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Remaining Days: 45 days (June 27, 2020 - Saturday) [Late Entry]
Quick Fact About Me:
I don't go out with an uncleaned car. If I do, it's most likely because I was busy playing video games. For me, it's kind of embarrassing to go out with a dirty car. I mean, I only go out very rarely so that's why I want to make it presentable. Since most of the days I stay at home, well, no car wash then. 😅 Going to the car wash services is the least option. I prefer to wash it myself. I learned to take care of the car from my father. His car is 12 years old but looks like it just been bought yesterday—no kidding.Feels Today:
- Too bad, I wasn't able to write last night because I need to wake up early today. I stayed up until 1:00 AM.
- Supposedly, we should had a booking yesterday—one room only. It was a guest who inquired a month ago, then 2 weeks ago, then yesterday. But since I am going out today, and nobody will be staying here, I didn't accept the booking. If I didn't have any commitment today, I would easily accept that booking. It's an ez $29. 🤑
- Jeez. I can't remember my feels yesterday. That's why I don't want to write late entries.
- Oh yeah. My father likes to earn money—regardless of the situation, in general. Somehow, I think that I'm more inclined to the business strategy; while him, he just like to fire bullets. 😅 Sometimes, my father is hard to understand. But, I'm trying my best because I want to be like him—family oriented, strong-willed, and a great father and husband to my mom.
Daily Quest:
- Okay, it's hard to write yesterday's daily quest. 😅
- Tomorrow (which is basically today lmao), I'll meet with my girlfriend to have breakfast! I miss her so much! Losing my license (I lost my wallet) during quarantine with no income and no public transport is very unfortunate. 😅
- Tomorrow, we'll buy some groceries after eating. Hope we don't get infected. My mom will reimburse the groceries since it's for them—I don't want my parents to go out because of the virus since my mom is already senior and my dad is 56 yrs. old. I heard it can easily infect young and old people. I'll buy some for myself so that I would have something to cook for breakfast for the next week or two.
- Tomorrow, I'll buy a laptop for my aunt. She gave me $500 for the laptop. Hmm. Probably, I could buy an i3 with 4GB (hopefully 8GB) RAM with that. It's just for basic use. 😅 It's really hard to explain technical stuff to people who don't want to understand it.
- I'll buy also a new wallet and will try go to the repair shop shop to fix my watch—if it's affordable. I only have limited budget because we only had one event this month and still no booking for next month.
- Tomorrow, I shall continue reading the stock trading book—Market Wizards.
- Before sleeping, I washed the car. I started at 11:30 PM and finished around 12:15 AM. Haha!
Quest Log:
- ✔️ I had a haircut.
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✔️ I fixed the house keys, it's duplicate, my set of keys that I bring always, and my family's copy of the keys (the master key).
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✔️ After dinner, I printed the instruction stickers for the heater; finally, I did this . It's been months since my mom told me to do that but I wasn't able to do before because I just play.
- ❌ I wasn't able to read Market Wizards yesterday and the other day (Friday).
Incomplete Quest:make images for the vlog (area of square), update google drive
How Can I Be Better?:
Again, and again, and again, and again... Don't get distracted easily.
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Good morning! Have a nice day! 😄
Taking it easy,
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Remaining Days: 46 days (June 26, 2020 - Friday)
Quick Fact About Me:
My favorite fruits are corn, grapes, chico (sapodilla), marang, and green mango with shrimp paste! I would only say "no" to these things when I'm full. 😂Feels Today:
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Today, I felt busy. I don't know why.
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I thought about DotA 2. 😂 I remembered it for a moment, smiled, then move on. I don't want to entertain gaming thoughts right now. I'll deal with it after the detox. 😅
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Out of curiosity, I watched a clip of my old schoolmate's twitch stream. I was surprised she was streaming. Jeez, still about gaming. Haha. How can I move on if these things keep coming?
