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  1. Previous Journal: https://forum.gamequitters.com/index.php?/topic/6141-justtoms-journal/ I don't know what to write as an introduction to this journal, so I'll just dump some of my notes: Here's the core todo: 1. Quitting Video Games - Gradual Staged Detox - Including video and text content 2. Establishing a Sleep Routine - Going to bed even if not tired - Not guilting myself for oversleeping - Evening Routine - Always have a fallback plan for oversleeping 3. Work Hard - 8h/day = 56 hours per week - Dedicated Work Place 5. Eat Healthy and Exercise - The gym 3x/week - Intermittent Fasting every day except the night game days Number 4 is a "Play Hard" section, buuuuut I'll keep this one private for now ha! Number 5 is easy, I don't really have to focus on that. Number 3 will come automatically if I succeed at number 1 and number 2. So.. if I feel like gaming, I will fiddle around with music instead. I'll be home for two months now, so I have instruments and the desktop PC to make music on. Progress Check #1: 14.7.2018 Progress Check #2: 21.7.2018 Progress Check #3: 15.8.2018 At each of these progress checks, I will evaluate my growth rate and look at myself to see if I'm on the right path or not. If not, I will take a 7-day retreat in the nearest forest or a mountain. I mean a serious meditation retreat, just literally doing nothing, no internet connection. I will take some books and just camp. It's more of a "something needs to fucking change yo" rather than a punishment. I would also like to have a reward at each progress check, if I conclude I'm doing good, but I can't think of anything, to be honest. The main things to always cling to are getting out of the house to work and going to sleep at a normal time. And not engaging with the gaming community, of course. Not watching content might be tough, but as I said, whenever I feel like watching some gaming video, I will search for some how-to on music. Gradual detox means I will do a series of very short detox periods, that are quite "easy", working my way up to not gaming in longer and longer periods. The same way as when I'm really procrastinating hard, it is effective to start doing very short 2-5 minute pomodoros and work my way up to full 25 or 27-minute pomodoros. I have some more specifics on the other points written down, but that's the gist. Let's go.
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    JustTom's Journal 2: Summer Edition

    Full Detox Day 57/90 | Got up: No | Pomodoros: 0 | Wasted Time: all of it Here comes the inevitable failure day. When I finally got up at 6pm, I was so disappointed by myself that I just sat around watching youtube the whole day. Now it's 1:30 in the night, I'm going to stay up long and make small steps towards being productive, I'm feeling a bit better now. No cravings towards gaming or gaming media. Just a bit of left-over depression. I am reminding myself that I need patience. Even though I can just TASTE the results how close they are, it's still going to take time and there will be down-turns and that's okay. I will get there very soon, just not in weeks. Finish the remaining two courses, keep e-mailing people for supervision and finish the last 10 days of school. Don't worry as much about the lost social opportunities, they will come after the winter break as well. New ones, better ones, more of them. I'm doing excellent and I'm an amazing person so I'll just keep being me and striving towards my goals.
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    Daily Journal - Samon

    I'll just leave this image that @Silverliningposted some time ago in my journal to encourage me. It's very important to keep it in mind at all times.
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    Every day is a new day

    I would not recommend trying this. EVEN IF this doesn't trigger you to relapse, it's still a massive massive time-sink(assuming it's RDR2 or a similarly long RPG). I think this is just cravings from both of you calling. There are activities that will bring more long-term fullfillment and it's almost never worth spending time on a long game, in my opinion.
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    JustTom's Journal 2: Summer Edition

    Full Detox Day 55/90 | Got up: Yes | Pomodoros: ?? + gym + chores | Wasted Time: 30m Full Detox Day 56/90 | Got up: ?? | Pomodoros: ?? + 2x social + chores | Wasted Time: 100m I've been super busy. Honestly, apart from making a lot of money and traveling, I'm living my ideal life right now. No gaming, working hard, exercising, eating well, meeting new people. I just moved to the new place and it's epic, finally I can sing in my room 😄 And also do other loud activities with other people, hehe. I had a tough time keeping track of pomodoros, so instead I put in the time wasted stat. It's essentially just procrastination - any time that is not used productively or doing necessary things like commuting, toilet, shopping, etc. I will now consider pomodoros as purely work time and the wasted time stat will account for productivity. I can't say if I 'got up' today since I didn't even set an alarm so that's not objective. In the next few days, I will focus on getting up every day on time. It's very strange how other people are getting the sense that this pressure period is negative. I LOVE IT. Maybe I'm framing it in a stressful way, but this is what I want and need to thrive. I want my life to be intense, full of energy. I feel more motivated and happy than ever. Fuck the "balanced life". I've always strived for nothing but excellence even though I was depressed and addicted. Like for example, hitting the gym is RESTING mentally for me. Going on a date is the FUN ACTIVITY to do. Even though these can be 'exhausting' activities, it's exhausting in a very positive sense and I feel reinvigorated after them, full of energy and motivation to crush it even more! I don't want to rest by watching TV or hanging out. I want every minute of my life to be excellent and going towards a bigger goal.
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    Karabas's Journal: Part 2

