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Entry 13.5 Weeks until average life expectancy: 2726 (80th birthday) Day 478: No Useless Videos Day 1312: Sticking to Food schedule Day 1352: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 54: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well, no matter how small -Afternoon workout -Revisiting mealplan, about 1.5 hrs. Am planning to post the planned changes tomorrow -3 Meditations 1 Thing I could do better -Remember that my top goal is researching what to study next. If an opportunity to have a phone call on the subject presents itself, I may move other things in the schedule. Sleep documentation for the week May 10-11 7 26-15-23-13-6=6h 29m May 11-12 2 18 + 6 36 - 9 = 6 27 + 2 18 = 8h 45m May 12-13 2 46 + 2 57 = 5h 43m 3 hrs 45 minutes in between meals at least. Day 1 6 hrs in between meals at least. Day 1 Fell asleep earlier than scheduled - 76 Going to sleep in 1 bulk without falling asleep premmaturely in an unplanned manner - 54 Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5 Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 488 Note: Also got an "on hold" response on my Wolt application. And spent some unplanned time on communicating with Wolt in this regard and filling out the application once more

You are the beast :) Seems quite helpful to me :) Taking my hat off What do you mean by "RE work" like changed work? What does "WHF" stand for? Sounds like some progress. Although wow 60 quit an hour is quite the sum... I never did... Perhaps you could use the cheaper accountability option (A free one) here in the Daily Journals section? :D

I just finished writing about the fact that the TV and YouTube watching is a veeery common thread here among us "Game Quitters" so you're not alone. Keep it up, though I'd just flag the No Gaming as a top priority, until you gather some more gaming free days under your belt. If my advice helps you even a bit, I'd be grateful to have contributed to you progress :)

A matter of perspective. :) Thanks for being Glad for us in any case. Perhaps you want to start / re-start your no-gaming days count in the Daily Diaries section? If that resonates, one option to do that is just commit to posting a day count, for example No Gaming Day 1. No Gaming day 2. etc. I'd recommend aiming for 21 days at first. And then see if you want to go further or not. I'm sure you can do 21 days. Even if it may take you a few tries, which it did for me. On top of your day count you could then add small or big entries, so long as you'd stick to a minimum of just writing the day count. @Pulse does that, I do that. Having a system and not having to thing what you have to write everyday helps stay consistent. Everything above are just suggestions, feel free to do your own thing. Or just give it a go, after all it's just 21 days. Im also 27 yr old by the way. I assume you must be around 28 by now, judging by your post of two years ago whee you wrote you were 26. So your not that old, and yes, change is possible. I strongly believe that. It hurts, but possible :) So, see your topic in the Daily Diaries section? P.S. Today both I and @Pulse have added a few streaks on top, but if you look at our first posts, you'll see that we were doing only that one thing. I also just looked back through @reader 's entries and I see he began the same way, although he quickly decided to do the days in bulk, and is now at weeks. P.P.S. We all also wrote more than just day 1, day 2, at least in the beginning, but the counts remained constant. P.P.P.S. @Pulse is also between 30 and 35 years old if I'm not mistaken, so if we take our ages as an indication and if I am not mistaken, then you're definitely not too old :)

