Super Saiyan Journal

[SuperSaiyanGod]

Dude, carbs are the basic source of energy. Reducing them makes you dead.

I was just looking at this routine today. Maybe I could do the warmup and one of these pairs before becoming exhausted.

[WorkInProgress]

Well I never said eat no carbs . Even if it is possible to live good without carbs, because your body can use another energy cycle to use fat instead of sugar(ketosis), I love carbs way too much to try something crazy like a no carb diet. But It can be pretty beneficial to your energy level if you eat close to no sugar and over all less carbs. Here is a little(5min) Ted-ed video I like and which has some good informations about the problems too much carbs can have. Ofcourse every body has his own needs. But in my experience cutting sugar and eating more protein heavy meals in the morning instead of carb heavy ones gave me an energy boost. 

To the routine: the main thing is to find variants of the exercises which have the right difficulty(you should be able to do 5-8 repettitons and 3 sets). The pull-up push-up pair come in if you have reached a point at the other progressions(I started pullups a little early whcih isn't advised but seemed to work for me). If it is too muc for you just leave the handstand parts out and shorten the static training at the beginning a bit. Better leave some excercises out and do the rest regulary in my opinionh. With time things get easier your body adjusts and you can take on the rest if you wish to.

Atleast that is what I did and it works so far. Still too lazy(or too scared) for hand-stands. I did start at February 2016 and stayed pretty constant(had 4 weeks break in total) and progressed to 3*7 Diamond/wide-Pushups starting from 3*6 normal pushups. I did also go from 1 pull-up to 3*3 pullups. And I do 3*6 pistolsquats with a safety stool under my ass. I started with around 3*8 normal deep squats.

[SuperSaiyanGod]

Update. After the Thursday training, which didn't go well, I had a day of slacking off. Then on Saturday evening I went for a jog and it was the longest one I've ever had. I never thought, when I was in school and was always dead last at every race (basically walking 800 of the 1000 meters), that I could run for about 4 miles, 44 minutes, with only a very short stop for a quick stretch. Previously the farthest I've ran was 2 miles, and I only did that once or twice. This time, after the 2 miles, I thought "well, I still have a lot of power so I might as well try to run another mile. If I can't do it, I'll just stop and I'll know that I've given it my best". So I ran another mile. Then I thought: "I still have some power, so I might try another mile. I'll probably fail though, but it doesn't matter". So I ran another mile. That was actually when I felt best, I got this fuzzy feeling in my chest and my legs got really tired. I've discovered the thing to do is to never stop, because that's when the rush of heat and fatigue happens.

@WorkInProgress, I can't do a normal push-up. I'm doing the Convict Conditioning program and for push-ups I've started with vertical ones. That was actually the most I could do. I had amazing progress with squats, but not with anything else - too many breaks. I've now devised a perfect jogging+workout routine for myself, so I'm not even reading anything else on the topic. Once I lose weight, I bet everything's gonna kick off nicely. I'm not controlling my calories though, I just have to stop with junk food and then I'll keep increasing the cardio.

During today's workout I was just convincing myself to do one more set, one more rep, and trying no to think about what comes after that. I actually surprised myself with incline push-ups. In total 50 squats and 35 incline push-ups.

I'm still gaming, but, eh, it's not that bad now.

Edited August 29, 2016 by SuperSaiyanGod

[WorkInProgress]

hey gj on the miles! That is a nice accomplishment. You actually tempt me to go for a jog after work I heard good stuff about convict conditioning and it is always good to make your own Routine and just do it for some time. As always my advice is only advice. You do what is in your best interest and I am sure it will work out fine .

If normal push-ups are too hard for you an alternative to inclined pushups are push-ups on your knees(https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=LiKfLE2K_DI). I personall dislike inclinced puhs-ups a Little because the bend your wrists so much. For me this was always uncomfortable.

Edited August 30, 2016 by WorkInProgress

[Cam Adair]

Congrats on your run! That's awesome.

[SuperSaiyanGod]

I just got back from jogging and it was the exact same story as the previous one. The only difference was that I felt more tired/less motivated almost from the start, but I did the same thing as before: just tried to run a bit more, without thinking of what comes afterwards. My leg hurt a little uncomfortable around the ankle, hope that goes away.