    Nice. Is this the online course you were talking about earlier? Also, your video detox means absolutely no videos, right? Pretty hardcore haha
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    JustTom's Journal 2: Summer Edition

    Full Detox Day 54/90 | Got up: Yes | Pomodoros: ?? + gym I couldn't properly keep track of pomodoros today, but the day was great. I slept 11 hours after 3 days of sleep deprivation, hit the gym, and then did some light work in the evening, but I was still tired so I didn't do much. I have to admit I don't think I'll be able to hit the goal of 70 hours of work per week. This is, however, due to my choices with productive time - being spent on working on my social skills as well instead of working all the time. Which is good at this particular period in my life. The business is postponed so I'll start it when I feel like it. Probably march or so. Until that time, I just want to finish my two courses, work on the thesis, work on my health and get my social skills very high. Yeah I just have to hustle hard these 2-3 weeks and then have a winter break + 2019 is going to start out more chill(which means I'll just chase girls more so it's actually not going to be chill, but you know what I mean 😄 )
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    JustTom's Journal 2: Summer Edition

    Full Detox Day 53/90 | Got up: Yes | Pomodoros: 20 + gym + social I am so so so so SO tired. I really need to sleep, but because I'm homeless for now, I have to abide by other people's schedules and can't sleep in, neither can I go to sleep early because I promised people that I'll show up and I really don't want to disappoint. Hopefully tomorrow I can rest a bit.
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    JustTom's Journal 2: Summer Edition

    Full Detox Day 52/90 | Got up: Yes | Pomodoros: 17 + social @karabas , @Silverlining Those two days were super tough, unfortunately, there were no non-essential tasks. I don't *want* to cut sleep, but if circumstances really necessitate that, then I don't mind. My problem is sleeping too much, not too little 😄 Anyways, I'm really enjoying this period of my life. I'm doing my best(more or less), so I do feel the 'pressure' of having high goals and a lot to do, but I don't feel 'stressed'. I know I'm on the path and it's a difficult one. Just how I like it. When it comes to rewards, I'm rewarding myself with socializing. A big part of my work motivation currently(because I don't really like the programme anymore) is that if I get shit done, I can meet people and improve my social skills.
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    JustTom's Journal 2: Summer Edition

    Full Detox Day 51/90 | Got up: Yes | Pomodoros: 23 + chores SMASHED this day! WHEWWW! Lots of work done, including the second interview. The upcoming week is going to be crazy full with stuff to do. Especially moving, communicating with potential supervisors, research, a final project and exams coming up in 2 weeks. All of that plus going to the gym and socializing. I'll be so sleep deprived tomorrow lol. Has to be done though. Let's go! If only I could control that myself! The amount of pressure is largely dictated by my environment and how I'm currently doing. Because I'm not lowering my goals. The problem is when I dip down a little bit, work piles up and that increases pressure. It's a tough thing to balance, but I'm getting better at it every day. I feel a huge upswing coming up!
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    Every day is a new day

    So true! 💯💯💯 So many years went by as if the time disappeared when gaming, with little results to speak of. The sense of belonging to a community that is striving to grow and thinks critically and holistically is HUGE and very understated. Journaling here has been a major breakthrough in my life personally - it keeps me very consistent. I'd like to spread this idea more, somehow... Anyways, keep crushing it!
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    Jay's Epic Journey

    https://youtu.be/F1fAWT6eRWA The alpha and omega.
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    Introduction

    Step in the right direction, welcome and good luck!
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    Dear Diary...

    I second this one. It's the best self-development/psychology book I've read. Dense with detailed content, practical examples as well as deep insights. Everyone should read it.
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    Karabas's Journal: Part 2

    Interesting. I don't have a religious perspective at all, but I would like to incorporate spirituality into my life as well. I just can't seem to find time for it - as you said, getting distracted by the constant chase of productivity and results. Going on a retreat where all you do is pray/meditate/contemplate/take part in the community sounds pretty great. Let's see how it motivated you really are to crush it now! 😄
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    Jay's Epic Journey

    Board games are a very 'friendly' activity, something to do with your buddies. I'm not saying it's a bad date, but it doesn't set a tone of man-to-woman interaction. Also, some girls are just shy or really just want to follow your lead, wherever it goes. If she says she was really excited to see you and had a great time, that's a clear signal for you to take it further. Even though she might have not actually enjoyed it, it's likely that she is still into you and just wants to do something else - possibly more physical 😄 Just my guess from a brief text description.
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    JustTom's Journal 2: Summer Edition

