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Day 32-37 (February 13th-17th, 2019) How Are You Feeling? I had been such a mess these days, from freaking about the problems that I should have known to solve on my own to criticizing myself perhaps way too much. What Did You Do? 1. I went to college in Wednesday, Thursday, and Friday. Extra: I went to my appointment with the school counselor at Wednesday and a peer mentor training session at Thursday. At Friday, the day I had to pay my tuition fee, I had to go to the bank to resolve problems with paying my tuition (it is my first time to pay my tuition fee on my own). 2. I was at home at Saturday. 3. My family and I went to church today. 4. My grandmother, Eve, and I went to a mall to buy dumplings, my birthday gifts for my cousins (their birthdays are coming soon), and Eve's phone stand for her car. Highs (H) and Lows (L) - 32nd through 37th days of not playing games or watching YouTube. (H) - I was helpful to my family at some times. (H) - I tried my best to pay attention to my classes. (H) - I was offered to be an in-class peer mentor. (H) - I didn't stick around with Eve at church (I usually did that before) and instead socialize with my friends. (H) - I do and catch up with most of my work in school, even math (although not the most recent homework). (H) - I am still not quite aware of my surroundings/use my brain. (L) - I sort of procrastinate (e.g. mindless surfing). (L) - I still (try) to handle people like my family to alleviate my problems. (L) - I am being too afraid to make mistakes. (L) - I freak out when I face my problems (e.g. paying my tuition and rethinking my degree). (L) - I forgot to buy a gift for my other cousin (his birthday was a few days ago). (L) What Can You Do Better Tomorrow/The Next Few Days? It is pretty similar to the last post. I also can plan on what I can do when I face the problems while my life is not in a frenzy at the moment, because my mind does not work well under pressure.

@karabas Yes, I've been both busy and lazy these days.

Day 27-31 (February 8th-12th, 2019) How Are You Feeling? I feel many feelings, but overall sadness, frustration, a bit of anger (towards myself), and boredom. What Did You Do? 1. My family and I went out for dinner at Friday. 2. We went out again to a family friend's house at Saturday. 3. For Sunday, we went to church. 4. I went to college yesterday and today. 5. I have peer mentoring in the afternoon. 6. I did my homework and study. Highs (H) and Lows (L) - 27th through 31st days of not playing games or watching YouTube. It has been a month. (H) - I was productive when I have no one in my peer mentoring session. (H) - I tried my best to pay attention to my classes. (H) - I socialize with my friends like normal. (H) - I still act as though I want them all without returning (e.g. I was asking my aunt for conditioner when I should have been thinking about a way to buy it on my own). (L) - I don't appreciate others (ties in with the above Low), even though I tried too. (L) - I am still not quite aware of my surroundings/use my brain. (L) - I am being too afraid to make mistakes. (L) - I caused my mom to panic yesterday because of what I say to her. (L) What Can You Do Better Tomorrow/The Next Few Days? Again, I should be more thankful and grateful towards others, not being self-centered and prideful, and use my brain to my maximum capacity. At the same time, I acknowledge that these changes will not be instant.

I am also at uni (well college) as well. I hope that you do well. I know you will! 💪🏻 I also live in Australia too, although I was born in Indonesia. This is relatable. 😔 This is actually an interesting journal, such as you included dreams about gaming. Keep up with your detox! 😀

Congratulations on your first week! You surely can do it for the next several weeks. 😉

Congrats on your accomplishment! I also love to write as well. 😀

It's true. You may not like the followings thing I am about to say, but I'm telling you anyways: God is sovereign over everything in this world. It is up to us to surrender our lives to His hands. I hope you are doing well.

Day 24, 25, and 26 (February 5th-7th, 2019) Writer's Note Sorry, I will be very busy, so I might not update my journal everyday. Thank you for reading. 😉 How Are You Feeling? It is a bottle full of feelings. Since I am recently very busy, I cannot tell if I feel happy, sad, mad, but I am definitely tired. But by the end of the second day, I felt humbled after being told off by Eve. What Did You Do? Feb. 5 1. I went to college like normal. 2. I spent time with my friends for about half an hour before going home. 3. I had early Chinese New Year supper as soon as I arrived home. 4. I studied and did my homework. Feb. 6 1. I went to college. 2. I studied and did my homework. 3. Eve told me off when I refused the orange juice my aunt gave me because I don't appreciate people. 4. Eve and I talked for the rest of the night. Feb. 7 1. I went to college. 2. I watched a show called Scooby-Doo with Eve and my cousin for about half an hour. 3. After I ate dinner, I went on to take the clothes from the clothesline and iron them. 4. I played Monopoly with Eve and my cousin. 5. I studied and did my homework. Highs (H) and Lows (L) - 24th, 25th, and 26th days of not playing games or watching YouTube. (H) - I did nearly all of my work. (H) - I was much more productive these days. (H) - I unintentionally screamed at class. (L) - I read something inappropriate again! (L) - I don't appreciate others (especially when my aunt gave me orange juice and I don't want to. Eve told me off about that). (L) What Can You Do Better Tomorrow? I should be more thankful and grateful towards others and not being self-centered and prideful.

