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Hi guys!

Making a quick introduction, my name is WhatAboutToday?, I'm a 26 years old male and I've been addicted to games for the most part of my life. It is pretty strange to write that I'm addicted... that is something that I've never said before (and never said it out loud, I just wrote it!) but it's time to really face the problem.

Exactly 166 days ago (writing this in 4th of december of 2019), I decided to quit gaming and porn/masturbation for good. It's pretty curious remembering the exact day that it happened, mainly because I can't recall a "trigger" that made me take the decision at the time. But in the end, for me, it makes perfect sense, because my gaming habits were always something that made me feel ashamed. It has been a long time since the last time I felt like myself, and I don't feel like I'm living the life I wanted/was supposed to. So, at that day, a key switched in my brain, I took the decision, and I don't regret it at all.

After that, for sure my life got better, but I'm aiming higher right now. The process of quitting wasn't really planned and I don't feel like I replaced the bad habits with only good ones. Starting the journal is a way to keep myself on track, receive suggestions and exchange experiences.

Right now, I'm 166 days gaming free. After about 120 days, I relapsed on PMO in a stressful moment, but I'm back on track again.

I'm gonna try to be journaling everyday, so feel free to join me on this journey to a better me.

I gotta give some structure to this diary so that it becomes easier to make the daily posts, and I'm gonna begin in the first entry (today before I sleep, probably). In a better format it's gonna be better to describe the objectives that I have and the approach I'm gonna take to achieve them.

I'm excited to start, the better me is around the corner, let's go!

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Day 1

Today was a pretty busy day, I have an exam tomorrow so I had to study all day long, but I wanted to make a post today to start things off. It was an unusual day because I didn't even got the chance to be distracted. I'm aiming to do a real detox on dopamine in the next months: cut down a lot of Netflix, Youtube, browsing the web and other stuff. When I quit gaming some months ago the immediate feeling was boredom, day after day. After that I got used/replaced the bad habits with good + not so good habits and things got "balanced" again.

I'm aiming to feel that boredom again by eliminating the bad habits, but when I get bored I'm gonna actively try to do the things I long wanted to do: learn the guitar, study programming, get back to reading... well, everything that is pendent in my life.

Today the entry is a little messy, gonna get better with time when I get the hang of it.

One amazing thing that happened/I did today

One of the objectives I have right now is to avoid staying in my room for too long. That's a residual habit I have from gaming, and I unconsciously do that all the time. Things like eating in my desk while randomly browsing the internet make me lose too much time of the day. Today, even staying at home all day, I stayed out of my room for most of the time. It was pretty easy because I had to study, but I'm gonna try to keep it when I'm with free time too.

Exercise

Didn't manage to exercise today. Procrastinated a lot to study for this exam and today I couldn't leave home for that.

Morning Routine

First 60 minutes with no Cellphone - Pending

Physiotherapy - Done 

Skin care routine - Done

Make my bed - Done

Maybe I'm gonna integrate some meditation in the morning, but I don't wanna get overwhelmed with new habits in the beginning.

Evening Routine

Skin care routine - Done.

Daily Habits Tracker

I'm going to start adding habits soon.

Reading

Not today.

Getting to bed before 11pm

Not today.

Weekly Goal(s)

Need some planning.

Monthly Goal

Need some planning.

3 Month Goal

Need some planning.

What went well today:

The studying went well. Boring, but went well.

What I could have done to make my day better:

Eat a little better. In general I don't eat well when I'm focused in studying, gonna improve that. Keep my bedroom organized.

What I will do differently tomorrow:

Better organization/keep things organized. At work I'm gonna try to be more productive. Go to the gym. Look for the dance classes I wanna do there.

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Day 2

Today was that kind of busy day that it seems that you haven't done anything relevant. Woke up like 6:40 AM, I went to sleep pretty late yesterday and was tired. My goal is to wake up like 5:30 so I can get some things done in the morning. Went through my morning routine pretty fast (physiotherapy kind of in a rush) and went to college. Had an exam till almost 1 pm and there goes my morning. Lunch till almost 2 pm and after that work, where I actually didn't stop to do my stuff, basically helped my boss in some things. After that had a meeting that was pretty good, some things about my final project are finally getting on track and I expect to finish it and present it in december already. It was raining a looot today, so it took me forever to get home... got home like 8:30 pm and didn't feel like doing something useful. Went through my evening routine and that's it.