Today I didn't even think once about porn. I was gaming though. I'm not feeling uncomfortable about that at all at the moment.

[Cam Adair]

Sometimes my motivation is good at the beginning of a run. Sometimes it's not. Just gotta keep running anyways.

[SuperSaiyanGod]

Yesterday I ran 4 miles, it's the same story as before. Today I did a workout for the core. Didn't like it. But I did five sets. All the time I was thinking: maybe I'll just go for a jog instead. But no, those exercises are really important, and I have to be consistent with my exercise routine. Can't wait for tomorrow evening when I'll be jogging again.

This journal is now almost exclusively about exercise - since I'm actively gaming now, and I don't feel like writing about porn. I really like writing here though. And it pumps me up when I read it later.

[Cam Adair]

Keep writing here, no matter what it's about!

[SuperSaiyanGod]

Today I ran 5 miles. I was a lot, A LOT easier than yesterday's 4 miles. I didn't have almost any trouble with the first 4 miles. Then I thought: I still have plenty of power for at least another mile. It got dark at the end so I just finished. Oh god, I'm so proud of myself. I've already exceeded my capabilities from before the training at least tenfold. This week I ran 17 miles. I wonder if I should make a rest day tomorrow, because that's what I've decided for it to be when I made my current routine - but on the other hand, I now regenerate almost instantly, and I can easily jog two days in a row (and work out when I'm not jogging). So yeah, I guess I'm gonna go for a run tomorrow as well. I might take a break next Sunday.

I want to see if I can increase my distance by a mile every week. That way I could try to run a marathon in January. (But more likely in May, since there's winter before that. I might try a stair run before that though).

When I run, I listen on a loop to a youtube video that has inspired me the most. This one.

I'm already thinking of routes I could run when I go back to the city. I'm also thinking about running to college, which is only 5 km, 3 miles away. That's gonna be so easy in a month. This would be even better that biking to there. Since a) there are no good biking paths going through the center of the city and b) I'm too scared to bike with the car traffic - I don't know any traffic regulations or anything like that. Oh my god, I'm so excited. That would actually be even quicker than going by tram, since I go 11 minutes per mile. So with 35 minutes it's usually less time than: walk to a tram stop, wait, wait, wait, stand in the tram for 20 to 25 minutes, get off, walk to the college. I'm also lucky I don't stink like an average male after exercising. This all actually relates perfectly to the thing I've learned from this video.

I hope this isn't just a "high" phase. I mean, it's not - I'm just jogging and not eating junk food; everything else is still the same.

Edited September 3, 2016 by SuperSaiyanGod

[Cam Adair]

I'm just jogging and not eating junk food; everything else is still the same.

Even these two small changes can have a big impact! 

[WorkInProgress]

Take the highs if they come! Good Job on Jogging so much. as I did jog everyday my one ankle and the other knee started too hurt. Thats when I started to do more bodyweight Training. If nothing keeps hurting and you have enouhg energy there is no reason why you shouldn't jog everyday. Be aware of any joint pains though, especially if they are permanent and not just right after the jog. If something like this occurs make a break or you will injure yourself.

[SuperSaiyanGod]

When I tried to run on Sunday, I found out that my knee hurts more than it should. I felt slight pain the previous two times when I was jogging, but it wasn't uncomfortable, I just thought this is normal. Now it's almost Friday and it still hurts, but only when I run.

I found something that I think is amazing and that I love doing. I don't need anyone or anything to keep doing it. I just hope this one stupid injury isn't gonna be the end of it. For now I'm resting, luckily I can still work out in other ways, but if it doesn't go away by the end of September I'm gonna have to go to a doctor.

In other news, today I decided to try and cut out gaming again. I deleted all of my games, and then suddenly I felt this kind of void and boredom. And then I got another game immediately.

Today I did 90 reps of leg raises (the easiest variation) and 2 minutes of planks. I didn't feel like doing backbridges today. I also stretched a lot.

[Cam Adair]

Happy to read your update.

[SuperSaiyanGod]

YES! I woke up at seven and got up! Now I just have to go to bed at 9 and it will be okay. Actually I wouldn't call anything that heppened this night sleeping - it was mostly six hours of almost falling asleep.

