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Learn it the hot way. [Day 90 COMPLETED]


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Remaining Days: 48 days (June 22 - 24, 2020 : Monday - Wednesday)

Quick Fact About Me:
32 hours was the longest time I've played straight—World of Warcraft. I was awake for 36 hrs that day where the 4 hrs were dedicated to meal times, cigarette breaks, shower and making coffee or snack. I will never ever do that again.

Feels Tonight:

  • Just got back from a dilemma whether to feed my hunger of playing games or continuing this 90-day detox challenge. Obviously, the latter won. I've started to install WoW last Monday. Since our internet is only downloading it for 1.10 Mbps, it took until lunch of Tuesday to download it. I didn't play yesterday because I don't want to play exhausted or sleepy. I only slept 2 hrs last Monday night because I was so excited to play WoW again—I've waited for the download to finish. Then I woke up around 1am today (I slept around 9:30 pm last night) because I wanted to play. But I didn't. I wasn't sure if I really wanted to play. And my buddies were offline anyway, so I had to wait for them to wake up.
  • Yesterday, during the installation time, I gave up already. I gave up about this detoxification. It's really good that our internet is not that fast, it gave me more time to think if I really wanted to play. I went home to eat dinner and I've told my mom and sister that I've installed WoW again. They were disappointed and worried. It's been a while since they've frowned because of my action. My sister added, "How about your blog?" She's referring to this journal—I told her that I write here about quitting gaming. "So all that you have written there, for 1 month, will just go to waste?" She added. I was speechless.
  • After more than a day of downloading WoW—today, just before lunch—I deleted it again. I'm very sorry to my two friends who waited for me to finish to download the game. It's just that I'm so afraid to play right now knowing that I will be easily sucked into the abyss once again. I reasoned out to myself that I need an outlet for my stress. I justified that I need to play again to relieve stress and boredom because I don't smoke nor drink liquor anymore. I've even told myself that this will make me interested to develop the business again (yes, I'm kind of not motivated as of now to improve the business). Looking through my friends list (while the app is not yet uninstalled), some of my friends were still online for almost 2 years now. I wonder if they're an addict too. Or, they can balance work, life and play all at once. I guess I'm just sad for the past few days. My girlfriend was busy studying since she had an exam today and I don't want to disturb her "beast mode" (in studying lmao) just to tell her about my possibility to relapse. It's just sad that there's nobody in my life that I could call on whether I feel like going back to my old habits—somewhat like a "sponsor." I've been reading this. Even though it's for illegal drugs, their explanation of dealing with relapse is so applicable to gaming addiction. I wish someday, they would add gaming addiction to their website.
  • Despite of this pessimism, I am thankful that I've hold into my choice to make my life better. To stay away from the activity that made me an irresponsible young man and a burden to my family. I am the eldest son. I should be the one earning at this time; more importantly, now that both of my parents are retired. I am thankful that I have levelled up—I was able to resist the temptation. I am thankful to my family; I realized that they are my outlet. They have been very supportive ever since. I will prove to myself, and to them, that for once in my life, I'll finish what I've started.
  • Because of too much stress, I've dreamed about mobile games. In the dream, I was playing some kind of flappy bird. Then after I bumped into something and exited the program, I realized that sh*t, I forgot I was on detox. So, I regretted and felt extremely bad that I played that stupid 2D game and wasted everything that I've worked for. Suddenly, I woke up from the nightmare. I literally said, "Luckily, it was just a dream."
  • Sorry. My entry today wasn't thoughtfully structured. I just typed what I felt. 😅

Daily Quest:

  • Today, I'm (still) doing and plans to finish my nephew's fraction module. We had a tutorial session a while ago. After 2 months of learning fractions, he finally got a passing score in his assignment. I'm glad he's trying to improve as well.  Very great job, kid! I don't plan to do anything today. I wanted to get the relapse thing off my head first. Doing the mathematics module keeps me preoccupied so I'd take this chance to finish it. 😂

Previous Day Quest Checker

  • Wasn't able to write here

Incomplete Quest: 

make images for the vlog (area of square), update google drive, update journal template

How can I become better?:
By always smiling and keeping good friends

 

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Good evening! 😁

Lok'tar Ogar!
Chiliflavor

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11 hours ago, BooksandTrees said:

Write about the triggers and reasons you kept downloading it. You mentioned you only wanted to play with friends. This is the time for you to call real life friends and family. Don't talk to your gamer friends again. It's not worth the stress. 

But... They are my college friends.. We still go out once or twice a year. Hahaha! Maybe I'll just refrain from talking about games with them. 😅

You're right, I should write my triggers and reasons. I haven't tried to write it yet. Thanks @BooksandTrees!

