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  1. Alright, I'm done with my bitching. I'm gonna play Overwatch whenever I like. No more restrictions. I want to be happy.
  2. After 2.5 weeks break I played Overwatch again.. for 7 hours straight. Now I know for sure, it's too late for me. No matter what I do, no matter what people are around me, I am thinking only about that shitty game. Not sure why I am even trying at this point. If Overwatch is the only thing I enjoy, what's the point in attempting to limit myself. Why wouldn't I just stop this shit and go back to playing nonstop. Maybe it's because the idea of being a fucking loser video game nerd makes me sick. I fucking despise myself. I don't know what to do. It's just so fucked up. I play Overwatch because m
  3. 2 weeks no games, I was too busy to even think about playing. Now I've finished all my essential tasks and I've been thinking about playing since then. I guess I'll relapse today. Honestly don't care
  4. One week Overwatch free. I feel guilty for not replying on your posts, I’ll try to fix it during the week.
  5. Therapist told me that he can’t do anything and I need to see a doctor. Turns out I’m a psycho. Learning something new everyday lmao.
  6. I’m reading SuicideWatch reddit and I can relate to almost everything people write there. My life is shit and I don’t think I need this anymore. I’m so empty I don’t want to even try to change something. I’ve been forced to go to therapist, so I’m going tomorrow. To be honest I don’t really care
  7. Well, I read your advise yesterday that I should take it slow and immediately reinstall Overwatch. After gaming straight for 6 hours, in 5 AM I realized that I don't wanna live anymore. I don't want to do anything. Nothing brings me joy. I want to end this. I want to be freed from this life. I want to fall asleep and never wake up. The only thing that is stopping me from commiting suicide is that my family would be sad. If not them, I would end this constant suffering right now.
  8. I am playing more than ever before. All my progress is entirely gone. And to be honest, I'm not even trying anymore. I just say that I'll try, but in reality, I relapse and rush to game even after minor thought of playing. I have no willpower anymore. When I wasn't trying to quit I was happyly gaming half a day. Now I play non stop all day while being depressed as fuck.
  9. Thanks for advise, but it won't work for me. I am competitive gamer on high rank. Even one minor mistake would make my whole team lose and I would be blamed and insulted by angry teammates. I can't even lose focus for a split second.
  10. Since I stopped posting my life is getting worse every day. This week is probably the lowest point I’ve been in my life. I started playing again and it ruined everything. Now it’s 5 AM, I am tilted after the game, so I uninstalled. I can’t do this anymore. It feels so wrong. My physical condition is horrible and my mental condition is questionable. It feels like I miss something. With every new relapse I lose a bit of hope. All my enthusiasm is gone. I feel empty. Not sure how long I can last.
  11. I had cravings for a couple of hours and I went to my PC to install Overwatch. And I can't. I'm just sitting in front of my PC and I feel guilt. I'm not able to play in peace anymore. My real life feels horrible and now my gaming feels horrible too. I'm stuck, everything's shit. A lot of Overwatch pro players experienced burnout past 2 years. They moved to other competitive games, but I can't because I don't like other games. And yet I'm sick of Overwatch. Update: I decided to leave GQ, please don't reply, I won't see it. Bye.