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It feels like this is the 100th time ive started trying to detox and failed. This time I feel as there truly is a difference. Last night I looked at my life and hated the direction it was heading and having literally nothing to my name that was earned and not given. It made me feel horrible. I also have family members I need to connect with again that there are strained relationships. I want do big things in life and I cant do them till I stop procrastinating. I want so many things that it overwhelms me to the point of wanting to give up. I have this sense of I have to do everything such as the read the books, get good grades at school, schedule my days, take care of my dog and chores, work on my business, work on the skills to get better at business. There is so much to do. I just need to start randomly and check things off the list as I go apparently cuz im just so overwhelmed that Ill be doing something and while Im doing that thing other things pop into my head that I have to get done for that day. Wish me luck though again lol.

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If you do it for the 100th time, i do it for the 99th time. Good to see you are still going though. Maybe it feels like failing, but 10 years from now you'll remember each time you detoxed, each time you tried to change something. 

Lets start crossing everything off that list!

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I heard the 100th time is the charm!

Trying to address everything wrong in your life can be overwhelming. And this overwhelming feeling can lead to the desire for escapism. And the best way to escape real life is gaming. So try taking small steps one project after the other.To avoid the overwhelming and the resulting escapism.

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Today kind of started as a blah day then I was able to turn it around. I woke up around 3am because I went to bed around 8pm and I wasn’t tired and I tried going back to sleep but couldn’t. I decided to stay up and I kept having the thought of giving up on my whole business idea I want and just go to school and have fun or work hard on my business and school and have fun. Then I just layed in bed and watched YouTube videos till about 10am. I felt miserable then the thought of just getting up and getting stuff done helped me change it around. I got my chores done, I ate, I created a game plan for my future, found a good routine that’ll work out a lot. Sometimes I’m just going to have to play the business, school and fun by ear this school year but I want to do big things so I’ll do all 3. I also thought about giving into video games today but I didn’t. Today is also officially the longest time I have gone without relapsing which is today would be number 4. I know 86 more days is to come but I got this. I got some other things going on tonight to finish my day strong. Anyways starting tomorrow with the routine journal I will not be doing what I’m doing now in it. Im going to write down the amount of days I’m on for the detox. Then I will say 3 greatfuls, 3 outcomes I want out of the day, and what my identity will be for that day. Anyways I’m glad I changed my day around thank God. See you guys tomorrow!

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Hey Jordan,  if you have the determine and courage to stick with it for the 100th time I know you will figure it out. I must have tried 1000's of times but remained determined and commited to quiting, and deep down I knew that's what I wanted, even though at many times I was convinced otherwise. What ive learned is each day is a learning opportunity, try different things, I can't tell you how much money ive lost buying and selling consoles, what seems to be working for me is working, I am spending alot of my time out of the house and at work, and slowly trying to build newer and healthier habits and ways to spend my time. Commiting to being social has also been a big part of it, I don't have many friends at this time, but reaching out and connecting with old friends has been part of the process along with dedicating blocks of time to becoming the person I want to be! 

Good luck to you my friend, remember when you feel challenged, that every time overcome an obstacle, you move closer to your goal, and every time you fail, you have an opportunity to grow and succeed the next time by identifying why, there is no losing in this game of life, only growing if you choose it. Congrats on Day 4, its also one of my longest streaks at Day 7! I've already started to notice how my life has begun to change, like you these days are flooded with all these repressed ideas I have, so many creative juices finally having the time to flow, over time we will have the ability to refine them and focus on the ones that are the most important to us, as quitting gaming is also a journey of finding yourself. 

Good Luck Jordan! 

