R. Daneel Olivaw

Basically I sleep or play, some work, nothing else.

Been a while, fully relapsed. I tried to read books but it didn't really work. I'm thinking of watching TV. Cold winter and virus makes things harder.

The second one is Canon 350D. I had only one game-free day, started reading books, improving my life, and then relapsed. Back to social media, however I can keep some balance. Doing household chores, work, therapy.

Yesterday I've unlinked my games from the account. Today I got some automated message. "Confirm to verify your identity. By clicking it, you are subscribing to the ... Games newsletter. To show our appreciation, we’ve got some great rewards for ..." Also I'm interested in technology and got this newsletter: "Get ... (this game) when you buy .... this processor. Play with the elite performance that you deserve and AAA games demand. Play this game with the most advanced desktop processors in the world" Same when I read tech news, it is part of my interest. They often cover game news as well, it is easy to fall this way. Uploaded old pictures.

Just a note: when I post on this forum, I never realize that my game is open all the time in another window.

I've just found my smartphone log in my account, I had no idea that this log exists and collects data. I thought that I've turned off all logging activity right at the beginning. It covers all devices from 2016 and all apps, even broken and sold phones. The log shows that I've installed a total of 470 apps. The HDD photo recovery is more shocking. I've found tens of thousands of pictures, not only mine, but a family members and even photos from neighbors. These pictures date back to the year 2000. My boss requested to check out a social media group for work. I've realized that there is no need to social media registration to see all content of this group. To get rid of such a social media account is not easy. Even after deleting the account, the posts and likes remain there forever. So I had to delete all these activity one by one, it took a month of my free time. And I achieved nothing, because my data still remains on other peoples devices, accounts, e-mail folders. There is an "account deleters" movement going on. I still play, but only if I have nothing else to do, or tired doing real life things in vain. Have a nice day!

@BooksandTrees Yes, I am here again, starting the day not running after some new items, but journaling. I had one day off from games, feeling very thankful about it. I used my whole day productively, but suddenly bad things happened. After browsing the net, I realized that my health problem is more serious that I thought. The games robbed so much time for me previously, I got distracted from the really important issues. What a waste of a healthy person! My whole September is already scheduled with medical and other mess things. I use this weekend for some fun, I simply need it to lower stress. The above things and bunch of other stuff is too much for me. I can spend the whole day with problems. Or game and relax. I will check your journal sometime, have a nice day.

day 0, relapsed. Project halted @BooksandTrees you asked @Mohammad about the waste of time, and some people find games entertaining. I am one of those who feels some improvement by games. Game was the one what prevented me from feeling very bad emotions, it was a strong protection. When I stopped it long ago, soon after i developed psychosis, and my life went down rapidly. Chains of worse addictions kept on coming until I found myself in a much worse trap. Now I try balance, not doing one thing to the excess. Little bit of everything. Learned most of my written English from game forums, I know... it is still trash, better than nothing though. If I think about the big picture I have learned all of my foreign language skills from consuming media, movies. Never understood a sentence in spoken English, now no need for subtitles anymore. After developing my skills in English, with the help of the Internet, the world opened for me. I already knew a ton of HW/SW abbreviations by using PC.

Afaik, we remember the dreams when our brain wants to tell us something really important. Dreams never lie. I'd suggest to write down to somewhere, before they slip away, for later consideration. My therapist told me to do this, and I forgot. Freud and Jung also got it right, for reference. Just to mention some reliable names from the science. We need to fix this boredom thing somehow, this is common. Have a nice day!

