not exceptional, and most of us aren't, you can still strive towards excellence in your own field and according to your own standards. Even a person with a IQ of 70 can still go and be the best janitor in town and derive pride from that.

 

 

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Our lives may be finite, but that's just another reason why we should live them for ourselves and no one else.

If WoW could provide the best possible experience of life, I'd still play it and would continue doing so until the end. (And if I felt terribly comfortable as a member of any sort of preset, conventional tribe, I'd stick to that too.)

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You are not much older than me, about one and a half year. I assume, thinking is an uncanny process, that can bring you nowhere but in realms that are full of emotions you want to avoid as much as possible. It is too bad that you and I quit the only reliable method of escaping this process that does not get you killed sooner or later.

While videogames are a reliable method which must of us a very used to, there´s a whole world to explore.
How many hobbies have we developed so much as videogames, really? Probably just work and school can compete in the time invested.

How would it be to lead a life that is void of any event worth telling about? Will we ever know, since no one will tell us about it? Is thinking addictive and destructive like gaming and alcohol? Should we start "Think Quitters"?

I think not.

Thinking too much can be dangerous, it´s better to live and experiment life.

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I don't understand how people are struggling with girls, tbh.

Once you set your things in order and are reasonably active, you attract girls into your life simply by existing. I mean, you still have to actually go talk to them, but come on.

I think a lot of insecurity and suboptimal behavior around girls stems from believing in "the one" myth and the fear that you may potentially screw things up with "the one". Once you realize such person doesn't exist, it's much easier to develop the type of confidence girls find irresistible. And then there's also just not caring all that much in general; you don't need love in your life to be happy. You barely need sex, tbh.

It's basically one of those things you can have in any amount once you stop wanting them so badly.

One general tip would be that it's always better to appear too brash, too confident than being too nice. You can add playfulness to it if you like, but it doesn't even matter all that much. This will repel some girls, but the net result will be far greater than being friendly will ever get you.

And once you establish a certain frame with the girl, you can drop it to a large degree as long as you don't become a whimpering dog as a result. Girls love nothing more than thinking they're the only ones to see and understand your "gentle side".

(Some PUAs will tell you that "the game never ends" and that you must always keep guard or the evil woman will try to subdue and then discard you, but that's generally false or a simplification at very best. Women, despite their best efforts to prove otherwise at times, are people capable of being responsible and involved relationships as well.)

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The game never ends, buy my new product, how to attract women when you are 70!

Struggling with girls perhaps is due to lack education and weak male figures. I never had a real talk with my father about getting girls. Granted I never asked but I'm sure there was a time when fathers would talk with their sons about their worries and problems. He probably gave me the most awkward and shortest talk about condoms when I was 22. (I started using them at 17).

Nowdays you have a problem, you ask google. Parents are busy all the time.

 

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The game never ends, buy my new product, how to attract women when you are 70!

Struggling with girls perhaps is due to lack education and weak male figures. I never had a real talk with my father about getting girls. Granted I never asked but I'm sure there was a time when fathers would talk with their sons about their worries and problems. He probably gave me the most awkward and shortest talk about condoms when I was 22. (I started using them at 17).

Nowdays you have a problem, you ask google. Parents are busy all the time.

 

Same here.

My parents met when they were 16, and that was basically it :^). This has many advantages, tbh, but won't, at least in itself, make you very good with women. On the other hand, my father is one of those people capable of talking about anything with anyone, and I'm positive he could've been very successful with girls if things went differently for him.

The only life advice my father ever gave me was to work hard.

Which is an okay advice, but I needed a lot more back then. They did the best with what they knew, and all it all it would've been more than enough for a normal, less troubled kid. It is what it is.

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But today was completely fucking terrible; most of the time, I was too tired to even sit. All I did today was write thousand words and go for a walk. It's two things I've set myself on doing no matter what.

I'm not even entirely sure what triggered it. My depression seems to be something I can't fully control since I've stopped gaming, and I know this is outside the scope of this forum. I'm at around day 77 or so (need to check); somehow I feel the 90 day post won't be as fantastic as I thought it would be when I started this. It was worth it even so.

 

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Have you considered seeing doctor? I refused taking medication for more than a year until I finally accepted I couldn´t beat my depression. This was the hardest step so far.
My girlfriend encouraged me to do it after all my failed attempts to beat my depression. It´s probably a good a idea to talk to your family or best friend about this.

I have been taking medication for about 3 months now. It isn´t even a controlled drug. I do however visit government subsidized hospital to see an specialist (psychiatrist) each month. 

The medication and Gamequitters are really helping me a lot. However I would like to stop the medication once I don´t need it.
You can always use the natural methods:

  • Physical Activity
  • Getting enough sunlight
  • Eating Fish
  • Having Sex
  • Setting goals and accomplishing them
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I'll make an appointment with a psychiatrist soon. It comes and goes in waves it seems, but it's also slowly getting worse. I can't do anything like this.

Today I spent about 90 minutes studying PHP and I almost jumped through the window even though the entire course is piss easy. I can't be even bothered with explaining it all right now since I'm so tired; I'll do it tomorrow.

Right now, it's simply impossible for me to be as productive as a remotely normal person can be. It's ridiculous, and I can't live like this any more. I have the ability to understand complex concepts and draw my own conclusions; it's just that the actual learning and memorizing part has always been insanely difficult to me, sometimes bordering on impossible.

It's this and depression that I'm left with after coming close to finishing my detox. All in all, my life is worse right now.

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Today was better. Now I'm tired and completely unable to focus. I've managed to write and study for a somewhat decent amount of time at least.

Maybe I can do more today after some kind of a rest.

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Seems like you going through a sucky phase right now. but dealing with it will open up the possibility to overcome this obstacle. The first-aid solution alias WoW won't do this for you. Good Job on staying strong. Update us about that psychiatrists thing and if it helps you. It seems like a good idea. Depression is nothing to take lightly.

 

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We play games because we feel miserable. We don't feel miserable because we play games. So when we quit playing games, we still feel miserable.

Games are not the problem but also not the solution. I felt really shitty today, despite the fact that I was able to withstand which should make me proud. But withstanding is no positive action. It is still focused on the thing you try to withstand. Maybe one has to focus on withstanding through something positive that works distracting.

I got the feeling, that you still delve into anything that has to do with gaming. At least you still write about that in your blog. Maybe you should focus more on that emo girl thing or whatever else you are interested in?

 

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