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Well today is my 2nd day of the detox because I relapsed again. Today is going to be a good day. I will not procrastinate like I normally do. Today I will be a action taker and never stop going and build that momentum. I want to work on being the 1% in the world which I have a long way to go. Today I am grateful to be breathing, my last year of high school starts tomorrow, I still have time to do big things in life, I have a family who cares for me, I am starting to make money from my online business that I started 3 months ago. Today I plan on eating healthy and eating all 3 meals. I always had a habit of skipping eating when I played video games. I also am working on a relationship with a possible girlfriend, I am working on closing 3 more deals today for my business. Today will be a good day because I’m going to make sure it will!

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Today is my 3rd day of my 90 day detox. I don’t know what holds me today. Today is my last year of my senior year and I want this year to go great along with my business at home that I’m working on everyday after school. Today I am grateful for my family, dog, one last year of school, and my future. Today I am going to be an action taker that will not be sucked into the 99% way of living and I will live today at the top 1%. Today so far I am good on my routine and not procrastinating but I have about 14hrs to go. Today I plan on working 2 hours on my business, working on my friendships at school and being more social, and getting a good exercise routine going in weightlifting class. Wish me luck today and forever!

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Here are a few words of advice.....If there's anything I've learned (this is my 2nd day).

You much look at your life and create a goal. 

Make small manageable task to achieve that goal.

Look at your previous successes for motivation. You might even need a mentor to help you plan some of your life out. The forum would be a great place!

 

(I also work with a personal development coach) so if anyone needs help I'll be happy to ask my mentor 

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Today was my 4th day of my detox. I almost relapsed last night but I didn’t give into the cravings which are super bad by the way. This is the first time I’ve been able to strongly withhold. I have relapsed many times because I couldn’t say no to the cravings so I guess this is progress. I also had a good day at school. Yesterday I was depressed because there is a girl I met in a class and I wanted to talk to her and get to know her and she said that she doesn’t think I’m the right person for her and I’ll find someone else and that really got to me. It’s like a scratch you will never be able to scratch which really bugs me. I’ve known her and liked her for about a year now and this is the first time I’ve had the courage to say something and it hurt and it makes me want to give up on trying stuff because I have been rejected in many relationships I want. It makes me want to give up on success because it is like who am I going to ever share my success with if I can’t get a simple girlfriend. I talked to her for a bit but it still didn’t help much. Now I feel like a zombie creating my success just for the sake of it. I’m not motivated I just do it. It makes hard to explain. But other than that happening yesterday. I’ve been watching my favorite show to calm myself. I’m also recreating a routine that is not as stressful so wish me luck!

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Do you mind if I join you in this thread?  I have struggled with gaming addiction for almost 20 years (I started on the NES).  I have tried to quit over and over again.  So, I'm not sure if this is my 50th or 150th attempt at detox.  But only recently I have tried to do it in a structured and connected way.  It reminds me of when I use to go running at a local trail.  As I was running I would pass some runners and some runners would pass me.  But then there were those runners who were almost matching my pace.  I would either try to keep up with them or let them slowly pass me.  Either way, I got a better run out of it.

Maybe we can do that for each other.  Today is day 1 for me.  

I typically game very late at night.  And the rationalization is that I can't stop playing.  It will be too hard and hurt too much.  I won't be able to fall asleep.  I can control it.  If I play certain kinds of games then it can be helpful..........and the list goes on.

Tonight, I plan on spending some time talking with a friend, doing some reading, and maybe watch an episode of Start Trek TNG (I'm just now watching it for the first time on Netflix).

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Today is my 6th day which is almost over of my detox. Today and yesterday there were 0 cravings. Today I also did not procrastinate about doing work when I get home from school like I normally do. It feels pretty amazing to not be controlled by my energy levels right now. I learned a saying earlier that said if you say you can’t you must. So I’m going to remember that every time I want to give up or procrastinate or whatever the situation is. I’m going to a school football game tonight and I’m falling more in love with a certain girl and she already said I’m adorable and all but she doesn’t think I’m for her but I really hope somehow I could change her mind this year. She is super nice and funny and good looking. But that’s been my day so far so I guess I’ll see you guys tomorrow. P.s. this is my longest streak of no games!

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