Larry's Detox Journal

[Somebodyelse]

Happy to hear your mom is ok Larry!

Thank you

[Somebodyelse]

(Detoxes complete) (Post Detoxes Day 15 officially) 

This week was going okay until I feel  like I opened a door I shouldn't  have.  Over the weekend I watched a part of a documentary about Video game event.  With that and other stuff I did today wasted a lot of time looking up & seeing video game related information and visited some forums. I would say a total  of 5 or  6 hours wasted.  I need to realize video games aren't my platform God wants me to use to reach people and instead is something else.  Like today I decided to talk to one person at my college about the bible and accomplished that.  Also need to organize my time better with the suggestion Cam brought up of having a schedule.  Also even if i put only 10 minutes into a new skill it will build up if I stay consistent everyday.   Thanks for everyone reading this and I will do better with God's help to not be a bad example for people wanting to quit video games.

• Thankful for this wake up call regarding video games and able to publicly repent & talk about it with y'all
• Getting along much better with my mom
• Being more patient with people & events that occurred throughout this week. 

[Cam Adair]

Good job catching yourself before it went further. 

[Somebodyelse]

(Detoxes complete) (Post Detoxes Day 28 officially) 

Sorry I  haven't been posting in a while.  Last week I got caught up in all the video game announcement news.  With this week too, yesterday i wasted time looking up video game stuff.  By God's grace I avoided buying a portable gaming device.   Also last week I got into a wreck and was rear ended as a result.  I fill okay, besides a little pain  & stiffness in my neck.

This week I want to practice my writing clarity because right now my handwriting isn't that clear unless I take my time.  Hope everyone's detox is doing well and please don't let my mishaps discourage any of you to move forward on in the detox.

[Cam Adair]

Glad to hear you are ok from the accident. 

[Mad Pharmacist]

Hey Larry!

I see that you've achieved something I'm working on right now - 90 days of no game and no masturbation.

Awesome to hear you did it!

And by the way, I've heard that The King Jacob's Bible is one of the most precised translations of the Bible. So, it's worth reading, even though it can be difficult to understand sometimes!

Greetings, Mad Pharmacist.

Edited June 23, 2016 by hycniejsy
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[Somebodyelse]

07/05/2016

 

I'm sorry I've haven't been posting for the past couple weeks. I basically deceived myself that I could have self control if I went back to videogames. So I bought a system and wasted money  I barely got (most of my first ever tax return & part of pay check )to buy it when I should have just saved it, instead and then only recently  I stayed up all night playing which made me feel tired. Then that led to looking up pornography and masturbation.

Today I decided I can't go back to videogames no matter what. Videogames are  just going to set me up to do bad habits and not improve myself at all. So what I decided is to throw the system I got in the trash to show how serious sin/mistake was and I shouldn't make some stupid decision like this ever again. I need to start being more responsible. Please again don't let my mishapes/ stumbles discourage you, hang in there from videogames if you're trying to quit.

 

During my time playing video games always had this thought in my head that I should haven't been playing them in the first place again and God wanted me do something else instead. Even my friend through text messages could tell I seemed off, but I guess I lied to myself and told him I'm was okay. This decision I made   giving up video games again today has brought relief to my conscious.

 

Thank you everyone  for taking the time to read this post and may God grant you endurance to stay away from videogames if you're trying to quit.

Edited July 5, 2016 by Somebodyelse

[WorkInProgress]

Most of us gone through such situations. At some point you learn to be honest to yourself and thats when you quit for good. "Moderation" did not work for me either after my detox.

[Somebodyelse]

Most of us gone through such situations. At some point you learn to be honest to yourself and thats when you quit for good. "Moderation" did not work for me either after my detox.

Thank you for your words and keeping it real.

[lilX]

07/05/2016

Please again don't let my mishapes/ stumbles discourage you, hang in there from videogames if you're trying to quit.

Not discouraged at all. Everyone stumbles. 

You have detoxed for more than 90 days which is quite inspiring for me. 

Thanks for the encouragement! 

[Cam Adair]

Good to have you back Larry!

[Somebodyelse]

07/07/2016

I need to start trying harder. Again stayed up to late, which lead to porn & masturbation. I think the main cause is because some how I feel need to be in a relationship, but if the foundation of that relationship is just to get sex then that's a unhealthy relationship & bad foundation.

 I know I'm capable  of discipline  I just need to start out with small steps.  First is to go bed earlier. Second dedicated at least ten minutes to learning  something  new I don't  know about and before I take any leisure  time make sure other responsibilities are done  first like my chores. Again sorry everyone  not being a good example. Also since I don't want to lie to anyone here I still have my  game system  by getting it out of the trash can yesterday afternoon because I still want to use it as platform to talk about the bible & other topics. 

 

[WorkInProgress]

DOn't worry about being an example we are all her to help you. Honesty is most important for yourself and for others.

[Somebodyelse]

DOn't worry about being an example we are all her to help you. Honesty is most important for yourself and for others.

You're right.... also this time I bent my game discs so I can't play them.   I think there's a connection with my video game addiction and watching pornography, if I spend time playing video games that leaves me more vulnerable to watching pornography like what happened to me today . So this time the system isn't coming out of the trash.   

     No one knows how long their life is going to last, so I need to be more responsible with my life's time. Kind of how we deny ourselves when we do stuff we don't like like eating healthy instead of like a juicy burger with extra onion rings  inside.

 Giving up video games will benefit me even if I don't see it immediately or at least it will benefit others around me because the choices we make affect people around us.

This journal is helping me be accountable, honest, and learning more about myself and what affects me.

 

Also I wanted to thank God and you guys & gals for helping me stay committed to quitting video games. Even If I Stumble from time to time I need to be strong enough to not need them in my life.

:)

Edited July 9, 2016 by Somebodyelse

[Cam Adair]

#1life 

[Somebodyelse]

Sorry I haven't been posting latley. I took a dive and started to play video games for the last four weeks. I finally got rid of the sources that were tempting me to play.

 

Didn't feel right playing by thinking to myself "all this gaming is going to add up to nothing".

 

Right now trying to focus more on important tasks that need my attention.

Thank you  for taking the time to read this post.

 

[Piotr]

It's good that you recognized sources, and got rid of them. These gaming hours added up to your experience of how games brings nothing into your life. Keep strong!

Greetings, Piotr.

[Cam Adair]

Didn't feel right playing by thinking to myself "all this gaming is going to add up to nothing".

Sad but true.

[Somebodyelse]

Haven't posted in a while.  Made some progress.   Realized i need to cut my ties with my video game past self permanently.  So I've decided to delete my game accounts, so I won't be tempted to go back to my old games in my digital library.   I need to do better with staying away from people I watch on YouTube that discuss video games or related media/news. I struggle with that the most right now. Watching those videos are being a negative influence  on me wanting to stay away from video games.

 Right now I"m working on being consistent with waking up early and staying awake.  

Thanks for everyone that's reads this message/post.  

Hope the rest of your December month is blessed & if you don't know what Jesus taught and said I highly suggest researching it up and so you don't have to take someone's else's  word (pun not intended) for that topic & how that relates to your life.

Bonus:   This quote below I have a better understanding on it's meaning now.

"He is no fool who gives what he cannot keep to gain what he cannot lose" - Jim Elliot

Edited December 11, 2016 by Somebodyelse