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I'm pulling for you to get the job, jess!

I found it something of a relief that I had an addiction. Then I didn't feel so bad about being unable to moderate my behavior. It looks like you have a strong social network to help keep you busy and off games.

Hey that's wonderful, Moe! About the dishes, not the new home haha. ?

Glad you reestablished contact with your pen pal. I have highly valued renewing relationships in my life recently.

I've been there with the student loans. Good luck with the new place. Most landlords have usually let me stay, especially if I level with them up front about my credit.

Gaming has a way of taking over your time if you're not careful. Just be strong!

I agree. Abstinence takes a lot less mental effort than moderation, I've found.

Get some rest, Tom2, looks like you were really productive. ?

Yep, the more you fill your day, the less you'll be bored.

Gaming was the last addictive habit I let go of in my life. I was scared...it was like cutting the last string and floating into the void. I'm still not sure where I'll end up, but starting with small positive changes that will accelerate, it'll be an exciting journey. Hang in there...

I'm glad you were able to find substitute habits for gaming, jeff. Keeping busy will really help you resist cravings.

Glad you started your journal, Tux. We're here to support you!

Day 41/90. Another day forward. I still encounter the empty weekend effect, where I still consciously try to fill my time on Saturday.and Sunday with activities since I quit gaming. The gym really helps and reading and my project will also help. But there's still a lot of down time. I guess the loneliness makes it worse. I had a good conversation with a good friend last night on the phone and it was great. I wish I had more.of.this. Just laughing and talking and carrying on like old times. Sometimes, though, when I text or talk to friends and family, I have to grit my teeth when I hear about their.success or something they did with family because it plays on my worst fears: money and loveliness. Rationally, I know its just my needing patience. I'm still planting seeds for future success, I'm barely a month and a half into the process, and I've had significant success in other big areas, such as physical changes, quitting addictions, reaching out to people. Sigh. I just get impatient sometimes but I know I'm on the right course. Time just crawls sometimes. Hanging in there. Gratitude 1. Had a great phone call with my friend 2. Up to 55 mins on the treadmill 3. I have a comfortable, air-conditioned place to live.

You'll get there. I have those disciplines I consider to be the last screws to tighten before everything falls into place. Have to keep plugging away..

Well, keep journaling about it and let us know how you do.

I don't think I ever studied 6 hrs in college, even before finals. ?

Start small with the bike rides so it doesn't seem so intimidating.

Hi, Dien! A detox is a great way to break gaming's hold on you. Good luck!

Great job running, Les! Those distances are insane. ?

Good job improving your look, Hitaru. I'll probably worry about my style when my weight finally stabilizes. Then I'll ask you for tips. ?

It's up to you about the counter. Maybe you could track it on your own and then update us when you hit new milestones.

I relapsed because I underestimated what gaming was doing to me. When I gave it up this last time, I felt a crushing loneliness and wanted.desperately to reach out to friends and family. I could've ran back to my gaming but I knew that gaming was isolating me. I couldn't keep that up. Start a journal and we can talk more!

Almost 2 yrs, I had many relapses but now at last I feel that I'm ready.

Welcome, Tux. Sometimes it takes time until you're ready to quit. Glad you're here!

Day 40/90. This morning I had that expression a pro golfer gets when his long eagle putt just misses the hole. You know, the contorted look of awwww, almost, but I know I still got a birdie haha. My scale said 300.8, a nice 1.6 lb loss. I knew I wouldn't quite make 300 yet, but still...pro golfer face haha! So close. Barring a blip for muscle growth or whatever, I'd say 2-3 wks max to clear this border. I don't want to put super anticipation on next week. But I haven't been under 300 lbs for 6 yrs, since I first moved to Myrtle Beach. Had a nice breakfast with one of my Mom's church friends who also works at my company. He's a retired history teacher and we didn't shut up about history and politics and our life story for 3 hrs hehe. It felt wonderful to just regurgitate about a subject one is so passionate about. I hope to meet.with him from time to time. He encouraged me to do the podcast too. I did work on my history research for 30 mins yesterday. I am going it like I did walking, where I gradually built it up 5 mins at a time. This coming week it will be 35 mins a day on weekends (and 5 mins a day on weekdays) so it'll become a daily habit and steadily gain momentum. It was getting more interesting working on the material. Maybe in future updates, I'll talk a little more about what I'm doing. Thanks all for your encouragement. @Pierce, I could see myself learning to shag, which is the local dance here at the beach. @Shine Magical, that is too cute that you got to dance. I need to follow your example. @giblets, yes The Slight Edge is validating the slow gradual approach I took to exercise and now I'm applying it to my project. @Tom2, @Moe Smith, you both remain awsome! ? Gratitude: 1. Had a nice walk at the gym 2. Started on the couch, ended on the bed 3. Worked on my project