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SirDylanRice
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Hello all readers,I'm Dylan Rice,am no writer so bear with me:) This journal is mainly about feelings so here they come!

 Its day 7 for me i join game quitters on the 11th and been procrastinating which makes me unhappy but defiantly living and loving with 7 hugs a day to strangers we come from tribes so i learned from this AMAZING lady we need 7 hugs a day the brain will love you for it. I been adventuring and spending a lot of time with good people who are living there life to the fullest and am so grateful for these influences. I feel happy that I came Across Cam and this community becasue my gaming addiction is scary I've let it go on to long. I have a lot i want to do and excited to get back on track to a fulfilled lifestyle. I FEEL happy to be apart of this family..I know this will be it "the break-through" Ive been searching for the MAP for success is in front of me and all that awaits is the call for action.I feel HAPPY:) I can be a  procrastinator so i am aware of the need of a accountability partner becasue i understand the power in that! My Main thing is commitment and consistency.

Goals for the next 83 days

-Job-in sales or grow with my brother;) (Sales encourages you to be the best you and you LEARN SO MUCH!!!

-Move-out (independence) (freedom taking 100% responsibility for yourself create your own world(choose your influences)

-Health (Exercise& nutrition) (hmmm..running..yoga..or lifting weights) I want to radiate health!

-School (Sign up for August) (Yoga class,peace psychology, jazz dance class)

-Travel (Egypt,Italy,India)

-A CONSISTENT MORNING routine(S.A.V.E.R.S)

it just hit me i have a lot of wants and I have some decisions to make and commitments to start!

My instinct tell me to continue CAM Modules! I look forward to updating these post with the MASSIVE ACTION i take and the direction OUR coach Cam Points me in! I have faith and overall happy.

 

 

 

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DAY 12

Hello fam I just got back yesterday night from a Huge FESTIVAL "Emissions" it was full of goof intentions and the vibes that were healing,fun and over all about living life to the fullest people were radiating am alive, i found a yoga instructor there and got connected with her. I AM THE CREATOR OF MY LIFE, i read this in a friends journal which was shared with me. will be moving out in 2-3 weeks got a place with my friend just need to get income going with a few ways but mainly hard-work. I'm very happy about the travel experience, i an see theirs an art to living life. Lets keep up the hard work fam, will be focusing on job- and morning:)

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Day 42

Hay Family things are going really really well day 42(YAH IM SO PROUD) i just read "the con pound effect"and  "go-Giver" so no games and been pushing to have many wonderful; experiences and grateful for all the wonderful souls am meeting on my journey the connection is so real and the friends Ive created and healthy relationships Ive wanted are here which i never imagined, Ive realized how much i have to give to the world and i do feel and awakening,Its thx to my inspiring friends David,Nadia,Cruez, and Amanda I'm happy to say i trust them SO MUCH and cane myself and i feel so courageous around them we love to dance and when we go anywhere we addd SO MUCH energy to any event,  I'm learning to how to do positive activities at the right time am on page 40 of the packet and learning to be more proactive, Ive started acro yoga which is 1 or 2 times  a week i've been reading and consistently,traveling,adventuring and doing my savers consistently, i live at our squad house with a group of friends seeking new experiences and saving up to be independent, my car just broke down and will be selling it since the engine died,since this i got a bike. I love how everyone different and learning to set boundaries hold people accountable and learning to dissociate with people and influence the influences around me and i realized i am SO fortunate to have this community you all inspire me and I appreciate that, i work at my bros property which is cool we do a lot of stuff with. I been having a lot of fun going to event giving FREE HUGS to the world and just giving what i can, that being compliments, a huge that feels like forever or doing things like helping out any way i can giving gifts or spending quality time with the friends, So back to my first post and my Properties---JOB Today i printed out resumes to find a legit sales job looked into build.com sunpower and got a  typing program to improve my skills for build.com

JOB-i been working for my bro which is 100$ a day that cool 8-12 hours of work i work my best and i really appreciate he feeds me. HARD ASS WORK I TELL YOU but you feel SO GOOD, Hard Labor work and managing plants, if you only new;)

INDEPENDENCE- So in a way i did Move out i have not been home at all so no internet.

