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Thank you for the suggestion. I did intermittent fasting for some time which is grounded on similar thoughts (get to ketosis). So the whole concept isn't alien to me. I basically ate one meal per day. It worked fine but I found it a nuissance after a month or so and stopped it. I generally like the idea of a Ketogenic Diet but I never did it because of a few reasons. Firstly it is more costly then cheap carbohydrates. Secondly it is hard to maintain if you cook for your wife also. Especially if she needs extra amount of carbohydrates because she is pregnant. And it seems so extremist . I like simple plans and small steps. They just work better for me historically. That's why I'll try the no sugar thing out first. We'll see how it goes. If It isn't showing enough promise I can still hang the bar a little highger and go full keto

Detox: 09.10.2017 - 09.01.2018 Week 1 (09.10.2017-15.10.2017) Hello out there. I know that this is a little out of topic here and you'll not necessarily be interested in reading this. Feel free to ignore the journal, I am fine with that. Things are going fine on the gaming front. I sometimes watch a little Warcraft 3 Gameplay but it doesn't lead to cravings and is spent less then two hours/week so this is under control right now. I finished my masters degree with an accaptable grade and the job search seems to work out all right (next wednesday there will be my second Interview and the first one went well). I challenge myself, with installing Arch Linux on a virtual box and learning Linux-Admin-Skills which could be needed if I get an job offer at the first company. Soon my first son will be born and I am grateful for my life, my family and my friends. Now I have the energy to try something new and change my eating habits. Basically I am a sucker for sweets and my self-discipline is a weak point. Lately I got to the point in life where I can't eat anything I want anymore. My weight increased to 83 kilos (I had my whole adult life around 70 kilos) and a little belly is forming. I want to stop this development and stay at ~80 kilos, while building up some muscle mass. I also have neurodermitis which leads to scratching and little open wounds all over my body. It never bothered me a lot but it got worse the last few weeks and I'll try to beat that annoyance. I feel like sugar consume is one of the main culprits for these problems. This are some reasons why I want to stop eating processed sugar for the next 3 months. I tried this a few times in private but was never able to follow through with it. Thats why I'll write here from time to time to keep myself accountable (this helped a lot with my gaming detox). So here we go. No sweets, no desert, no chips etc... I wont get to dogmatic about it (if there is some sugar in a soup base I won't care) but I will actively try to stay away from this sweet poison and will report if I stray from the way. I will also create a mildly taxing training schedule (which I specify until next week) I will write atleast one entry every week.

Hey Zala. That sucks. It is hard to shrug such things off. But now is the time to stand up and try again. We all fail all the time. This hurts but it also the possibility to learn from it. If your able to get through this, and work towards a new goal again you'll benefit double. You can now prove yourself that you can do better as in the past. You did a great job to get to Day 53. You don't need to play games. You want to. It is no answer to go back fleeing reality if things get hard. The pain and struggle will help you to become more resilient if you face and endure them. I really hope you get through that situation and I am rooting for you.

No problem. Good that you got over it. You have done 1/3 of the detox. Congratulations.

Awesome

Hi welcome back. I vaguely remember you journaling Definitely sell it. In doubt always do the proactive part.

yeah you get random teams with people with the approximately the same skill level (out of the same league)

It is jsut the league system and the short circle of games. Also there is the illusion that you could get a better team everytime you load a new game. Either you get a flaming shit team or some team were everything clicks and you got awesome teamwork (which is the most fun thing ever). It is like a one-armed bandit. Totally addicting. Was the hardest game to quit and gave me the most benefits.

It doesn't really matter I would think. With counselors the relationship needs to fit. There is no other way then trying someone out. You could also inform yourself about student counselling. Most Universitys have some of one if this is the most important topic for you. Things which could help with your anxiety is to figure out a plan for this worst case. What would you do? I am sure there would be options for you even if you get expelled from uni. It surely wouldn't be the end of your world. Another thing which I would advice you is to stop smoking pot. I know a few people who got psychosis-like side effects especially if they consume regular. Just not worth it. Good job with speaking to the girl. The more often you get over this the easier it get. Here is alittle free ebook about that topic which I enjoyed ("The Flinch").