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Remaining Days: 47 days (June 25, 2020 - Thursday)

Quick Fact About Me:
I've never travelled outside of the country. Aside from lack of budget, I had no opportunity at all (like exchange student, scholarships, etc.) My dream places to visit are: Hawaii (chill, drink, and swim), Spain (I'm just in love with spanish girls, their language is so sexy too), Las Vegas (casino and party party!), Amsterdam (just wanna have coffee and smoke and laugh all day haha!), and Japan (I like Japanese girls lmao!). All of these places are snowing, as far as I know. I don't want to go to hot places as of now. 😅  

Feels Today:

  •  Today, I'm glad that my sister opened up about her online classes schedule problem. She's a special education teacher. When I saw her schedule—8:00am to 6:00pm with 12-1 as lunch break from Tuesday to Friday—I immediately asked why does she punish herself that much? 😂 I convinced her that she should put classes on Monday and Saturday so that she won't be exhausted. She tends to cram her lesson plans (IDK, she got that habit from my mom (lmao) who's a teacher as well ) and with the original schedule that she made, I know someday she will just cry because of the pressure. After we made the new schedule, at least, she was relieved because she has now breaks after each class and can prepare his lessons for the next class. She earns a lot with respect to the minimum wage here in the Philippines which is $10.37. Her rate (less the commission of the SpEd center) is around $9.1 per hour. So if she had like, 4 classes a day for 2 weeks (total of 4 hrs, special education students commonly take 1-2 hrs of lesson a day, and another hour or two every week for their therapy), me and my younger brother definitely will expect some donuts or burger when she gets home! HAHA! 😁

  • I totally neglected my trading practice. If you guys can recall, I joined a virtual stock trading competition where the objective of the game is to gain the highest profit. Currently, I'm rank 487th. HAHA! God damn it... My initial (virtual) money is Php 100,000. It's now Php 94,705. I had couple of mistakes. First, I wasn't strict enough to my "stop loss" point. I should cut my losses as soon as I hit my stop loss price. Second, I always get "whipsawed," that is, I get out too early (which means price went higher after I sold my position), or I am stopped out right away (the price went down for a while so I cut my losses but the price bounced back and went higher). This means that my "trading plan" is wrong. More significantly, I honestly think, that I entered at the wrong price. I SHOULD BE MORE PATIENT. I learned discipline (90% only lmao) already, and now I need to learn patience.

  • I'm kind of pumped up to start planning my father's idea of a "fried chicken business." I'll make a day for it some time next week.

  • I have too much "tasks and ideas" in my hand. I believe I can do it all, but real slowly and surely so that time won't be wasted. Haha, surely, I will never be able to do all of these pending stuff and reflect on my trading career if I had started playing World of Warcraft yesterday. I'm happy I had the strength to say "shut the f*ck up" to my cravings.

  • This entry is quite a lot. I just felt like writing tonight. It's been a while.

Daily Quest:

  • Finally, I finished the fraction module of my nephew. It took a while because I relearned how to write using LateX and it's written for beginners. Too bad, I can't attach pdf files here. I wanted to share it just in case you guys and gals have kid/s who needs help in understanding fractions. That's all I did for today. Quite disappointing that I had not done anything productive besides that; but, it's very fulfilling that at last, I've finished a module. I guess, this is how can I start my "review center / math tutorial" business. By creating one module at a time, depending on my tutor's lesson. 😂
  • For tomorrow, I'll update the template of this journal again. Haha. I like to "rearrange" things now and then. 😅
  • Tomorrow, I'll clean my office/room again. Clearly, the thought of relapsing makes me irresponsible again. My room is messy again since I've started thinking about games. It was so clean when I wasn't longing to play.
  • Tomorrow, I'll buy stocks that would most probably go up next week. This task should be consistent.

*So basically, tomorrow will be my day to realign myself with what's important: to become better after quitting playing games.

Previous Day Quest Checker

  • ✔️ Fraction modules finished

Incomplete Quest: 

make images for the vlog (area of square), update google drive, update journal template, fix my short term goals (whiteboard)

How can I become better?
By making an anti-relapse emergency kit 😂

 

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Thanks for reading!
Have a good night sleep! 😁

On my way to bed,
Chiliflavor

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Remaining Days: 46 days (June 26, 2020 - Friday)

Quick Fact About Me:
My favorite fruits are corn, grapes, chico (sapodilla), marang, and green mango with shrimp paste! I would only say "no" to these things when I'm full. 😂

Feels Today:

  •  Today, I felt busy. I don't know why.

  • I thought about DotA 2. 😂 I remembered it for a moment, smiled, then move on. I don't want to entertain gaming thoughts right now. I'll deal with it after the detox. 😅

  • Out of curiosity, I watched a clip of my old schoolmate's twitch stream. I was surprised she was streaming. Jeez, still about gaming. Haha. How can I move on if these things keep coming? 