HEALTH- I been mediating more my mental health is great and emotional health its getting better and better everyday i do get a little anxious about the future, been biking riding to one mile working to get a PC, so i can start my side business sorta am in a way LOL but cant talk about it not really a side business. I have BIG plans and being the connector us my plan. Being going out tot dance alot which is <3 <3 <3 ive found my flow you can see who the courageous souls are, something about free huges has help me connect with man MANY people.

OVERALL i do plan to be big here in Chico, reading a workout book now BIGGER LEANER STRONGER to get healthier everyday and grow the confidence and self-esteem.

I need help figuring out a time to do cams packet more consistent but overall im growing everyday towards being my best Verizon;) of myself,

I do want structure in my life and more consistency with my meals and a solid home, Im working towards all that and making better life descions and am so greatful for my freinds at the same time i will take any constructive criticism for you all to grow.

Being aware of what were influencing ourselves with has really been on my mind.

OFF TO TAKE MORE masssive action: trap life + being a positive person in the world

 

 

 

 

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I lapse into games day 66 came back from festie super stressed about life, About it all, where am living no job all my focus is on the concern and not what action to be taking and freeze myself into doing nothing i think and looking for pleasure, really working on a routine to wake up to, i Realy need a job to fill in the time,and in general!  My craving for games are really insane, I think i lapse to avoid all the things i need to face in life and my friend group has crumble like myself, My self hate has grown a bit. I need to remember massive action so time to head out, going on a bike ride and offf to behavioral health. LOL  its day 68 deleted the games half way through yesterday today game free and moving forward! laters:) I failed to doing anything on my list for when am faced with he triggers of my gaming cravings ive been feeling alot of stress and am not enough kinda feeling but am working on all that.I think stress is killing me

 

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Thank you Old timer am continuing the models and on finished 5(to thing i quit for 66 days just of the 4 modules :))))). I just need to go get a consistent job i think maybe my lifes so scattered and free and well see how this agenda thing goes, i like it already and AM really glad am continuing the program. working on my Routine now, Pushing forward strong choosing to get a consistent job so i can own my own place and have a healthy environment. Things seem really clear now and working on positive expectations. Good things are coming really appreciating this program, off to make some progress!!

I will be getting up at 5 everyday and in bed by 9

will be training for the new years eve marathon December 31 witch is in 162 days my training IS ONLY 156 days to prep for it( using The Non runners marathon running guide)

So these are my focusing action everyday will be decided mainly off these

1)JOB

2)HOME

3)MARATHON

4) morning and nighttime sleeping habit/Healthy Routine( AND CONSISTENT) and COMMITED will be sitting down tonight to create the WHY POWER FUEL for these adn affirmations to help me create this morning routine. Thats my focus got an accountability partner doing the Miracle morning with me. BABY steps forward hell yah:)

 

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Thanks guys,i lapsed hard was going to move in with my buddy but my car broke down and stressed really really hard and caved into games, i abandoned everything. i been asking myself why i consistently sabotage myself, ive lapsed so many times ive lost count. Im far from hopeless in my mind, this environment makes me want to escape into games..I am in a very messy disorganized stressful house if i make it, its hard to see it as anything else,SO ive contiually quited never persisted.So ill keep that in mind back tot eh 90day detox will read the content really shoulda had my hobbies down and time management. so DAY 2 i know i can finish the detox again, i feeel so ALIEN ive been gaming for what... 2 mounths nonstop from when i wake up to when i go to bed skipping some alo of meals, all games off pc downloading some dj stuff has been helping. MUSIC i love dancing, not sure how to reapir all the damage i casued DAY 2 of DETOX will slowoly figure this out and take action. I need to get out im just excited,another way to frame nervousness. I think the best think i can do is watch cams videos and take action and have a plan later Fam 

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Mate, I would start by sorting out your living situation. Moving or not, you can't live in a place where you feel disorganized or chaos, because it won't let you think straight. It will also double as something to do while you're going through the detox, getting your house in order. You don't need to do it all at once, chip at it a little each day, and eventually you will feel more relaxed or comfortable with your living arrangements, which will make you feel far more relaxed and free to focus on personal development.

