Catherine17 104 Posted May 13, 2019 Author Share Posted May 13, 2019 Day 7 I did it. I just need to correct a few mistakes here and there and I am free. My course paper is completed, 34 pages of pure literary studies, written in four days. Wow. I achieved what I was striving for, but why am I not happy? I feel empty and sad. Last time I made a mistake trying to fix such condition with videogames. But now…The truth is I don’t feel determined any longer. I was walking home and only one thought was pulsating in my head. ‘I must play this precise game, the detox means nothing, you won’t have time for this when you graduate from university’. Cravings are very intense right now. Is it going to be better? I really hope so, I do. I thought about my mistakes. Maybe, I am sort of enjoying the feeling of commitment and determination...I know, it sounds ridiculous, but it feels so cool to start a detox, but this feeling fades away after a few days, and you feel down and you go on a binge, and then you decide you cannot go on like this and you go on a detox, which feels great, but then you are tired and it all happens again. I must meditate on that for a while. It may help. I am true to my commitment. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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