Daily Quest:

  • Today, I tried to fix our old laptops. The first one was our first laptop ever. It's where I had a chance to play Warcraft III: Frozen Throne, DotA, Battle Realms: Winter of the Wolf, Sims and Runescape. It's still working but the LCD screen is quite damaged. The second laptop was my mom's office laptop. It wasn't working at first, so I tried to open it up. I don't know, I just wanted to look inside. After removing the cover of power button, it now starts. It means that the power button is having a hard time to make contact with the switch. The third laptop, which is a netbook, is running as well; but, the keyboard is not working. Maybe I should sell these laptops at low prices instead of hiding it somewhere. That's what I did the whole afternoon haha!😄
  • I'll update my journal template and rewrite/update my short term goals in my whiteboard.
  • Tomorrow, I'll have a haircut. I honestly don't want to have one yet but me and my girlfriend will have breakfast on Sunday.  I wanted to look neat. 😁 I just hope that the salon is covid free. Damn...
  • Tomorrow, I'll fix the house keys. It's quite a lot. 😅 It's kind of hassle to bring all the keys at once when the CR at the venue was accidentally locked, the CR in the bedrooms as well or the guests asks for the key if they will leave the house to eat somewhere. (or I'm just OC?) Haha!
  • Tomorrow, I'll print instruction stickers for the shower heater. Believe me... There are really people who can't figure out how to open the shower heater. It's just turn it on then rotate the switch like a volume of a radio. 😅 I think it will be better if there's an instructions as well as in the toilet like: "Press and HOLD to flush." God damn it.. hahaha
  • And, I'll continue to read Market Wizards—tonight and tomorrow.

Previous Day Quest Checker

  • ✔️ will update the template after submitting this entry
  • ✔️ cleaned my office/room
  • ✔️ bought stocks (virtually)

Incomplete Quest: 

make images for the vlog (area of square), update google drive, update journal template, fix my short term goals (whiteboard)

How can I become better?
More like, how can I not be distracted easily??? 😂

 

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Good evening! 😁

Most likely to stay late,
Chiliflavor

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Remaining Days: 45 days (June 27, 2020 - Saturday) [Late Entry]

Quick Fact About Me:
I don't go out with an uncleaned car. If I do, it's most likely because I was busy playing video games. For me, it's kind of embarrassing to go out with a dirty car. I mean, I only go out very rarely so that's why I want to make it presentable. Since most of the days I stay at home, well, no car wash then. 😅 Going to the car wash services is the least option. I prefer to wash it myself. I learned to take care of the car from my father. His car is 12 years old but looks like it just been bought yesterday—no kidding.

Feels Today:

  • Too bad, I wasn't able to write last night because I need to wake up early today. I stayed up until 1:00 AM.
  • Supposedly, we should had a booking yesterday—one room only. It was a guest who inquired a month ago, then 2 weeks ago, then yesterday. But since I am going out today, and nobody will be staying here, I didn't accept the booking. If I didn't have any commitment today, I would easily accept that booking. It's an ez $29. 🤑
  • Jeez. I can't remember my feels yesterday. That's why I don't want to write late entries.
  • Oh yeah. My father likes to earn money—regardless of the situation, in general. Somehow, I think that I'm more inclined to the business strategy; while him, he just like to fire bullets. 😅 Sometimes, my father is hard to understand. But, I'm trying my best because I want to be like him—family oriented, strong-willed, and a great father and husband to my mom.

Daily Quest:

  • Okay, it's hard to write yesterday's daily quest. 😅
  • Tomorrow (which is basically today lmao), I'll meet with my girlfriend to have breakfast! I miss her so much! Losing my license (I lost my wallet) during quarantine with no income and no public transport is very unfortunate. 😅
  • Tomorrow, we'll buy some groceries after eating. Hope we don't get infected. My mom will reimburse the groceries since it's for them—I don't want my parents to go out because of the virus since my mom is already senior and my dad is 56 yrs. old. I heard it can easily infect young and old people. I'll buy some for myself so that I would have something to cook for breakfast for the next week or two.
  • Tomorrow, I'll buy a laptop for my aunt. She gave me $500 for the laptop. Hmm. Probably, I could buy an i3 with 4GB (hopefully 8GB) RAM with that. It's just for basic use. 😅 It's really hard to explain technical stuff to people who don't want to understand it.
  • I'll buy also a new wallet and will try go to the repair shop shop to fix my watch—if it's affordable. I only have limited budget because we only had one event this month and still no booking for next month.
  • Tomorrow, I shall continue reading the stock trading book—Market Wizards.
  • Before sleeping, I washed the car. I started at 11:30 PM and finished around 12:15 AM. Haha!

Quest Log:

  • ✔️ I had a haircut.
  •  ✔️ I fixed the house keys, it's duplicate, my set of keys that I bring always, and my family's copy of the keys (the master key).

  •  ✔️ After dinner, I printed the instruction stickers for the heater; finally, I did this . It's been months since my mom told me to do that but I wasn't able to do before because I just play.

  •  I wasn't able to read Market Wizards yesterday and the other day (Friday).


Incomplete Quest:

make images for the vlog (area of square), update google drive

How Can I Be Better?:

Again, and again, and again, and again... Don't get distracted easily. 
 

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Good morning! Have a nice day! 😄

 

Taking it easy,
Chiliflavor

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Remaining Days: 44 days (June 28, 2020 - Sunday)

Quick Fact About Me:
I'm bad at work—in terms of work ethics. I didn't learn it. I don't know what does work ethic mean. I didn't stay until the contract is done in my first and last company. That's why I'm struggling now to build my business system. I wasn't trained. And, I've started to play WoW that time too. Hahaha! Really bad timing...