Daily Quest:
- Today, I tried to fix our old laptops. The first one was our first laptop ever. It's where I had a chance to play Warcraft III: Frozen Throne, DotA, Battle Realms: Winter of the Wolf, Sims and Runescape. It's still working but the LCD screen is quite damaged. The second laptop was my mom's office laptop. It wasn't working at first, so I tried to open it up. I don't know, I just wanted to look inside. After removing the cover of power button, it now starts. It means that the power button is having a hard time to make contact with the switch. The third laptop, which is a netbook, is running as well; but, the keyboard is not working. Maybe I should sell these laptops at low prices instead of hiding it somewhere. That's what I did the whole afternoon haha!😄
- I'll update my journal template and rewrite/update my short term goals in my whiteboard.
- Tomorrow, I'll have a haircut. I honestly don't want to have one yet but me and my girlfriend will have breakfast on Sunday. I wanted to look neat. 😁 I just hope that the salon is covid free. Damn...
- Tomorrow, I'll fix the house keys. It's quite a lot. 😅 It's kind of hassle to bring all the keys at once when the CR at the venue was accidentally locked, the CR in the bedrooms as well or the guests asks for the key if they will leave the house to eat somewhere. (or I'm just OC?) Haha!
- Tomorrow, I'll print instruction stickers for the shower heater. Believe me... There are really people who can't figure out how to open the shower heater. It's just turn it on then rotate the switch like a volume of a radio. 😅 I think it will be better if there's an instructions as well as in the toilet like: "Press and HOLD to flush." God damn it.. hahaha
- And, I'll continue to read Market Wizards—tonight and tomorrow.
Previous Day Quest Checker
- ✔️ will update the template after submitting this entry
- ✔️ cleaned my office/room
- ✔️ bought stocks (virtually)
Incomplete Quest:
make images for the vlog (area of square), update google drive,
update journal template,fix my short term goals (whiteboard)How can I become better?
More like, how can I not be distracted easily??? 😂----------------------------------
Good evening! 😁
Most likely to stay late,
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5 minutes ago, Erik2.0 said:
Day 211
What a nice day indeed! 😁👌 Glad to see you're doing great, my friend! 🍻
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1 hour ago, Rick Boon said:
I am here to write down some strategies.
Sometimes I just scream "woooo" or make a loud and quick exhale "haaa!" Hahaha! Then, I'll think that, "This craving that I feel is a consequence of my uncontrolled gaming so I need to deal with this mightily." Works almost every time for me! 😂
1 hour ago, Rick Boon said:I want to look myself in the eyes, and say some things. "look forward. Relapse can happen. Don't be stuck in the past. Be aware".
Nice, this is legit braveness! Good luck and take it easy, @Rick Boon! 😁
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Congratulations for the achievement unlocked, @Fairandsquare925! 😁👌
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Remaining Days: 47 days (June 25, 2020 - Thursday)
Quick Fact About Me:
I've never travelled outside of the country. Aside from lack of budget, I had no opportunity at all (like exchange student, scholarships, etc.) My dream places to visit are: Hawaii (chill, drink, and swim), Spain (I'm just in love with spanish girls, their language is so sexy too), Las Vegas (casino and party party!), Amsterdam (just wanna have coffee and smoke and laugh all day haha!), and Japan (I like Japanese girls lmao!). All of these places are snowing, as far as I know. I don't want to go to hot places as of now. 😅Feels Today:
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Today, I'm glad that my sister opened up about her online classes schedule problem. She's a special education teacher. When I saw her schedule—8:00am to 6:00pm with 12-1 as lunch break from Tuesday to Friday—I immediately asked why does she punish herself that much? 😂 I convinced her that she should put classes on Monday and Saturday so that she won't be exhausted. She tends to cram her lesson plans (IDK, she got that habit from my mom (lmao) who's a teacher as well ) and with the original schedule that she made, I know someday she will just cry because of the pressure. After we made the new schedule, at least, she was relieved because she has now breaks after each class and can prepare his lessons for the next class. She earns a lot with respect to the minimum wage here in the Philippines which is $10.37. Her rate (less the commission of the SpEd center) is around $9.1 per hour. So if she had like, 4 classes a day for 2 weeks (total of 4 hrs, special education students commonly take 1-2 hrs of lesson a day, and another hour or two every week for their therapy), me and my younger brother definitely will expect some donuts or burger when she gets home! HAHA! 😁
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I totally neglected my trading practice. If you guys can recall, I joined a virtual stock trading competition where the objective of the game is to gain the highest profit. Currently, I'm rank 487th. HAHA! God damn it... My initial (virtual) money is Php 100,000. It's now Php 94,705. I had couple of mistakes. First, I wasn't strict enough to my "stop loss" point. I should cut my losses as soon as I hit my stop loss price. Second, I always get "whipsawed," that is, I get out too early (which means price went higher after I sold my position), or I am stopped out right away (the price went down for a while so I cut my losses but the price bounced back and went higher). This means that my "trading plan" is wrong. More significantly, I honestly think, that I entered at the wrong price. I SHOULD BE MORE PATIENT. I learned discipline (90% only lmao) already, and now I need to learn patience.