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Thank you,first of for taking the time to read, i just realized i founds a place i can trust...i thought i just about had noone...im tearig up..144 hours of gaming in 2 weeks i remember seeing that on steam the other day and thought wow thats its like to game all day long everday....so thanks for the structured advice am seeking that most right now, i agree 1000% i use games to check out hard man...since that last post ive been gamming and sleeping everday....its crazy i manifested 2 computers and am giving 1 away tomarrow and...just reformated..i see savingmyself from games as all this time am gaining back that i can give create and get my desires , the time i will get back will be 1000X better than any hour in that world that wont mean anyhting 1 year 2 years from now . My big bro came by today, put me in one hell of a state to see success then i put on music and beeen think..ill have work, my bro helped me get some work ill be busy, ill figure something out i think i got a plan. baby steps but addresing this and watching cams videos with all this time and create a life worth living for fucks sakkkkkkkk!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!I AM ALIVE!!! SO DAY 1 games plan watch his videos printes out all the chapters have a binder prepead sleeping scedual checked Im so donw with thi shit hahahahahha seriosuly ive lost count of relapses...i will stay commited to this i trust AND BELIEVE int eh good things that are comming with all my heart. we humans feeel so much!! we are badasses

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Detox Day #2 My friend picked me up we spent the day with her kids its crazy when i last quit games during those 3 months sober i made so many connections and my growth was crazy on a socaial intutuion level and made tons of friends,people are understanding and love am taking action and i do doo, it feels good to get out and be alive,So the baby brother, his dad no shes 26 and hers brothers 3 yeas old lol  shes my ex from highschool and were best friends always have been. It was nixe shes been involving herself with great people from a openminded church who have non Christians go, it seems like its more about the knowledge that shared, while i was MIA with games she opened a businesses and is going hard, i told her too she extradionary women and one you will never forget, all freinds know shes a BADASS:) and shes making bank $$$ her own boss and hours shes truly a wonderful person  accomplishing what she sets out to do its insipiring and shes so upbeat thank forever my dear friend in my time of need.She always trying to hangout we have fun and talk for days. I have a social gathering to go too 1 or twice week its great people in my community got a trim job i know like many growers, can make 200-500 a day so ill do that get my place then HUSTLE get a job focus on me me me me me me me me less on others like seriously me me me me myself and I and work on my greatness, ill get going to this thing called i forgot but i guess people from all over to it and it happens 3 times a year hosted  by the BOSS ass church and its about finding your purpose, and am also reading technically day Detox day 3#  ill post more about the event and see how that goes, was suppose to be picked up to work was planning to put in at aleast 8 hours but got home late, i woke up 1/30 hours early and it just want enough time. i pay close attention to my thoughts, trying to stop choosing to feeel guilty and a victims mindset myself and forgive forgive and love, if you stay at my house you might just understand. I NEED TO LEAVE THIS HOUSEHOLD i will work my ass off to do this to get somewhere safe, i will never go back to mys sister EVER,EVER i dont feel safe there truthfully even if she has the best intentions her approach and my step bro is guilt they made me feel so guilty and hate myself more and more and more i wanted to hang myself  and and was did actually. I wanted her to know i lost all hope in her and myself but i called my girl friend at the time who i learned self love with and so much growth. So my sister will never be an option i love her and greatful they want to help-out but with no map for success, and my bro my intuition i put 1000% faith into. The choose that suits me doing my best and DRIVE forward to success with people i trust. I will grow my trust in myself and circle. I feel bad am was late for someone who was picking me up and he was the boss..ill get a phone today,fix that PC for my friend, i want to be so hard on myself for being late when i woke up 1 hour and 30 minutes, fucken girls getting ready. i dont want tto make an excuse so whats the best approach for taking responsibility i want to fucken work i planned to bust ass on operations and make an impression like i always do on a team. it hurts sucks but aww it was my choice to go up so the risk in that and my friends word, Time to connect with everyone today go to behavioral health find someone i can talk to a and trust who has empathy, someone understanding and has real solutions for success. Im happy progress im off to run. my moms hit a phase in her life and low energy ive never seen her this sad  shes getting i partly blame myself, i will work for myself, i also look forward to running this marathon ive said im going to run 5 times. am start with baby steeps race and create momentum. Ill have one up in the nest week. like a 5k you know. I ran yesterday and was in love =D i enjoy my running a lot especially trail running i did with david, Those are some of my best memories is with this friend i plan to reconnect with him soon, it begins with a letter today.I have to few to do, im glad i games till it was unbearable painful and boring...The pain of games and the pleasure of life off games. THIS IS IT..Awesome so things to check on

-Letters to(Nadi)/David/J-Boss/Cruez/Larua (People i would to write to)

-fixed 2 pcs one for bro and Cynthia (reformat)

-Phone

-Spent 2 hours with cam.