Feels Today:

  • I feel groggy. Haha. Maybe because of lack of sleep.
  • I feel tired after malling.
  • I feel pressured because I need to earn for a living. 😅 These are the times that I don't think about games at all—when it comes to livelihood. However, these are the times that triggers my cravings to play—after the cravings to smoke.
  • Because of this feeling, I just watched videos on YouTube. MINDLESS SCROLLING ALERT. Hmm. But I watched rock n' roll videos so I guess it's just my way of relaxation. 😎
  • There's so many I's in my style of writing. I need (see) to learn new ways how to express myself. I'm (see, "I" gain) not really a writer/reader since then. Playing games was my life back when I (damn) was a kid. 😂
  • Actually, I feel like this journal is some kind of distraction from gaming. Instead of gaming right now, before I sleep, I am here writing and reflecting about my day. This is really helpful. I consider it as an outlet for my thoughts. After writing an entry, I always feel some kind of relief—even for a bit. I feel hopeful, motivated and courageous after writing in here. It's because I honor my words, respect my thoughts, and I believe I can do things I wanted to do—it's just a matter of individual pacing. I am happy that I am conscious.

Daily Quest:

  • Date summary: what a nice breakfast! Me and my girlfriend had breakfast at Burger King. After 3 months, this is the only time I had a burger meal. We ate in the car since it's very scary to eat outside because of the infection. Next, we went to the grocery store, drove her home, then I went to the mall, and finally went home for late lunch. Then, I ate pesto and fried chicken with my fam, went home (to the events place), then wiped the car because it rained. I was invited by my cousins to have dinner with them—samgyeopsal night. However, it's quite raining and I don't want to wipe the car all over again so I didn't go to my cousin's house. Haha!
  • Tomorrow, I'll trade again.
  • And, I'll eat an apple.
  • I'll fix the laptop's apps and give it to my aunt; teach her how to use it. Probably, I'll teach all of the people there so that they wouldn't call me to go there to "check the mail." God damn it...
  • I'll make an exam for my nephews (easy) exam. This will be his last exam on the same topic. Jeez. We have to move forward. Classes will soon start and we're still stuck at fractions and positive/negative integeres. I'll give him an easy exam; no more tricks HAHA. My ultimate goal for this young kid is to teach him the "study habit" he never had. He's really slow too when it comes to solving. Not a science guy. He's more inclined in his artistic side. There are some session that we actually talked about art for like 30+ mins. and only 15 mins. for Math. Hahaha!
  • Tomorrow, I will officially start my research for the chicken business.

Quest Log:

  • ✔️ We had a lovely date after 3 months of quarantine.
  •  ✔️ I bought groceries for our family. Kind of embarrassed that Mom had to pay because I have no job since we have no events.

  •  ✔️ I bought a laptop for my aunt. My assumption was right, the budget was only good enough for an i3 4GB ram. All good anyway; it's memory is upgradeable, "okay" built-in graphics, 1TB hdd and 256 GB ssd. Not bad for $500. 

  • ✔️ I bought a new wallet for $15.5.... Then I had no money left for the repair of my watch. I have money but it's reserved for my credit card payment and pocket money for emergency. This quarantine was the time that I had 0 balance again (last month) since my Dark Ages (playing WoW all day all night).

  •  I won't able to read Market Wizards. Too sleepy now. Haha! Damn it...


Incomplete Quest:

make images for the vlog (area of square), update google drive, start reading the stock book and workout again (these two must be done everyday)

When curiosity Strikes:
I was thinking of putting pictures in here. I should have put something each day since day 1. I'll try to put some on the previous days. Let me try these pics:106472238_594962371137433_2949558122873884664_n.thumb.jpg.8add0a0d4607a4fac898423823d5201d.jpg 106120547_575546156689885_8813347740687462528_n.thumb.jpg.a6567ce3d342b73b6010083748a961df.jpg106251854_273235360456772_2882094467977377161_n.thumb.jpg.c2a0d39f6d6a751a6469ddc0ed23458b.jpg

Edit: Nice. I thought sizes and positions can't be edited (double click the picture). This makes it very interesting! Glad I tried! 😂

How Can I Be Better?
Make deadlines and pressure myself with it.

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Good night! Tiring but fulfilling day! 😄
- Chiliflavor

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  • chiliflavor changed the title to Learn it the hot way. [Day 46]
9 hours ago, BooksandTrees said:

You might want to delete the second photo or cover up your data in it. I think that info is more important than covering your face. Internet is a scary place. 

Glad everything else is going well. 

You're right! I though covering my face is enough. I reuploaded my the photo with a cover on the details now. Hahaha! Kindly delete your quote but not your comments since the photo details is still there. 😂

Thanks a lot @BooksandTrees!