Hey @SerinaGold , I ended up reading this post after seeing your post in reader's journal. Is it still relevant? -Watching gaming after quitting gaming is as far as I have determined something that meets everyone here. (of course with some exceptions but no such person comes to my mind off the cuff) -The sunk cost absolutely resonates with me. I experienced the same thing in my last 5 day gaming binge a bit more than a year ago, albeit with time and not money. Then I reached a point where I needed to decide, whether I was going to give two more weeks for an in-game goal, but I just didn't see myself doing it. The goal I have craved for years to achieve (Lead a gang in an RP server on Samp). I was at a point to achieve it really quickly because I played for about 20 hours or so daily and during new years which had boatloads of bonuses) I also have years of knowledge accumulated on this game so I knew exactly which places I needed to progress on to quickly get ahead... But again, I thought about giving two weeks for it, and I just didn't want to give even one more day... So even though I gave about 100 hours (not exactly but somewhat around that) and having gathered a lot of gaming currency, and even receiving the in-game currency of someone who paid real money for it through his donation code... And having a high rank in the Gang, which again took me years to achieve earlier... I gave back the money, I omitted logging in to request reducing my rank, and stopped giving a flying toss about the ongoing new year's bonuses, and unfulfilled bonuses which were possible to trade for in game experience (normally worth hours of work). But all those bonuses are worth nothing, because what really is worth here is the time I invest in the game, and that is a loss for every minute I invest in the game, rather than in my long term, potential fulfilling (as I see it) goals. I guess just knowing my long term goals served as a supporting pillar... For that I would recommend Stephen Covey's book - The 7 Habits of Highly Effective People. Namely the first Habit: Begin With the End in Mind. -Deleting games is an awesome decision, aswell as getting rid of your console. A huge step it is and a true declaration of intentions, but only the action, not the intention to do so as of itself. Trust me I know, I remember deleting my steam account, and my whole list of gaming passwords with an infinite amount of games there. Took me years to manage to do that. And allthough I found those passwords in another place later, I thought I removed all of them back then. The Steam account remains deleted though. This post is a little bit of a mess, as I didn't review and polish it, but I guess you'll have to forgive me :) Let me know if any of this is at all relevant, as this post was written 2 years and 2 months ago...

Let me know if you do :) If you run into problems, perhaps you could share and I'll also try to look it up ( no promises though I have enough problems for myself too ;) ).

Entry 12.5 (Written on 13.5 night) Weeks until average life expectancy: 2726 (80th birthday) Day 477: No Useless Videos Day 1311: Sticking to Food schedule Day 1351: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 53: Being in bed before 23:15 (Although I then woke up at 00 16 and continued night routine.....) 3 Things I did well, no matter how small -75% effort run -Avoiding orange at dinner as planned in advance -Getting up o speed on three grattitudes and 3 goal entries 1 Thing I could do better -After dinner when I felt the urge to read about Series/Gaming, which I also did. I read about most watched series. Then I read about most played games. Alltogether it took 31 minutes (Most probably a combination of finishing dinner and expecting fast day and dreading it). Just replace that with mindless Memrise activity or even reading some German article about my next potential branch (so that I don't have to click anything as my hands get eczema symptoms... They eventually didn't appear in a very strong manner, but they are to be expected, so predict that and look for an activity in which I can jus read. Remember: Checkout books or courses on my potential job subject if that repeats itself. It is important to remember that at a whim, because there's not much time to decide before I start looking at useless stuff, If I don't have that immediate alternative planned) Sleep documentation for the week May 10-11 7 26-15-23-13-6=6h 29m May 11-12 2 18 + 6 36 - 9 = 6 27 + 2 18 = 8h 45m (Justifying it to myself as *Still recovering from Sunday's long jog (And having pain in my quads), which Is why I let myself wake up at 8 21 instead of the alarm clock which went off at 6 00... I guess this is not a valid excuse, and if I write an hour, might as well stick to it... There is some place to also exercise discipline in life, even though I do try to treat myself as a scientist and not a drill sergeant. As Nir Eyal suggests in Indistractable...(If I'm not mistaken) ) 3 hrs 45 minutes in between meals at least. Day 0 Note here I accidentally began to drink chlorella some 20 minutes before meal start, with flux seeds. But does that count as beginning the meal? Should I give myself slack and continue with the streak? I guess not... Accident or no accident, it is done, and anything other than water is a meal, isn't it? Yep... That hurts..... 6 hrs in between meals at least. Day 0 Woke up late at 8 21... as described in "Sleep documentation for the week" Fell asleep earlier than scheduled - 76 Going to sleep in 1 bulk without falling asleep premmaturely in an unplanned manner - 53 Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5 Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 487

