nojomo

Hi guys, First post here. I'm roughly 60+ days gaming free. Not my longest stretch of abstaining but this time I have a quiting mindset as opposed to a break mindset. I know i cant even play a board game online or even online poker without getting sucked back into my consoles and gaming pc. My biggest problem, being someone who neglected schoolwork and gamed way too much throughout my highschool years and into my mid 20s. Im lucky enough to have an ok job moneywise for a 26 year old, but its not where i want to spend the next 30+ years. I graduated highschool with low, but passing grades and chose a lot of easier classes. I do have an electronics certification i also skated through. I hope to return to school with a more open mindset and truly find out what my real world calling is. My main problem is brain fog. I've always chosen the path of least resistance. Sometimes i fear that I'm just lazy and that my lack of energy is my fault. I'm just wondering if anyone has had similar feelings and if theres still hope for it to lift. My brain jas just been so addicted to instant gradification and dopamine for as long as i can remember.