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I'm kind of pumped up to start planning my father's idea of a "fried chicken business." I'll make a day for it some time next week.
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I have too much "tasks and ideas" in my hand. I believe I can do it all, but real slowly and surely so that time won't be wasted. Haha, surely, I will never be able to do all of these pending stuff and reflect on my trading career if I had started playing World of Warcraft yesterday. I'm happy I had the strength to say "shut the f*ck up" to my cravings.
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This entry is quite a lot. I just felt like writing tonight. It's been a while.
Daily Quest:
- Finally, I finished the fraction module of my nephew. It took a while because I relearned how to write using LateX and it's written for beginners. Too bad, I can't attach pdf files here. I wanted to share it just in case you guys and gals have kid/s who needs help in understanding fractions. That's all I did for today. Quite disappointing that I had not done anything productive besides that; but, it's very fulfilling that at last, I've finished a module. I guess, this is how can I start my "review center / math tutorial" business. By creating one module at a time, depending on my tutor's lesson. 😂
- For tomorrow, I'll update the template of this journal again. Haha. I like to "rearrange" things now and then. 😅
- Tomorrow, I'll clean my office/room again. Clearly, the thought of relapsing makes me irresponsible again. My room is messy again since I've started thinking about games. It was so clean when I wasn't longing to play.
- Tomorrow, I'll buy stocks that would most probably go up next week. This task should be consistent.
*So basically, tomorrow will be my day to realign myself with what's important: to become better after quitting playing games.
Previous Day Quest Checker
- ✔️ Fraction modules finished
Incomplete Quest:
make images for the vlog (area of square), update google drive, update journal template, fix my short term goals (whiteboard)
How can I become better?
By making an anti-relapse emergency kit 😂----------------------------------
Thanks for reading!
Have a good night sleep! 😁
On my way to bed,
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11 hours ago, BooksandTrees said:
Write about the triggers and reasons you kept downloading it. You mentioned you only wanted to play with friends. This is the time for you to call real life friends and family. Don't talk to your gamer friends again. It's not worth the stress.
But... They are my college friends.. We still go out once or twice a year. Hahaha! Maybe I'll just refrain from talking about games with them. 😅
You're right, I should write my triggers and reasons. I haven't tried to write it yet. Thanks @BooksandTrees!
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On 4/14/2020 at 6:56 AM, ceponatia said:
Here's what I'm working on this week. Drum kit was made using sounds I recorded with my phone (I am still waiting for my microphone to be delivered). Synths and bassline were done in Reason 11. The chord progression is just a preset run through a noise gate but I designed the bass by hand. I don't like the snare drum but that's the best one I could get out of the sounds I recorded; I'll probably try to get a new one for the actual assignment copy of the mix. I think that one was a can of coke dropped into a bin, lol! Learning a lot in these classes!
Very inspiring!! This is my dream to create music! 😎🤘 I should start researching now haha! 😂
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5 hours ago, gargamel said:
awareness seems to be more important to me than positivity at the moment
Indeed! In my case, I almost relapsed the other day because of I was restlessn and kind of impatient since last week. I literally gave up. All I have to do was to click "Play." I think it helped that I'm really aware now that I'm going to relapse compared to my relapses before.
5 hours ago, gargamel said:I feel like I have to be more compassionate and patient with myself with this one.
Thanks for reminding. I tend to be like this sometimes.
5 hours ago, gargamel said:So I'll promise to myself to always mention my mistakes here in my journals.
