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7 hours that is impressive. You are a workaholic, Tom2!

Yes I had some temptations from gamer friends. I'm glad you'll be able to get away from it without having to get mean about it.

You got this, Alex. You're one of the best of us!

Could you ask a gym employee for help? I just joined the gym and told the lady in charge that I was a complete newbie beginner. And she designed a nice custom work out with days, machines, reps, and sets. It really helped me out.

Thanks, @dirkj3, @tirEdOrange, yes weight is my #1 focus right now. I try not to get too impatient but I'm slowly moving forward. Day 34/90. I had a good day yesterday. I felt busier, even pressed for time, which, considering how boring my weekends can be, is saying something. I was texting with a whole bunch of friends yesterday and it was great feeling connected to people again. I made arrangements to see one friend in a couple weeks. I can only imagine where my social life will be in a year. I did my first 50 min walk at the gym. My upper goal is 1 hr so I'm almost there. It feels great. Walking in air conditioning with a giant fan almost feels like cheating compared to outside haha. But I'll take it. Especially in South Carolina in July. I made a food decision to stick with less junk food choices in my diet. I was getting tempted to have more "fun" foods in my life in moderation but I felt uncomfortable when I ate them and I want what I eat now to be an eventual bridge to long-term permanent healthy food choices. So yes fiber one bars, no snickers minis. Yes bananas, no smartfood popcorn haha. I slept on the bed again. I don't know if its the meds, or my meditating, but I haven't had the big anxiety for the past couple days. I'm not complaining. I did work on project research briefly on a possible history podcast. My topic would be the American Revolution. I also sent emails to a history podcaster about technical advice (what microphone to buy etc), how to get started, etc. He was really kind. Even offered to consider one of my first episodes as a guest episode once I got established. I told him I'm probably some months from seriously launching, but it was nice to take some tangible steps in this direction. Gratitude: 1. I slept in my bed 2. I have friends I can talk to 3. I did work on my project a little

You can find great stories in reading! I was hooked on single player RPGs precisely for good stories. Sometimes I felt like I was playing a movie. At first, when you quit games, books will seem boring by comparison. But if you stick with it, you'll be surprised how much you start to enjoy reading.

You did the hardest part already, Andre, and that's to get started. Just take it one day at a time...just 24 hours without gaming. Don't focus too much on 90 days or weeks or months. You're going to do great!

That's something to be proud of, not going to the Halo tournament. I'm sure that would've been temptation! Good job, Jess!

Very cool, Orange, you're really coming along. Now when you say binge instead of relapse, what are you referring to? Binging on food? Just curious. Glad you're sleeping better. This is important to me too.

As long as you keep making progress, you can weather any disappointment on slipping with Youtube. I can hear Cam's voice in my head now: "you're not lazy" hehe. You have so many positive things going on in your life, Pierce.

Sounds like you need to start out with small changes right in the morning, to break the habit of killing your day with gaming. Cam always talks about having a solid "morning routine". Even the worst routine can be slowly eroded by small changes.

Well, that's fantastic, Corvus, meeting your friend like that! Yes, you should pursue more contact. Since I quit gaming, I've been in contact with tons of old friends and family. It's amazing how gaming can keep you isolated from the world!

I'm glad you resisted the urge to play on the console. It looks like you're really pulling yourself together again Hassan. Glad to see you again!

I think you should see it as a process and not an overnight flipping of the switch. Working on detoxing from gaming is just a step on that process. Don't overwhelm yourself by thinking too far ahead.

That's what'll help you avoid relapsing in the future, being aware of the tired foggy feelings and the regret. You'll be stronger next time!

Hi, Karisu and good job starting your journal. You sound really well prepared. You're going to do great! We're all here for you.

You tried something new, Corvus that's great! Just keep branching out!

Day 33/90. Well my scales were all over the place but I think I'm 302.4 this morning so 2.2 lbs off yeah! I'm optimistic that in a few weeks I'll be below the 300 mark for good and I'll never EVER go back. @Tom2, @Onlysoul . Yeah I just resumed a lower dose of Wellbutrin. I don't feel like I need something serious to numb myself but with giving up several major addictions, I need help weathering the anxiety I'm getting as I move through this process. Maybe when I reach my goal weight and find a happy medium I can go off again. Well I made it through yesterday ok. Despite the scheduled activities and the gym, I still felt like I need more to do. Today I'm going to make sure I resume my "research/possible podcast" history project. I'm debating whether to increase my time on Duolingo German or add a second one...like Esperanto for fun. Not sure yet. It's only the weekends that are tough. Texted with an old friend from Missouri. We were best friends 15 yrs ago. We lost touch about 10 yrs ago when I was here in South Carolina and got married. The best part about quitting gaming is finding old friends again. Went to church this morning. Beautiful hymns and homily and it really spoke to me. Still not sure if I'll stay if the divorce happens though. I meet with my priest on Tuesday morning. Sort of a last chance effort on my part. I'm not real optimistic but I can't leave things untried. I wish I had started these changes earlier but I can't wallow in regret. Gratitude 1. I am losing the weight and approaching weight territory I haven't been at in a long long time. 2. I got up early this morning and had a good church service. 3. Old friends.

Wow an acting gig too. You really are on a roll aren't you Moe?

Don't let the disappointment derail you. You've become really self-aware of what works and what doesn't. Just don't let the emotions overwhelm you. We're all here for.you!

Sounds like you made it through the weekend ok, onlysoul. You're a fighter!

Welcome, Les! Good job on 2 months!

Wow, I once took a citizen's police academy here in Myrtle Beach and we got to drive the officers' training course. I didn't drive it half as fast as the instructor did and I hit 2 cones. That takes a lot of skill with an ambulance, Pierce. Well done!

There's nothing wrong with taking some time for yourself.

Glad to see you restarting your detox. Welcome back!