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Remaining Days: 43 days (June 29, 2020 - Monday)

Quick Fact About Me:
I've started a new habit for quite a while now. Every time I wake up, I smile. If I don't feel like smiling while on my way to the bathroom after getting out of bed, I smile anyway. This act lightens my day in general. I believe that starting your day in a happy state will make your day enjoyable—most of the time. 😂 

Feels Today:

  • I feel nice today. Mondays are always my personal holiday. I work in the event industry which means most of my work are from Friday to Sunday. Monday is a day off. 😅
  • This journal made me (somehow) an organized person. I do planned tasks now—as much as I can possibly po. Planning my tasks for the day the night before really eases my day.
  • My vlog was stuck. I can't create right now, I have too much on my mind.
  • I just figured it out!!! This is my "possible" daily schedule. I've been thinking, for a week or two, how can I manage time everyday to do all of my tasks. 
  1. Morning - Learn and trade stocks
  2. Afternoon - Time for sidelines (e.g. this new project, math tutor, vlog, etc.)
  3. Night - Business development (events place and chicken business)

Daily Quest:

  • My cousin, who stays in Germany, called through messenger. To make the story short, her husband's company need a website. And so, she hired me to do it! She said she's gonna pay me $400 for the website!!! Her problem is that she can't make/copy the layout of her "model" website. So tomorrow, I'll conceptualize my game plan for this project in the afternoon.
  • Tomorrow, I'll make breakfast. Check the opening prices of my stocks (in virtual competition) and will check it again before the market closes. I will read the stock book in the morning. Reading educational stuff just before going to bed is kind of not effective to me.
  • I'll attend my cousin's (other cousin) webinar about Usana at 1 PM.
  • Starting tomorrow, I'll dedicate my night time—after dinner—to develop the chicken business. 😁 I like calling it "chicken business" for now. It sounds funny for an unidentified weird reason. HAHA.

Quest Log:

  • ✔️ Bought a stock today (in the virtual competition) because its price hit my entry price on the trade plan. Hmm. I should have reviewed the chart again before buying. Next time, I'll recheck the stock chart first to see if my trade plan is still valid in the current price movement.
  •   I forgot to eat an apple.

  •  ✔️ New laptop delivered. Jeez, I feel like I'm a tech guy now. 😅 No problem at all, I accepted wholeheartedly that I'm a geek in general. 🤣

  • ✔️ Exam result of my nephew 52%. At least it's more than half. Hahaha! Poor little kid... It's minor mistakes only like forgot the negative sign. But the basics, I think we're ready now to go to Laws of Exponent.

  • ✔️ I'll be planning tonight for the chicken business. My inquiries to some wholesalers of chicken supply were sent. I need to make an outline of the chicken business first. After submitting this entry, I'll start writing til I feel sleepy.


Incomplete Quest:
make images for the vlog (area of square), update google drive, start reading the stock book and workout again (these two must be done everyday)

Picture Picture:
This is the competition that I've joined 2 weeks ago. Our starting capital was 100,000. I'm down by 5.7%... 😅 This means I'm still noob at trading. 😄 On the second photo, you can see how pro others are in trading stocks. They've managed to increase their capital by 30% in the span of 2 weeks wtf!!! 🤣 Note that, this is just virtual buy and sell but using the real time price of stocks.

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How Can I Be Better?
By doing what must be done!

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Good night! 😄

Respectfully yours,
Chiliflavor

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Remaining Days: 42 days (June 30, 2020 - Tuesday)

Quick Fact About Me:
I'm very talkative when I'm comfortable with the person I am with. Otherwise, if I'm talking to someone new, I will just literally respond and observe. Once I get to know how to approach them with my thoughts, I start to make small talk. 😁

Feels Today:

  • In the morning, I felt dedicated.
  • In the afternoon, an unexpected message from a stranger—from a local website like ebay—changed my plans for the day. He was inquiring about my "gaming" account. Yes, I posted my account in the hopes of someone would be interested with it. My account was on sale, only $250. He offered $200. I accepted it. I felt excited because I would gain money today. 😊 Does it mean my account is only worth $200? No. 😂 If we'd sum all the gold that I've farmed, all the games I've bought with gold, all the gifts I have given to my guildmates and friends, and all my "effort at minimal wage," I'd say it's definitely more than $200. For me it's a great deal—it helps a lot in my progress of quitting and I've earned money during this hard time.
  • I'm quite overwhelmed lately. I should learn meditation. I never read seriously about it before. Maybe it's time. 😅

Daily Quest:

