Jason70

Nice job powering through the 10-11 hours. If i were you i'd be absolutely exhausted. Congrats, I'm happy for you! Since we both struggle with this, what tactics did you use to start giving it up? Otherwise I'm proud Jason

Congratulations on getting back with your partner! Also I'm excited for you to be more active here again but come here whenever you want, we'll be here! Best Jason

@Bird By Birdyeah you're right, i guess i was getting ahead of myself. Word for the day - Abase Definition: to humiliate or degrade Day 6 Phone for most of the day but finished it off by going outside and doing some homework. Tomorrow will be a lot of homework, but once i do it, i will be able to finish it. Looked up a rock climbing place near me, is surprisingly open until 9:30 at night so might head over there on the weekend and see what it's like. Other than rock climbing, I've always been interested in learning an instrument, and when i do i could possibly start a band, not aiming for anything big, but just playing to play, maybe do some local shows? But I'll focus on the rock climbing first and my personal habits. Looking forward to a good day tomorrow. Realized that doing one thing at a time or focusing gives more time to recover from gaming during the detox, you can't just expect you to be all productive after the first day of quitting

Welcome to the forums! You have started in the right direction with quitting games! I'm glad for the first two days things went well for you, but be aware that it's not always going to be easy in the first few days, it can be tough at points. I wish you luck, and hope you can shake this addiction! Best Jason

Day 6 (tidbit) Not much happened yet, phone again and so because I don't want to just quit games and then go on my phone, i watched Cam's vid again on how to stop mindlessly browsing the internet and how to stop consuming content. I watched these before but I never really took in the information. However today, i realized one reason why i quit games and what i wanted to change. Gaming has always given me the community. The people also playing games. This isn't related to games but since gaming deteriorated my speaking skills and i was bullied i became friends with anyone who i knew would talk to me but that was a mistake. I got rid of two of them and now I'm trying to get rid of the third one who is only dragging me down and doesn't actually insist on keeping the friendship going. But what the how to stop mindlessly browsing the internet taught me was that for socializing find activities where i can meet people. Like i mentioned before rock climbing. For the how to stop consuming content video. Since I want to write, while reading is important, it also is just consuming content and not actually writing. So besides journaling, I'm going to learn 1 new dictionary word a day and then upload a short story a day, and you guys can give me feedback. This way instead of just reading, I'm going to be writing too. This video also made me realize that school is pretty much consuming content too. Not college so much as i can take classes I'm passionate in, but for the specific job and high school we're just learn things that aren't necessary for the person we want to be. Sure school is important but it's just consumption, like come on. In high school i learned about exponential regressions, now besides a math person and maybe scientist, who is going to use that? Anyway, that was my tidbit for the day

I am so sorry amchow. This is an awful thing, i hope the treatment helps, despite it blocking certain hormone production. I'm glad you're being there for her as support is crucial in these moments. I listened to an interview of a cancer survivor and I learned so much more than i had. The thing that came up most was support. Despite that I'm glad you're chugging along I send my prayers to your mom and my best wishes to you Jason

Yeah, like i said, i need to realize that not getting everything done and not going full steam is alright. Thank you for your tips, i will utilize them! Day 5 (Midnight thought): Had a little midnight thought I wanted to add. Just a little tidbit Now i love music and if you ask me it's better than games. Although it doesn't distract me from goals, it's still distracting. It's a weird thing for me, instead of trying new music, i just listen to the same thing over and over cause I'm familiar with it; a natural human instinct. Though when i find a band i love, i do everything and research all about them, watch all their videos thousands of times over, listen to their songs a lot, and nothing gets done. Right now this is happening with the a cappella group, Pentatonix, and with any band I do not know how to balance time with watching them and doing what's important. Hopefully this is also not just me either Have a goodnight now Jason

Wow 86 days, you're almost there just 4 more days, you've got this! Yeah, this is something i need to start consciously understanding. Since our life has become pretty much screens besides gaming in this time, it's critical we know that we don't always have to use it. Time management is a big part of this i believe, especially in my case. Glad you realized this Otherwise, keep it up! Best Jason

I like how you ended with this! Despite work being a struggle today, you realized that we can't always have great days, and that there is always tomorrow. Which i think is important to learn