Current Streaks

No games - 168 days

No Porn/Masturbation - 7 days

One amazing thing that happened/I did today

Felt pretty good to help my boss today. He was really grateful, felt good about it. I gotta remember that it only happened because I had the initiative, most of the time I'm too passive. Gotta me more active.

Exercise

Didn't have the time. Tomorrow, no excuses!

Social - Fuck it, just do it

Gonna try a new thing: Many times during the day I don't things by hesitation/fear (I was a really shy person in the past, that is something I had some improvement). Whenever I have this moments of hesitation I'm gonna try to not stop, going to just do it.

Not gonna be easy, but I will practice it daily, maybe with other stuff

Morning Routine

First 60 minutes with no Cellphone - Pending

Physiotherapy - Done

Skin care routine - Done

Make my bed - Done

Maybe I'm gonna integrate some meditation in the morning, but I don't wanna get overwhelmed with new habits in the beginning.

Evening Routine

Skin care routine - Done.

Physiotherapy - Done.

Daily Habits Tracker

I'm going to start adding habits soon.

Reading

Not today.

Getting to bed before 12pm

Not today.

Weekly Goal(s)

Need some planning.

Monthly Goal

Need some planning.

3 Month Goal

Need some planning.

What went well today:

Exam went well. Work went really well. Meeting too.

What I could have done to make my day better:

Using a little less my cellphone. Nervous before the exam I was using it a lot, not good.

What I will do differently tomorrow:

Wake up early. Exercise. Fuck it, just do it

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Day 3

Pretty normal day. Woke up later than I wanted, but I was really tired from yesterday, so that's ok. Work went really well! Feeling good about recent results. Went to the gym and got some yoga done too. In general a good day, but nothing different than the usual.

I'm thinking about starting some monthly challenges with myself. Always wanted to experiment different things and maybe keeping a diary it may work.

Current Streaks

No games - 169 days

No Porn/Masturbation - 8 days

Things that I should do every week or month

Body grooming - Last done 06/12/2019

Hair Care - Last done 30/12/2019

Deep organize room - 

30 days challenge - Day XX

Going to start it soon, maybe this weekend

One amazing thing that happened/I did today

Went back to exercising after about 10 days! Feeling good.

Exercise

Gym + Yoga.

Social - Fuck it, just do it

A few moments of hesitation happened and I tried to fight against it and just do whatever the hell it was... nothing too thriling, but I'm satisfied that I remembered to push through the fear. Gonna try to keep it.

Morning Routine

First 60 minutes with no Cellphone - Done

Physiotherapy - Done

Skin care routine - Done

Make my bed - Done

Maybe I'm gonna integrate some meditation in the morning, but I don't wanna get overwhelmed with new habits in the beginning.

Evening Routine

Skin care routine - Done.

Physiotherapy - Done.

Daily Habits Tracker

I'm going to start adding habits soon.

Reading

Not today.

Getting to bed before 12pm

Not today.

Weekly Goal(s)

Need some planning.

Monthly Goal

Need some planning.

3 Month Goal

Need some planning.

What went well today:

Gym went well.

What I could have done to make my day better:

I could have woke up a little earlier. In the time lost in the morning I could have done more stuff.

What I will do differently tomorrow:

Tomorrow is the first weekend of the diary! Gonna try to be mindful about time spent in the room. I have things to study, but certainly gonna have some free time. Maybe pick up where I left with the guitar.

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Day 4

Good day... Woke up early for a weekend, like 8 AM. Went to the supermarket to buy some food for a new diet. I'm thinking that if I'm gonna exercise, why not to follow a diet? After that I came back home and worked on my final project a little. I wasn't too focused, but at least I putted some work in it. Had lunch like 14 PM and worked a little more on the project. In the afternoon I made a hair hydration too.

By the night I went to see a play, it was really nice! That really got me motivated to take drama classes. Provably gonna be nervous as hell, but in the end it would be good for my shyness. Gonna search for it in the next days.

Current Streaks

No games - 170 days

No Porn/Masturbation - 9 days

Things that I should do every week or month

Body grooming - Last done 06/12/2019

Hair Care - Last done 09/12/2019

Deep organize room - 

30 days challenge - Day XX

Going to start it soon, maybe this week. Thinking about a diet

One amazing thing that happened/I did today

Watched a play after a long time! Motivated me to take acting/singing lessons. Gonna search things related to this.