  • Summary of today: After trading, I went south of Manila with my college friend—my gaming buddy in WoW—because he lives near the house of the buyer. Then, I showed him my account by logging  into his PC and changed the details (email, password and mobile number). He paid me through online transaction then we parted ways. I treated my college buddy with a drink and we smoked a cigarette. For old time's sake, I guess. I gave in to the cigarette calling. I relapsed in smoking. He doesn't smoke regularly tho. I don't want to say "I needed that" because it means nicotine is in control again. Smoking again after 2 months of nicotine free isn't pleasurable at all. It feels like my first time again. Even though it's the same brand I used to smoke, it was a heavy. This means that my lungs have (quite 🙏) healed. I'm glad to know that. Also, I didn't feel guilty after I smoked. I think it's because I know that I smoked for Chiliflavor. With all honesty, I became weak and gave in because I needed instant comfort for the fact that I have sold my account. It's just really sad to let go something you have worked for so hard. But finally, I have nothing to look back to—only forward, and I'm extremely happy for that. 😄
  • Tomorrow, either I'll read the stock book if I woke up early and study eToro's platform and it's fees. And, check my stocks too. I plan to use the $200, from the buyer, to fund my eToro. Since the $200 came from my gold farming (the buyer was so interested in my account because of the "gold" in it 😅), why not use it to start my career in trading the global market? It seems a fair trade. 🤣
  • Next, I'll attend my cousin's webinar at 1pm. She rescheduled it. 😄 haha!
  • After that, I'll start planning my other cousin's website. It's good she has a model layout to be "mimicked." So probably, I'll choose a prospect layout and give her some questions so that I could select an appropriate theme for the website.
  • Then at night, I'll plan the chicken business. Basically, what (else) do I need, what do I have, where can I get this and that, and what are my mission-vision for this new business?
  • Also, I should make progress with the events place too—even if little things.

Quest Log:

  • ✔️ I made breakfast. Checked my stocks in the morning and before closing. And, I've read the stock book.
  •   I wasn't able to attend my cousin's webinar

  •  ✔️ After submitting this entry, I'll try to plan the chicken business until I feel sleepy. It's already 1 AM here lmao!


Incomplete Quest:
make images for the vlog (area of square), update google drive, start reading the stock book 

Picture Picture:
Finally, adiós Chiliflavor!  😄  Please, be kind to your new owner. I hope he can handle your poison. 🤣
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How Can I Be Better?
By being faithful to my words whenever temptation teases; by being strong in times of weakness

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Good night! 😄

Stepping forward,
Chiliflavor

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You can read Mindfulness in Plain English for a mindfulness book. After reading that book I borrowed from their ideas on how to meditate. Now I focus on breathing and bodily sensations when I meditate. That's all. Congrats on selling your account.

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That is awesome that you managed to sell your WoW account. Unfortunately, the accounts are never worth the money that we put into them, not to mention the time that we spent on it, but it is a good feeling to get something in return. In the past, when I tried to quit, I have managed to sell a few league accounts, but it was always quite a hassle, so I just deleted the last one. It was probably worth the more than the older ones, but I just needed to cut the ties at the moment; otherwise, I would end up back playing and possibly changing my mind. Good job on managing to sell your acc in the end. It is liberating to cut ties to our old demons.

Btw thanks for mentioning that you can edit pictures on here. I had no idea until now haha. I always just uploaded them, and they arranged themselves on their own which is usually a bit messy, to say the least, haha. It came in quite handy today. Thank you!

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After googling it, this looks like a great read! Being mindful is actually my top priority in my personal growth. Thank you so much for the suggestion, @Erik2.0!

@Marek, I was thinking about deleting it before! Glad I didn't 😅 You got the exact word man—liberate. I was a slave to my Blizzard account. In short, I sold my master. Hahaha!
Indeed, the pictures are messy without the size editing feature. No problem! Thank you too!

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Remaining Days: 41 days (July 1, 2020 - Wednesday)

Quick Fact About Me:
My mother was an ex-nun. She went out of the convent after graduating from her "novice nun" studies, right before entering the full pledge nun (can't remember the exact term). 😂 I'm still confused but here's how I understand it: the novice nun is like a bachelor's degree while the full pledge nun is like the master's degree. She met my "cool" father a few years later. Sometimes I feel like I'm from heaven. Other times, I feel like I came from hell🤣

Feels Today:

  • It's already 3am, I can't say much haha! I need to sleep! It's been a busy day.
  • It's not good that I don't mind the time just because I am busy. I need to be considerate of my personal time. What am I saying.. I'll just go to sleep 😄

Daily Quest:

  • Summary of today: Started the website of my cousin. That's all that had happen today. 😂
  • Tomorrow, since it's already late, most probably I'll be just checking my stocks before the market closes.
  • I'll wait for my cousin's approval of the theme I selected for her website before I start developing.
  • While waiting for her approval, I'll be doing a new module for my Math career lmao! My nephew is coming tomorrow. I hope he did his assignment. I'll teach him the concept of square root and exponents tomorrow.
  • Okay, just for the sake that I follow my stocks(morning)-otherStuff(afternoon)-business(night) routine, I would print new instructions for the heater and toilet since the one that I made was, of course, destroyed by the water because it's sticker paper.

Quest Log:

  •  I wasn't able to read nor study eToro;
  •  ✔️ I attended my cousin's webinar about Usana. I told her I can't commit to it as of now. I got too much on my mind and hand.

  •  ✔️ Started my cousin's website. Jeez, I spent the whole day for it. It's not because of the money she'll pay. This is just me, hooked up on a certain task. I don't understand this side of me yet—the one that I tend to purely focus on what I do until I finish it.

  • No plan made for the chicken business. 