Day 5 Again like the other days, I spent a bunch on my phone. I found this app called freedom and I'm planning on using it whenever I have important stuff going on. I think the best bet would be when it comes to independent work, like away from school then use white noise or blues or jazz. I have those playlists on Spotify for a reason. However during school, no phone. If i do this I think I have a good shot at reducing my usage. Actually now that I think on it, there's a lot I didn't get done today, i didn't write or read or practice piano. Honestly I am unsure what I can do to improve my motivation or willpower to do these things. I know it's only my 5th day, and I shouldn't expect legendary results at this time but still a part of me is still saying "what are you doing?! You didn't do anything, be productive be productive be productive." Which again is my perfectionist side always wanting to be the perfect productive person like those female self-improvement youtubers have showed me, which is one thing i don't like about self-improvement. Most of the sources I have used besides gamequitters (the female self improvement people/others) always make it seem like self-improvement is so easy, they gloss over it when in reality it's hard as hell. Then they're all like "oh when I'm not feeling motivated to do my work, i take a nice bath with my perfect bubble bath maker, and then i get into my comfy pajamas, then I do a puzzle and read in my bedroom with white walls and everything is just so perfect for me." Like shut the fuck up. Sure you may have spent years doing self improvement but you can't just act like everything is fucking okay when you are unmotivated or tired or worn out, like it's not that easy okay, sometimes we still have to work to motivate ourselves, we don't just wake up every morning when the sun comes up and start dancing that "life is just so beautiful." Idk it just irritates me, which is why i joined this community and I like Cam's videos, cause he doesn't bullshit about this. Anyway, back to my point i just am not sure what i can do to numb my perfectionism side to where I can accept not working towards my goal or completing things I wanted to do. As i feel like it's getting in the way a lot at this point Like I said to someone else, focusing on what I don't have or didn't complete isn't what I should do, so what did I do? I walked, I listened to music, I practiced French and I folded my laundry. All very important things so I'm glad I did them. (The music isn't that important but it's better than gaming!) I'm going to put away my laundry and read a bit so bye

Sounds like you're doing great! Keep it up! Best Jason

While I am only on my 5th day, i can tell you that I feel the same way sometimes. Like "dammit i wasted my life on games i wasted opportunities that could have been purposeful." While these feelings come up we shouldn't dwell on them, or where our past decisions led us because when we cut games from our life, we started a journey to make things better, and things are going to get better for you. For moving out you could write down a list of things you need to do before you are able to move out. Like find a place you like, have stable funds (more on this later) etc. Yeah it can be frustrating at times, but all we can do is acknowledge it frustrates us and push towards a satisfactory life, so the frustration numbs down for a bit and we avoid wasting time further. This is at least what I've done. With COVID still around this is a bit difficult. You should never be stuck in a work you dislike. I am not really sure what you should do, but all I want to say is keep going, keep up the meditation, exercising, and getting a good nights sleep. All these things are good because they can improve your mental health and leave you feeling good. The sleep can do that and also regenerate your energy. May I ask, how much are you getting paid at this job? As once COVID ends (which is hopefully soon, we have approved vaccines) and things return to normal, with what you have you could invest in what you're passionate in. For now though, try to focus on what you like or is not that bad about the job you're in. I understand this, not being at your goal yet when you could have been is just aggravating. However, thinking about that you're not there yet is going to cause mental turmoil, and I do not want that to happen for you. So i recommend, taking a step back, count your blessings, and instead of thinking "I'm not advancing in life yet." Say to yourself, "If i keep doing this, (whatever you're doing to work towards your goal(s)) I will get there soon." Also you have already advanced in life by going almost 50 days without games, which to me is a big milestone compared to when you started. Sorry about this, hopefully when Covid ends you can get back at this? Once again, think of what you do have instead of what you don't yet. Realizing what you do have on hand alone will be a big push and will start to help you take the first steps of navigating this big world, along the way you can obtain more. Yeah, no vent as much as you need, it's important to get the emotions out. I'm not sure how my advice was but hopefully you can use some of it. Keep going bro, I wish you the best Jason

Congratulations on the 11 weeks, only 13 days to go! Good luck Jason

This literally is what I am dealing with. Since my college is fully remote, i have to spend time on a screen for so long and I just hate it. I'm glad you realized that playing after all that time would be a risk and I'm glad you're attempting to balance the time by reading and exercising. I wish you the best Jason

Congratulations on the 110 weeks of being gaming free! What a huge milestone that is! Also congratulations on the date, that's really good you are connecting. I wish luck for you both. Seems like you are doing great (besides the work, i hope that improves.) Keep at it bro! Best Jason

I face these feelings as well and it was especially hard for me to lessen them based on the things I experienced. One day we'll get there, let's just keep fighting together for now. Cheers Jason

@TheNewMe2.0Yup, exactly what I meant. I'm glad you're calmer Day 4 Today was productive, however I didn't feel happy or satisfied. It must have been because I quit discord last night, and so cutting off the connections from those friends hurt me a bit. Nevertheless, I am glad I did, my mental health was way worse on that app than it was today. No games or game related content, I actually think I did a good job today balancing screen time and productivity. Of course some of the things i had to do were on the computer, like school work but to me that's not what I mean by "screen time," I mean in the terms of unnecessary surfing. Listened to music a lot today, most of it was Christmas music to get hyped for the holidays, which reminds me I need to think of what to get my family. I'm honestly not sure Started my laundry and watched a motivational speech. I think with all this I'll eventually feel satisfied and proud of the progress I made, instead of feeling sad I just cut off communication with the online friends. Anyway, going to read and then hang out with family. Have a good one! Jason

Congratulations on the 19 days! Sounds like you have already made some great progress keep going! It's just amazing how much more you are opened to once you quit, isnt it? Cheers Jason

