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That's a great motivation for you to habitualize meditation. Then you don't have to remember it. You just do it.

About exercise: In the past i never gone to the gym. This time around i startet an alternating jogging/ bodyweight training exercise. The main reason i like it, is the availabilty of it. I can't come up with serious excuses not to do atleast a short jog or some basic bodyweight exercises. I use this routine. I think on this side every exercise is explained well with videos wich made it easy to do them in a right way( I actually did push-ups wrong my whole life and now their hard). About procrastination and daystructure. Sometimes i am able to realize i don't wanna do work and want to procrastinate. Then i sometime sit it out dooing nothing. Then i just do my work. More often I have the same problems with procrastination until around 1pm.In my experience schedules do not help if I know what to do, but just don't wanna do it xD. Often times journalling helped me wiht motivation in the morning though. You could maybe try to schedule it earlier adn use the journal to reflect on the things you want to accomplish by beeing strict with your tasks. hoped i could help a bit. Greetings Mario

I am reading it right now and can only agree. I like his way of thinking and writing . I don't even use it as "dating" book, because i am happily married but i think it will help me with some problems in my relationship and with people around me. But if you want to use it that way Iand you implement the things he talks about in your life you will be for sure more sucessful with woman. Best book i read in a while. What is our fokus of improvement right now? I try to get my study fokus down and figure out what i want to do after university.

I commit not to game, not to browse youtube/movie4k besides gamequitters and not to masturbate this month. Also will i find the time to meditate atleast 15min a day and try to be more mindfull. I implemented some of these things allready in my life. Others like youtube/movie4k are new challenges. I do this to become more aware fo the things i really want out of life and to improve the connections with my wife, my family and friends. I want to improve my fokus and concentration. Ps: You still have the February titles in it( happens to me all the time if copy my old journal entrances for structure), but it is a little confusing.

ok done.I finished the survey for the 90day detox, hope it helps abit.Do I get emails with other surveys or is this it? I don't have a problem if there comes more,I ask just out of curiosity.

Now to the nwxt question . Where do i find the surveys?. i saw it two weeks ago, but now i can't find the section.

Hey Parker , Thanks for sharing your experiences. Self awareness is helping me too with my urges. I am still procrastinating often at youtube and other sites( yeah at gamequittters too) but it is getting better slowly. I think it just takes some time to implement better habbits in your life. Good to see other people struggle with the same things. Guess we are in a similiar phase. I am at day 45 . greetings Mario

Day 45 Today is the day. I feel really stressed right now. I realize how much better it was to prepared for tests. This will atleast give me motivation for the upcoming ones( still 4 to go afterwards). I didn't play games or fap and won't do it. Instead I am gooing for a jog after this journal. It gets more and mroe clear that self awareness is the most important thing for me. I always thought i was reflective allready, but I neglected my emotions and avoided thinking or speaking about them. It is a whole new dimension of myself I rediscover lately, wich is awesome. I often wondered why I didn't connected with new people aswell as some of my friends. It comes all down to vulnerability. I try to be fun and conversational but I never show that i care. I have to invastigate this further. Manson article of the day: -http://markmanson.net/vulnerability Gratitude: - self awareness arises - journaling helps to reduce my stress level - still getting stuff done even if I am under high pressure - not beeing sick - good habbits ( exercise,jogging, meditation)

Enjoyed reading it as always. I am half through my 90 days. Does it still help if I join the surveys?

Yeah, it doesn't matter where you start from. It doesn't even matter so much where you go. What matters is that you start going.

Day 43 Well my exam where i hadn't studied enough anyway is now one day earlier... Great. I am actually ok, I will try my best and my panic is managable. Atleast do I know if I study as hard as possible today and tomorow morning, I did what I still can do and then it is over. NoFap is kind fo hard for me. I guess i compensated a bit with masturbation. But it is a good feeling to choose what i want to do and beeing able to do it. I am gratefull for: - Not escaping in compuiter games right now - selfcontrol - 2 days and then i have more prepartion time for next exam. - beeing able to teach my mind

I did this two weeks ago. It helped me a lot with my cravings.

No. It was a comment on his journal.

Day 42 I am gratefull for: - beeing able to argue with my wife - work opportunities - motivation of time pressure

Check out Arkham Horror: It is a cooperative boardgame with complex rules. You try to win versus teh horror toegther and it is quite challenging.You can improve the difficulty too. It is very fun but i needed some time to understand the rules.http://www.amazon.com/Fantasy-Flight-Games-VA09-Arkham/dp/1589942108

Day 41 Today this a really short post, because I have many things to do and don't want to spent too much time here. What i learned today: Manson's Law of Avoidance: The more something threatens your identity, the more you will avoid doing it. Im Gratefull for: - cheap shaver dooing a great job - beeing proud on daily exercise - bananas (get your mind otu fo the gutter!)

1) I think gaming is just a different activity. You play and you try hard and then you get rewards(lvl-up, beating an human enemy, seeing some progress) immediatly. Sports and TV are a more passive entertainment. You will always pay a bill afterwards because you fokus real hard on it. You won't get this energy back. That is why you can't concentrate after gaming. You can't compare gaming with watching tv. You have to compare it wiht other active hobbys like tennis for example. The difference in them is that playing tennis will move your body, wich leads to healthier lifestyle. 2) Gaming is in my opinion this way because the built in rewards are so clever. You get permanent instanious rewards. If you play too often your brain get used to these rewards and creates urges. These urges let you think about games, even if you actually want to fokus on somethign else like working. Many of us do this 90day detox to rewire our brain in a way, that it doesn't expects these urges anymore. I'm sure many people can play on a regular basis after they did this without influencing their life in any way. But most of them who finished it, found other things they liked more then gaming. And i don't mind necessarily a perfect life. I mean something like gooing to do sports after work because it makes you happy. Things like meeting with friends more often and talk.

