Damiano 199 Posted April 1, 2019 Share Posted April 1, 2019 Hello again. A couple of years ago I had deep problems with myself, became a 30yo wizard and wanted to end my life. But i didn't, decided to give life a chance, and started to sort myself out. One of my obstacles was gaming. I didn't manage to get the confidence to do it quit gaming right away, but one day, i simply packed my computer in a box, and put it away for over 90 days. It changed my life!! I got in shape and started training myself to talk with girls and started dating from dating sites for first time in my life. One of the scariest experiences of my life, but also the most rewarding one. That was then, right now I am living away from my parents, in an apartment I rented with my girlfriend, for over a year. It has been the best year of my life, and after achieving all this, I thought that I could relax and play some games. Aaaaand i was wrong. The addiction is back, and the simple idea of not gaming again make one part of me scream in terror. Yeah, the addiction is back alright. My world got bigger when i quit gaming, and now it started shrinking again when i began playing. Its a terrible, terrible thing to fantasize about being home alone playing a game. Terrible, and sad. Yesterday my girlfriend mentioned marriage, and I was not surprised, I was ashamed, because I want to marry her, but I have been putting it off out of my mind, and have been filling my mind with games, and what i will do tomorrow in a game. Instead of thinking about taking my girl out, plan a vacation, or think on how to develop myself for the coming years. Its amazing how effective video games are at blurring the idea of what is important in life. Clouding reality behind imagined accomplishments. So now, here I am. With a plan, a vision, not for 90 days, but for the rest of my life. No more games, ever. I see myself realizing some of my plans I had when I was younger. I want a house of my own. I want a car which doesn't break down every couple of months. I want to visit Asia. I want to get into Aquaponics. I want to make a beautiful garden. I want to have deeper understanding of economics and markets. I know it all begins with a choice, and continues by choosing every day, the path that will lead to those things I want. So today is Day 1 of my new detox. My goal is 100 Days of no gaming. 6 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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