The Story of Corvus Albus

[Corvus Albus]

You're doing great, Corvus. I'm about 30 days in and it feels like an eternity sometimes but it's all for the good. You'll have difficult times, pain, and stress, sure, but you'll face them because you won't escape into video games.

Sure, I do not want to espace into video games. I have to learn how to deal with life difficulties without them.

 

Day #11 - Dreams about gaming

I have a dream about relapsing last night. Horrible idea. Probably caused by my friends, I came to my friend's house and people were watching cinematic trailers of new video games. Horrible idea, however we watched only about 5-10 minutes of them. It did not triggered me. I treated it as movie trailers. Then we spend some good time on board games. I feel better after writing this here.

[Tom2]

Think about what you really want and hang in there!  

[Mettermrck]

I'm fortunate in that I don't have gamer friends tempting me. You're strong for resisting that.

[Corvus Albus]

Think about what you really want and hang in there!  

I want to be free just like the bird.

 

I'm fortunate in that I don't have gamer friends tempting me. You're strong for resisting that.

Easier for you to become game free.

 

Day #12 - Perseverance

I want to be more persevere. I have to. How otherwise I will be able to deal with this addiction? I have to. I have to face it, not escape it. So, perseverance is the key.

 

[Onlysoul]

Perseverance it's good but it's not enough. If you stay from games 90 days and you have not created the new lifestyle with new habits, attitude to life you will in the end gaming again! Be aware dude.

[Tom2]

Perseverance it's good but it's not enough. If you stay from games 90 days and you have not created the new lifestyle with new habits, attitude to life you will in the end gaming again! Be aware dude.

Exactly, yes.

[Corvus Albus]

Perseverance it's good but it's not enough. If you stay from games 90 days and you have not created the new lifestyle with new habits, attitude to life you will in the end gaming again! Be aware dude.

I will keep that in mind, pal.

 

Perseverance it's good but it's not enough. If you stay from games 90 days and you have not created the new lifestyle with new habits, attitude to life you will in the end gaming again! Be aware dude.

Exactly, yes.

Double agreement.

 

Day #13 - Nightcore

It looks like a trigger to me - listening to this whole nightcore music. It is sped up well-known songs which are really fast. They are giving me lots and lots of positive emotions during listening and somehow reminds me about gaming. How does it really work - I do not know.

[Mettermrck]

Like Onlysou says, it's not just an endurance contest. You want to have a vision for yourself, as Cam says, where you want to go. Think about new habits and projects to help you move beyond gaming.

Edited July 7, 2017 by Mettermrck

[Corvus Albus]

Like Onlysou says, it's not just an endurance contest. You want to have a vision for yourself, as Cam says, where you want to go. Think about new habits and projects to help you move beyond gaming.

I am thinking about going to dance classes. I always wanted to go and dance in the party, but was too shy for doing that.

 

#Day 14 - Dance Dance Revolution

I have to say it, I tried it out. Two songs, and I was diminished. I do not feel bad for that, I do not feel relapsed. It was during an event in my city. I want to learn dancing in a real way. And I am going to do so. Dance classes, here we go.

[Cam Adair]

I attended hip hop dance classes for many years. Very fun! Great way to meet new people. Highly recommended. 

[Mettermrck]

You tried something new, Corvus that's great! Just keep branching out!

Edited July 10, 2017 by Mettermrck

[Corvus Albus]

I attended hip hop dance classes for many years. Very fun! Great way to meet new people. Highly recommended. 

Good idea. I have to try hip hop out. Or any other dance style. Something in pairs is what interest me most.

 

You tried something jew, Corvus that's great! Just keep branching out!

That is right. I have to try as many activities as possible until I am young.

 

Day #15 - Easier said than done

I met a friend of mine accidentially. I did not even expected that. I am still surprised. We have been not seeing each other for years. This friend is not a gamer, and we lost contact before. My gaming issue is one of the reason. Probably. I want to stay in contact with my friend. She inspires me to life the live to the fullest. An example of being proactive person. It is easier said than done, because she is college student in different town. So, for the most time of the year, we have long road ahead to see each other.

[Mettermrck]

Well, that's fantastic, Corvus, meeting your friend like that! Yes, you should pursue more contact. Since I quit gaming, I've been in contact with tons of old friends and family. It's amazing how gaming can keep you isolated from the world!

[Corvus Albus]

Well, that's fantastic, Corvus, meeting your friend like that! Yes, you should pursue more contact. Since I quit gaming, I've been in contact with tons of old friends and family. It's amazing how gaming can keep you isolated from the world!

True, I did some contacts refreshments today. I do not want to be isolated anymore.