I feel great because I can now pick at which hour I want to go to the city. When you wake up at 3pm., you have to force yourself to get up quickly in order to catch a sensible bus. Basically anything you have to do during the day feels like a chore.

[Cam Adair]

Woot! Good job

[SuperSaiyanGod]

Fail with the sleeping, I got up at noon yesterday. Now it's 5:42 in the morning and I'm about to go to sleep.

I'm considering cutting back on gaming because I'm starting to think it's a necessary step in fighting my more serious addiction, which is porn. I am positive that games trigger me greatly. I also binge on them late into the night, which is probably a more dangerous time when it comes to triggers. But the last time I got rid of all my games I immediately felt terrified and quickly got even more games. So this time I'm gonna cut back gradually. First, I'll get rid of the most, how do I describe it, exciting, alluring game, the one on which I binge the most. I actually get so fast-paced with it, that it gets completely unenjoyable after a few hours. I'm gonna leave a game that definetly has less of these triggers, and is more slow-paced. And I'll try to play it less, maybe one or two hours a day, and I'll try to get into my english practice and reading. I'll see what happens after a week. If it's bearable, I'll get rid of that one as well.

[SuperSaiyanGod]

I just woke up at 3pm. The prospect of not playing that game for the whole day feels terrifying. Also reading and studying feels terrifying. After breakfast I'll just open the book and see what happens.

[Cam Adair]

You can do it. Hang in there. Breathe.

[SuperSaiyanGod]

I don't understand this. I've fallen asleep at 1am., even though it was only 10 hours after I woke up. And now I got up at 1pm. Actually I remember waking up at half past five but I decided that since I'm not going to sleep anymore anyway, I might as well lie in bed for another hour or two. And I fell asleep. No matter. Yesterday was okay on almost every front - I went to sleep early instead of sitting in front of the screen forever, I started a private journal where I write about emotions and porn triggers, and I read a little. I played a game for about two hours.

Actually this journal is the most important thing that happened yesterday. The plan is now to write there several times a day, about anything, but mostly abotu emotions and triggers. For example right now I'm terrified of another day without porn and without my most stimulating games - I'm afraid of this emptiness and boredom. Writing about this, especially right after every relapse, is currently way more important than actually keeping clean.

I've been now clean of junk-food for three weeks. This, I think, is the longest I've ever gone without it. Although self-made french fries probably count, but they're not as bad as potatoe chips. They actually count as a single meal, whereas my junk-food ritual is to buy six or seven packs  (and feel ashamed when I stand in front of the cashier, this is actually the worst thing), maybe one or two kilo of ice-cream, and eat nothing but that the entire day. Which practically means eating all the time. Now, since I've returned from the city to my parents' house three weeks ago, I've lost four or five kilograms. Even though I eat a huge breakfast and a huge bowl of spaghetti every day - but that's only two meals, and rarely is there anything more than that. Anyway, I have ten more days of living outside of the city, so it's a lot easier to eat healthy here. I hope my detox is well underway by the time I go back to the city.

[WorkInProgress]

Good job on journalling and fixing your eating habits. One step after another you'll feel better and will be able to do more.

[SuperSaiyanGod]

I just did 100 leg raises. Stinson out.

Edit: Oh god, my legs are tired. Now I feel like gaming, even though it's 23:51. Meh.

Edited September 15, 2016 by SuperSaiyanGod

[usernameforworldpeace!]

Leg raises! Nice!!!

 

Edited September 16, 2016 by usernameforworldpeace!
change of pic!

[SuperSaiyanGod]

Not that kind. Could you get that picture out of there?

Let's see. It's 8:40, I got up just a few minutes ago. This time I definetly didn't sleep too much, because I currently feel like going back to sleep immediately. I'm not gonna do it though. Yesterday I was gaming for about four hours, I'd like to cut back on that today.

[usernameforworldpeace!]

Not that kind. Could you get that picture out of there?

Let's see. It's 8:40, I got up just a few minutes ago. This time I definetly didn't sleep too much, because I currently feel like going back to sleep immediately. I'm not gonna do it though. Yesterday I was gaming for about four hours, I'd like to cut back on that today.

Ah, don't you like it?   No problem friend.  Hope the new one's better.  Good luck on your journey!

Edited September 16, 2016 by usernameforworldpeace!