wazzapp 69 Posted February 12 Share Posted February 12 (edited) I got work to do, fun work, still im stuck playing Bloons TD on my computer, what am i doing srs time to uninstall again uninstalling for the 4th time.... healthy? i think not. Talk about messing things up for myself, gaming and getting a headache, not even (that) fun.... destructive tendencies Instead i could do something productive, gym, socialize, work, study flight license, all these things I value, but no, caught by a game that is about monkeys destroying baloons. 30 y.o. man, like dafuq. This is far past due. Uninstalled now, time to relax a bit, buy energy drink, and then go on with todays task-list Edited February 12 by wazzapp 3 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
wazzapp 69 Posted February 13 Author Share Posted February 13 Day 2 Getting dressed, ready to go to office. Going to work and relax, drink coffee. I pray that i will not play games today. 2 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
wazzapp 69 Posted February 14 Author Share Posted February 14 Day 3 New day. I pray i will not play games today. Finishing some work before monday. Also want to have nice dinner with GF for valentines day Wish u all a great day ❤️ 3 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
wazzapp 69 Posted February 15 Author Share Posted February 15 Day 4 My brother bought an xbox and wants to play with me online. I probably cant refuse playing with him a bit. I pray i will not get stuck in these destructive behaviours. Wish u all a great day ❤️ 3 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
wazzapp 69 Posted February 16 Author Share Posted February 16 Day 5 New day were i pray i will not play games. I want to stay in the real world experience the things around me. I want peace of mind, serenity, and productivity. Thanks for letting me keeping a journal here. Wish u a great day ❤️ 2 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
Jason70 243 Posted February 16 Share Posted February 16 On 2/15/2021 at 7:07 AM, wazzapp said: My brother bought an xbox and wants to play with me online. I probably cant refuse playing with him a bit. Hey, I know you played a bit with your brother, but if this ever comes up again in the future, try telling him that you are taking a break from video games, and explain why. If he gets defensive or questions why you would do such a thing, what I would do in your situation is tell him that I want to do other activities (like painting, or writing or coding) and gaming was getting in the way of that (say it nicer than that obviously). Keep on praying, God will have your back the whole way. Best Jason 2 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
wazzapp 69 Posted February 17 Author Share Posted February 17 Day 6 Thanks for your reply Jason. So far I haven't played with him (yet). I know even "friendly playing" easily turns into compulsion and isolation for me. I will try to stay away. New day new posibilities. I will try to stay present and stay off games, experience this day ❤️ 2 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
wazzapp 69 Posted February 19 Author Share Posted February 19 Day 8 Thanks for letting me keeping a journal here. I know it is not the most detailed but it helps me stay clean. Today i will try to relax, not work too much. Also i will do my best to stay off games today, one day at a time. Wish u a great friday! Stay clean with me ❤️ 2 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
wazzapp 69 Posted February 20 Author Share Posted February 20 (edited) Day 9 Still staying clean, one day at a time. I will work a bit and bond with gf today. A few weeks ago i saw my gf crying because of me playing too much. I quit that day but relapsed later. not even her tears helped me stay clean. i want to stay clean. Edited February 20 by wazzapp 2 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
wazzapp 69 Posted February 21 Author Share Posted February 21 Day 10 Still staying clean. My new focus will be: - Working & investing - Gym - Flight license - Meditation and spiritual work But, im human. I can't become perfect over night. One thing at a time 3 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
wazzapp 69 Posted February 23 Author Share Posted February 23 Day 12 New day staying clean ❤️ In the morning I always watch new and read news. Usually it is a fun way to start the morning, together with some coffee and breakfast. However, sometimes the news make me upset af. My mind starts racing and i think angry thoughts. Especially if the news are about increasing taxes XD this happened today, and I lose much of my ability to concentrate on work when im upset. I need to be calm to work effectively. Maybe it would be better for me to just stop watching news. Most of the times i enjoy it but sometimes, like today, it F me up. 1 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
wazzapp 69 Posted February 24 Author Share Posted February 24 Day 13 New day without games. I'm happy that we are taking this journey, becoming better versions of ourselves. Anyone can fall into addiction, but we admit this to ourselfs and try to build ❤️ Wish u a great day ❤️ 1 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
