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School is very tiring for me. I try to finish my homework as soon as possible so I have time to myself but it is hard. My high school is very academically challenging. I feel a lot of stress compared to when I was during summer break. People around me in school are more stressed than I am however and I do not like their lifestyle. It is as if the students are machines who have no sense of direction other than to study. I do not want to be like them because I do not want to waste my life doing things that make me unhappy. I know I am smart enough to find a way to be efficient while also doing well academically.

Yesterday was my first day of my junior year. I was so tired I went home and fell asleep like a baby. Today was a little better. I have a lot of APs this year as well as being in a tough high school. Without video games, I feel like I am more focused so I hope I will do well this year.

On Wednesday I went to Disneyland with my friend. We went to basically every ride except Indiana jones and in the end after 14 hours of walking and waiting in line my feet were no longer functional. On Thursday I rested the whole day because of how tired I was. Friday I went to the DMV for a walk in appointment to get my learners permit and it took me about three hours which was fairly quick because there was not a lot of people in line that day. Saturday it was just a normal day for me doing some chores and today I started the day with a three mile run. Ever since I went to Disneyland I have been fatigued every day. I get close to nine hours of sleep per day but I still feel tired throughout the day and constantly need to take naps. I hope I’m okay. Tomorrow school starts for me again.

Today I woke up and immediately took my provisional driver's test and barely passed. Many of the problems were very tricky and I had to guess on some of the problems. Luckily, I passed so I am very thankful for that. Then, I went to Costco to do shopping and then I went swimming with my friend. Right now I feel very lazy because I just achieved my goal of getting my driving permit but I must find things for myself to do before I relapse into gaming or get addicted to social media.

Now it's been 2 weeks since I stopped playing games entirely. My life has been pretty boring so far because time passes slowly without playing video games. Today I started my day by cooking breakfast and doing a light morning yoga. I then went to the library to study for the SAT. Then, I went for a light swim at my local swim center because my swim team is taking a two-week break. Now with so much free time, I try to fill up my time with other meaningful activities like playing the piano or exercising. I also try not to look at my phone as much as I can and try not to scroll through instagram.

Today I started by cleaning all the tables in my house. I then played some piano including two songs that I have not touched in two years. After that, I went for a walk in the park and it was too hot so I came back home. I went to church in the afternoon and here I am lying down on my couch writing this before dinner time. I really feel like life has slowed down for me without video games and social media. It kind of feels like how I used to spend my day when I was very young when there were not that many distractions. Overall, I believe that I am on the right path because I feel happier and less stressed now. I sleep a lot better and just feel a lot more calmer and my attention span has gotten longer. For the next few months I plan on talking to more people especially in school and my swim team about my new life and hopefully I can get a girlfriend because I have two years of high school left and I want to fully experience the typical high school life before it is gone forever.

I got my password back so I can get on my main now. This morning I went to an intrasquad meet hosted by my swim team for little kids so I was a timer there helping out. I then had delicious fish tacos for lunch. After eating lunch I was exhausted because the taco combo had too much fat and carbohydrates. I tried to fall asleep but couldn't so now I'm sitting at my computer trying to write something down for my daily journal instead of scrolling through Instagram. Later I plan to do some cleaning around the house and then go ice skating with my friend.

It's been a long time since I've posted here but I'm glad to be back again. This is completely unrelated to gaming but about life. Today I was playing football with my swim team and I was guarding this guy, let's call him X. So I was trying to stop X from getting the ball when he elbowed me in the stomach. I felt a sharp pain at first but then a burst of rage followed shortly after. "I want to KO this guy and send him to the ICU right now", I thought to myself. However, I saw how everyone else was having fun, and because I did not want to ruin the fun for everybody, I controlled my anger and moved on. Now sitting at my desk, I think to myself: if this happens again, should I go ahead and go full Mike Tyson mode on X and rip his face off? Or should I suck it up and move on?

After almost 2 years, I'm back. Today was me mostly doing chores and making a video for fun. I have since made many friends and am no longer a video game addict. Happy to get my life back.

I'm now a high school sophomore and have never had a girlfriend. Anyone got tips?

This question may not be about quitting video games but about life in general. I frequently have a tendency to become emotional when someone insults or provokes me when I am having a bad day and become very angry. This also happens when events are very unfavorable for me for example if the computer stops responding when I'm in the middle of an essay. I also get very angry and want to use violence (beat them up) when someone acts like a jerk to me in school when I'm already having a bad day. What should I do?

So these couple of months after I moved, I have been messing up constantly. I suck at managing my time and feels like all my goals are crumbling away like sandcastles at the beach. I have tried to control myself but my problem always comes up: I cannot control myself. One of the main problems that occurred to me was opening a new tab when I am working on either homework or other important things. I open a tab and search up random thoughts and it wastes my time. Another problem is I keep waiting to do the harder tasks and people have told me to do the harder tasks first but I always fail. This is why I am messing up now and I need advice on how to improve myself.

9/29/2021 Lost track of time since I last watched a gaming video or anything of the type. I moved to a new city and now have busied myself with everything and have no time to think about gaming maybe on the weekends but the reason I did not write was because I was under stress from adjusting to a new environment and new school. As of now I am more comfortable with living in the new city and I still stay in touch with some of my old friends.

I could not write these past couple of days because I was very sick. It started with a sore throat but I ignored it thinking it was just a common cold(it was actually just a common cold) and I went to swim practice just to avoid boredom. It was about Thursday night that I came back from practice and a fever descended upon me. I was fatigued by the amount of exercising combined with my constant headache and I felt chills running down my spine literally. I later got a fever of 102 degrees and took some tylenol to reduce body temperature so I could at least sleep a few hours in the night. The following day I went to test for COVID and luckily I was negative. I was so relieved by this news but I need to be more careful around people now since everything is reopening.

This has been 2 days since I have last written. My goal for this week will be a small goal: go to sleep before 9:30pm so I can get up early the next day to exercise and get a kick start for the day. I hope I can accomplish this goal because time is running out for me and I don't want to end up like a loser.