No idea where is the signature so I post it here. Orsolya Király, assistant professor, and Zsolt Demetrovics, full professor, called attention to the risks of using ICT tools in their study published together with other leading researchers of the discipline in the journal Comprehensive Psychiatry. The coronavirus pandemic and related restrictive lockdown measures may lead to stress, depression, and anxiety due to fear of the virus, financial insecurity, uncertainty about the future, and confinement. Psychoactive substances and various activities that trigger behavioural addiction (gambling, video games, watching serials, social media usage, adult content consumption, and Internet usage) are frequently used tools to reduce negative feelings. While these activities are not addictive for most people, their use may become problematic for a smaller, more vulnerable part of the society, often resulting in the decrease of social interactions and other normal daily activities. Maladaptive coping mechanisms tend to become established habits over time, which are then difficult to overcome. Researchers at the ELTE Faculty of Education and Psychology, Orsolya Király, assistant professor, and Zsolt Demetrovics, full professor, together with other leading researchers of the field (including Mark D. Griffiths and Marc N. Potenza, honorary doctors of ELTE), made recommendations on the use of information and communications technology (ICT) during the epidemic in the journal Comprehensive Psychiatry. ICT tools, on the one hand, make possible working and learning from a distance, help access to information and communication with family and friends, but – as the researchers say – they also have inherent risks. Consuming certain contents or carrying out the online activities mentioned above may also lead to serious problems and increase the risk of developing addiction. To prevent these, the researchers The former group includes, among other things, developing and following a regular schedule, establishing daily routines, regular sleep, appropriate food and fluid intake, using relaxation techniques, keeping in touch with friends and family, making time for self-care, and acquiring authentic information of the epidemic without over-consuming the news. Specific recommendations for using the Internet include conscious usage, limiting the time spent in front of the screen, managing children’s online presence, and using digital wellbeing tools. It also helps a lot if certain regular activities (such as checking the time) are done on an analogue device (e.g. a watch) instead of a computer. Researchers advise everyone to seek professional help in the case of losing control over the usage of digital devices. According to the authors, it is important to ensure that one does not develop new, unhealthy habits due to the increased usage of digital devices during the lockdown restrictions. The ELTE Faculty of Education and Psychology takes part in the European Problematic Use of the Internet Research Network COST project. The members of the international cooperation were to meet in Budapest between 16 and 18 March and present their research results in public as part of their annual conference.

Hello @Tom2. Game over? Best wishes

@MuMuMelon @Mohammad Gaming is nowhere at the top 10. Good to know what is the priority. The hiking case scared my a ton, I climbed on a tree not to fall down on the slope, I went up there to take really good photos. That's why I refrain to tell anyone what should he do. But addictions make each other stronger, I smoke much more when playing, used to drink much more. All my really bad accidents happened only after excessive gaming. I'm among the few people, who almost lost his life to games. The direct cause of death is always heart attack by excitement, or murdery like in Florida championship case. High school murder cases committed by kids are often associated with games. If I read articles, can read about another accident by gaming, another lost life.

DAY # - 3 Projects: first day without playing Summary of Day #3: first day of detox, success, zero game (updated) I think that I can make it, some hours left until next day. Took a nap and the dream was about a game. I relapsed! Upon waking up, realized that it was just a dream. Not sure what is the goal of this whole project. It gave back a day from my life and it was productive, but no fun. If can make it until midnight, then what? True happiness awaits? I doubt, because this day was bad. On the other hand, it is so miserable and infantile. Why do I want that green item so badly in the game, if it is a terribly boring game? The other one is not better, just one more gun in the collection. I'm not a kid after all to play, at 39. My brain does everything with a purpose. Can see people biting nails or taking their thumb in their mouth, when stressed. They go back to breastfeeding period for a moment, then the other moment coming back to adulthood. This infantilism is with a purpose, to lower stress. So I need fighting games to lower stress, it doesn't make any sense. Or maybe it makes, because the bigger stress annihilates the lower stress. I found myself in risky situations when making photos, lost the way in the wild at dark. It was stressful enough to forget the workplace. I can recall this fear after several years, and it was not so risky at all, rather a real life experience in nature. I knew the way out well and had a lamp, the fear came only some yards from safety of the pavement. I can hardly remember games so vividly, if at all. I jumped another threshold, when even intense games can't entertain me anymore. That's it for today, I wish all of us is well. Update: success, feeling a real reward now. Really got to sleep.