wazzapp 69 Posted February 25 Author Share Posted February 25 Day 14 New day without playing games. Praying for serenity and productivity. Day is going good, getting work done. Wish u a great day ❤️ 1 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
wazzapp 69 Posted February 26 Author Share Posted February 26 Day 15 Still not playing games, thankfully. I try to reply to posts on reddit everyday. Not giving too much advice, just thanking them for sharing and asking questions. Problem with reddit is that we dont know what happens to the people who decide to quit. Do they relapse? I want to stay in touch. Wish u a great day ❤️ 1 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
Pochatok 269 Posted February 26 Share Posted February 26 6 hours ago, wazzapp said: Day 15 Still not playing games, thankfully. I try to reply to posts on reddit everyday. Not giving too much advice, just thanking them for sharing and asking questions. Problem with reddit is that we dont know what happens to the people who decide to quit. Do they relapse? I want to stay in touch. Wish u a great day ❤️ Yes, that's why I honestly don't go to reddit's gamequitters- too unreliable of a platform. And honestly reddit is incredibly gaming-centered, so just being on reddit draws me into games more, so I tend to avoid it lol. 1 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
wazzapp 69 Posted February 28 Author Share Posted February 28 Thanks for your reply Pochatok ❤️ Day 17 Still not playing games ❤️ I joined a CGAA meeting today, gotta do more of that, was amazing. Lots of work today ❤️ Wish u a great day ❤️ 2 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
wazzapp 69 Posted March 1 Author Share Posted March 1 Day 18 Being productive at work, working towards my goals. CGAA meeting yesterday was amazing, i will go for another one today. Wish u all a great day ❤️ 1 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
wazzapp 69 Posted March 2 Author Share Posted March 2 Day 19 New day without playing games, working towards my goals while trying to keep balance ❤️ I'm not perfect, i cant change everything overnight, BUT i will not play games today. Wish u all a great day ❤️ 1 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
wazzapp 69 Posted March 4 Author Share Posted March 4 Day 21 Coming up on 1 month soon, i hope 🙂 ❤️ New day not playing games. I wish the best for you all ❤️ 1 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
wazzapp 69 Posted March 7 Author Share Posted March 7 (edited) Day 24 Hello friends, still not playing games, staying clean ❤️ After my 1 month mark i think it is time to quit twitch and gaming videos on youtube as well. It would be awesome to be free from this whole thing all together. One thing at a time. Im not perfect, i can't change overnight. Wish u all a great day ❤️ Edit: i will try to stay clean from gaming videos from today. No reason to wait Edited March 7 by wazzapp 3 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
wazzapp 69 Posted March 9 Author Share Posted March 9 Day 26 Hey friends! Staying clean from playing games today. Didn't manage to stay away from streams on twitch, but i will try to forgive myself for that. I hope you are having a good day ❤️ 2 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
wazzapp 69 Posted March 10 Author Share Posted March 10 Day 27 Hello friends ❤️ happy to not be playing games today. Yesterday i bought some board games in case friends are coming over and want to "game" 🙂 gotta be smart eh? ;D Wish you all a great day ❤️ 2 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
Pochatok 269 Posted March 10 Share Posted March 10 Ooo, what board games did you buy? 1 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
wazzapp 69 Posted March 11 Author Share Posted March 11 (edited) Terraforming mars, Betrayal at house hill, and Arkham horror. Espacially looking forward to Betrayal at house hill since we are 3 ppl right now and it seems quite easy for beginners 🙂 Day 1 New try. Gamed some x-box with my friend and his fiance as they are visiting. I don't feel so bad about it, maybe I'm not right for this forum. Just some casual gaming with friends and no compulsive tendencies. However, it counts as a relapse. I can't make wierd rules like "gaming on xbox multiplayer with friends who are in the same room is not a relapse". Unnecessarily complicated. I am a gaming addict though, or at least have problem with compulsive gaming. It goes bad everytime i re-install. I've had migrane headaches, skipped eating, skipped hygene, skipped work, skipped school, played 14hrs per day e.t.c. because of my addiction. Wish u all a great day ❤️ Edited March 11 by wazzapp 4 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
TheNewMe2.0 1812 Posted March 11 Share Posted March 11 Those are pretty serious symptoms you're describing. If you get like that then maybe abstinence is the only way to help yourself live a normalish life. I find life is really difficult even off games and substances but on games and substances it's nearly impossible. Definitely more difficult. And even less enjoyable because you don't have as much self control and feel like you can't like trust yourself to follow through on things because you're just going to get sucked into the gaming again and blow everything off. Good luck. 3 Quote Link to post Share on other sites
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