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  1. What do you guys do when you first start the 90 day no gaming detox. I have no sense of purpose. I create many routines that end up failing because I have so much to do. I look at my daily list and I run away and go play video games. How am I supposed to do what I need to do to be a success if I just wake up everyday ready to be productive and work on my life but instead I say screw this I am going to watch Netflix for worse play video games.
  2. Hey guys I am very new to all of this side of the wall or whatever you would like to call it but I wanted to ask a lot of different things. This general question is all one big jumble but I would really appreciate it because if you guys could give me guidance. I don't know where to really take this big jumble to. Also sorry for how long it is and my really bad writing and social skills. Here now I'll start. I am 18 years old now. The day I was born all the way up till I was 10 my parents were very abusive in every type of abuse possible. I also didn't listen to anyone. When my Father wasn't abusing me he wanted me to play video games which I started when I was 3 and it was constant playing. Skip forward to age 10 I was put into foster care. All of the residential facilities and foster homes were never a success. I wanted to go back home. Eventually I was adopted by a loving adoptive father who wanted to have kids but didn't want to get married. He has 4 of us. My siblings were put together into another adoptive couple family. Eventually I was cut completely of from my siblings. By the way I was put into counseling at age 6 and still currently in counseling still. I also take medications. Over time I got better after being adopted but then something hit and I went spiraling down again. I got into drugs and got put on probation. I also had many issues in school for bad behavior and next year is my senior year and everybody still thinks I'm weird. But anyways eventually I got off probation and put into more counseling. I got better over the years but I also was diagnosed with many things including ptsd, borderline personality disorder, add, adhd, and a couple other things. There are many things I want in life and I don't know how to achieve them. I cant find a career path that will help me achieve the dreams I have always had deep down. Those goals are to make enough money to own a big house on the beach in Florida, Get a dog, Wife and 2 kids, I want my faith to grow and have a Christian background, I want fitted clothing, money to do the things I want to do. Right now I have this possible career that could turn out within 5 years or so after I graduate. Next year is my senior year and I want it to be the best year of high school. I want to be happy and on my way to this life I want, I want to get a girlfriend and get fit, I want to eat and exercise healthy, I want to have a stable routine and schedule so I am no longer not clearheaded and foggy and confused about life. I want to work on this business opportunity. But I don't know where to start. My whole life is a mess. I have no job, and 0 dollars to my name. No car. I sit around all day everday this whole summer still playing video games since the age of 3 at least 10 hours a day. I don't know if its the video games and I need to stop them or if it is just me and my life is not even on a stone. It is all just one big sandy pile. I just need to really get some guidance on where to start so I can live like I dream of everday. But feel far from achieving. Any comments would help and sorry for the length. I just have everything on my mind.
  3. Well Sheldon welcome to the family. I don’t really know what to tell you. I’m kinda in a low boat at the moment, but I wanted to tell you good luck on your future endeavors!
  4. Well here I am again. Back down at the bottom! I went 3 days without gaming and then I relapsed that quickly. I want to do many things with my life. I start to get on track with where to start and I see I have to do a lot of things to achieve what I want. Then I look at my routine for the next day and say screw that I’m going to play games and do it later. That is exactly what happened today. And all the other relapses before. I really want to stop relapsing there are so many things I want to achieve. It’s like I said there is a lot to get there so I procrastinate and I get cravings and I go back to gaming. I also consider what I need to do to achieve my goals is boring. I did play today for 5 hours then I got off because I regretted it. Watched a couple inspirational videos. Started a new 90 day detox tracker. Now writing my daily journal and then I’m going to restart. Wish me luck!
  5. Where is the 90 day detox tracker badge on our profiles at? I still need to create my badge to track my detox.
  6. Right now honestly my life feels like crap. I don't have any real sense of purpose, I am depressed, lonely, I have nothing to my name, no job, no routine, I don't exercise. Starting this has made me question everything around me. I'm nervous that I won't succeed, I doubt that it will work, I'm happy and excited about the possible potential without games, I feel depressed because I see I am at rock bottom for the most part, I am anxious to see if it works, I am confused about how I am going to create a purpose in my life, what am I going to be to make it big, I am tired because of all of the above. For the most part I just feel stuck, I have cravings for games to escape and have a purpose and see instant gratification. I know the outcome/goals I want, but I don't know what the path is to get there and that creates all of these emotions.
  7. Hi my name is Jordan Schwartz. I am 18 years old. I am from Decatur IN. I decided that games were causing me issues and that I wanted to quit so that I could achieve my true dreams. I decided to quit games so that I could create my own business, achieve my dream of owning a house in Florida someday, getting a dog, being fit and healthy, having a sense of purpose, not being confused, tired, and depressed by life. I went through a lot of abuse growing up and I finally want the pain to stop. I want a loving wife and girlfriend someday, I want more than one friend, I want my family to be proud of me, I want to do big things with my life, I want to work on my social skills, I want people to like me at school and I don't want to be a loner, especially with next year being my last year of school. I want my last year to be awesome, I want good grades, lots of friends, possibly a girlfriend, and overall just a great time.
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