-Wednesday at 7 Cynthia.

-behavior health

I feel great no cravings staying busy reconnecting circles i weaved before this lapse I WILL NOT LET THE EMPIRE FALL may it last 10,000 years =D Lets all have a great day.This was nice..mmm have a good one brothers!

 

 

 

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Day 4 Detox, so i realized i do feel somewhat alien and when i went around town all day yesterday i had a few acward talks my social calibration readjusting, I was talking to everyone so thats a good sign:) i know getting my planner going is huge i jut got 2 jobs, one tree cutting for the city and trimming, so im set i will save up for a car and a place, the car i will save 2500 for and a place i will put 2000 for. Gary Vee is fucken cool man i love watching his youtube videos. hes inspiring and fuels my courage. forgot to end my post lol 8 hours later home from work things are Fucken great lol, being patient and working hard!

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So i had some friends come over it seems during the last detox i made such on impact on many people, worrying them and truth be told im so fucken loved by these people. i LOVE YOU CYNTHIA,DAVID,NADI,NAMOI,ETC LOL SO MANY PEOPLE IAN MOM,DAD,BROTHER,HELEN,SISTER,TAJA,MS MACFERRY,IRVIN,J,HOPE,MICHEL,RACHEL,AMANDA,AMANDA,AMADY,PEX JUST SO MANY PEOPLE SEND LOVE YOUR WAY:)

SEND SOMEONE LOVE DAY=<3

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Day 5 Detox

 Hello fam going to this church event thing here soon, i going for the learning my friends said its not like church so am about to find out, Been out of the house since 9 doing my todo list adn got home at 3 got so much done, signed up for the gym starting tomorrow morning BIGGER LEANER STRONGER and the 1 year workout plan so woop woop tiem to fix my shoulder that needs lifting no joke, am boosted because i know i feel invincible when i really get into it, BRO i have so much why power for the gym that am so not worried about the commitment. i been slacking to watch cams videos, am on the planner part and got it going so time to move forward, i need to addd so me why power into that some purpose, the pain i let games cause me. I want to learn how to live a healthy successful life loving myself going around Shining and doing seminars, they got a dream team at this church thats really involved with the community i guess so ill update you guys on that also they theyllo have people who can help guide me. Friends came by all is gravy x10 + grand cardon lol talk to boss he has a car i will trim for it, then i will save up for a place, next after all that, build.com(was sent an email a month ago) and school. Im looking forward to healing my body and giving women the man she wants and needs you feel me if you dont google empathy:)))))look up a shame researcher Brené Brown and learn to connect :) I cherish women. back to games i think i can be very obsessive, i might not be an addict just lost on purpose with meaning a huge empty void/instant gratification lack of discipline all sorts of fun stuff to look into and work on so am boosted. Im slowly filling it in being patient but taking action. today alot got done my social calibration needs a little work which will be easy really, life is easy,doing is the direction and setting my self up for success i choose to say these all day long in my head, like affirmations its badass really:) I headed to cams videos Been procastrating to long, plus when i watch them good things happen lol. time to make good choices Later guys may the  force be with you:) starting the gym tomarrow. 

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Boy, if you talk the way you write it must be crazy to be around you! Your enthusiasm is contagious! Just... give me a bit of time to process in my head everything you've been talking about :P

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DETOX DAY 6 YEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE BUDDDDDDDDDDY

I totally thought i wrote in this, just got back from dancing i let my inner child free and danced my heart out that shits healing plus pussy loves fun.I happily road my bike through the rain across town to dance for an hour=D got up at 4 today feeling boosted technically 3;30 kinda mediated more like zoned out for an hour and then road my bike to the gym was raining and appreciated the hell out of it by slide around corners on my bike. It was just beautiful i couldn't imagine how someone could make an excuse to not go in the rain. LISTEN UP so talking to badass teacher/ trimmer she goes all over and my trim bosses MOM she told my the secret to counter someone negative bullshit energy like blameing/complaining just low vibes that kill you use gratitude when you identify it as gratitude it will kill the negativey i been doing it to my mom and bro today and i stay upbeat its a win win=DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD. Im getting up in 6 hours and my body needs rest after todays workout bigger leaner stronger 1 year plan.  tomorrows going to be epic

Gratitude 5 things i appreciate( I will start doing this everyday)

1.) All the friends that care about me and i know.