Entry 11.5 (Written on 13.5 night) Weeks until average life expectancy: 2726 (80th birthday) Progress on Wolt application: -Visiting the office to accelerate their reply -Contacting them by Email and chat -Getting new Simcard to make a new application -Registering a Bank Account -Registering a Health insurance -Sending a few emails to potential employers for advice regarding my studies process Day 476: No Useless Videos Day 1310: Sticking to Food schedule Day 1350: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 52: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well, no matter how small -Sending 3 emails to potential employers for advice regarding my studies process -Afternoon workout -Finishing to hand in the Wolt application (Registering a health insurance, researching my Tax class, filling in all the details in their application form) 1 Thing I could do better -Eat only a cucumber and no tomato at dinner, aswell as replace orange with a smaller piece of an orange, I feel the volume was too big, and I felt extremely heavy afterwards, eczema symptoms also appeared. Sleep documentation for the week May 3-4 - 6h 45m May 4-5 - 44 +2 42 +4 34 = 8h May 5-6 - 8h 06m May 6-7 - 7h 36m (although alarms went off 45 minutes before that but I guess I slept more so it culd count as additional minutes) May 7-8 6 41-15-12-3=6h 11m May 8-9 1 18 + 6 46 - 15 -23 -7 - 13 =5 48 + 1 18= 7h 6m May 9-10 5h 29m Weekly average 133 + 47x60(=133 + 2820) = 2953/60/7 = 7,03 60x 0.03=1.8 7h 2m May 10-11 7 26-15-23-13-6=6h 29m 3 hrs 45 minutes in between meals at least. Day 123 6 hrs in between meals at least. Day 1 Fell asleep earlier than scheduled - 75 Going to sleep in 1 bulk without falling asleep premmaturely in an unplanned manner - 53 Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5 Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 486

Entry 10.5 (Written on 13.5 night) Weeks until average life expectancy: 2727 (80th birthday) Day 475: No Useless Videos Day 1309: Sticking to Food schedule Day 1349: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 51: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well, no matter how small -long jog -contacting three immobilien companies -Sticking prettz closely to the time schedule 1 Thing I could do better Sleep documentation for the week May 3-4 - 6h 45m May 4-5 - 44 +2 42 +4 34 = 8h May 5-6 - 8h 06m May 6-7 - 7h 36m (although alarms went off 45 minutes before that but I guess I slept more so it culd count as additional minutes) May 7-8 6 41-15-12-3=6h 11m May 8-9 1 18 + 6 46 - 15 -23 -7 - 13 =5 48 + 1 18= 7h 6m May 9-10 5h 29m 3 hrs 45 minutes in between meals at least. Day 122 6 hrs in between meals at least. Day 0 (long jog day, so I came back late and typically finished late...) Fell asleep earlier than scheduled - 74 Going to sleep in 1 bulk without falling asleep premmaturely in an unplanned manner - 53 Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5 Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 485

Entry 9.5 Weeks until average life expectancy: 2727 (80th birthday) Day 474: No Useless Videos Day 1308: Sticking to Food schedule Day 1348: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 50: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well, no matter how small -Workout in the sun 30 minutes -Starting a grattitude email to Goethe -Starting an email draft to ask for required knowledge/qualifications, of some people in the field I am looking to further study 1 Thing I could do better Stick to the determined timeframe for the meeting with my brother. As soon as I went off the call I started feeling remorse. for the additional unplanned hour on the call. Sleep documentation for the week May 3-4 - 6h 45m May 4-5 - 44 +2 42 +4 34 = 8h May 5-6 - 8h 06m May 6-7 - 7h 36m (although alarms went off 45 minutes before that but I guess I slept more so it culd count as additional minutes) May 7-8 6 41-15-12-3=6h 11m May 8-9 1 18 + 6 46 - 15 -23 -7 - 13 =5 48 + 1 18= 7h 6m 3 hrs 45 minutes in between meals at least. Day 121 6 hrs in between meals at least. Day 2 Fell asleep earlier than scheduled - 74 Going to sleep in 1 bulk without falling asleep premmaturely in an unplanned manner - 52 Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5 Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 484 Eczema symptoms still present, but not as strong. To be honest they were present before dinner too... I assume it is just because of the dryness outside and lack of water... or is it?