Exercise

Not today

Social - Fuck it, just do it

Bad day today, hesitated hard on a situation... felt pretty bad after that. The acting/singing lessons would play a big part in changing this situation.

Morning Routine

First 60 minutes with no Cellphone - Done

Physiotherapy - Done

Skin care routine - Done

Brush teeth and floss - done, but gotta buy some dental floss!

Make my bed - Done

Maybe I'm gonna integrate some meditation in the morning, but I don't wanna get overwhelmed with new habits in the beginning.

Evening Routine

Skin care routine - Done.

Physiotherapy - Done.

Daily Habits Tracker

I'm going to start adding habits soon.

Reading

Not today.

Getting to bed before 12pm

Not today.

Weekly Goal(s)

Get in contact with the music school I searched and find out plans/prices for singing lessons. Maybe guitar too

Find a dentist and schedule it.

Buy Christmas Gift to SO.

Monthly Goal

Need some planning.

3 Month Goal

Need some planning.

What went well today:

Waking up early and running errands (buying food to cook for the week and organizing bedroom a little).

What I could have done to make my day better:

Work a little more on my final project. After a pretty busy week I wanted to enjoy doing other things a little... I think it made me feel good, so I don't regret ir.

What I will do differently tomorrow:

Focus on the project and on studying more than today.

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Day 5 - 08/12/2019

A day with mixed feelings... Woke up really annoyed and had a conversation with my SO about how I'm feeling unsupported in the relationship. Like everybody, she has problems and I try my best to listen and support her, and I don't think she does the same for me. But at the same time, I can't expect her to do that if I'm not vocal enough about it. So today I was. It was really hard for me, cried a lot, but I was. Hope this situation gets better in the future after this conversation. At the same time, I'm really motivated with the diary and all this changes. Willing to take responsibility for everything that I wanna change in my life.

After that my day wasn't really productive. Worked on my project a little in the morning then went to the pool, which was really good. Coming back, worked a little more and then the rest of the day didn't do anything special 

Current Streaks

No games - 171 days

No Porn/Masturbation - 10 days

Things that I should do every week or month

Body grooming - Last done 06/12/2019

Hair Care - Last done 09/12/2019

Deep organize room - 

30 days challenge - Day XX

Going to start it this week. Thinking about a diet.

One amazing thing that happened/I did today

Having that conversation with my SO was really good. I'm a really closed person and this was a good step in overcoming this.

Exercise

Not today's

Social

Well, I count taking that conversation as a an accomplishment for me. More than that, since it's a big deal for me, I'm motivated to change my social inabilities as soon as possible.

Morning Routine

First 60 minutes with no Cellphone - Done

Physiotherapy - Done

Skin care routine - Done

Brush teeth and floss - done, but gotta buy some dental floss!

Make my bed - I was at the house of my SO, so no bed to make.

Maybe I'm gonna integrate some meditation in the morning, but I don't wanna get overwhelmed with new habits in the beginning.

Evening Routine

Skin care routine - Done.

Physiotherapy - Done.

Brush teeth and floss - Didn't do it

Daily Habits Tracker

I'm going to start adding habits soon.

Reading

Not today.

Getting to bed before 10pm

Not today.

Weekly Goal(s)

Get in contact with the music school I searched and find out plans/prices for singing lessons. Maybe guitar too

Find a dentist and schedule it.

Buy Christmas Gift to SO.

Cook meals for the week (Important! You are spending too much money eating!)

Ask about the documents and procedure to graduate.

Get the documents to graduate

Monthly Goal

Present the final project and graduate.

Start the programming course.

3 Month Goal

Need some planning.

What went well today:

Conversation with SO.

What I could have done to make my day better:

Work more on my final project. Didn't accomplish my objective, which was finishing the final version.

What I will do differently tomorrow:

Finish the project by the morning so that I can study the rest of the day.

