BigPete247

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Day 11: @Vlad, thanks man, hearing that from you...it means a lot. Sometimes, it's important to respect yourself first before respecting others. Good seeds, man, good seeds. Everyone where i live is preparing for the solar eclipse in a few hours, might be able to see it; might not, hopefully they might be able to show it live on TV . I finished my homework assignments for today reacting to Thomas Jefferson's autobiography and The Declaration of Independence, feels good to be reminded of our rights to fight for freedom and democracy. It didn't take me long to read and write a page for each, should be enough for my professor to read since he didn't give us any clear way to do the assignment. Or post it online. But afterwards i awarded myself with reading Tom Clancy's book Threat Vector, so far i'm about 25% into it and its not a bad series if you're into wartime strategy, espionage, and covert military operations. I want to get more books like this one for the following months to enhance my visual thinking, because i'm bad at memory and CT atm. I oddly started to have relaxed feelings of gaming, even when i sold everything, like i had a mental trigger to play my system now. Instead, i drew it out, literally drawing how i felt at that time. So, all in all i'm having a good day so far. I'm grateful for my expressive creativity and multitude of books.

Yeah, keeping space between my study and game helped keep me focused on my schoolwork more and gaming less, but in your case, you really need it to relax, don't blame you.

It's ok man, it was hard for me to quit gaming until I joined these forums, At first I couldn't believe it , I was like 'wow, people are actually doing it, they're actually quitting games on here'. So, after years of trial and error, I gave it up, every single game in one week. Trust me, there are some good people on here who will help.

Hey Fern, BigPete here, being scared is normal, take it from these guys before you, quitting games gave them more freedom to express themselves, learn who they are, and lead happy successful lives. The key to this is consistency, like Cam says in his videos, the more you keep doing it the better you will see your life improve. Good luck and welcome.

Well, srry @Vlad , i'm afraid you don't have to do the HITT workout...Mettermrck you're up! But seriously man, keep doing what you are doing, just imagine how far you are into your life now vs. back then.

Thx, mithras, looking forward making that big decision when the time comes. Your journal entry sounds like me when i was about to crack at day 3, blowing up my deathstar nearly ensued until i watched this.

I can relate...people came and went in my life without even hearing their stories, at first I tried to lean on my family to comfort me and say it's ok, but tough love always prevails over logic. I realized my parents were right, some just don't have time for it.

@giblets Nice, what kind of work do you do? @Mettermrck 1996...That's how my gaming started, my older brother took his stuff from college and plopped it right in front of my face, it contained a PS1 and a copy of Doom, Iong story short, I got addicted to shooters.

I understand you Zala, you feel heavily unreliable in certain situations as people around you starts to question 'omg, can he/she think?', then make you do what they used to do to me when I was in Basic training...which was troll. So gaming put a dent in my common sense, Tbh. Good luck and just be yourself for your first day in school, people are there for attention anyway, remember that.

Getting active with a church can improve on your reliability as well as being social within the community, glad you found a church home Mettermrck

Good insight, keep it up Vlad

@AlexTheGrape, What's up?, Good starting out man. @Mettermrck I've tried it a few times, no dice.

Aw, well, i guess its beneficial to look at it that way too, how easy they had it back then. No electronics, no online play, would be nice to open up my board game in the 40s.

Keep going, eshi2000, you're doing fine! @Mettermrck, feels like that for me now

I know it's hard to find something fun to do when your working hard, needed it, but it only exacerbated my gaming instead of decreasing it, leaving me to play on my off days when i was working at Walmart (not fun). Keep going man, it'll get easier to fight the more days you commit!

Nice, HappyCat, do you have a separate place to study or do you study next to your DDR? Also, great way to stay committed to your goals!

Day 10: Services was great, I tried to be nice to this one deaf girl in church as she isn't big on social interactions, but she looked really good looking, sad i don't know sign language. Had that nasty cough and my nose was still congested today, slightly felt better afterwards. It's also getting even harder to monitor everything my grandmother does but she moves around constantly (if she isn't sitting on the couch), but the challenge is to hold on and be patient with her. She can't really cook or do things herself so she gets me or dad to do round the clock stuff, even if it doesn't make sense, still its a challenge. Had no urges today, guess it was like somebody turned off my ambition for gaming. I checked out my online assignment planner and there was no assignments posted yet by any of my teachers, might be a good thing, won't actually know until i go back to school on Monday. I'm grateful for my sense of humor and being an usher.

You won't believe how many times I've had that 'oh crap' feeling when I was competitively gaming and I had something I needed to do, good luck on your goals as well as school @Zala

This is a prime example of what i wish to accomplish in my life, starting with my car, nice @Mettermrck!

My grandad passed away 3 years ago, when I gamed I honestly didn't hear news he passed until my pops came home from the hospital. It put me in a crappy mood. I was able to attend his funeral but had no words to say, I just had a moment of silence to myself as I didn't get a chance to see him before he passed because I didn't have the motivation to go with my dad to check on him. Your doing the right thing dirkj3.

I always wanted one of these, it looked like a lot of fun and a nice way to stay active, I guess sparked by the original NES fitness mat. I know the fitness mat got a lot of bad reviews though, so what is the soft mat like? I assume it would have the same challenges by being a bit harder to move on and not having quite the same feedback. Let's just say that Nashi Con taught me a few lessons

So true, Zeeko, your right about being forced to play, it's a nasty feeling but yet can be supplemented with a hobby. Like me, i'm thinking of playing Solitaire with the deck of cards i never put to use when i was deployed. Just a suggestion, continue the fight!

Are you majoring in linguistics and public speaking, Skaliq? If you are, that's pretty cool.