Subject 1: "I just now understand why moderation was never possible for me." As far as I can remember, every single case of attempted "moderation" with gaming on this forum, ended up with the involved person stopping to journal here, probably going deeply under. I highly doubt that it is something unique to you, or that a specific medical/psychiatrical "condition" is needed for this to take place. Cam says it in one of his own videos, you do not try to moderate, because every single thing in life gaming will win when you compare them. Doing homework vs. Gaming - Gaming wins, Even going out with friends vs. Gaming - Gaming wins, Taking up art class vs. Gaming - Gaming wins. The examples are off, that is probably not what he said in the video, but I think you get the point. Hey if I were to look at it like that I could find ways to identify with some big pattern, I could say I have OCD, because yes I tend to double, triple and quadruple check doors being locked. Aswell as in other areas sticking to my pre-set limits at "all costs" I could say I have extra fast metabolism and other such things that make sense across the board, and are probably also true. But although I do sometimes tend to identify them I have somewhat long forgot of them because whether I have them or not doens't really matter. In some place also this "OCD" in my opinion is just the wish for stability. And a result of repeating habits, which if I focus on I can correct. I think the same thing is true with you, almost every habit you have may be adjusted. It is probably okay to know an overarching condition, but the problem is that once you let it dominate your thoughts and you keep defining yourself as "authist" the only solution is across the board - medications/outside psychiatric/psychologic treatments. Which is the reason the medical industry often makes such huge definitions which make sense across the board, becvause it doens't allow you to treat the single symptoms by yourself, and frames it in such a way that forces you to turn to outside sources. But then of course those outside sources don't really help, because you never build a building from nothing to completion in a "day" you make it brick by brick. So if you have anything that bothers you, start by breaking it up one thing at a time and focusing on fixing this one thing. Because that's the only way I'm aware of. P.S. Please do not interpret anything of what I say as an attempt to be a "smartass" I truly genuinely just am sharing with you the way I see the world and sharing with you my thoughts, according to the picture you are presenting to me as I would to myself. Of course I do not know all the details and may even misinterpret the details that you do present, so take everything with a grain of salt and feel absolutely more than free to disagree, correct and debate anything with me. I might most definitely be wrong, and there is always place for improvement Nonetheless I wanted to write something because I know you normally appear here on saturdays, so here are my thoughts a bit half baked :) Have an awesome day/week/other period time ;) P.P.S. I wrote a part of this text then set it in a metaphoric drawer for a while. But today I took it up again and sent it to you half-baked. Even though it is not thoroughly polished, I relied upon the fact that you'll understand that I'm just trying to give you advice to the best of my knowledge as a person who walks a similar path like yourself and won't get overdefensive. (I'd gladly of course go back an forth on any of the provided claims, but there surely was no intention of attacking anything you do. On the contrary, whatever action you take as a result of reflection is the best thing to do at the given moment according to your knowledge. Or anyones knowledge for that matter. If we get new knowledge of course, that is something that we can then use to improve, but nonetheless we took the best action we knew how, and that is what we also always do :) )

Thanks for the reply. It's important that you mention it. I also have some temptations and go to surf through the web, although some 60% of my attempted gaming website surfs get blocked by my pre-established blocks in the hosts file, for which I'm very grateful. Maybe you could find an app that would set up a block on youtube or wherever you watch those gaming videos, which does that at certain times. Although I do not like apps, because you need to give them too intruding permissions... But maybe you could find a way to customize your hosts file somehow internally to make it work only on the pre-determined times at which you usually slip into wathcing those videos... Makes sense? If you decide to check-out this path, I'd love to hear how it ended up. Full spead ahead sir :)