Sorry about the day you had. For the dating, like @DaBest said, keep going, it is weird, but eventually you'll find a match, where both of you are happy. Power through Books & Trees, you got this! Best Jason

That's a great video for low budget equipment! I really enjoyed it, very creative! One thing I'd say is that there are too many characters to remember, at least for me, however that's just a small nitpick. Overall it's great! Good luck on other videos! Jason [I am also named Jason :)]

Sorry today wasn't the best, I didn't have a great day either, but I'm glad you realized later that you could change the day around and do some productive things still. And hey like you said you had some good from today. Which in my opinion, you have to celebrate the little victories. Proud of you Jason

Day 3 Unfortunately didn't write like I said I was going to do. Today for some reason I was lacking in energy, despite getting a great sleep. It might be that even though I am getting better sleep than when I used to game, I write these journals during the one hour before my sleep, and I also sleep with my phone's flashlight on. (Not afraid of the dark this just happened.) It's time to eliminate these, as even the smallest action can effect an outcome in the long-term. You sleep much better without phones or technology 1 hour before bed and in the darkest setting ever. So starring tomorrow I will write my journals earlier. I noticed I am very mad at myself today for not getting anything done. This is my perfectionist side I believe, while it's important we have productive days, we can't go full steam ahead on everything and be productive 24/7, we need those chill days, and today was one of them. I hope later in my game free Journey I learn this. Even though this was the case, there were two achievements. I deleted my Twitter account and I deleted discord from my phone. While Twitter wasn't too bad, discord on my phone just sucked me in, and it's time I stopped it. For some reason I noticed I couldn't fully quit discord, even when I said I was quitting forever, and I know why. Like with games, some servers have an achievement system, whether that be levels or certain roles. Once you receive some roles you need to keep going, it tricks your brain and makes you wanting more and get the highest number of roles. However like with any game, the achievements end once you achieve them all, just like when you 100% a game. I remember this was the same with me and any Mario game I played, I just had to get 100% I had to get all the stars, all the coins etc. Though again it eventually ends, like with discord. And on one particular server, I didn't ever get a role I kept believing I was eligible for. So I pretended like I didn't care and left, but I still did care. I kept tricking my brain into thinking that I didn't care when I did. Some accounts I did delete but kept coming back under alter egos to fool them I was someone else and was perfect. Which is a horrible thing to do, not just because they are the people I made connections with as myself and I'm essentially lying to them, but it's bad for my health too. I think these actions added onto my perfectionism for a bit. Overall though, the server sucks, like there people find 9/11 jokes funny and bully people for being short or young. They also bully and start arguments over the dumbest things, like which cereal is the best or who is the best game company. Like shut the hell up, everyone has different opinions, have that knowledge drilled into your head until your brain splits in half. As your arguments make you so immature. You, as the people on the server obviously. Anyway, writing that made me feel better and if I want to delete discord from my life and erase it, i need to fully push my willpower into ending the urge for the roles, i mean they are literally just colors. Like you see colors all around you in the real world, they aren't important if they are just going to be on your name and not mean anything. But my point, social media while it has its pros, has the same issues as gaming in my view, it pulls you in with achievements like getting the most likes on a post or having a lot of followers. However unlike in real life, there is an ending point to those achievements and its just one achievement. In real life you have so many achievements and goals you can set. Which is why it's important that you live in the present moment, cause unlike a game you can't restart, you get one life and one life only. So I will stop being an alter ego trying to get a color and appreciate seeing the colors i see every day, appreciate seeing and just stop the passive achievements and begin the active achievements like reaching for my goals! Yeah those were two pluses, I'm going to respond to some journals and then meditate and go to bed. Have a great day! Jason @championeal Yeah it's really interesting! Thanks for suggesting that website, I will utilize it! @TheNewMe2.0 I agree, it's hard to quit those you made such a strong connection with. But even though they had the same interests as you, something I realized, they aren't the same in real life as they portray themselves online, and overall, them sharing the interests is good but eventually something I experienced was that you start believing that they're the only ones who understand, because you're irritable as you play games and so are they, so they understand your problems (not all of them are like this but some are). In reality though, those who care about you truly, your family, and the connections you make in real life are the ones who understand better than a random stranger online, you just don't realize it because you're stuck in gaming. This was just my experience and realization, idk about you, but yeah you still miss them. I'm glad you cut the bad things off though.

The rational male, sounds informative! I really hope you do enjoy it. Sorry you had to miss the yoga class. Hopefully you won't have to wait too long to get in next schedule. At least you got your winter tires on! I'm glad to here this! Cheers Jason

Amazing stuff. I think your view on perfectionism is right on the mark. It is actually something I struggle a bit with still, when I first quit games and the second time I quit games, I would beat myself up for not following my goals or to do list exactly. While I'm better today, it's something that i see myself beating myself over sometimes. Some of your points I found helpful. So thank you! Jason

I can already see growth from the first entry I read of yours to this one! It sounds like you are definitely making more thoughtful choices based on things like the alcohol, the waking up or the browsing! Just further adds to the fact that we do better without games. Nice work! Jason