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Day 6 - 09/12/2019

A not so good day... Woke up not so early, so I blew the possibility of finishing the project in the morning. Went to work and finished it by 15 PM, that's the only thing I did until then. Then I had to study and make some assignments. Couldn't finish it because I was so unmotivated. I can't remember the last time I was that unmotivated before in college! The subject could be more interesting but the classes and assignments are so boring, I just created a blockage with it. Thank God it is almost finished, I just gotta deliver the final presentation. But anyway, I'm disappointed. I should've finished the task, but I'm not gonna worry about what I cannot change anymore. After that I went to sleep at about 2 AM.

Current Streaks

No games - 172 days

No Porn/Masturbation - 11 days

Things that I should do every now and then

Body grooming - Last done 06/12/2019

Hair Care - Last done 09/12/2019

Clip nails - Last done ?

Deep organize room - 

30 days challenge - Day XX

Going to start it this week. Thinking about a diet.

One amazing thing that happened/I did today

Finishing the project. Now it's not in my hands anymore (not completely).

Exercise

Not today. Gotta get back on track!

Social

Not many opportunities to be social.

Morning Routine

First 60 minutes with no Cellphone - Done

Physiotherapy - Done

Skin care routine - Done

Brush teeth and floss - done, but gotta buy some dental floss!

Make my bed - out of home, didn't need to!

Maybe I'm gonna integrate some meditation in the morning, but I don't wanna get overwhelmed with new habits in the beginning.

Evening Routine

Skin care routine - Done.

Physiotherapy - Done.

Brush teeth and floss - Brushed. BUY SOME FLOSS!!

Daily Habits Tracker

I'm going to start adding habits soon.

Reading

Not today.

Getting to bed before 10pm

Not today.

Weekly Goal(s)

Get in contact with the music school I searched and find out plans/prices for singing lessons. Maybe guitar too - IN PROGRESS

Find a dentist and schedule it.

Buy Christmas Gift to SO.

Cook meals for the week (Important! You are spending too much money eating!)

Ask about the documents and procedure to graduate.

Get the documents to graduate

Monthly Goal

Present the final project and graduate.

Start the programming course.

3 Month Goal

Need some planning.

What went well today:

Finishing project.

What I could have done to make my day better:

I could have had more focus on the assignment.

What I will do differently tomorrow:

More focus on the important tasks. Gotta put the nail in the coffin in the project.

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10 hours ago, WhatAboutToday? said:

Couldn't finish it because I was so unmotivated. I can't remember the last time I was that unmotivated before in college!

Yeah me too I remember college being a pretty discouraging experience. I've been through it recently enough to remember enjoying some parts but really hating a lot of it.
It's different for everyone but I think one common theme is the amount of risk and pressure there is to succeed during our time in college.

Universities like to talk about how much learning and growing they provide for young adults which I guess is true but I also remember developing some of my most unhealthy habits during that time too.

Hang in there @WhatAboutToday?! I know how tough this stuff can be. Definitely seek help early and often where you can and know you're not alone!

Good luck on your presentation!

If the material is boring try and investigate the root causes for those feelings.
Could be for a lot of different reasons like the difficulty, vagueness of the material is a demotivator,
could be the classes are for a major that doesn't really match your interests,
etc... whatever they are I'm sure you may already know the answers

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2 hours ago, Avnat Netzer said:

Yeah me too I remember college being a pretty discouraging experience. I've been through it recently enough to remember enjoying some parts but really hating a lot of it.
It's different for everyone but I think one common theme is the amount of risk and pressure there is to succeed during our time in college.

Universities like to talk about how much learning and growing they provide for young adults which I guess is true but I also remember developing some of my most unhealthy habits during that time too.

Hang in there @WhatAboutToday?! I know how tough this stuff can be. Definitely seek help early and often where you can and know you're not alone!

Good luck on your presentation!

If the material is boring try and investigate the root causes for those feelings.
Could be for a lot of different reasons like the difficulty, vagueness of the material is a demotivator,
could be the classes are for a major that doesn't really match your interests,
etc... whatever they are I'm sure you may already know the answers

Thanks for the comment Avnat! I think I know the problem, it's mainly the approach the teacher is taking in this especific class, it really doesn't fit my learning preferences (in summary, too much theory, no practice).

And about bad habits developed during the time in university, I recall that I "lost" my interest in reading during my time there. I could say that it was related to gaming or some other stuff, but even when I was gaming hard I still had the hunger to read everyday. Don't know what happened, maybe the work overload, who knows. Today I'm still recovering the habit, but it certainly left a mark.

