The Journal of Haymitch

[Haymitch]

Let's start. 90 days. 1 day at a time. firm commitment.
Today it's day 0 for me. 25th September. 
I'm gonna write here every time I feel the need as suggested.
Couple of words is enough.
I just want to be consistent and record my progress thru being game free.

[Haymitch]

I went for the last 15 minutes of meeting.
15 minutes of meeting is always better than 0 minutes of meeting.
It's worth it.

[Max]

Welcome to the forums. You are on the right path. 

[Haymitch]

Thanks WhoCares. I hope I am.

[Haymitch]

Very regenerating sleep. Almost 10 hours and I feel it helps me today.

Yesterday I slept poorly and I had problems with concentration, probably as the withdrawal from gaming.

I wanted to use verb "rejuvanate" but it reminds me too much about my previous gaming experience. I'm happy that I'm aware of that.

[Haymitch]

Read some of WhoCares's journal. I can relate a lot to it.

[Haymitch]

Work is going pretty good so far. I mean it's hard for me to focus, but I'm not getting distracted.

Also, I take care about taking breaks.

[Haymitch]

One day at a time. Important.

[Haymitch]

Still need a lot of sleep.
I had a nightmares today and woke up in the middle of the night. Could sleep for about an hour.
Seems like withdrawals.

[Haymitch]

Less sleep today. About 8-9 so it's coming back to normal.

Also I feel less tired. That's good symptom.

[Haymitch]

The journals here are a great deal of knowledge. I just read some of @gargamel entries. Nicely done.

[Arthur]

Welcome to the forum @Haymitch. I wish you best of luck on your 90 days detox. 

[Haymitch]

Third day I guess. But I still have to be sober for next 12 hours to count it as 3 days.

[Haymitch]

Thanks @gargamel I try to keep sanity though my withdrawals are severe so far.

[Arthur]

12 minutes ago, Haymitch said:

Thanks @gargamel I try to keep sanity though my withdrawals are severe so far.

If you keep completely away from games - painful withdrawals will subside after 2 weeks, trust me. Just keep at it.

[Haymitch]

Sure but games is not my only issue. Internet and computer and media at all that's the biggest problem

[Haymitch]

Got a lot of pressure but I dealt with it properly. Music and staying away from computer.

[Haymitch]

I feel overwhelmed right now. 

A lot of things to do.

And I had problem with staring too much at the screen, yesterday I was unable to write here.

[Haymitch]

Replied to @gargamel and @WhoCares journals. It's really uplifting for me.

[Haymitch]

I feel like it's a new chapter in my life. Even though I did a lot of tries in the past.

I feel anxious right now.

Hope this writing will help me a bit.

[Haymitch]

Maybe some kind of structure in this journal may help me? I don't really know.

[BooksandTrees]

4 hours ago, Haymitch said:

Maybe some kind of structure in this journal may help me? I don't really know.

I have a weekly update on Saturdays, daily updates, and then random outbursts that I feel I need to discuss. Try creating some formats that work for you. I started off in 2018 making it look like a blog post but then felt corny so I just write essay form now. 

[Haymitch]

I regret wasted time. No gaming in definition, but youtube, streams with gaming, and basically anything media had + eating a lot of sugar. This occured to me for the last 2 days.

It's time to stop it.

[Haymitch]

My eyes hurt as hell and I feel exhausted.

[Haymitch]

1:43 AM. I need to go to sleep.