This helps a lot. Admitting my mistakes—that I gave in to the thought of farming gold again in World of Warcraft—actually saved me from relapsing.
Good luck and take it easy, Gargamel. 😄
PS. Now I wanted to watch LotR as well!-
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12 hours ago, GrainSiloEnthusiast said:
Here are some samples of what I did over the last couple days, 5 of which are from today.
Awesome art!!! It's very interesting! This reminds me of a subject that I like to learn in math. 😂
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18 hours ago, Ben0 said:
Feels like I have no time now.
Hey there @Ben0! Haha! I feel you man.
18 hours ago, Ben0 said:Something I learned today
I like your template especially this section! That's a great idea.
Good luck and take it easy! 😁
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23 hours ago, mks said:
I still want to try new things which I want to make
a habit of: "Try one new thing a day or a week."Hey Mks! This idea is nice! I'll think about this too. 😄
5 minutes ago, mks said:It's nearly impossible to be productive in that state.
Agree! I recommend take the day-off. Tonight, probably I'll watch Brooklyn 99. 😄 I need to take the day-off as well. 😅
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Welcome back, @RB1!
Writing in a journal indeed helped me to track my day-to-day goals easily. I've been on and off in quitting as well for 2 years and just like you, I didn't replace my gaming habit with something productive activity. Hope you'll find your new hobby sooner too!
Good luck and take it easy! 😁
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Remaining Days: 48 days (June 22 - 24, 2020 : Monday - Wednesday)
Quick Fact About Me:
32 hours was the longest time I've played straight—World of Warcraft. I was awake for 36 hrs that day where the 4 hrs were dedicated to meal times, cigarette breaks, shower and making coffee or snack. I will never ever do that again.Feels Tonight:
- Just got back from a dilemma whether to feed my hunger of playing games or continuing this 90-day detox challenge. Obviously, the latter won. I've started to install WoW last Monday. Since our internet is only downloading it for 1.10 Mbps, it took until lunch of Tuesday to download it. I didn't play yesterday because I don't want to play exhausted or sleepy. I only slept 2 hrs last Monday night because I was so excited to play WoW again—I've waited for the download to finish. Then I woke up around 1am today (I slept around 9:30 pm last night) because I wanted to play. But I didn't. I wasn't sure if I really wanted to play. And my buddies were offline anyway, so I had to wait for them to wake up.
- Yesterday, during the installation time, I gave up already. I gave up about this detoxification. It's really good that our internet is not that fast, it gave me more time to think if I really wanted to play. I went home to eat dinner and I've told my mom and sister that I've installed WoW again. They were disappointed and worried. It's been a while since they've frowned because of my action. My sister added, "How about your blog?" She's referring to this journal—I told her that I write here about quitting gaming. "So all that you have written there, for 1 month, will just go to waste?" She added. I was speechless.
- After more than a day of downloading WoW—today, just before lunch—I deleted it again. I'm very sorry to my two friends who waited for me to finish to download the game. It's just that I'm so afraid to play right now knowing that I will be easily sucked into the abyss once again. I reasoned out to myself that I need an outlet for my stress. I justified that I need to play again to relieve stress and boredom because I don't smoke nor drink liquor anymore. I've even told myself that this will make me interested to develop the business again (yes, I'm kind of not motivated as of now to improve the business). Looking through my friends list (while the app is not yet uninstalled), some of my friends were still online for almost 2 years now. I wonder if they're an addict too. Or, they can balance work, life and play all at once. I guess I'm just sad for the past few days. My girlfriend was busy studying since she had an exam today and I don't want to disturb her "beast mode" (in studying lmao) just to tell her about my possibility to relapse. It's just sad that there's nobody in my life that I could call on whether I feel like going back to my old habits—somewhat like a "sponsor." I've been reading this. Even though it's for illegal drugs, their explanation of dealing with relapse is so applicable to gaming addiction. I wish someday, they would add gaming addiction to their website.
- Despite of this pessimism, I am thankful that I've hold into my choice to make my life better. To stay away from the activity that made me an irresponsible young man and a burden to my family. I am the eldest son. I should be the one earning at this time; more importantly, now that both of my parents are retired. I am thankful that I have levelled up—I was able to resist the temptation. I am thankful to my family; I realized that they are my outlet. They have been very supportive ever since. I will prove to myself, and to them, that for once in my life, I'll finish what I've started.
