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Stevec2283

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  1. Stevec2283

    Steve's Journey(A Fresh Start)

    I guess what triggered me to go back to gaming was stress associated with other things I’m dealing with in life. So I would say that gaming for me is an emotional crutch or coping mechanism. So I have to find other ways, besides gaming to deal with stress.
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    Steve's Journey(A Fresh Start)

    It’s not really that I really kept it to go back to but I’ve had it for awhile that it would be hardly worth selling so I just packed it away. And by saying that I had my PS3 to fall back to, I was using it as a play on words.
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    Steve's Journey(A Fresh Start)

    Well after doing so well in trying to quit gaming, I’m back at square one again. After just about 10 days, I had a setback in my journey and went back to gaming. During the two days that I was gaming, I would game for a couple of hours but I would find myself getting bored with it and not enjoying it. I did sell my PS4 awhile back but I had my PS3 to fall back to, but I’m starting again and won’t let this setback rattle me. Today I restored my PS3 back to its default and packed it away. So this is the start of Day 1 and even though I had a setback, I can take one positive out it, the length of the relapse was short in comparison to others. I will continue to take this one day at a time and keep fighting no matter how long it takes for me to be successful.
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    Steve's Journey(A Fresh Start)

    Day 6 Yesterday went pretty well and I didn’t play any games. One negative to the day was that I didn’t have anything planned so rather than doing anything really productive, I kinda just wasted time. Day 7 So far today has been a good day, I wasn’t home at all this morning so I didn’t think about gaming at all. I’m also planning to perhaps go for a walk and also perhaps play guitar. The next few days might be a struggle because we have poor weather on the way which won’t allow me to go for a walk so I’ll just have to find other activities to do around the house. So far this time around as opposed to other times I’ve tried to quit gaming, I’ve been able to maintain the right mindset. I try to focus on one day to a time and try to stay as a positive as I can despite any negative emotions. I also realize that no matter how many games I play, it won’t change any stress or situation that I could be dealing with. The only thing that gaming does is provide a temporary escape, but once you put down the controller and turn off the game, the stress or situation is still there. It’s so much better to deal with the situation or if there’s nothing you can do to change it, then just do what you can to endure it. I will continue to take things one day at a time, one step at a time. ”Leave the Pixel World, Enter the Real World.”
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    Steve's Journey(A Fresh Start)

    Day 5 of 90 Today went quite a lot better than yesterday, my mood was a lot better. Gaming didn't even come to my mind today because I kept myself occupied so I wouldn't think about it. I feel as if I should probably try to plan out my days rather than just do what comes to mind. This is something that I have to continue to work on but I think consistency is the key to being successful. Also by planning out my days I should be able to get more things done, rather than wasting time doing non essential things. Today was a pretty quiet day for the most part, I wasn't home at all this morning and then in the afternoon I went for a walk and also watched a movie. This evening I also did some reading and now I'm listening to music as I'm writing this message. At times I find it difficult to find the words to write for my journal, but I'm sure that some days I will find more things to write about than other days and it won't stop me from continuing my journal. "Leave the Pixel World, Enter the Real World"
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    Steve's Journey(A Fresh Start)

    Day 4 of 90 Today has been a bit of a roller coaster with my mood being up and down but games haven’t really came into my mind that much. In the past I probably would have buckled and went right back to video games thinking that it would somehow help me, but in actual fact I was just trying to escape my emotions. I know that days like this are going to happen so rather than try to avoid them, I have to deal with them as they come along. Despite the day that I’ve been having, I went for a walk this morning and also played guitar for awhile. Also, I got out of the house this afternoon for awhile to try and improve my mood. I know that things will get better over time and that I can’t expect things to change overnight but I just have to keep fighting no matter what.
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    Steve's Journey(A Fresh Start)

    Day 3 of 90 Today started off good, I got up around 8:30 am or so and then around 10:00 am I left the house and went to the store to pick up a few things that I had needed. Prior to going to the store I went to EB games and traded in my PS4 and games. On the one hand it feels like you’re abandoning a good friend, but at the same time, you’re also leaving your so called friend who has been holding you back all this time. Life doesn’t have to be centered around playing video games, there are many more enjoyable things in life. All this time I’ve been focusing on why I needed to play video games rather than the fact that playing games doesn’t necessarily make you happy. I would make excuses such as: gaming is a good stress reliever, but would avoid the fact that it wasn’t going to change anything, the stress was still going to be there and I still had to deal with it. I’ve decided now that rather than try to avoid stress, I’m going to deal with it head on. I’ve been doing well so far today and haven’t had any urges to play games. I know that there are going to be good days and bad days but I will take it one day at a time.
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    Steve's Journey(A Fresh Start)