Interesting. I would say up here in Germany the topic isn't that hot. Most discussion are about the refugity situation and genderquestions tend to be not that intensly discussed. Even the ultra-right-populistic AFD has an lesbien party leader. It just is kind of accepted that people can have other sexual likings and nobody cares which seems like a good modell because it isn't something special to be gay/transgender/or whatever. It is jsut how you are. There is surely still alot of homophobia around but atleast in the media, politics and my personal circle this is the leading attitude (nobody cares). I can sympathize with you there. Before I met my wife I always had the nagging feeling that I am not allowed to have sexual feelings because I would be inherently asexual to girls around me. Of course that was BS but left to big insecurity about this issues and a feeling of shame. It got better as I opened up to her about this feelings and could see that this obviously wasn't true. But it was and still is a work in progress for me to. What are you doing as official part of the gamequitters team? I was wondering when cam would split is numerous endeavors a bit and give away some responsibilities. It seems like he has a little much different stuff (youtube,podcast,forum, speaking gigs ant cooperation with universities) on his plate right now . I hope everything turns out all right for you. I still remember how you joined this forum as an absolute mess. It is really great to see you evolve and getting your shit together. PS: If you dislike me spamming your personal journal we can move this chat to pm's.

Because on of biggest interests right now are computers and programming. I feel like there are technical topics where an podcast can give you great bird-view information on specific topics (c++ and the current state of the language and supporting community) where there are no books about it. They are also pretty entertaining. Audiobooks shine especially in biographies and historic contents as @giblet mentioned. I love to listen to them and especially the topics of computer history and hacking have some great audiobooks which are a good choice to learn more about the whole computer culture. If you want to study special technical topics them visuals of diagrams and code are essential, so I have to read them in a book/pdf/wiki version. To summarize my opinion: You need an intention behind consuming content.The medium of choice depends on the content you want to consume

I see what you mean. When do you show people/friends your sexuality in normal life? I have gay aquaintances who would have used this opportunity to let the gay bomb explode and make a suggestivly comment (like you did in this comment) to provoke some laughs. Maybe it is somehow grounded in the tabu of talking about your sexuality. I recognized that this is kind of a tabu-topic in Southern-Europe and America. Here in Germany it is (atleast fo my social circle) pretty normal to be open about that stuff. We maybe don't share out fetishes and intimite details about our sexlives but only because it is the gentleman way and not because it would make anyone feel especially uncomfortable. How does the spainish culture handle non-normative sexual orientations?

Archery, but it has a very limited time frame, and atmospheric conditions. I haven't found anything to do in those free time moments before sleep, or after waking up. Listening to ausdiobookls could be an idea. I absolutely love to listen to podcasts and audiobooks in quiet moments. Especially before bedtime it quiets me down nicely.

Looks awesome.

Hey sounds like a good experience with cam. Thanks for the well written reflection. Why did you even keep a facade up? Is there really so much homophobia in the world? I am always astonished if people feel like they need to do that.

Good job taking the time studying. If our exhausted this counts double.

Hi Knowswany, Welcome to the forum. I am sure you find a lot of like minded people. Feel free to just lurk or even better introduce yourself and your history here so people can relate to your story. If you want to quit gaming I would advice you to start a daily Journal (feel free to check out the existing journals there are often a lot of insights there). If you just want to chat with people there is also the Discord Chat. Best of luck. We got your back.

Hey thanks for sharing these. I will steal the questions for my next goal setting session . I like especially the last two questions because I usually have a hard time asking people for help. But I know how important it is to use other people experiences.

If you miss the accountability you can always post pictures of your hand written posts. But greast to hear that everything is going allrighjt for you

NIce job. How much days are left?

Welcome. You're definitely not alone in this struggle. I am sure that pretty much all of us can relate to your story. I wish you the best of luck.

I am reading your musing if it matters or not

Did you use this game to evade other things? Do you bingeplaying it? Are there any good alternatives if you want to cook more? You should decide this but maybe this questions are helping you decide. Best of luck.

An intersting project from an ex-google employee which tries to rise awareness of addictive design from modern software. Sounds really interesting and similar to our interests here on gamequitters. @Cam Adair could be an interesting guest for the podcast http://www.timewellspent.io

Hey I am job hunting also and I found it really helpful to let other people (mainly my wife) look over it. If you want you could surely black out your private data and post it here. THen people could give you feedback. Just a suggestion which popped into my mind reading about it. Best of luck with your medical problems. Good job on sorting them out.