I passed by your journal earlier and was reading all the entries, I liked how you organize your thoughts. Good luck with the wedding! Gonna start following your journal for sure, success to all of us!

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7 hours ago, WhatAboutToday? said:

I liked how you organize your thoughts

Thanks man! yeah it's the format that works for me. It took a little time and me looking around at other formats before deciding it's the one that fits me... for now.
Everyone seems to do it differently and the one thing I like about mine is it highlights pretty clearly my day to day
And one thing it lacks probably is it's sparse and doesn't track my long term goals

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Day 7-8 - 10/12/2019 and 11/12/2019

Writing on 12/12/2019, such a shame! Well, two pretty normal days, let me try to remember what happened.

First day: Woke up early and went to college. Had only one class and things went pretty normal. After class I asked about all the documents and procedures I need to graduate (yay!). Turns out the process is pretty simple on my side and the complications may appear on behalf of the university, but it was good getting to know that anyway. After that went to work, which wasn't so productive. Don't know, I guess I'm feeling the pressure of the week, which is being pretty tough. I'm keeping my daily habits, making plans, but it is pretty hard when things that you would rather not be doing get in the way. I'm really looking forward for the holidays, they are going to be a good break from everything and I will try not to waste them. Stopping to really think about it, it's gonna be my first holidays gaming free. Wondering what I'm gonna do with the free time. For sure, I will be able to exercise, but all the other things that I wanna start doing like acting/singing classes will probably be available only in january. I Gotta start thinking in advance about the things I'm gonna do to fill my day (pick up the guitar again and the data science course, probably).

Second day: Study and prepare presentation all day, that sums up the day. It's incredible how much time it takes for me to prepare a presentation, and I got really tired from that.

One thing I worth mentioning that happened 09/12: Got in touch with the music school but they want to schedule a visit. Tried to get informations about the costs and plans but had no succes. That pissed me off a bit, sometimes you just wanna get some information before actually going physically to the place. That gets me wondering if this strategy of making the person go through a visit really brings them profit. Probably gonna schedule a visit in the next weeks, if possible. Still gotta find a place to take acting classes, though.

Current Streaks

No games - 174 days

No Porn/Masturbation - 13 days

Things that I should do every now and then

Body grooming - Last done 06/12/2019

Hair Care - Last done 09/12/2019

Clip nails - Last done 11/12/2019

Deep organize room - 

30 days challenge - Day XX

Thinking about a diet - Traveling on Friday. Actually it wouldn't be wise to start it right now.

One amazing thing that happened/I did today

Finishing the project. Now it's not in my hands anymore (not completely).

Exercise

Not today. Feeling a little bit of pain on the hip these days.

Social

Not many opportunities to be social.

Morning Routine

First 60 minutes with no Cellphone - Not really.

Physiotherapy - Done

Skin care routine - Done

Brush teeth and floss - done, but gotta buy some dental floss!

Make my bed - Done

Maybe I'm gonna integrate some meditation in the morning, but I don't wanna get overwhelmed with new habits in the beginning.

Evening Routine

Skin care routine - Done.

Physiotherapy - Done.

Brush teeth and floss - Brushed. BUY SOME FLOSS!!

Daily Habits Tracker

I'm going to start adding habits soon.

Reading

Not today.

First thing: Maybe I should choose a book that will get me hooked. In this pressure situations they are the only ones that make me read. Otherwise I don't do it. I've been reading a book on Buddhism, a subject that really interests me, but it's not the kind of book that gets me eating pages.

Getting to bed before 10pm

Not today.

Weekly Goal(s)

Get in contact with the music school I searched and find out plans/prices for singing lessons. Maybe guitar too - IN PROGRESS

Find a dentist and schedule it.

Buy Christmas Gift to SO - DONE!! Check if you are going to buy another thing

Cook meals for the week (Important! You are spending too much money eating!) - Postponed

Ask about the documents and procedure to graduate - DONE!!

Get the documents to graduate

Monthly Goal

Present the final project and graduate (Got a day, 19/12!)

Start the programming course.

3 Month Goal

Get back to running. The physiotherapy is really important, SET GOALS!

What went well today:

Got along really well with SO, I think the conversation had effect.

What I could have done to make my day better:

Less cellphone.

What I will do differently tomorrow:

Well, tomorrow is today, so what did I do differently?

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