- Because of too much stress, I've dreamed about mobile games. In the dream, I was playing some kind of flappy bird. Then after I bumped into something and exited the program, I realized that sh*t, I forgot I was on detox. So, I regretted and felt extremely bad that I played that stupid 2D game and wasted everything that I've worked for. Suddenly, I woke up from the nightmare. I literally said, "Luckily, it was just a dream."
- Sorry. My entry today wasn't thoughtfully structured. I just typed what I felt. 😅
Daily Quest:
- Today, I'm (still) doing and plans to finish my nephew's fraction module. We had a tutorial session a while ago. After 2 months of learning fractions, he finally got a passing score in his assignment. I'm glad he's trying to improve as well. Very great job, kid! I don't plan to do anything today. I wanted to get the relapse thing off my head first. Doing the mathematics module keeps me preoccupied so I'd take this chance to finish it. 😂
Previous Day Quest Checker
- ❌ Wasn't able to write here
Incomplete Quest:
make images for the vlog (area of square), update google drive, update journal template
How can I become better?:
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Good evening! 😁
Lok'tar Ogar!
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Hey there @MighyMachine!
Welcome to the forums! You have an amazing outlook in life, keep it up! Surely, there will come a time when you want to play games again. When that time comes, don't forget to re-read this or remember that
On 6/22/2020 at 5:33 AM, MighyMachine said:Today is the day!
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On 6/22/2020 at 2:37 PM, Michael Au said:
So to assist me,I pledge a $200 donation to this forum if I relapse again,
That's so kind of you! Welcome to the community, @Michael Au!
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Hey there @nojomo! Welcome to the fourms! 😃 Congratulations for the 2 months of game free! 😎👌
It's been 5 years since I graduated from college. At the start, my brain was foggy too. My first three years were the peak of my gaming career. I left graduate school without notice. I left my first job without notice too (because I don't want to spend my 30+ years there too). I played WoW for 2 yrs straight—unemployment is real. I admit, I'm lazy if I'm really not in the mood. I also have low energy; I don't like to workout at all.
During those times, I was writing my thoughts and feelings in a notebook. I consider it my diary. It's where all of my frustrations, goals, feelings, thoughts, wants and needs were written. It helped me narrow down my available resources and possible path in life. Eventually, I put all my effort to start our family business. Not because I wanted to, but it's the job that has least resistance and I enjoy developing.
Now is different. As I look back to my diary, I've been crossing out my goals, wants and needs since I've already got it. It boosted my confidence a lot. It was just last year that the fog seems like slowly fading away. I created (somehow 😅) my purpose—and still constantly developing it. Since I've penetrated the least resistance and I'm more stable than before, my plan as of now is to reach the greater resistance, revolve around it for a while, and when I'm fully equipped, I will try to get through it as well.
What I've learned since I graduated college is that the little things and choices that we do will add up and show results later in our life. For me, there is hope if you believe in it—there's none if you don't.
Take it easy man. Hope this helps.
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1 hour ago, BooksandTrees said:
So how do I resolve this? I have to trust that if I spoke to this woman for 1 month she'll be better and more eager to text than a normal person. So I need to take my time. If I get this anxiety I'll do deep breathing and some exercise.
To solve this, first, we have to figure out one thing: do you like her? 😃 I'm guessing yes. Haha! Sorry I'm not updated!
Man, I just read your entry last week and I was surprised that you had gone that kind of trouble. Hope you are doing great as always—as I have known you based on your journal and replies. 😂
Hope this helps:For me, ideally, texting is like talking about or updating each other on whatever you are doing or thinking. Some girls prefer lengthy and meaningful texts. Some like it short but sweet. Some just like to have someone to talk to even if it's nonsense, especially when they are bored. Some like mysterious guys. Some like the outspoken ones. Some like a combination of those things. Like us, men, women have their preferences as well.