  • ✔️ Workout (I will add this daily to this section)


Incomplete Quest:
make images for the vlog (area of square), update google drive, start reading the stock book again

Picture Picture:
No other picture available. 😅 This is me when I was 9 yrs. old at my aunt's wedding. This is around the time I knew how to use the internet—miniclip.com, yahoo.com for browsing, and Runescape. Me to myself: Nice gums lmao...🤣
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How Can I Be Better?
By managing my time properly. By setting limits for tasks so that I could do other things in the day. If I let myself too deep in the task, wouldn't it be just like video game addiction? I don't know.

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Good night! 😄

Til tomorrow,
Chiliflavor

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@Erik2.0 Indeed! At the age of 8, I already knew how to pray the rosary, know the parts of the mass, (almost) knew every story in the bible and (almost) the whole history of Catholicism. My friends be like, "How did you know all about that?" One word: Mom. 🤣

@alphadax Agree! I actually felt envious with myself looking at that picture last night. I was very innocent, no problems at all, and has no other goals besides playing playstation. 😂 I know sooner or later I'd feel the same way—without games this time. 😁

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Remaining Days: 39 days (July 2-3, 2020 : Thursday - Friday)

Quick Fact About Me:
I like to be in control before—in terms of relationships. I tried to control almost everything before (as well as life in general) and it led me to frustration and depression. It could also be a factor why I keep playing video games. What's ironic is that I always knew that I wasn't born a leader, but a great follower.

Now, my girlfriend is mostly in control except when we're intimate (lmao!) or when she's too tired to think. I don't know, it's in her nature—a law student. It's much easier to just follow orders, you know. 😂 Or it's just that, I've learned to compromise? Hmm. I hope so. 😅 As of today, when it comes to collaborations, I like to be in the sidelines—to help, to innovate and to critique. If I plan to start something, I'll do it all by myself. No subordinates. It's hard and will take a while, but at least I'm not acting as a leader. 😂 I need to improve this part of me in the future. 😁

Feels Today:

  • No entry for yesterday because I was so lazy and sleepy last night. 😅 I should bring back my "nice" bed time. Lately, I've been spending an hour or two of watching tv series before going to sleep. Not good, Chili. Not good.
  • I feel neutral today. Not hyped. Not feeling down. I just feel preoccupied. 👍
  • I want to trade again, using real money. But I'm still not ready... I need to be updated with the news, have a routine to check stock charts. I need to be confident first in trading in our local stock exchange before I trade in the global market. This can be fixed if I wake up early and have more time to study in the morning.
  • I've got so many things to do; while my family, gf, relative, and friends think that I'm just here chillin' at the venue. It's real good that usually, I'm not affected by what others think of me. 😅 I think I need to make a weekly plan. Wow, a day is not enough now. Is this the effect of quitting games? Have I successfully channelled my attention to tasks and chores? 😱

Daily Quest:

  • Yesterday: We got a booking for a civil wedding this July 27. According to the government, as far as I know, religous gatherings are allowed as long as the number of guests is only 50% of the maximum capacity of the venue. It's really scary because of the virus but I accepted this event because I need to earn for a living.
  • Today, I woke up around 10am, workout a bit, made some oatmeal and traded. I earned $20 in less than 2 hrs. 😎 Well, virtually... hahaha! After this competition, I'll go trade with real money again.
  • Today, since my cousin already approved the layout of her wesbite, I'll be adding mock details in it. This is what I'll be doing this afternoon.
  • After dinner, I will print the instructions so that my sister can laminate it. She has that kind of machine. Haha! She's laminating once in a while because of her learning materials. 
  • Later before sleeping, I'll continue planning the chicken business.
  • Tomorrow, I'll wake up early and study stock trading again. This is my priority habit as of now: study trading in the morning—regardless of what day is it. I'll continue to read the book.
  • After that, I'll continue to do my cousin's website. It's about tax consultation services. Jeez, I honestly don't know anything about that.
  • In the afternoon, I'll do the exponents module since my nephew will arrive for another tutor session. I hope I can finish it on our next next meeting.
  • And tomorrow evening, I'll plan tasks, for the following days or weeks, for the development of the events place business. It's just kind of exhausting to think what shall I do tomorrow. I'll try to make a semi long term goal, starting with the main business first.

Quest Log:

  •  ✔️ Checked the stocks (virtually). I've lost a couple of thousands yesterday because my stop loss was triggered and gained a few today. I'm now down by 8%—12 days remaining for the competition.

  • I wasn't able to start typing the module because I was distracted with Facebook while waiting for my nephew.

  •  ✔️ My cousin approved the theme.

  •  I wasn't able to make new sticker instructions for the shower heater. I think it's nice if its laminated so that it doesn't get wet.

  • ✔️ Workout today. It's almost been 3 weeks since I've started doing situps, push ups and squats every morning before I start my day. I can't believe that just by doing little workouts each day, I'd see some little changes in my figure. Now, I'm more motivated.


