d.manuk 410 Posted September 2, 2016 Author Share Posted September 2, 2016 (edited) Today is the start of another long weekend alone -- boyfriend is on a trip somewhere.I played 1 game of League of Legends when I got home from work today because I was scared of being home alone this weekend with not a whole lot to do But I stopped playing afterwards because:1. I was ashamed of caving in so quickly.2. I did not enjoy it.3. I want to do something better.4. I lost the game. (being honest with myself) For #1 I am ashamed because I feel like I don't have much to do with my life, and I rely on my boyfriend to socialize because I don't really have other friends I hang out with regularly. Not playing video games can be uncomfortably eye-opening to the reality of your life. I think I might be subconsciously depressed, and I feel like I have moodswings where I either have a great day or a medium-sad/frustrated day. I am going to plan my Japan trip more and go to Whole Foods this weekend and go to the concert tomorrow and I need to figure out more things to do. I will try to work hard at writing these next few days.I should start building a social life but it is a lot of work to find a new close friend since I am very turned off from making acquaintances. Start date: 9/6Day 90 is on December 5thhttp://www.timeanddate.com/date/duration.html Edited September 7, 2016 by Shine Magical Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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