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  1. chi

    Diary

    day 17: Today was a good day. I did almost all tasks at work. I did not play, but I had cravings. My brain is looking to get around to the game, like programming scripts that can be useful in games that I've played. I was go-karting with friends from previous job and took 4/9 place, but the first 14 laps belonged to me. We played, who will have the best time on the lap. Also in the evening I smoked a bit of MJ and watched the totally numb episode of Rick and Morty. I realized that these 30 minutes were totally wasted. Then I went to meditate, calm down and go for a walk with my dog. I still do not feel the purpose in my life, just like games did.
  2. chi

    Diary

    day 15-16 Hey! The last two days I was doing a schematic of the electronic system - the Morse coder. Today I went to the university to show the layout of circuit to the PhD. The only thing I heard was that this arrangement is useless, and I probably will not pass this semester. The beauty of Polish higher education ... Well, it's a bit of my fault, because I started doing it quite late. I felt a little depressed, but hey! I will not make a weapon so easy 🙂 Today I will take a break from electronics, but tomorrow I will be back to work. As for the illness that has been bothering me for a week, I feel better and I am going to work tomorrow, although I am not fully healthy yet. Yesterday at the walk, I started dreaming about playing again. Fortunately, my compass works and I was able to quickly move my thoughts in a different direction. The brain begins to make up excuses, for example: after developing my favorite game programmatically, I will be able to be in its universe, and I will not formally play! It is a path to nowhere and it is known that the border would begin to blur. I wish you all a nice week! edit: What do you think about the photo i took yesterday night?
  3. chi

    Diary

    day 13-14: I was absorbed by the science of electronics. When I was playing, nothing could fascinate me because nothing gave such fun. Now I feel that I am slowly able to develop other passions because they please me. Hobby is what I missed. In the meantime, I felt a slight nostalgia to the times when I was playing and the nervousness. General well-being is good and better than ever when I played actively. Have a nice day!
  4. U talking about your relation with your brother and friends right? These are just excuses, act in accordance with your heart, and everything will be fine. This bound with brother will never expire, try to find another together activity. Remember, friends come and go all the time, but you and your real goals never! Good luck! 🙂
  5. chi

    Diary

    day 12: Another hot day, I had a very strong desire today to play. By noon I felt nervousness and doubt. Then I took care of other things and now I feel a little stronger in non-playing again.
  6. chi

    Diary

    day 11: Another day of treatment, there were moments when I was reminded of situations from different games. I can recognize in turn the feelings behind these memories: excitement, joy, sense of bonding, fear, happiness ... I forgive them slowly, without regret.
  7. chi

    Diary

    @JustTom Thanks mate 🙂 day 10: Today I went to the doctor, in front of me a whole week of home treatment. Around noon, I was sure that I would spend this time playing on the phone. I quickly found another job and that's over - now I feel good because I'm still in the ring. Today is also the first day when I did not have to support myself with instant endorfine-boosters like porno or marichuana. Thanks to this, I was able to enjoy small things, such as talking with grandparents, or clearing the room 🙂
  8. chi

    Diary

    day 8-9 I was sitting sick at home all weekend. I have the feeling that I have been locked in a cage alone with my addiction. I was a bit afraid of this situation, because as a rule, when I was at home, I played all my free time. All the time I was accompanied by the feeling that I was wasting my time, that I might as well play. In the end, I did not launch any games, although I spent a lot of time watching movies (no gaming movies ofc). I am glad that I have taken the hard step of detox. See ya!
  9. chi

    Diary

    Day 6-7 I'm sick, so I stayed home. For most of this time I wanted to play again, but I still stand with a shield.
  10. chi

    Diary

    day 5: I feel tired and a little sick from the morning. I still do not play, but I have an impression that in times of weakness one must be particularly careful. Besides, it's good, hold on! 🙂
  11. chi

    Diary

    day 4: Today I'm successful. From the morning I have a good mood, thanks to the detox my mind does not revolve around games and I manage to focus better on current tasks. Yesterday I noticed that discontinuation of playing may not be enough to be completely withdrawn. When I was playing, I liked to light up MJ. So smoking is just another escape from the real world for me. In fact, the biggest challenge for success is to face the feelings that I run away playing or smoking. Fear, anger, sadness, apathy, guilt - a whole range of emotions I can not feel when playing. However, ending the game they come back, they will always come back until they are overworked. From today I start regular meditation to feel good with myself 🙂 Have a nice day!
  12. chi

    Diary

    day 3: I feel good, the weather is great and day after day i am more confident about this detox.
  13. chi

    Diary

    day 0: During the day I was attacked by a mobile game advertisement in which I used to play a stationary version (LoL). Out of curiosity, I played 3 hours, fortunately my defense mechanisms started and I already deleted it. It's terrifying how easy it is to fall into the swamp. I start from the beginning, I have to be more careful about advertising.
  14. We all feels the same, bro. The way that helps me in critical moments is to imagine myself in 10 years, playing without restraint in the game. Then I imagine myself after the same period of time, but not playing - developing myself in selected areas (in your case fluent in Russian :). Feel it, go this path. You are less addicted every day. We can do it! As for climbing shoes, I bought shoes that seemed slightly cramped when I bought. After 3-4 hours on the feet, they still hurt. How long does it take for them to go?
  15. chi

    Diary

    Day 13: Still thinking about games and what would be if i relapse. I have more motivation to do my overdue tasks. I am wondering if i could play only non-online games after my 90 day detox. Probably not, because is much easier to relapse into that addictive ones, if u already play offline. I am reading respawn and planning my future activities. Have a nice day 🙂
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