    Full Detox Day 50/90 | Got up: No | Pomodoros: 15 "morning" update: overslept again, another half day wasted. It's getting really bad at this point. My self-efficacy is decreasing and I'm not getting enough work done. Given that this period of time is so intensive and critical, it is going to have consequences. Very bad ones. 60 is my top score 😄 I'm in a bit of a down-turn right now, but that's okay. I bounced back from watching gaming vids that one time really quickly. It's really the person who sucked me into it - I've been watching him since I was 15 and he influenced my personality sooo so much - probably more than my parents themselves haha. In a good way, he's a wonderful person(not your standard gamer type). But as I kept watching, after 2 hours or so, I googled the game, saw it's free to play and then I realized what I'm doing. I realized that I'm just 2 steps away from relapsing, so I snapped back and stopped. Definitely a sign of strength, but also a reminder that I can't be messing around and keep being focused. Thanks for the support!
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    JustTom's Journal 2: Summer Edition

    Full Detox Day 49/90 | Got up: No | Pomodoros: 12 + social Overslept again so I didn't have enough time to work before the evening, but other than that it was a great day - used my waking time as best as I could have. Tomorrow I have a full day for productivity, so I might be able to make up for some lost p's today.
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    Freelo_Is_Not_Free's journal

    For me, quitting gaming media is much harder than quitting gaming, but I'm already at day 49 so it's definitely possible 🙂 What do you do when you eat? I have this habit of always watching some stupid videos during lunch/dinner.
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    JustTom's Journal 2: Summer Edition

    Full Detox Day 48/90 | Got up: No | Pomodoros: 20 Getting better. Didn't get up on my own, but didn't oversleep either, since I had an interview in the morning - it went surprisingly well. After that, I hustled at the uni. With little results, but I put in the time and effort at least. I'm getting overwhelmed by deadlines because of the interviews, assignments, exams and the moving next week, quite frustrating. That of course means there's no time for gym and I'm also eating like a maniac. In the last 3 days I've eaten so much that I set my fat loss back another 3 weeks I'm sure. I am going to sleep relatively early, tired and after a productive day so maybe tomorrow I'll successfully get up? Let's see. The priority is to get my evening/morning routine back in order.
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    JustTom's Journal 2: Summer Edition

    Full Detox Day 47/90 | Got up: No | Pomodoros: a bunch Ok. I'm not doing good. I couldn't get up and since I had my laptop at home, I didn't even go to the university - I just kept watching youtube, southpark, standup comedy, reading reddit, horrible. Instead of preparing for an interview tomorrow. I slept until 19 or so, so I'm going to stay up long, I still have 5 hours to study, but it's pretty bad already. Yesterday I even watched gaming videos for about 2 hours, although I wasn't watching because of the games, but rather because of the person, plus the game wasn't one that I used to play so, meh it's fine. The massive procrastination at home is the problem. By doing this, I have reduced my chances of succeeding at the interview tomorrow. I'm not resetting the detox counter despite watching gaming content for 2+ hours, I'm forgiving myself for this one, because it didn't escalate and I keep fighting. My gaming addiction runs deep, but I will beat it. ****************************************************************** I didn't think of that hm. I'll try it eventually. Because really, not wasting time is what matters the most. Choosing which productive activity to do is secondary and I think I'm pretty good at that anyways. Oh no, that's way too much effort just for stats 😄 I am using the RescueTime multi-platform app to measure activity, but of course, that's only on my PC and phone, so it doesn't include commuting, sleeping, working out, cooking, eating, socializing etc. I really need to think of a way to automate this process.
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    JustTom's Journal 2: Summer Edition

    Full Detox Day 46/90 | Got up: Yes | Pomodoros: 21 I think I should start measuring the time wasted, instead of the time being productive. With this system, I cannot disambiguate between having an unproductive day and a productive day that I just started late(due to oversleeping) or a productive day with social activities 🤔🤔
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    JustTom's Journal 2: Summer Edition

    Full Detox Day 45/90 | Got up: No | Pomodoros: 15 It's half-point for the detox yay! This is the 3rd time for me so nothing special really. I would like to say I'm going to crush this detox no problem, but again, I've thought that in the past already... twice. So instead, I'll just enjoy the present moment, try my hardest, stay vigilant, stay happy and keep improving step by step! Excited for the future!
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    Daily Journal - Samon

    Somehow your posts seem like exactly my life some time ago haha. Keep going, looks like you're doing good overall!
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    JustTom's Journal 2: Summer Edition

    Full Detox Day 44/90 | Got up: No | Pomodoros: 7 + gym + social Went to an epic (metal) concert - it was really awesome, did some nice insta stories too. There was a girl I started chatting to, it was very natural and she seemed into me, but then while the band played, I didn't engage her - kinda wasn't feeling it since people around weren't active and (what looked like) her dad was there. She kept glancing at me the whole time, I didn't even try to exchange contacts after. Such a wasted opportunity. Goddamnit xD The day was productive once I got to the uni, but it took me a looOooOOOooOOoong time to pick up my ass and get there, so I had no time to squeeze out a lot of pomodoros before the concert.
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