Entry 8.5 (Written on 9.5) Weeks until average life expectancy: 2727 (80th birthday) Day 473: No Useless Videos Day 1307: Sticking to Food schedule Day 1347: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 49: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well, no matter how small -Workout in the sun 30 minutes -6 German units -Continuing with the reduced meal volume. Let's see if I do not disappear in regards to my weight measurement on monday 1 Thing I could do better Initially I thought: Try to omit peas tomorrow... Because 1 hour after dinner - Symptoms of eczema appeared again. But, Actually, I think this didn't happen yesterday. I believe what's more responsible for this effect is the quinoa which keeps on soaking water when it's still warm...(though it may also be the figs which I tried to replace dates with for the first time today) So what I could do better is keep like I ate today and see if the eczema repeats.(including the figs, although it will be a bit less than yesterday, cuz yesterday I was still getting up to speed on some dates from the after fast day where I decided to reduce them (only 15g per meal it probably shouldn't have had such a strong effect, although it might of course) If the eczema symptoms do not repeat for a few days, probably the reason is the hot quinoa and I shouldn't eat more of it when it's hot, so cook it earlier. Sleep documentation for the week May 3-4 - 6h 45m May 4-5 - 44 +2 42 +4 34 = 8h May 5-6 - 8h 06m May 6-7 - 7h 36m (although alarms went off 45 minutes before that but I guess I slept more so it culd count as additional minutes) May 7-8 6 41-15-12-3=6h 11m 3 hrs 45 minutes in between meals at least. Day 120 6 hrs in between meals at least. Day 1 Fell asleep earlier than scheduled - 74 (As described above, symptoms of eczema appeared...) Going to sleep in 1 bulk without falling asleep premmaturely in an unplanned manner - 51 Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5 Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 483 Note: Free text. I also spent 2-3 hours today just reasearching about another potential health insurance, because apparently the first one is onkly open to internal workers, so I had to re ask all the questions regarding how much, if at all, they subsidise the following Teeth chechkups Teeth fillings Teeth cleans Blood analysis, basic as well as elaborated Shoe inserts Nutrition consultation On top of that I probably spent about 1-2 hours just browsing for gifts for my brother on the web. I think this drastic waste of time, as well as the two hours I took yesterday to order a new sim card, are a result of the fact I'm at a turn point in life where I'm supposed to reduce my German studies, but still haven't completely determined what is next. ALthough I had a large, general Idea. But I haven't yet contacted the potential job spots I'm aiming for to ask them what they'd suggest me to study next... And it is the weekend. Moreover I got quite distracted because of wanting to take up a job as a courier a bit earlier then originally planned, to keep myself afloat with the p0ossible amount of money that I possibly need for the staying permit. Aswell as keep a small buffer, so that I have money to acquire additional qualifications for my planned job. And it's a combination of the fact i didn't have a well defined schedule written down as a result of theatmosphere, and the big meals contribute to sleepiness and willing to escape, but the last two probably have less effect than the first two (cause of atmosphere chage, job search prematurely and switching of main focus), since they were present before too.

Entry 7.5 (Written on 9.5) Weeks until average life expectancy: 2727 (80th birthday) Day 472: No Useless Videos Day 1306: Sticking to Food schedule Day 1346: Eating Only between 06:30 and 19:00 (Last bite before 19:00) Day 48: Being in bed before 23:15 3 Things I did well, no matter how small -visiting wolt office -ordering sim card -Reducing meal volume 1 Thing I could do better - deciding faster on ordering the sim and getting to work on german/real estate stuff, if I invest time in the right things I wont need to worry so much about such sums of money such as 150 euro and could focus on doing my work more professionally Sleep documentation for the week May 3-4 - 6h 45m May 4-5 - 44 +2 42 +4 34 = 8h May 5-6 - 8h 06m May 6-7 - 7h 36m (although alarms went off 45 minutes before that but I guess I slept more so it culd count as additional minutes) 3 hrs 45 minutes in between meals at least. Day 119 6 hrs in between meals at least. Day 0 (Came home late after visit of Wolt offices and waking up later than planned) Fell asleep earlier than scheduled - 73 Going to sleep in 1 bulk without falling asleep premmaturely in an unplanned manner - 51 Gaming (Death, Slavery, Regret, Disease) - 5 Yan (Life, Individuality, Freedom, Purpose, Self-Fulfillment) - 481

I'd love it if you shared something besides the day count in one of the few next days. I'm interested, maybe a sentence about something for example :)