2.)Brother supporting me like a dad thought.

3.)D***N the boss he will be my grow teacher.

4)Cruez for tracking me down tonight to be my friend again LOL

5)NamNam for here thoughtfulness, her love with me, and being open and so understanding. Shes 46 really involved in our community and im going to fuck her:) shes going to help me find voulteer work and am sure ill see her in an orgy LOL.( ill let you think am joking) she always opening my mind and we laugh FOR DAYS and i can be crazy around her i love it,i cant wait meet her new man i beat he want to watch:)

Goodnight fam sweet dreams thanks for forums!!!

up at 4 seems like minds good, i doing no fap all the time helps me, my dick feels a little broken from all the masturbation and crazy porn so i can tell my bodies readjusting you know but  after a month or so i be back focusing on some tail. I LOVE MILFS goodnight!

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Boy, if you talk the way you write it must be crazy to be around you! Your enthusiasm is contagious! Just... give me a bit of time to process in my head everything you've been talking about :P

i feeel you man cool of you to take the time to check out my story, i will check you out first thing tomarrow boss:) we alive so we have alot to be grateful for=D

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Will be going to church even thought I am who i am LOL:) Had an wpic day learned alot throught there packet. great day planned from the moment i woke up. I figure ill drop my beliefs for a year and do some Christianity and see how it goes, Fuck it:) its time for change 

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Today was epic, The day i give myself to god and believe in jesus, radical change man, Ill give this a shot, i do believe i watch so much healing today it was beautiful:) I am now aprt of the dream team so thats cool i will be Voulteering, soon to be a leader. within 3 months. GREAT FUCKEnDAYmeet lots of friends and looking in identity. i feel like a million bucks night homies.

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DETOX DAY (20)Hay fam things are great i write in a actually journal now, watching cams videos now comming back to take it all in, been doing my SAVERS everday, Mediation, affirmation, visualization,reading ,excersie, and journal ling, things are great, working, days off figuring all this stuff out, Focusing on my human needs not wants, been listening to audio books while trimming, tony robbins,million mind,7 habits, learning growing might be getting job with a despencery and help them thrive maybe not and work for build.com i know i want to do sales and i love marijuana. maybe the idea of making money of it. Reading fiance book really opened my mind and perspective on cash and how its made.

So i am commited to me morning habit routine owning each day, learning my life been based of pleasure/friends.. i might just walk away its grown time and its about what we need, so really making sure my relationships are healthy, my main guy i walk from, my self esteem up and am laying bondries. things are great really. looking forward to each day thats forsure:)

It feel like so much has happned...i been busy lifes good jsut look to see the detox day. Man I can do alot of shit.wow lol been reading rythem of life its a great book guiding you through our human needs, i think church is not for me. feeling guilty ashamed or even shamed is not my moto. Yah FUCK THAT. they people are wonderful tho=D later fam fam bam bam ! Im on No/FAP only done it once in the last 20 days,ummm I could BAM BAM the fuck out of a women right now, am focused on milfs going for this 46 year old and this other i dont know but she can get it too lol.Milfs are best they are filed with so much joy and appreciation, plus i like a good talk, well see how those go will be going back to rsdmax the natural and relearn some shit. I will finsih it i mean i paid a 1000 for it. it taught me alot and was baggin this 32 year old and had a beautiful relationship.I mean it, was learning about self love at the time, we both opened up in ways weve never felt, made love everywhere. a girl you can make laugh all the time or wet in a flash. I love connecting and understanding people. i think i have a good emotional intelligence. Im ready to build myself from surviving and focus on thriving abundance. I plan to move to Tijuana within 2 years.Its probably best i do sales.

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