Kam 22 Posted August 19, 2020 Share Posted August 19, 2020 Hey all, Today starts day one of no gaming. My introduction can be found here: I've started the morning off well - I woke up early, got a quick workout in, and now I'm starting this journal. My gaming PC and Switch are tucked away inside a cabinet in the basement. Last night after I wrote my introduction, I also wrote a letter to myself and placed it on top of my gaming PC. I'm hoping that the letter will help prevent me from relapsing. I don't have any urges to game right now, but all it takes is one stressful day at work and I know I'll be itching to install games on my iPad. If anyone reading this and looking for a fiction book recommendation, I read the His Dark Materials trilogy earlier this year. The first book is called The Golden Compass. I highly recommend the series! The author is currently writing the final book of a follow-up trilogy. I'm thinking about picking up the first two books in the new trilogy this week, as recently I've been trying to read some fairly dry non-fiction, and I don't consider that to be relaxing. Thanks for reading. I wish everyone the best of luck. 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BooksandTrees 4,140 Posted August 19, 2020 Share Posted August 19, 2020 Welcome to the forums. I think you're in the right place. Keep motivated by finding new activities to try. Urges can be solved by so many different options. The real learning process will be discovering these urges and triggers along the way and how to solve them. Be patient. But be assertive with yourself. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kam 22 Posted August 20, 2020 Author Share Posted August 20, 2020 Thanks for the feedback! Day 2 of no gaming is going well. Of course, a friend I haven't talked to in a while reached out and wanted to play a game together online. I found an excuse to decline. I'll definitely miss the social aspects of gaming. I also picked up a book I had been putting off reading for a while. I used to strive for reading 10-15 pages a day at a minimum to keep up the pace of reading a certain number of books a year. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kam 22 Posted August 22, 2020 Author Share Posted August 22, 2020 Day 3 (yesterday) was a success. Work kept me busy! Day 4 going well so far. Worked on some personal coding in the morning, and getting outside for the rest of the day. No strong urges to game. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kam 22 Posted August 25, 2020 Author Share Posted August 25, 2020 Day 5 (Sunday) and Day 6 (Monday) both went smoothly. No strong urges so far, but I know they'll come soon. Along with writing in this journal, another is avoiding gaming videos on YouTube. I've managed to replace that idle time with other activities, mainly reading. Today is Day 7. Almost done with a full week! 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kam 22 Posted August 26, 2020 Author Share Posted August 26, 2020 Yesterday went okay. I had my first strong gaming urges since I quit a week ago. The good news is, I discovered a trigger: drinking. I had a beer in the evening after finishing up with work and I felt the pull into the old routine of grabbing a beer and hopping on Rocket League (a common pattern for me after the wife and kid are sleeping) I managed to curb it off and occupied my time with something more productive and creative. Day 8 going well so far! 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kam 22 Posted August 27, 2020 Author Share Posted August 27, 2020 I had a dream last night that I was playing video games. Interestingly enough, the dream-version of myself was disappointed that I had relapsed. I was relieved to wake up 😀. Day 8 in the bag, and Day 9 going alright. I've been getting a lot more exercise and doing other healthy habits during this time, so I feel focused and alert. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
TheNewMe2.0 1,823 Posted August 27, 2020 Share Posted August 27, 2020 Good job keeping off the games. You're making progress. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kam 22 Posted August 29, 2020 Author Share Posted August 29, 2020 Day 10 complete. Hope everyone has a good weekend 😀 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BooksandTrees 4,140 Posted August 29, 2020 Share Posted August 29, 2020 52 minutes ago, Kam said: Day 10 complete. Hope everyone has a good weekend 😀 Nice job! Keep it up. What are your plans for the weekend? 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kam 22 Posted August 29, 2020 Author Share Posted August 29, 2020 Thanks @BooksandTrees! Nothing major planned. Weather has been pretty crappy so likely staying indoors most of the weekend. I'm currently working on a side project, and plan to read more of a new book I picked up - Flash Boys. How about you? 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BooksandTrees 4,140 Posted August 29, 2020 Share Posted August 29, 2020 6 minutes ago, Kam said: Thanks @BooksandTrees! Nothing major planned. Weather has been pretty crappy so likely staying indoors most of the weekend. I'm currently working on a side project, and plan to read more of a new book I picked up - Flash Boys. How about you? Nice. Watching sports, studying, some exercise, meal prepping, and a movie. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
C_tail 11 Posted August 29, 2020 Share Posted August 29, 2020 Good luck, and gratz on your 10 days! 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kam 22 Posted August 30, 2020 Author Share Posted August 30, 2020 Day 11 complete, Day 12 going alright. It's a Sunday afternoon and everyone in the house is napping except me. I was going to try to be productive during this time. I'd be lying if I said I didn't have urges to game right now 😅 Going to just put it out of my mind and do something slightly less productive than working, but way better than gaming: reading a book. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kam 22 Posted September 1, 2020 Author Share Posted September 1, 2020 Day 13 done! I have certain friends and coworkers who I relate to via gaming. Most of our conversations are about games. I haven’t told anyone that I’ve stopped playing, either. I’ll need to find new topics to talk about with them. Otherwise, talking about games will pull me back towards them. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kam 22 Posted September 2, 2020 Author Share Posted September 2, 2020 Day 14 (Sept 1st) done. Already passed two weeks! I'm not sure what my long-term goal is with this. Gaming wasn't debilitating for me, it was just a serious time waster when I played games that made me angry or stressed. I'd like to return to gaming at some point, but I would need to either avoid competitive games entirely or figure out a better way to manage my emotions while playing them. Easier said than done. I also want to get to the point where I enjoy other hobbies just as much as gaming, if not more. That way, I don't automatically default to gaming when I have spare time. I want gaming to be a way to relax only when I need to relax. I'm apprehensive about returning to gaming any time soon, though. I think 90 days is a good objective, and I think I've seen that recommended on this site somewhere. The past two weeks have been noticeably different. I've read more, practiced creative hobbies more, and have been more focused. The only downside so far is that I still haven't found a way to relax effectively. I've felt tense, especially when work and home life are busy (which they usually are). The pros definitely outweigh that con. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
BooksandTrees 4,140 Posted September 2, 2020 Share Posted September 2, 2020 Congrats on 14 days. As long as you're seeing some life improvement then you're on the right track with goals. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kam 22 Posted September 3, 2020 Author Share Posted September 3, 2020 ✅ Day 15 (Sept 2nd) Thanks @BooksandTrees. Yeah, definitely seeing improvement. I'm progressing further in the areas I want to grow in Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Kam 22 Posted September 16, 2020 Author Share Posted September 16, 2020 (edited) I relapsed on September 4th. I figured that posting on GameQuitters for two weeks helped me get my gaming habits in check. If I can easily go without gaming for two weeks, then I should be able to only game for a little bit each night and avoid competitive games, right? Wrong. I lied to myself again. I gradually went right back to staying up all night playing competitive games. Tonight was a low point for me. I played the two games I said I would avoid but I always gravitate back to. I got furious over losing, had a meltdown, and then tossed all my gaming stuff back into the drawer. I can't control myself and it's extremely frustrating to me. I still don't understand why I can't casually game. If I could just not play competitive games, I think I would be alright, but somehow I always end back up in the same shitty position. Until I figure that out, I need to stay away from gaming entirely. Today (September 16th) starts Day 1. Edited September 16, 2020 by Kam Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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