Exam final date this Friday. Oh boy! It was scary to be surrounded by soldiers while making the application, but I did it. I swear one of them could have appeared in old yugoslavian wars news reports. Still fine, it wasn't a sarcasm. About last weekend. On Friday I went with my boyfriend to an Ara Malikian performance (concert is a way too tame word to describe it, seriously). It was my suggestion and the experience was absolutely awesome. Then on Saturday he delivered his birthday present, a visit to an arabian-style public bath complex. Caliphate approved for halal enjoyment, I tell you. Praise iberian multiculturalism. I feel extra "proud" for showing the rest of the people that two men together can be near pools and saunas without things turning stereotypically debauched. My, stop the presses, we can be "normal" too if we try! That, was a bit of a sarcasm. Sorry. I'm just getting tired of the stares and mysterious sudden coughing that follows us every time we get minimally lovey. But this particular time there was not a single incident, probably because it was like 90% couples and everyone was busy doting their own partners. I'm happy in any case. And speaking about blissful happiness... No, nothing, I think @giblets mentioned something about it already. There's been a lot of political turmoil in my country and of course I'm furious, both because my vocation and spanish natural tendency to take politics personally. It's affecting my daily life, been hard(er) to stay focused lately. In times like this I thank being the only active spaniard in the forums, if an argument broke up I'm certain we wouldn't be able to keep rule #1. I politely request to not be asked about the topic (even though most of you don't know what the hell I'm talking about or just learned about it recently). About my own feelings, I feel powerless. I feel there should be something I could do, and have the power to enforce it. But, it's not to be. Not yet, I guess. I'll have to remember how much I don't want to feel like this again when pursuing my goals.
[Side note, I wasted today like an idiot and I just wanted to take it out from my chest. I'll probably do a lot of push-ups to exhaust myself, like... five or so. Ah, weekend was great, the post about it got erased in the middle of writing. But I'll come back to it later.]
That's not the iberian way my man. Anyway, since that leaves me with the option of choosing the time, I think chilling during the afternoon/evening of the 29 should be most pleasing. That means coffee/tea time at anglo-saxon standard dinner time (round 6 pm). You're under our time jurisdiction now, mwahaha. Is this fine for you, would you like a more action packed plan, another day and/or time? Your schedule, I can adapt. I guess @Vlad has his own opinion but he seems to be MIA.
@Remigjus I use Stayfocusd. Right now I can't tell you the whole list but I remember I blacklisted Facebook, Twitter, YT, Reddit, this forum and NoFap (I use them freely on the phone for both procrastination and PMO quitting reasons), humor and meme websites in general (when I find myself wasting time somewhere I just add it to the list) WhatsApp Web, all video formats I come across like Vimeo, Blogspot, TVTropes, Wikipedia, mail (Google and Outlook) and the Google domain (to avoid wasting time searching and looking results for useless stuff). If there's something useful inside a domain (like Google docs for example), you can whitelist it aside so no problem. You can also blacklist a keyword in a URL like *podcast or *content. I have assigned one hour for all the blocked stuff. This way, when I enter somewhere I REALLY need (like checking mail or watch a specific video) I go super focused and straight to the point, I may need the time later. You can always cheat, but you know, the point is that you don't. Take it as a challenge, that helps me.
Hi, @Baseball, take care out there. Your question is far too broad. Rather than thinking "I don't want to be shy", why don't you narrow it down? What do you want specifically? Know more stuff for small talk? Make more friends? Be socially competent in parties, or in general? Flirt with girls? Once you have your specific goal you can begin your search for the resources and tactics you could be interested in. General advice you can take is, get used to say YES and go to whatever plan comes up from now on (use common sense), listen a lot to know what interest people as a whole and be at least mildly informed about it, and (sorry to say) get also used to many tries and some screw-ups. You're in high-school, don't sweat it. If you feel safer, you can also hang around in this forum, talk with people here and get more used to social interaction as a first step. Opening a journal to vent, chill or lay out plans and goals is also encouraged.
I'm tempted to say "Why do it if not for the reward?" but I'm wrong and always been. I've been trying to play life "to win" but there's nothing to win in the end, at least not in the way I'm used to see it. Stuff now. Thoughts later!
B-Buh politics is fun ;-; This is what I mean when I talk about career discrimination. So sad. @FreetheG I keep liking your journals because of the format. Making gratitude an habit can do amazing things. One day at a time, you're absolutely right about that. Keep going!
All actors are broke, you go and do it You speak wisdom sir. That was an amazing read. Don't go too hard on yourself with the comparisons. People who start better off are expected to do more. And there's also passion involved, you may be smart, driven, rich, and your greatest ambition be selling T-shirts in the beach while sunbathing all day long. And who could say that's a waste of your life if you were happy? You set a goal for yourself and do that, and let the NASA guy and the artist do their gigs. Mindsets are things to look up to, learn from and imitate. Circumstances? Nah. Same goes with your parents, I also suffered a heavy case of "Sudden life inspiration expectations", my mother would be willing to pay for studies and hobbies (for the most part) yet never gently encourage me (the opposite, actually). It sucks but... It passed. Same as games. It passed. We are here now, what is the next step working with what we do have?