Kam's Journal

[Yan]

2 minutes ago, Kam said:

Ha! I get your point, but I also don't think there's anything wrong with feeling gratitude about nice weather. I know from experience that the rainy days are important because they make the sunny days feel great. It's easy to overthink stuff like that, and might be important for someone who doesn't have a stable foundation, but for me, it's not really an issue.

Thank you though!

You're welcome 🙂
 

 

3 minutes ago, Kam said:

I'm on day 62! I have some vacation coming up, from this Saturday to next Sunday. That'll be Day 75 when I get back. After that, I have some house work being done that'll eat up the next two weeks, realistically. Which means that I think I'll be able to complete the detox and finish strong!

Of course, Day 90/90 of the detox might be Day 1/? of the next goal 😄

You're not done until you're done. So we'll see about that - only time will tell. Stay alert, game-quitting partner.

[Kam]

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You're not done until you're done. So we'll see about that

Yan, you're quite the pessimist!

Day 63/90 in the bag. Work, kids, and exercise account for probably 95% of my days recently. Staying busy but feels good.

[Yan]

I do not see myself as a pessimist. I just know that until you're not done, you're not done. Let's take a run for example: Even if you're miles ahead of the competition, you may get too confident and arrogant and go "easy" in the end, while the competition speeds up because they think they're too far behind, and lo and behold, your leverage is lost. 
That is not to say that you didn't have any leverage to begin with or that your chance of winning wasn't higher when you had a long time gap between you and the person after you, but that even when you did, winning is still not certain and you must keep it up until it is DONE.

Nonetheless, no one is taking your accomplishments away from you. I congratulate you for them but do not wish you to rest on your laurels.

"Stay hard" 
-David Goggins

 

[Kam]

Well of course, losing focus on the goal / getting complacent puts you at a higher risk of relapse. On the other hand, being confident and really seeing a vision for the end goal (like I described) is not losing focus or being complacent!

Day 64/90 going well. Just got done with a run and a cold shower, feels fantastic

[Yan]

7 hours ago, Kam said:

Well of course, losing focus on the goal / getting complacent puts you at a higher risk of relapse. On the other hand, being confident and really seeing a vision for the end goal (like I described) is not losing focus or being complacent!

So long as you're not complacent, all is good in the neighborhood 😉
 

 

7 hours ago, Kam said:

Day 64/90 going well. Just got done with a run and a cold shower, feels fantastic

U da beast 

[Kam]

Day 65/90: no urges. just very, very tired from kids being up all night!

[Kam]

Day 66/90: last night before my trip. It'll be over a week until I post again. The only thing I'll need to stay vigilant against is getting bored at night and downloading games on my phone - but I'm confident that I won't relapse, as I've never really played phone games (except for Chess) and I'll be exhausted from the day's activities.

Good luck to all here on your own journeys!

[Yan]

8 hours ago, Kam said:

Day 66/90: last night before my trip. It'll be over a week until I post again. The only thing I'll need to stay vigilant against is getting bored at night and downloading games on my phone - but I'm confident that I won't relapse, as I've never really played phone games (except for Chess) and I'll be exhausted from the day's activities.

Good luck to all here on your own journeys!

See you in a week, allthough you may consider journaling in phone notes or in a notebook. It's just a few minutes, and is important to maintain a habit 🙂

[Kam]

Day 76: Trip went well! No urges to play during it, which was great.

Now it's time to prep for house construction work, so that will keep me busy.

14 more days until the 90 days is complete!

[Kam]

Day 78: I spent a lot of time yesterday writing about my view on negative habits and escapism. I've learned a lot from this detox... and I've learned that it's not just video games that can cause these types of issues. The obvious one is doom-scrolling on Tiktok or Reddit. Any kind of artificial dopamine hits for surface-level entertainment.

You can't just think your way out of this problem. There is no way I would have gotten this level of understanding while still playing video games. I needed to detox to see what the real problems were. Avoidance and escapism are cemented at the top of the problems in my life. I've caught myself trying to engage in other bad habits that do the same thing. Now, I've learned (the hard way!) that the solution for avoidance and escapism is to address the root of the thing causing your stress head-on. You can solve any problem you face.