 

Day #16 - Friend Is Gone

I have been rejected multiple times today. I felt really good until that rejection I get from people I trusted. I got rejected from my mentor, couple of friends. I tried to be a proactive person and make a meeting with them. Even my grandmother did not have time to talk to me.

Friend from yesterday screwed me too. I feel lost and lonely again. I am just like White Raven. No one really wants to at least spend time with me.

Although I was very productive today I feel emptiness and void.

[Mettermrck]

I'm sorry you got rejected. You should be proud of yourself for trying. Just don't give up. That's the right path.

[Tom2]

It'll be alright soon... People sometimes make excuses, I also does it. If you want to meet someone in person, try someone else that you don't know. I also had the period that everybody was busy doing their jobs, so I tried to reach someone that I don't know. The result was quite good. When I get bored while I'm studying, I always wanted to talk to my friends but it wasn't always successful. However, I talk to other people that have similar interests these days, when my friends are busy, even if it is via online method. And it's not so bad. Try to expand your social circle. It could be a solution. If you have some specific goals, such as academic or work out goals, (something that's not related to gaming) you can find like-minded people so easily thourgh the internet.

I hope my reply helps! And keep it up.

[Corvus Albus]

I'm sorry you got rejected. You should be proud of yourself for trying. Just don't give up. That's the right path.

I will not give up. Rejection does not scare me.

It'll be alright soon... People sometimes make excuses, I also does it. If you want to meet someone in person, try someone else that you don't know. I also had the period that everybody was busy doing their jobs, so I tried to reach someone that I don't know. The result was quite good. When I get bored while I'm studying, I always wanted to talk to my friends but it wasn't always successful. However, I talk to other people that have similar interests these days, when my friends are busy, even if it is via online method. And it's not so bad. Try to expand your social circle. It could be a solution. If you have some specific goals, such as academic or work out goals, (something that's not related to gaming) you can find like-minded people so easily thourgh the internet.

I hope my reply helps! And keep it up.

I do not like excuses. I have to face them, though. Expanding social circle might help. Thanks for advice.

 

Day #17 - Hiking

I have a day free to spend on hiking. I really like this activity. There is a lot to explore, a lot to see and many places to visit. I think I will do it more consistently. So many places to visit, even around my neighbourhood. I was inside my house so long that I did not seem them.

[Mettermrck]

That's a long term goal for me, I think, as I walk more and lose weight. I'd like to take up hiking and see some beautiful places.

[Corvus Albus]

That's a long term goal for me, I think, as I walk more and lose weight. I'd like to take up hiking and see some beautiful places.

We have more and more in common, Bob.

 

Day #18 - At Least 1 Friend

I realized today that I still have one best friend. We know each other for years and we have so many things in common. For me this is something I did not realized before. That is a lot, I should be grateful for that. One friend is enough especially if it is a really best friend. I should see more things. Things to be gratitude for.

[Mettermrck]

Yes I love reestablishing contact with old friends. Having friends in my life just makes things easier.

[LeszekBOY]

Good job Corvus, take care and keep moving forward;)

Dobra robota, trzymaj się tam

[Corvus Albus]

Yes I love reestablishing contact with old friends. Having friends in my life just makes things easier.

Sure, sometimes you can tell them about how you feel. This gives a lot of reassurance.

 

Good job Corvus, take care and keep moving forward;)

Dobra robota, trzymaj się tam

I am trying to do my best here. I appreciate your encouragement.

 

Day #19 - Morning routine

It is time to start a new morning routine. I made my own to feel more present during the morning. First I make my bed. Then I drink some water. Next, I have a shower and then I eat good breakfast. Then I am ready to go. What can I add to make my routine better?

[Tom2]

Start a thing that you planned to do, right away. Without hesitation or wasting time surfing the internet. This is critical for me to make a good start in the morning.

[Mettermrck]

That sounds like a good morning routine. Maybe some form of exercise or meditation?

[Corvus Albus]

Start a thing that you planned to do, right away. Without hesitation or wasting time surfing the internet. This is critical for me to make a good start in the morning.

Speed of implementation, as I heard. Good to know. I have to implement it

 

That sounds like a good morning routine. Maybe some form of exercise or meditation?

How about some writing about my dreams from previous night? Or taking dog for a walk?

 

Day #20 - Friends again

I spent some time today with friends I did not have time before because of gaming. That is awesome. We spent couple of hours talking about what happened last couple of months. They have a lot to talk about. Unfortunately, I was only a good listener. I cannot say them, that I played video games for last years. I cannot make myself a self-pitying victim. This is not me anymore.