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I am seriously impressed. Gooing out of your comfort zone is freakin hard(atleast for me). Well i keep trying.

@Marchosias i follow this routine kb/recommended_routine - bodyweightfitness (there are more helpfull videos and it seems like a thought through routine). But it actually doesnt matter i guess. Main thing is to do something everyday and go from there. The main idea of Altucher is that there is an idea "muscle" wich you can train if you try every day to come up with atleast 10 ideas to a specific topic. It can be bad or good ideas it doesnt matter. The goal is to get your brain trained to spit out ideas on request. It is something he has done as his life was shitty and what worked out for him. There is no scientific proof what so ever and maybe it wont help a bit. But the idea of having great ideas all the time is very appealing for me, That's why i give it a try. Day 40 Started reading Mark Mansons book(Models) and i like it very much. In the past i somethimes read through PUA-Forums because i found some ideas of them interesting. I was akward around girls and it fascinated me. But I always felt a little disgusted about some of their methods. Manson takes the theory and makes clear what the flaws are in the "fake it until you make it" philosophy are. And then he tells how you develop yourself to become a men who is attractive to other people. His writing style and opinions resonate very much with me. OK enough advertisment. Yesterday I didn't work/study too much. I did not browse excessivly too much, I just couldn't fokus.THis day has to be better if i want to get my shit done. I bought an ebook and quit my working day at 15:00 to visit my wife who is catsitting on her mothers house. I realized that the selfawereness of my feelings is really bad. In my childhood Iwas very emotional kid and had to cry very fast. That let unsurprisingly to bullying. Somewhere on the way i learned to bury my feelings and to be ok. These days is actually hard for me to realize how i feel and why stuff angers me. It is just in this process of gamequitting that I start to become aware of my feelings and it helps the relationship with my wife a lot. Standing up to the things I want and feel is like growing up. You should check out a free and awesome article about this topic(trust me this is gold):http://markmanson.net/power-in-vulnerability What I learned today: Beeing vulnerable is really hard, but will reward you with selfthgrowth Im gratefull for: - Brokkoli( it is an awesome vegetable, tastes wel land it looks like a bonsaitree. Sometimes i balance one part on my plate and imagine that i am very little and meditate under the brokkolitree) - Selfimprovement - good books

Welcome on the lameass gratitude boat. I think it can actually change a lot.

@Marchosias It just looked kind of ridiculous the first time it tried this:https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=44ScXWFaVBs But hey yesterday she felt my "abs" and complimented me:D. Doesn't matter anyway, I do it for me to stay healthy. After my knee started to hurt a bit i had to find a alternative just go for a jog everyday( yeah i realize that this sounds strange but jogging in the morning really lifted my spirit and i won't give this up). Btw.: I was always the guy not doing any Sport. It is awesome that I do it everyday now. Day 39 I keep it short today. I started dooing the the Altuner workbook to become and idea machine: It is basicall an exercise to write down 10 ideas to different topics every day. I hope to get a creativity boost out of this. Got still ashitload of work to do and had to postpone a selfset duedate ofr my sidejob. But guess it doesn't amtter too much if I'm not that awesome there aslong as my exams are gooing well. It is a try to prioritize even if I#m not entirely sure if it is the right move I have to try and learn of the result. What I learned today: people actually are reading my journal( thanks @Spinips, @Marchosias and @Zakaex) Im gratefull for: - this community - sport beeing so easy to habitualize - having a save home and noone to throw bombs on my neighborhood - living in a country with an awesome social system - having the luxury to choose what i want to do with my life

Hi, always a pleasure to share good

Hey, good to have you here. @Cam sounds interesting let me know if the plans get specific

Day 38 Had a really busy day yesterday without beeing too productive. Needed like 4 hours to write a simple application to one internship. But I finished it! Have a lot to study in 8 days is the next exam and i have to do some work for my sidejob. But I did not procrastinate and got to work yesterday. Did earn some extra money in the afternoon wich is very usefull right now.. It was strange that i got a bad conscience after 4 hours of working. It felt like i should have studied or worked instead. Next time i will make more breaks to restore my fokus. Guess in the long run it saves me time and nerves. I am often afraid to schedule breaks because they are kind of the starting point of my procrastination. Five minute breaks evolve to 15min breaks wich evolve to 45min sitting around dooing stuff i don't need to do. But I'm sure this gets better with practice. I worked yesterday for 10 hours at things wich are important for me wich is a good quota. My brain seems to get into old shape again. I feel remembered at my school years where i was more creative and had better ideas then today. I like to think again. Strange to say it that way but i often felt just annoyed by many of my thoughts in the past years. Now as my fokus shifts away from gaming and desperation i find Joy in my thoughts wich is a good sign i would say. Maybe this is a sideeffect of meditation. I skipped it yesterday by the way because I was motivated and didn't want to calm down if I am excited about work. if that makes sense to you. OK I am getting hungry and I want to work out before breakfeast. so i have to go. What I learned today: - I can work without breaks for a long time. It just isn't productive - I can't do all things at once, I can only plan properly and prioritize to get the important stuff done. I have to deal with the things I don't do afterwards. Im gratefull for: - beeing mentally stable lately - my brain seems to work better lately - today beeing bodyweight training day(shit weather outside). - found a habbit loop: cue -> feeling hungry habbit-> workout reward -> eat breakfast PS: 2 hours wasted starting with porn gooing over to the bad site of youtube... well i will commit to no porn now! Take that freakin internet!