    Day 2 of 90 My day has been going well, didn't have an urges to play games, but earlier this afternoon I did have a short time that I was bored. Instead of focusing on the fact that I was bored and thinking that I would be better in playing a game to get rid of it, I just shifted my focus to what I could do about the situation, so I decided to get out of the house and went for a walk instead. Another positive of this day was that I packed up my PS4 and I will go about selling it when I get the chance. I'm going to try and incorporate more activities into my life so as to crowd out the urge to game and at the same time I'm going to try to be more proactive with my time rather than just waste time. I need to learn from what helped me to have success in the past, follow those same steps and make adjustments where necessary. I also need to look at what caused me to relapse in the past, work at not repeating the process and to break the cycle. I will continue to take it one day at a time and rather that focus on the overall journey, I need to focus on the steps that it will take for me to get there.
  9. Stevec2283

    Steve's Journey(A Fresh Start)

    Today was a good day, I didn’t have any urges to play games. I also deleted all data and reset my PS4 to its factory default. Tomorrow I will pack it up and later on I will sell it. Today was actually a pretty quiet day, but I was able to get a workout in. Over the next little while I’m going to consider what sort of activities I can do to replace gaming. I’m going to take this one day at a time and work hard to quit gaming once and for all.
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    Steve's Journey(A Fresh Start)

    Today marks the first day of this journey for me. In the past I have struggled with this but I feel like it’s now or never. I’ve allowed gaming to control my life for too long. My gaming experience started from a very young age, I was probably around 7 or 8 when I started gaming, so it’s about 25 or 26 years that I’ve been a gamer. I’m 34 now, so for about 3/4 or more of my life I’ve been gaming. I’ve decided that I’m going remove all traces of gaming from my life which would include mobile gaming as well. Later today I’m going to reset my PS4 to the factory default and delete all data. I also checked with EB games in regards to selling my console and games. In my prior attempts to quit gaming I feel as if I wasn’t really giving it my best and that I would easily allow myself to go back to gaming or I would make excuses as to why I should be gaming but I know now that the more that I game the harder it’ll be for me quit. I have to completely rewire my brain for life without gaming. Yesterday was the last time that I had played games, so today marks Day 1. As I said previously it’s time to get serious and not allow gaming to control me anymore. 90 DAY DETOX: Day 1 of 90
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    Steve's Journey(A Fresh Start)

    Today is day 3 and it's been going fairly well and I still haven't played any games. Before I relapsed previously I had said that I was unsure about if I was going to continue my journal or not and then later I had said that I would continue it but keep it short and sweet and to the point, but after today I've decided that I will no longer write a journal. My reason for not continuing on with my journal is that I now struggle to find the words to express about how the journey is going. So for that reason I will no longer be writing a journal. I wish all of you the best in your journey. Take care.
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    Steve's Journey(A Fresh Start)

    Well I haven’t sold it yet but I do plan on selling it. I did though delete everything off it and revert it back to factory default.
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    Steve's Journey(A Fresh Start)

    Day 1 went well and I didn’t have any thoughts of gaming. I kept myself busy doing other things and also spent most of my evening with friends so I didn’t have a chance to even consider gaming. Today is going good so far and I haven’t even thought about gaming. I find that as long as I keep myself occupied with other things I don’t even think about gaming but if I’m having a bad day or if I’m bored then I think about gaming. I’m going to continue to take it one day at a time. “Leave the Pixel World, Enter the Real World.”
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    Steve's Journey(A Fresh Start)

    @Regular Robert I have found some activities to replace gaming such as working out, reading and also learning a new language. For me I think that the main reason for relapse is a combination of stress and also at times boredom. So maybe I have to consider adding some other activities to replace gaming and as a way to deal with stress.
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    Steve's Journey(A Fresh Start)

    After a brief relapse I’m back at it again. Yesterday I went back to gaming for a short time but after awhile I didn’t get any enjoyment out of it whatsoever. I decided that I’ll continue writing a journal but I will keep it short and sweet and to the point. Today is day 1, and so far no thoughts of gaming. I’m going to give it my best and work on quitting gaming for good. I no longer want to be living in the digital world but in the real world.
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