Day 23 (February 4th, 2019) How Are You Feeling? I feel so tired and sleepy, but definitely not depressed about it. What Did You Do? 1. I had Math first thing. 2. I had English with Nadia and Eli. 3. I spent time with Nadia since all of our friends are all in their classes. 4. I had ICT with Damon and Ahmed. 5. I spent time talking with Nadia, Yuri, and Paul before going home. 6. I studied a bit of Chemistry, English, and ICT. 7. My cousins came over for Chinese New Year Dinner. 8. I studied Math, even though there is no Math the next day. Highs (H) and Lows (L) - 23rd day of not playing games or watching YouTube. (H) - I did all of my work without procrastinating. (H) - I had the initiative to clean up the table after the dinner. (H) - I should be paying attention when Eve mopped the floors. (L) - I responded to conversation too quickly again. (L) What Can You Do Better Tomorrow? The one weakness that I am currently trying to overcome is my impulsiveness, especially in social situations. I tend to go with my guts rather than with my head when I am excited or mad.

Day 22 (February 3rd, 2019) How Are You Feeling? It is pretty similar to what I felt yesterday. What Did You Do? 1. I went to church with Eve and the rest of the family. 2. My grandmother, Eve, and I then went to the shopping mall to buy clothes for Chinese New Year. 3. After we arrived at home, I went on to study and doing my work from ICT. 4. I exercised for about 30 to 40 minutes before reading more fanfictions. 5. I studied Chemistry, but I took a break to eat my dinner before resuming on it. Highs (H) and Lows (L) - 22nd day of not playing games or watching YouTube. (H) - I was back at exercising (again). (H) - I was studying what I am supposed to study. (H) - I followed my sister too often (my copycat tendencies are getting me 😑). (L) - I did not consider the prices of the clothes we bought. I have another bad habit in which I let others spend the expensive things that I want to buy. (L) What Can You Do Better Tomorrow? The next time I went to a store with somebody, I should see the price for each product. I also must follow my own path and decisions, not other people all the time.

Day 21 (February 2, 2019) Writer's Note This is actually my double post for today, so this is it without further ado. How Are You Feeling? I am feeling normal, and yeah... What Did You Do? 1. I studied ICT after my morning routine. 2. I did the dishwasher and cleaned the floors of my bedroom and the toilet. 3. After lunch, I took the dried clothes and bedsheets inside. 4. I did some questions for English homework. 5. I had a talk with my grandmother and Eve, who just came from the airport via bus. 6. I did some more questions. 7. I talked with Eve about what has been happening to us lately. 8. We also talked together with my grandmother. Highs (H) and Lows (L) - 21st day (or 3 weeks) of not playing games or watching YouTube. (H) - I did my work from ICT and English (I am finished with English). (H) - I had the initiative to clean up. (H) - I speak while laughing, which is considered to be unattractive. (L) What Can You Do Better Tomorrow? I must not make excuses for continuing my bad habits, which is whenever I responded strangely to many social situations.

@fawn_xoxo Thank you for the encouragement! @JPAO Oh, I'm sorry about that. @Sanraraj Thank you!

Day 20 (February 1st, 2019) How Are You Feeling? I feel happy and energetic during the day, but tired at the night, so I want to go to sleep instead of updating like usual. What Did You Do? 1. I had Math first thing in the morning. I was doing my homework when a student asked me about a math question on the quiz online. 2. I had Chemistry with Nadia, Bella, and Ahmed like normal. 3. I made a comic strip about my friends (both girls and guys) about us body swapping. 4. I also talked with my friends. 5. I had English again with Nadia and Eli. We were working in different groups for analyzing a story called "Cemetery Path." 6. I moved my stuffs back to my room because my aunt's friend is leaving. 7. I checked out some of the journals in the forum. 8. I continued on writing my comic. 9. I did my math homework before going to bed. Highs (H) and Lows (L) - 20th day of not playing games or watching YouTube. (H) - I helped a fellow student with his math problems. (H) - I forgot to organize my stuffs during the break (all of my stuffs are scattered on a particular area of space). (L) - I responded too quickly to conversations. (L) What Can You Do Better Tomorrow? I was about to study, but ending up writing a comic strip. I should be back to studying in the weekends.

Day 19 (January 31st, 2019) How Are You Feeling? I am happy as yesterday and few days ago. What Did You Do? 1. I read the journals in the forum and comment on several of them while I was on my way to college. 2. I had chemistry with Nadia, Bella, and Ahmed the first thing I had again. 3. I had math class and made friends with two girls from Malaysia. I also spot a cute guy during the class. 4. I went to the training session for peer mentoring*, since I am going to be a peer mentor. 5. I had ICT with Nadia, Ahmed, and Damon until 1 in the afternoon. 6. I kept Nadia company along with Eli, Ian, Kelvin, Paul, and Ahmed for an hour, since Bella and Yuri had classes. We talked about the cute guy from U.A.E.** and our crushes and exes. I also told them about my new book (mentioned in Day 3) about my past and current crushes. 7. When they had their classes, I went back to home. 8. I studied, even though I have a pretty long break. Writer's Notes * Peer Mentor: Students that help their fellow students in managing and improving their studies. ** The Cute Guy from U.A.E.: I actually first met him when I was on the Orientation Week's Treasure Hunt. I happened to be guiding his group as a Student Leader. He is actually from Afghanistan, but lived at U.A.E. for a long time. I have to admit that he is quite cute and charming. Highs (H) and Lows (L) - 19th day of not playing games or watching YouTube. (H) - I joined in with my friends when I could have gone home. (H) - I was prepared for most of my classes. (H) - I also engaged myself in my classes. (H) - I made two new friends in my math class (all of my closer friends are not in my math class). (H) - I sometimes replied/answer too quick when someone is talking to me. (L) - I forgot my sunglasses in college. (L) What Can You Do Better Tomorrow? While being busy is good, sometimes I need a break from being too busy, as I tend to forget other priorities.

Oh no, I hope that your mom is doing well. 😓