In general, conversations will be interesting if it's the right time to talk about. I mean, longer messages and deep conversations are nice, especially at night before sleeping; but, it's not usually good to talk about it during mid-day since your textmate is preoccupied. You wouldn't want her to rant early in the morning. But if she does, she most likely likes you. 😂
Women like to be heard—most of them. Make them the center of the conversation. Ask questions; it should be like you are very curious about their way of life. Answer their questions honestly but with reservation. Save the long conversations for meet ups. To be safe, start with being friends. 😁
I don't know the background story of how you met the girl. I'm still scanning for more information from your previous entries. All of this came from my assumption that you like her. 😅
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7 minutes ago, GrainSiloEnthusiast said:
Today was day 30. Already past midnight, so it's technically day 31, but I just realized I got 30 days! I'm 1/3 of the way through the first 90 days!
My first detox was a 30 day mini detox. I wonder how many days free of gaming I would be had I quit for good back then...
We live and we learn. I don't really regret even the time spent wasted because of the valuable lessons I can take away from it.My cravings to game are relatively infrequent and I am able to escort them out quite quickly. They happen most often when I am bored and restless.
I don't miss gaming at all. The benefits far outweigh the few good things I reminisce about.Congrats @GrainSiloEnthusiast!!! 😎👌 Same here, always when bored and restless, cravings say hi. 😂
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Thanks for confirming. I'll go with legit chess board game then haha! 🤣
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What's up @apatton090! Seems like a very busy day! Rock music would help speed up the packing. 😎🤘
I try to do that since last week—exercise before I got out of bed—and I've been continuously doing it since then. Your routine looks great! For me, I've only started with sit ups, bicycle sit ups, push ups and squats. Today, I've added jumping jack. I don't mind the counts at this time, I just do how much I can. Some days, if I feel like working out, I make some of those exercise 2 sets. 😂Good luck for tomorrow's new zone & quests! Don't forget to take things easily and have multiple short break times—a beer or two at the end of day would be nice! It would make things less stressful; and, it will make your mental note stronger. 👍
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Remaining Days: 51 days (June 21, 2020 - Sunday)
Quick Fact About Me:
Happy father's day to our ex-gamer (and gamers as well) fathers out there! Someday, I'd like to have my own family too. 😄Morning Feels:
- Upon waking up, I've thought about WoW again. I've been selling gold/subscription for my guild mates before I was rich in-game. Rich in-game but in reality, crap, broke as hell. After researching and reading stuff, my cravings to play and the chance for me to relapse actually decreased. This time, I'm thankful for my 10 mbps internet plan because it's the reason why I don't want to download WoW again. It would take me more than a day to download a 70 GB game—around 1 mbps per second only as shown in the battle.net app download progress. 🤣 Maybe, I'm also overwhelmed with the tasks I have on hand. Being a solopreneur is really hard.
- I haven't told about this cravings to my girlfriend yet. I also thought that she would be very disappointed if I returned to playing games again. Maybe, I'll tell her when we finally meet next week. Like how I don't know much about the law, which she studies, I know that she doesn't understand much about gaming. I've read that it would be nice to have a "sponsor" in every recovery program—the one you can call and will help you to get through the cravings by talking or reminding what matters most, in whatever possible time, regardless if it's day or night. It's just sad that she can't be my sponsor. I don't want to be a hassle for her. I don't want her to see me weak. I want to be strong and able to stand with my decisions because this is what she wants—every woman as well—a stable man.
- Today, I feel empowered, and distracted by YouTube as well. 😅 I'm writing while watching famous bands do live recording on studios or at some place in a home. I feel empowered because I've refrained from installing WoW again. As of now, the only thing that remains in my head is dual boxing, that is, farming gold in WoW which is the activity that made me a WoW addict. Hopefully by tomorrow, this craving will disappear.
Daily Quest:
- Since it's father's day, we'll gather at my aunt's place to eat. Gathering with relatives, jeez, in time of covid. I guess, it will be just trust with one another that no one is infected/asymptomatic. The food is great, how can I turn down the invitation?
- Today, I'll make the module so that my nephew have something to review. I'll consult with my teacher sister if writing an educational material in Taglish (Tagalog & English) is okay—doesn't it sound noob if I write in two languages? 😂 I believe that kids, especially the noobs, will understand Mathematics if it's taught in native language.
