Brad_Hurst 168 Posted May 20, 2018 Author Share Posted May 20, 2018 Escalation, escalation, escalation... Mannnnnnnn - I've got some work to do. The girl came over tonight. It went okay, I did have fun. Unfortunately nothing sexual happened. I'll just have a quick run through. She knocked on my door, I let her in and gave her a hug. I gave her a quick tour of the house and then we went for a 10 minute walk to the shop to get some popcorn and beer and then a 10 minute walk back. We spent a large majority of that time just speaking about her gymnastic stuff, my local area and a bit of school life. I can get her to laugh, but i'm god awful at building sexual tension lol. Once we got back, we were gonna watch the film straight away but instead I said we should sit outside for a bit whilst the sun was still out. So we did that and chatted for like another 10 minutes. We then went to watch the film and she sat in MY spot on the sofa. It's a 2 person love-seat type chair, which is PERFECT for couples to seat on :) So... I was like hell nawh you sitting in my spot! So I playfully lifted her up and placed her on the other side and I sat in my spot. She leant up against me a bit partially due to my bodyweight causing her to fall into me aha. So yea at this point I was like great, got that physical touch in there already. But this is kinda where it remained. The film we watched was "White Chicks". LMAO I know it's a chick flick but I fucking love that movie and she had never watched it before. So I was like we are watching that. Okay so this is kinda where I struggle a bit with films. I like to get fully immersed in films as i'm sure alot of guys do. Girls it seems... Just like to talk - THE WHOLE FUCKING TIME! Now usually when it's my Mum or Sister I just ignore them half the time or answer their stupid questions that they'd KNOW the ANSWER to if they just WATCHED THE DAMN MOVIE! So obviously she starts talking and making comments, so i'm trying my best to respond in a good way. And then occasionally making comments myself so i'm playing the same kinda game. Oh and lets not forget mimicking the lines of the funny parts ahaha. So yea we're watching the film and all that - And i'm thinking, hm we should try and escalate a bit further. But for the love of me I didn't know how to go about it. She's a very reserved girl, quite unsure of herself sometimes. Soooooo ye I wasn't really getting anything to play off. All I had was her lent up beside me and I had my arm behind ontop of the sofa with her head rested onto it. It was tough situation to navigate in my opinion. The frustrating thing is - I know at this point she is into me. But just going in for a kiss or something would seem very forced and unnatural. I felt like there was never a point where I could just go for it. You know that "You will know" moment. Nah, nothing bro. Gah, I sense that if I did just go and force it at some point - She'd probably reciprocate anyways... But man, i'd much rather do it more smoothly and naturally. If I knew what I was doing then I probably could have created a situation where it was more likely to happen. So here's what I did try in attempt to create a better situation: 1After the film finish, we decided we'd watch a horror movie. Mhm perfect eh, leap into each others arms... Turns out, I couldn't find a decent horror film to save my life. I hate horrors to be honest, especially that paranormal shit. But anyways I thought the jump scares would be funny and a good opportunity. I just randomly picked one. 15 minutes in, we found it pretty boring... There was no jump scares, it was just shitty suspense. So we stopped watching that... So instead we played a video game... :o There's this game on the app store that is really popular at the moment. Called "Granny". She played it a day or so ago and weirdly I randomly decided to look through the app store yesterday and I saw it too, and nearly downloaded it. But anyways she said I should play it. Aight then. Btw Granny is a horror game on your phone. It's one of those, escape the house kinda games whilst a granny lerks around and when she finds you, jumps in your face like slender man. The graphics of her face are terrible, but funny/scary nonetheless. Oh no... I've played a video game! ALL IN THE NAME OF PHYSICAL INTIMACY. So yea, I was playing it. Got scared outta my fucking mind and somehow end up with her legs across my lap as we both stare intensely at this screen. Each time we got jump-scared i'd try and touch her leg or some shit aha. We played that for a little while and I mean, there was alot more physical interaction with each other which was nice. Can't remember what happened next but basically nothing else progressed from that. So then I showed her how shit I am at the splits and then got her to do it too. So ye we're both on the floor, talking a bit - showing pictures on each others phones. Just kinda chilling on the floor. At one point I remember, she was lying on her front and I just look and see her ass and i'm thinking to myself - Oh maynnnnnn We have an arm wrestle in a last ditch attempt for me to try get something to happen. And then it gets too late. It's like 12PM and that's the time her parents wanted her back. So I drove her home, which fuck is 30 minutes each way... THIS TIME I GOT OUT THE CAR AND HUGGED HER @Cam Adair Now, I just want to make it clear - For anyone who is reading my journal. First, thank you for reading it :) - But yeah, when i'm interacting with this girl - I'm not constantly thinking about how I can get her into bed... I am genuinely enjoying the interaction and her company. Obviously i'd like to try and move it towards sex, but ya know at the end of the day... I just have to enjoy it for what it is. I can't purely blame myself for not taking it all the way, but then again - if I did have the skills and maybe courage, it could have happened tonight. But I won't let that stop me from enjoying the beautiful moment with this girl tonight. It's only really once she's gone that I start reflecting on where I could have improved and potentially progressed further. But I should not let that take anything away from what tonight was. Because it was nice, and it was fun. In fact I am simply happy that someone came to my house to spend time with... ME. Do you understand how rare that is for me? From the ages of 14-20 I can probably count on my fingers the amount of times i've had a friend around my house... And i'm not even kidding. Even my best friend who I grew up with rarely ever came to my house. I seriously just never had people hang around with me at my house. And then the same the other way around, I never went to friends houses either. 6 whole fucking years i've lived in isolation and actually, probably more than that... It may not seem like much time to the older folk. But this was during my teens man. The time where you're suppose to be hanging around your friends houses all day, just chatting shit - Developing your social skills. Anyways so yea - When people come around my house I never know what i'm supposed to do lol. I used to be like, oh I just play on my computer all day - wanna watch me play? You can have a go if you want... (Whilst secretly hoping they don't fuck my stats up too much). To finish this off. By the time I got home, it was 1AM. I should have gone to bed but I saw the stars were shining brightly. So I grabbed a jumper and went into the garden. I pulled up a chair and star-gazed for a good 20 minutes. Looking at stars always makes me think about how insignificant everything really is... Nothing really matters at the end of the day. Everything dies, the universe will carry on without a fuck in the world. So why live in your sorrows? Go live a fulfilling life. And you know, something magical happened. As I was thinking this - A shooting star flew past right in front of my eyes. I don't think i've ever seen a shooting star before in my life - And it happened so fast, but it was beautiful. And had I gone to bed taking the "Normal" path of life instead of taking this weird venture into my garden, I would have missed this beautiful moment. And that is what I fear with living a mediocre, same thing every day life. You are missing all of these beautiful experiences. This is why I simply must take the unconventional path. - Brad 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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