Raelana 40 Posted January 18, 2017 Share Posted January 18, 2017 Hey everyone, hope you're all doing well.I haven't been around the forums a whole lot (I'm usually just in the Stop Gaming Discord), but I've read through a lot of your journals, and it inspired me to start one myself. I keep a personal one for myself about just random things, and I'm not totally consistent with it, so I figured I'd start keeping up one here and have a record of my journey. I only wish I could've started one earlier haha. I've been away from my problem game (League of Legends) for 82 days now, and I've definitely had a lot change since then. I've made progress, and I'm glad about that, but there's still a lot I need to do for myself to get to the place I want to be for myself. I still struggle with confidence and anxiety, and with goals and pushing myself; I can really get in my own way at times. Today was the first day back at university for me after holiday break, and it got me doing a lot of thinking. I want to improve in all aspects of my life, but particularly mentally and socially, and consistently work on my creative endeavors. Day 82 First day back at school today. New semester, and time for a better version of myself. I usually get anxious the first day, and today was no exception. Didn't sleep too well either, unfortunately, though had some tea to perk me up. My first morning class is Introduction to Acting, and it's the first acting class I've ever taken in my life. I've always wanted to try acting though, since I love story telling and entertaining people. I'm shy at times though, and can easily get nervous in front of a lot of people, or in unfamiliar situations, but I'm using this as an opportunity to challenge myself, grow, and have fun. I think I was worrying too much for nothing, since my classmates seem really nice, and the teacher's a fun guy. We all made fools of ourselves practicing with improv exercises and it was a good time, so I'm looking forward to doing more with it over the coming months. There was even a girl in the class that I had known from high school, and we got to talking a bit and vibed pretty well, so I'm thinking that could potentially lead to a friendship, which is something I could definitely use in my life right now. Unfortunately, it wasn't all sunshine and rainbows. My major is Spanish, and I'm in my senior year, so I'm taking 3 upper level Spanish courses: Spanish Linguistics, Translation, and also Legal Spanish. As we went over the expectations for the classes, the workload is seeming like it's going to be pretty intense, and I'm already seeing areas in which I need to improve to make sure I succeed in the classes. I can already feel some stress coming on. I know I can do it though if I just take it day by day and put in the work, but it's still daunting. There are a couple classmates in my current classes that were also in the ones last semester, and we hadn't talked a lot before, but it seems like we'll be doing a study group, so I'm looking forward to that. Hoping we can bond over the struggles of second language learning haha. Also, I had some nice discussion in the Discord chat, and I also bought myself a cork board to create a Vision Board for myself (courtesy of the suggestion of one of the chat members), so that I can have a visual element to track my goals and dreams for my life. So there were definitely some nice highlights today, and I'm thankful for this community for always offering great support and ideas. Ciao for now. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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