Incomplete Quest:
make images for the vlog (area of square), update google drive, sticker instructions laminate, exponents module

Picture Picture:
My cat, Chili. He's in heaven now. 😅 I want to have a pet but as I've said, I ain't a leader. I can't commit on taking care of a companion, as of this time. Maybe in the future. 😄
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How Can I Be Better?
Less talk, more work. 😬

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Good afternoon! 😄

Til tomorrow,
Chiliflavor

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On 7/3/2020 at 4:08 AM, chiliflavor said:

Now, my girlfriend is mostly in control except when we're intimate (lmao!) or when she's too tired to think. I don't know, it's in her nature—a law student. It's much easier to just follow orders, you know. 

This is honestly a good combination to have so I would enjoy it lol.

 

On 7/3/2020 at 4:08 AM, chiliflavor said:

I feel neutral today. Not hyped. Not feeling down. I just feel preoccupied. 

It's good you're accepting this at the moment. This is unfamiliar for game addicts and can often lead to relapse if not accepted.

 

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Picture Picture:
My cat, Chili. He's in heaven now. 😅 I want to have a pet but as I've said, I ain't a leader. I can't commit on taking care of a companion, as of this time. Maybe in the future. 😄
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Remaining Days: 37 days (July 4-5, 2020 : Saturday - Sunday)

Quick Fact About Me:

Of all the Marvel heroes, I want to be Spider-Man. Not to mention his hot girlfriend MJ—Kirsten Dunst, my first crush (in TV lmao)!

Feels Today:

  • Yesterday, I felt a little bad because I wasn't able to do my cousin's website even though it's in the journal tasks. I had to follow my schedule no matter what. If I keep postponing the next task because I'm not finished with the current one, I'll always end up late. Everything will be delayed. As our elementary teacher says, "Finished or not finished, pass your papers." 😅 I wanted to stick to my Stocks-Sideline-Business routine. That is, study/trade stocks in the morning, do extra income like creating website or math tutor in the afternoon and develop the main business (events place) and it's sub-businesses (chicken business) at night. The only exception I will accept to alter this routine is when there's an urgent thing to do. Otherwise, on normal days, I will follow this template. As of now, it feels better to have something on schedule.
  • Today, I feel pumped up to continue doing my cousin's website. I want this to be done because of two things: I will get paid and I can continue my personal tasks.
  • Regarding my status in stock trading, I need to find time to actually sit down, study charts, and be updated of the news. I need to accept that this stock trading business is a lifetime investment and my skill needs to be continuously developed. Somehow, at the back of my mind, I still think of it as a quick scheme to get rich. I want to get rid of that thought. As of now, I would like to first finish the book Market WIzards, the competition (til July 15 only) and start learning to trade globally (via eToro). Next, I'll create my trading system and build my capital. Then, I'll go out again and try to earn via stock trading. In short, right now, I'm enchancing my gear for a higher level of trading. ✌️
  • I can't believe I spent 45 mins writing this entry. Well, anyway, this is my therapy. 😂 I'll try to write faster next time. 😅
  • Interestingly enough, I don't write about gaming that much here anymore—only when I feel that it affects me—not like the past weeks. I hope this addiction is healing👍

Daily Quest:

  • Summary of yesterday (Saturday): Hmm. I can't remember it all but I know that I tried to stick to my schedule. I woke up around 5:30, read about trading, then fell asleep after. I woke up around lunch so I had to skip doing the website. Had a math tutor in the afternoon, ate dinner, planned about the events place business then went to sleep.
  • Today's one and only plan: Beast mode in creating the website. I'll try to finish the 1st draft today. 100% focus!!! It's 2 PM now and let's see how much can I do before 12 midnight. The good thing in creating websites using Wordpress (or Wix, or the like) is that they already have templates and all I have to do is replace, rearrange, or modify some features. 😄

Quest Log:

  •  I wasn't able to continue my cousin's website. Videos from Youtube and Facebook really distracts me. Damn. I should refrain from watching random stuff.

  •  ✔️ |  Studied trading yesterday but not today. I woke up a little late and went home to help in cooking lunch.

  • ✔️ I made an assignment for my nephew regarding exponents; I wasn't able to do the module—few sentences only.

  • ✔️ For the following weeks, I had planned what should I do with the main business—events place. I divided the tasks in 4 weeks. This week, all I have to do with the business is to fix/create advertisements (fliers, posters, presentation of venue using powerpoint) for our new rate and the pending little improvements on technical stuff (additional videos) and update the business' Google and Facebook Page.. 

  • ✔️ It was until this morning that we laminated properly the heater and toilet instructions. Finally, after almost a year of my Mom reminding me to do this, I did this simple instructions. Damn games...

  • I skipped workout today. I just felt very sleepy and low energy when I wake up. I don't feel like working out. Tomorrow, I'll go workout again as soon as I wake up before I get lazy again.


Incomplete Quest:
make images for the vlog (area of square), update google drive, sticker instructions laminate, exponents module

Picture Picture:
Tutor session yesterday. This drawing board was from my drafting class in high school way back 2009. 😅
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How Can I Be Better?
Again: less talk, more work. 😬

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Good afternoon! 😄

Til tomorrow,
Chiliflavor

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