- And, I'll make the images for my math vlog haha. I need to upload a new video to my YouTube channel this week. 😅
- Update my white board—where short term goals are written.
Previous Day Quest Checker
- ✔️ Event smoothly done!
- ❌ I wasn't able to create modules
- ✔️/❌ Still not completely convinced myself not to relapse
Incomplete Quest:
make images for the vlog (area of square), update google drive, all about fractions module
When curiosity strikes:
Is playing chess online considered gaming???
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Good morning! 😁
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2 hours ago, CG EYE said:
I also just like having something to chew. So I try to chew gum instead of eating.
Overall I think I've been doing better since covid cos ive been drinking less and I've started taking up cardio, which I never used to enjoy. Still don't have abs tho!
Hahaha! Same here @CG EYE! Just anything to chew is perfect. Nice, I might start at cardio workout as soon as covid cases decrease—stray dogs too lmao. I'd like to do jogging/running. I've heard it's a good mental exercise as well.
2 hours ago, CG EYE said:Then you will feel bad afterwards.
I almost forgot how bad this feels. Thanks for reminding! Maybe I'll just wait after the detox. It was my original plan anyway, that is, to know if I can control not to play for 90 days. 😅
Cheers man, keep safe!
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19 hours ago, amchow said:
I've been struggling with the thought of inserting gaming in moderation back into my time blocks after 1 month of detoxing and I am wondering...
Thoughts on this and what has happened with those who have attempted to do this before the 90 days are finished?
Note: I do not intend to ever return to MMORPGs as that is where my addiction lay. I am more so thinking about modded/easy single player offline games as alternatives.
Hey @amchow, I'm thinking the same as well since last week. What's your plan now? I plan to play only at night, after dinner only or with 1-2 friends, but I'm still thinking about it. It's just that, I don't want to repeat the process of detoxification all over again. All of my progress will go back to 0%. I don't want to level from level 1 again. Haha. Good luck man.
5 hours ago, BooksandTrees said:This is a serious addiction and you really need about 6 months to a year without gaming to consider moderation. You need months of sustained activity, stress management methods, and adjustment to a new way of life before it can be considered.
Hey there @BooksandTrees, thanks for answering amchow's question which is also my question in mind. Moreover, thanks for sharing other's experiences as well. You saved me a lot of time looking for answers. I'm afraid that tomorrow, next day or some other time, I would just disappear here and, like what you said,
5 hours ago, BooksandTrees said:have a full blown relapse and never return.
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Learn it the hot way. [Day 90 COMPLETED]
in Daily Journals
Posted · Edited by chiliflavor
Remaining Days: 44 days (June 28, 2020 - Sunday)
Quick Fact About Me:
I'm bad at work—in terms of work ethics. I didn't learn it. I don't know what does work ethic mean. I didn't stay until the contract is done in my first and last company. That's why I'm struggling now to build my business system. I wasn't trained. And, I've started to play WoW that time too. Hahaha! Really bad timing...
Feels Today:
Daily Quest:
Quest Log:
✔️ I bought groceries for our family. Kind of embarrassed that Mom had to pay because I have no job since we have no events.
✔️ I bought a laptop for my aunt. My assumption was right, the budget was only good enough for an i3 4GB ram. All good anyway; it's memory is upgradeable, "okay" built-in graphics, 1TB hdd and 256 GB ssd. Not bad for $500.
✔️ I bought a new wallet for $15.5.... Then I had no money left for the repair of my watch. I have money but it's reserved for my credit card payment and pocket money for emergency. This quarantine was the time that I had 0 balance again (last month) since my Dark Ages (playing WoW all day all night).
Incomplete Quest:
make images for the vlog (area of square), update google drive, start reading the stock book and workout again (these two must be done everyday)
When curiosity Strikes:
I was thinking of putting pictures in here. I should have put something each day since day 1. I'll try to put some on the previous days. Let me try these pics:
Edit: Nice. I thought sizes and positions can't be edited (double click the picture). This makes it very interesting! Glad I tried! 😂
How Can I Be Better?
Make deadlines and pressure myself with it.
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Good night! Tiring but fulfilling day! 😄
- Chiliflavor